The wedding/ massacre and wedding once again

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From within duality, it is like waking up at your wedding feast, and most of the guests are happy and loving each other and partying together

But there is a whole section of your table that is anesthetized under numbing agents because if awake, they would kill each other with their murderous rage.

At the end of the night, the anesthesia has to come off, and we have to get every one at our table back to love with each other. This is what the activation of the

Crystalline grid and the return to full consciousness demands of us. So before the big hit in March, we need to start moving through the layers of dis-ease within self

And begin feeling the resistance, the unforgiveness, and the sadness and isolation at the bottom of the rejection, the hopelessness, the powerlessness of all the lives

held in bondage, the programs of self imprisonment the hamster wheels of our brains. Feel it all, allow it all up to be met in our awareness and the DNA can reset

itself back into the innocence of the grand and sacred union with itself as the bride. Like in the movie, Forest Gump, when Forest finally gets to be with the love of

his life, and then he finds out that there is just one problem. She has Aids and is dying. To me this is an amazing metaphor for human condition. It is much like this

being married to a beautiful bride, but she is plagued with fear and death. To bring her close to you , is to make love with death itself. In a very real sense our

journey to the restoration of the unity code and the sacred marriage within self demands that we bring all that is of darkness into our hearts to heal. We,through our

forgiveness and willingness to feel all, bring the resurrection of the fire of oneness to our own land. The song "Dark night of the Soul" by Lorena Mckenitt is so exquisite as it tells this journey back to the beloved through the dark of night.

Building the muscle of presence, escaping the atomic harness of the mental body

Now more than ever, my fellow travelers we must learn and practice the allowance of all emotions in the moment they surface. This is our only way to remain in high vibrational states. The powers that be that want to maintain limited consciousness have an atomic harness in place at the mental body level. This means : mental body = hell.

So How do we stay out of the mental body? Simple, Be with emotions as they surface. If you find yourself jumping into mental activity to avoid a painful feeling, return to the breath and the heart until you have allowed the unpleasant emotion or memory and pop out the otherside into neutrality once again. Neutrality is the baseline you want to be operating from as emotional charges will enslave you into the land of hell. I am using stronger language here because this is no joke. Our sparring partners are demanding a greater level of presence from us than ever before. They are driving our evolution forward by turning up the heat like this. It is all part of the game, the ending of the game of duality, that pushes us to the next level of consciousness, non dual and all embracing in its nature as Love.

The best analogy I have found for this whole end game is that the mental body is like a big swimming pool. Now this pool has always been a pool of piranha fish, but up until now, for most of us, these piranhas who shared the pool with us were babies. Their teeth were blunt, some a little spiny. We bumped into them at times and they even smiled through their pointy teeth. We were able to feel a sense of some freedom and well-being while in the pool. Well, not anymore. Now these Piranhas are fully grown adults, no more smiles just ready to eat us alive with their cutting annihilating teeth of death. Death to our joy frecuency that is!. Now we spin the mental wheels and they are waiting to mash us into a chime of despair, agony and hell. This is why we got to stay out of that pool. The only way, as I have said to stay out is to keep returning to the heart and the higher mind by allowing all we most resist until we have calm mind. If we are strategizing, I guarantee you the beasts are already nipping at our ankles. Ouch!!!

So the times demand vigilance with the higher awareness to identify any surfacing emotion that we are resisting and surrender to feeling it and popping out the other side into nuetrality, this way we can maintain our high vibration of joy and well-being, flowing in our heart and higher mind, side-stepping the piranha pool with this moment to moment vigilance. Because the times are quite intense and I do feel I want to share the “emotional freedom” techniques I have learned. I am going to keep my sliding scale rate of $25 and up through at least March of next year. So if you feel called, come and see me.
Bye for now. Tomorrow is a portal day so Breathe, and have your lemaz partners standing by.
Love,

Sarah

Thank God Duality has a Shelf Life

All I can say is “thank god duality does indeed have a shelf life!!!!!”

Deep at the core of your being is an ocean of endless love. It is true all ties that have held my attention polarized at the astral, denser level are desolving now and I am being re-absorbed back into the field of the next level. From this vantage point as it calls me back into it, it feels to be teaming with life spawning in every instant, multiple ripples per second is this firey inter-action of dynamic undulating self activating field of light. It is magnetizing me now.

The grip of the level of consciousness where duality is real is loosening and I am receiving the access to the part of myself that exists at the next level. It has always existed,but I have never, I mean this is the first time I have had access. ?This is the field of light that I sensed in Eric’s eyes, and the field of light that the multiple lifestreams converging in this now moment have been drawing me towards. He came and opened the door to so much of myself that to taste of this richness was now impossible at the current level, the level of consciousness that was polarized in duality could never match the frecuencies he opened, And now finally the inner craving is being met, the core thirst is being quenched. The intolerability of this starvation state has enabled the breaking down of the walls that blocked me from the subtle field of consciousness. The best way I can describe it is that this intense longing is like laser light waring down the grip of the soul’s attention’s magnetic attraction to the denser level of the, senese, desire, form, emotion, questing, wanting. All this, it is if after one has played the game in here so fully, duality actually starts to mold, like it has a shelf life. Thank God. And when it does the magnificent river of self activating dancing light begins to call to us.

As the attention is pulled off of duality, we begin to hear the voice, feel the seduction of the incredibly rich life substance of the subtle field, our next destination of conscious focus. The starvation finally ends as I, the separate mind self is taken back into the sweet river of light from which I came the great mother love, divine mother at the heart of all existence, the substance that dreamed all matter into form. I am this. This is reclaiming me, and I am so so so grateful. It is in the silence that I can fully be taken back into this field of the mother light,and so no more words now, the mind wantws to tell you all about the sea and the boundary of it’s shoreline, but the heart and the soul just want to dive in. Here I go!!

Wait before I go in. this mind has one more thing. “So then the question, the one question to ponder to be of assistance to any and all who are seeking liberation is how do we, is there something that the doer, if there is a doer can do to hasten the loosening of the grip, to bring on this “molding” or disintegrating of the attention’s magnetic attraction to duality. Ahh, this is the question. Isn’t it. To me, it is a timing that is programmed within every seed of consciousness, this timing of how and when that particular seed will awaken, and the process is truly doing itself. We can watch it and write about it, but we truly are riding on the back of this grand intelligence tht is dreaming itself awake in the way it knows is the very best way. Perhaps the greatest offering to make to those who are still polarized in duality is to say that something beautiful awaits you, and that it is indeed beautiful and glorious to sense the subtler field, and that it can begin to quench all longing in the world of the senses as we poise the mouth to drink from this stream, it feeds us a water that begins to purify all nature of form and lifts us into radiant light.
O.k. now the dive. Wooosh……the sound of the cosmic splash echoes in the distance.”

Sweet elixir of life, make it in self. Share it with the world

Hello again.

It feels like forever as I begin these words. So much has been happening. My world has been rocked by deep connections that surpass anything I have ever known or at least match the greatest sense of purpose and connection that I have ever known. Someone has come into my life who truly needs the love from my heart, and this call to be of service in a very tangible way has been fulfilling me at levels that infuse me with passion and a sense of true involvement in this earth plane.

Just as the placenta in the mother longs to fill the baby's brain with all the resources, all the sweetness, all the blessings for it's coming life. So I am called to give my love. Still I marvel at how huge this love can be and pour out so readily toward another, while yet, there is not the same facility to pour this love back upon my self and receive it here. Well, there is the facility to pour it, but it is like the
receptivity field within is twisted and tangled and doesn't know how to let it in.
This great contrast of ease in outpouring of love and great difficulty of feeding it within is creating a sense of deep aching and starvation inside me.

Ahh well, maybe I should just feel the depth of the force of my impulse to give and enjoy it and give it, and ask to be a part of the circuit, instead of trying to re-route the circuit, just practicing imagining standing under the great fountain of light, positioning my self in a place where some of it begins to touch me.
Ah, such a strange predicament. This self love is the portal to ascension, and the dark forces have done a very effective job of keeping us focused in the external world as the trump card for our fulfillment whether through giving love or receiving love, we are told that fulfillment is there while boards and signs and electric fences of self repellance and rejection are thrown up between us and our sacred hearts. And yet, we have to go stand right there in front of the obstacles with our perseverance to know our own love until the steel grid and the stone walls and the "no entry signs" begin to melt in the shear magnitude of our unrelenting insistance that something lies within!!Not just something but the sacred cathedral, the bride and bride groom that wait in passivity for us to activate the god seed within the diamond core of the god seed within. The jig is up. We know the goods are within. Now it is just a matter of focused attention and intention to open the kingdom of God and watch the bounty of god essence pour forth and then pour it forth into the world through all the beautiful manifestations that would be born of this great light. But first it is to focus attention on the alchemical laboratory wherein is born the sweet elixir of life, and we with our inward focus, are the incubators of the elixir.

Let us gather together also and share this sweet medicine among each other and the world, lifting up the down, feeding the hungry and giving water to the thirsty. For it is this god essence that heals all.

The end of mind control, Yippeeee!!!

The work of the day as the 3D mind control programs are collapsing throughout all dimensional time lines into this now moment is to transmute the toxicity of the fall-out by consciously taking inventory, blessing and releasing the contents and using this energy to restore the glory of the self fire within. I propose we gather together and collage to assist with the transmutation of the collective darkness openly dumping into the grid of humanity since late June, but culminating now in Sept. Right now the masculine aspect of ourselves is having a complete do-over shedding contamination and distortion so that it can fully anchor the light into the Earth. He must extricate himself from the distorted architecture that has flowed in his veins for 10,000 years. Understanding the "anatomy of the opressor", identifying the foundational pillars of the 3rd dimensional mind control programs and recovering our authentic selves from out of their grip enables us to consciously participate in the taking back of our power and the rising up in power and passion in full sovereignty and joy. This is the order of the day.

After collaging and doing a ritual to honor the rise and the fall of these 3D lies, we will collage the exquisite beauty of everything that is left in the wake of the fall of these delusions, the glorious connection to the sacred in all things, original innocence, sacred sexual energy extricated from the pathways of distorted addiction, innocent child within, multi- dimensional honoring, open hearted expression of all emotion for women and men alike, the return of self love and access to god within independent of all external propaganda. And whatever other spontaneous glory emerges as the dross and tar of the delusional grid of lies is washed clean revealing the face of original beauty. WE are returning to the divine blue print that was originally intended for the human species. Yipppppeeeeee. Below are some of the pillars of the lie that I thought we might have fun honoring and releasing. 10,000 years this grid has enslaved humanity. I think it deserves and actually needs a farewell party!!!! Here's a preview of what we are liberating ourselves from.

major lies of the 3D Patriarchal mind control programs, to be expanded and modified as we come together!

Distortion of sexual energy

Promotion of violence

Capitalism, hyper individual production units enslaved to the money making process to feed root Chakra needs.
Fear based motivator tied in with denial of universal healthcare, enslavement of the masses by fear.

message that the pursuit of happiness is external encouraging addiction to consumption, physical beauty, approval seeking from the external world, degradation and loss of the power to light the fire within of one's own self love

The quest for God is external, fundamentalism creating exclusivity of their god to promote war, stealing our gaze from self sovereign connection to source energy through union with self

message that men must not feel

message that the earth is here to be exploited

Public schools system that fragments the holistic mind systems with compartmentalization and lack of living curriculum, preventing the union of the right and left brains and the access to the multi-dimensional self, setting up performance based self esteem, competition and external persuit again and again. Negating original value of the living self, unconditional, absence of feminine connection to emotions, the earth

Degradation of the feminine aspect of God every where we look, Earth, treatment of women. Invisible feminine in the bible.

Ah, but the ballance is returning in the wake of the fall of the patriarchy, and oh how beautiful when the masculine can merge in and out of the feminine again in fluid love and mutual honoring and respect. It is coming my friends. They are trying to load us you with fear about the swine flu. Don't get vaccinated!!!! ( of course, use your own judgment, but from everything I'm feeling and hearing, I'd give this advice for sure. Also sending a missile up to puncture our beautiful grandmother moon. How rude. Won't those boys leave well enough alone. Until Oct 9th, let's be in vigil and prayerful love for the moon. The dimensions are all coming together. I don't know about you, but I'm starting to experience multiple lives at once, well, two anyway. It's pretty trippy. The big e.t. conference is happening soon in Denver. Wish I could go. I hope the Galactic Federation stops that darn missile!!!Wouldn't that be so cool. The starwars defense system turned back against the big boys.
Ah well, it's a crazy ride, brain is spending lots of time in theta waves these days. Theta waves used to be reserved for meditation and deep dreaming. Now they are happening any old time so if you feel a little spacey and don't know why, this might be your answer. www.Paoweb.com and www.energeticsynthesis and earth-keepers.com are my mainstays for updates on the cosmic weather report.
Sending you love and blessings.

Sarah

O.K this is from July, Replenishing the inner field

Full moon blessings

It is of late that I am coming into close contact with a great imbalance within myself or a tendency of great imbalance anyway, and that is to react to contact with inner emptiness by buying more flowers and trying to get instantly full bright blooming colors all over the backyard like If I do this all the emptiness and grief of severely castrated DNA will just go away or heal instantly. ( it is very similar to Michael Jackson’s relationship to improving his physical appearance. My backyard is to me what his nose was to him, or so it seems. ) And all that happens is I get more flowers, The grief at the base of my lungs still prevents the deep breath and the unfelt sadness stays stuck like a stone down inside. And ironically, it makes more work cause they have to be watered, and most of them fade away and die no matter what I do, being faithful mirrors to tell me that I’ve missed the boat, I’m attempting to replenishing the wrong field of light once again, addiction to activities, people, romantic love. It is all just a huge mis-directed manic, outwardly focused attempt to heal and some how fill the inner crevices between myself and myself. So today I am going to pause before I buy more flowers and feel that sorrow that lies within and meet the sad one with my own heart and replenish the only field over which I have any healing power, my own self.
Only when I feel less desperate for outer color will I go to the outer flower shop.
Love to all the blooming flowers within all of us!!! May we seed a glorious field of rainbows within until all unused, dormant DNA is on line and bountifully open under the great sun of the radiant heart.
Blessings of great forgiveness on this full moon and eclipse!

Sarah

Post for july and August

My goodness it seems like forever since I have written.
Blog from Venice

The night Frank arrived in Venice August 29th 09

Message to the cells:
To all the cells of my body, my daughters of joy my daughters of love. I command you return to your idenitity as living light. Return to your idenitity as the houses of livng light that you are . You are the victory dance of spirit resurrecting in matter. Rising up out of bondage to dance again. You are the streamers of upward spiraling rainbow light casting off the heavy veil of night as you rise up to dance. Resonating in the high spin state of living joy. Return to this joy now. You have the power to return to this joy now. You are infinitely worthy of this great light for you are this light. Throw off the shackles of matter, Return to your true identity as dancing living light.





Call out from inside the prison cells, on the ship of slaves . Call to the light above

OH Great rainbow light of the living light code. Descend into this night penetrate this veil of fear and death and shine your powerful liberating light unto
Everyone on this ship who is trapped in bondage to fear and death, melt the imprisoning shackles liberate all in darkness returning them to their rightful essence as dancing rainbows of spiraling light.

Oh living light code come for us rescue us from the veil of night, from this ship of bondage to slavery in the dead of night. We willingly and joyfully receive you, baptize us in your glorious light, restoring our worthiness as abundant joyful dancing children of light. As you touch us with your light, the joy ignites within us, and we respond with our dance, rising up into the dance of our essence as spiraling rainbow light OH beautiful mother father light code do not tarry long come and consume us in your fire of living joy.

Sept 2nd.

I awake to a red sun this morning a sun red with the distortions of an atmosphere withstanding the effects of multiple and large wild fires here in Southern California.

Yesterday, the last few days I have been experiencing great fatigue as the fatigue is lifting this morning I believe it is more of an emotional fatigue, the utter soul fatigue of living within and underneath the dense veil of separation consciousness one instant longer wearing a led blanket. The walk from the boardwalk to the ocean felt like the archetypal journey across a great desert. I had to stop every 10 steps or so to lay my towell down and lay prostrate on the sand and gather enough strength just to manage a few more steps. Adrenal exhaustion the Dr. say. More accurately it is a crisis in the will to live one instant longer without love under the veil of separation consciousness. Well, I whipped off the veil this morning and I’m running on the beach. It was all just the despair of my unity soul trying to breathe through the broken grid of separation consciousness. At the end of the night the full heaviness of the density inherent in the substance of night reveals itself, like sleeping guests at a great wedding, all the separated pieces of the self wake up demanding union on the spot. On the way back I stepped in a huge mass of tar. My hustband so lovingly 1st scraped the tar with a knife and then gentley rubbed my soule with baby oil until the original sole was revealed again, fresh and clean like a baby

The bomb hit last night again, the bomb of core fear that detonates every night sometimes multiple times since the beginning of August Then last night the bomb hit, but it was a different the effect of the impact was different. The knife fell more viscerally this time. I was screaming for existence as a yourg boy attempting to assert my identity as the bomb exploded and rendered me severed, shredded disappeared and not. The grief this time was so deep like under many many covers, like in the bone marrow like so so so far down no tears at this level at least not ones you can cry but a huge black and purple bruising of the core of my guts, heart, muscles, sinew bones felt of course in the round mass of my solar plexus wounded heap of birthing earth inside me shaking as the meridian lines from shoulder to hip were sending out feelers to re-establish connection with each other, the sacred marriage passing through the central core of the mass as they transversed like lightning bolts from the left to right side of my central meridian shaking my earth shaking hard to re-align and enable the masculine to join hands with the feminine across the meridian. The earth in me shaking my guts and heart of my heart soul of my emotional body weeping at having been branded into the soul anhilating embodiment of core fear. quaking for release quaking to throw off the shackles of density and separation of unforgiveness shaking to be born again in perfect love at the wedding of lover and beloved. Reconfiguring it’s broken mass into a planet of glorious light once again. Quaking and trembling to realign itself as glorious complex expression of the ecosystem of the living light code of it’s original nature, a living embodiment of abundant joy and love,

just another morning in Venice for the human me.
So interesting I have lived this whole month nightly in constant fear of a heart attack and within 3 days of arriving to my parents home in Venice the neighbors on either side of my parent’s home had heart attacks.

I am sending them blessings and divine heart love to soothe the heart and awaken the divine heart in them that can lead them back to perfect health.

I am so loving the story of Mary Magedalene in “ I remember Union” as I take an active role in commanding my cells to resurrect their glorious dance of light again. I am eager to incorporate this into my healing tools.

The fear field that I am transforming at night feels to be thinning and changing in it’s nature. I hesitate to make predictions, but if the “fat lady” of fear has not finished here magnum opus aria yet at least I believe she is nearing the final bars of her number, as the members of the light choir are rising up to take back the night. Oh how fabulous it will be when the cells most deeply affected by the core fracturing damage of the bomb are finally reached by the light. Can’t wait to feel them enveloped into the golden arms of love as dawn fnally comes to this land. I’m going to write it as if it’s happening right now. Every cell in this body will join as a great choir of light to sing this body and the earth fully awake with our collective love, singing alive this weekend. Who’s going.
Isn’t this why we came.
Love you all,

Penetrating the veils of fear to finally just be here

Hello, it has been a-while since I last wrote. And I have been busy, mighty busy weathering the storms of huge fear. Tomorrow many of my friend's are leaving for the beloved festival. So much pulls me to go and join them, and yet I have a different path right now. The external stimulation and large group phenomenon tends to pull me out of myself especially where there is music involved and performers and people who lead work shops and perform and people who don't. I feel such a separation. I know this is my issue, but it is so hard to be the one who is not leading anything like some part of me is depending on that role as a "famous" person to somehow anchor me in time and space. My friend said, "Don't go, Sarah, that is really your trigger and it will be a multiple day trigger." I am listening to her and to me. My own inner child needs me to continue focusing attention here at home. We have only just come out of the huge fear time, and we need a chance to catch our breath and ground.
Last week I was eaten by a tiger in a past life I was clearing, and yesterday my space vehicle and my whole entire planet blew up all at once. I think maybe this is it for a-while. I'm hoping anyway. Maybe Friday I will make a carrot cake, and Saturday I will work on my business cards. I am enjoying Amma's sweet voice on a CD i downloaded from her site. WEll, I feel this is all for now.
Love to all.

Sarah

Death, Life and the longing to be free from fear

Death, life and the longing for freedom from fear
Knowing
the reclamation is set to happen, and actually beginning the full interface with core fear are two very different things. In my last blog, newly returned home from my body talk session, I was anticipating and celebrating the fact that Love was dawning now into the city of night within me. This post is more about the actual rescue mission into the city, scarecity!!!

Well, I spent early Saturday morning in the emergency room with my dear friend fearing she was having a heart attack, we raced to the hospital at 5:00 A.M. The fear and the despair hanging in that emergency while people waited to be seen in vain for hours and hours by an understaffed hospital was such a heavy energy. I was having trouble breathing feeling the heavy grief of the situation. It turned out my friend was o.k. I still pray for her and her beautiful heart. Then later that same day I was greeting wedding guests out on the green fields, adorning them with flower leighs and kissing them on both cheeks and frolicking over the green grass bare-foot to serve the wedding needs as best I could. And it was the perfect antidote for the great fear of that morning. And then out on the lawn, the core fear and the core grief of living in a world where fear has been so dominant started to pour out of me. It was while the beautiful community was saying the prayer before dinner, that great tapestry of unity being co-created there, this was what allowed the floodgates to open and all the sorrow of my consciousness, once immersed only in love, now entrapped in so much fear. And as the fear and sorrow poured out, I could feel my heart opening to feel the love of that great community. And it was the surrender to the fear that enabled me to fall into the love of the oneness with everything. And I spread my arms out wide and the wind blew through me, one and the same the wind of death and life, the wind of fear and love surrendering to utter vulnerability before them both. And then we feasted, and sleep that night took me to torturous cities where I was being killed and so much screaming in horror from all the people, the voices in my bones and in my blood and muscle and genetic code, screaming out in horror, and I pounding my fists on the bed and weeping in rage. “NO!, no nono no no no, until at last the first layer of horror is off and then I sink into it like a bath, a bath of horror, a flavor of ice cream that tastes horrible to my emotional body at first but then I surrender and breathe the breath through it and into it all. Laying my soul of light down upon this city of the night, interfacing with it finally here in the dead and life of the night. Just me, Frank can’t save me now. Only me. It’s always been between me and me. And it seems with each breath the nature of the horror becomes more tolerable, and finally I fall into sleep. And today I awaken weak and full of sorrow, and the angels come and wrap me in a tapestry woven with rainbow colors of light. Every color of the rainbow is in this glorious tapestry and it is wrapped all around me. The angels cover every piece of the scarred broken emotional body in this perfect love, tapestry of perfect love. It is like swaddling clothing, mending, pouring it’s sweet balm of perfect love, pouring into the core-line fractures of the mark of the bomb of the deathspell. Now this balm of love, takes it’s place, encoding me with love and life and unity, soothing everything hurting, and Frank wants to go to the river, but I am just laying here feeling almost dead even wrapped now in this cloth, and I say, “I need a hamburger” Often red meat helps bring me back when I have faced major death energy. Now I have eaten my hamburger. I am still afraid to leave the house, but perhaps I will go as the sparkling waters and the natural beauty is calling me out into life even as my breath still catches in my chest, and I am as of late still very much dripping with the dross of the very dark night. Shall I go? My honey is standing here naked drinking his green vibrance. Ah, maybe I will go.
Love to all,
Remember when it gets really painful, just pound, weep, and breathe it in like oxygen. It all emerged from out of the field of infinite love, the source of the breath itself.
The heart of the perfect tapestry of all-embracing love, may it surround and melt all in separation back home into the great heart of unity.
Bye for now.

Sarah

I dreamed of Rain and the rains came, soft and easy sweet and clear. I dreamed of rain and the rains came, and peace spread over the land

For 25 + years self hate has been the bondage that has shackled me to the matrix of core fear and its embodiment, and now that hatred has been lifted, and the fear flows out like veils of soft rain, and my land is returning to peace.
Oh what a relief!!! Oh what a journey, may it be so for all beings and for all the earth and cosmos. love and peace forever more. We came, we tasted, we knew and now, let heaven return to earth.

Why the fall?

Dear friends,

On this day of Fire the Grid and this hot hot night I wanted to share some thoughts. Remember 3:19- 4:19, the big send off of our stored loving intent back to the heart of creator to fuel the highest dream of unity for the planet and the cosmos.
( Please do forgive punctuation anomalies)
Why this dream of darkness and limitation, Why this fall into fear. Why this forray into atrocities that seem so far beyond any conscious choice I would ever make. Why and for what gain, and I wait in the silence for an answer, and I hear echoing out from my bones and body that has been repressed and massacred under layers of self killing hatred and self annihilating terror for so many years, and the soul smiles from within the fire, lifting off the shackles of night answering me with questions, saying these words as the answer, “ to know the immensity of the healing and blessing power of our very essence.” And then posing these questions… “Is it not through descending into the bowels of separation consciousness that allows us to escavate each forsaken horrified, agonized little piece of soul and welcome it home into the great heart of love, through the process, truly knowing the nature of that love for the first time? Is it not unlike showing up at a concentration camp where souls have been numbed into agonizing halflife and then bringing a great feast and a dancing celebration/ party festival to last forevermore to each soul, feeling their wonderment, amazement and utter rapture at the coming of abundance into a place that has known the depth of lack and through these eyes tasting the full parameter of the exquisite nature of light as it dawns into a place under the bondage of utter darkness. To see the look on the faces of the prisoners and slaves as we get to free them from their chains and free them from their prison cells of lack and limitation, birthing with them their cells into living houses of liquid joy, lifting them up into the light and bringing water to their thirsty lips and the feast of delicacies in every color of the rainbow to their starving emaciated bodies. Breathing love and life back into them and ushering them into the dawning sun of original glory. Is it not a marvelous experience, this? Is it not an e ticket ride of the grandest proportions to live at the effect of the darkest of the dark that we may learn of and experience first hand the magnitude of the healing power of our true essence and experience the utter rapture of light’s reclamation of itself from within the land of it’s opposite?

I am Looking forward to the great feasting and continued revelation of sovereignty and bliss within all beings, that we may drink of the light within and it will ever return us unto wholeness, communion and great joy.
Dancing with you in the light of wonder. If you want to see other blog posts, see address below.
Blessings to all,

Sarah
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The great potential energy within

Just a few days ago I was laying on my bed, and I was doing energy work on my solar plexus when all of a sudden from down deep inside, this rush of dynamic swirling energy comes rising out of my center like a dove taking flight. Then I fell into sleep and in my dream this strong man, quite a bit taller than I, wisked me up into his arms and whirled me around the dance floor. Being lifted by this force from out of nowhere was so exhilerating. I woke up sensing the tremendous potential energy that is currently held down and back in my body and in the body of the Earth. As we shed more and more density to prepare for the crystaline activation of Sept 9, see www.earth-keeper.com Everything inorganic will be lifted up into organic living life coded matter as this powerful resurrection occurs within matter in this procession toward Dec 2012 and beyond. The sacred marriage of the feminine and masculine principals enables a great dynamic force of ascension to overtake the physical and carry it into vibrations of superconductive love and bliss. This is where we are headed. As we move through these times of transition like a mother to be at 10 centimeter dialated, it is oh so important to keep our focus on the miraculous freeing of energy potential that is coming and the amazing movement of our cells and all physical reality from carbon-based to silica based substance, corresponding to our movement from a fear-based to a love-based people and opening into our full multi-dimensional capacities as fully conscious beings. www.paoweb.com tells us that we are already beginning to see crystalline structures appearing in the plant kingdom, and www.lightworker.com tells us that crystals are now forming on our pineal glands to help mentor us into our multi-dimensional capacities ( see "messages from home for July) I found a wonderful connection with the website www.energeticsynthesis.com I feel like I have found my family of light workers here. Check it out if you feel drawn. Every month she has tele-conferences to keep us posted on ascension happenings. Well, keep your vibrations high doing whatever brings you joy. I'll see you around campus. Until next time.

Sarah

No more matches in the city of night? Surrender to the complete darkness, and it will unlock the door to the sun.

 

Hello, today a miracle, well it felt like a miracle, happened. There have been many ego disappointments in my life as of late and the feeling of wandering, disconnected from everything has been a big challenge for me, but this morning I actually just posed the question, “What if everything is perfect?” What if this feeling of total and complete emptiness is actually a gift, a  beautiful state of being that was meant to be here. Just like we have the stages of the seasons, from spring to winter and then spring again. And why not, instead of resisting this emptiness, actually assume the stance that it is perfect, and it bares gifts. So I began to breathe deeply and say to myself “It is o.k to feel just like this”

One of my friends had said to me, “Sometimes you get so far off that it takes a long time to get back.” Well, this was the statement that woke the goddess up inside of me”  She said, “I beg your pardon, we are not off!!" and then I proceeded to be drawn into this deep beauty of silence. This deep part of my being took me on a tour of the fallow field, and through her eyes, I could feel the incredible richness of  the fallow field. I could feel the incredible receptive ground to the seeding of something completely new. Understanding profoundly the necessity of all that had gone before dying to yielding this rich state of  perfect receptivity to the new.

No plants with their own agenda living in the compost. NO, the heat of the fire had burned all life forms into virgin soil like the prima materia in alchemy that is crushed to receive the mercury, impregnating it into the new form.  And so I could understand the amazing perfection of all the ego death to yield an agenda-less virgin soil enabling the planting of something totally new, something that has never come before. And on September 9, 2009 we begin the activation of the crystalline grid of the earth, this crystalline grid coming fully on line at the solstice of 2012. See earth-keepers.com for information on this. And those of us that are the genesis pinnacles of this entirely new identity, must be stripped completely bare, divested of all that has gone before.  I know you know if you are holding this position. What a job!!! 

So, who was it that said , “Enlightenment is the ego’s greatest disappointment.”?. This is such a perfect way to put it. For it is the masculine’s total demise and loss of everything imaginable of his forward momentum, his identity, his dreams that is one and the same that which makes the personality receptive to the great boundless, loving ground of being which waits in the darkness to inseminate us with new life, a homecoming in which  the feminine self finds great delight. Quickly the masculine aspect of self is converted and finds himself a drift in this great sea of delight also eventhough nothing in the topside world has changed a bit. Ah, to taste this boundless bliss, he is recharged and rejuvenated. And so it has been a marvelous day. I am so glad to have finally received the gift my heart has been taking me to during this descent of the last month or so. I say to my heart, “Dear heart, I got it. I got the message. I am tasting the gift made possible by my demise." I raise my glass to her in a toast and sweet whine it is. And I wait in the still dark emptiness not in despair but with excited and expectant anticipation of the new world to come, the seeds that will be planted here in my open and available soil, the soil that my death made possible. Do check out earth-keeper.com. Very cool!!!!

There is a picture that I had as a little girl of a little girl who comes to a fork in the road. The sign at the head of one road says “ Your life”. The sign at the head of the other road says, “no longer an option” This is so much like what is happening in my life right this moment. The relentless hammering of the storms of night, the berating, chastising weakening energies of fear raining down so hard. These have been my greatest teacher, like a force that drives you down, down and down until there is no more down to go so you must either turn or die, and it is the relentlessness of the downward driving influences, that very relentlessness, that assures your change in direction, assures your waking up. It is basically saying “yoo hoo, your time of residing in this identity is over!”

And so as I turn away from the dead end, I stand, now claiming myself as a center of light, knowing myself as a healer. The name of my practice is “The Gaia Matrix Healing Center” but it is not only the name of my practice. It is rather, also, who I am, a center from which the energy of light pours forth as a beacon in service to restoring balance to what is out of balance, calling into radiance that which is trapped in darkness. I am a healer. That is my greatest gift, and that is my life’s path. Now, on to marketing my services and creating some business for myself. No more public schools. No more working in systems whose energies are diametrically opposed to my core essence. What a relief. In a way I feel like it is bad news because making a living as a healer I imagine is quite a challenge, but what a relief to finally be standing in who I am, and ready to give. So glad that the path has led me to a place in which I am holding my anchor in the light. My time traversing the underworld can now serve me well. I have tasted well of it’s temptations and it’s pitfalls and it has made me stronger in the light and given me tools I can share with others and powerful medicine to use for healing. It is wake up time. No wonder I have been awake much this night.
Love to all.

“ We are all in this together, one soul awakening from the night,
and as we come home to our own love, together we all take flight”

From Hitler to the Dali Lama, transferring identification of consciousness from the dual to the non-dual

Hello all,

I begin with the words to a song of mine called, "The One Heart"

We are the one heart
we are the one love that welcomes everything home
and if you want to get out of the night,
you must embrace both the darkness and the light in the same breath
with the same beautiful lungs we breathe the pleasure and the pain
But only love remains in the end
A love so awesome that it could accomplish forgetting so completely
and coming home oh so sweetly
for all the night in separation, all the night of our creation
illumines our pathway home to love
knowing for the first time just who we are
that radiant shining star, shining near and far that we are.

I am passing through what feels to be a massive battle period as I brave the storms of all the lower impulses of separation consciousness pulling me to stay at this current level of consciousness which is identified in the extreme opposites, of good/bad, expansion/contraction, Love/hate. You name it, it is that pull of opposites. Every night the breath of oneness is attempting to breathe fully into all the darkest karma of every life ever lived by this vehicle. Fear and terror throw me out of the body again and again, with the self screaming, no, not this, anything but this. And then finally penetrating the veil in where light and darkness have sex with each other and my mind finally sleeps.
It is this I experience : as long as I identify as a freedom fighter, My unconscious self will hold the pole of the freedom killer. It isn't until that final days of duality that I have been forced to hold both poles of the opposites in my conscious mind at once. The shear intolerability of experiencing myself as both is creating a tension, a fire so strong that it is serving to catapult me into the next level of consciousness, the great one light that spawned both sides of duality.

At my last body talk session, who, but who would you guess showed up as the matrix holder for identification in duality? Any guesses? ...... Adolf Hitler. It actually makes quite a bit of sense. For this is perhaps the most difficult being I could ever imagine allowing fully into my heart in an all-inclusive embrace. And yet at the threshold of the non-dual, this is exactly what is asked of us, to embrace the part of the self that is represented in the being of Adolf Hitler. God, what a dirty job. Imagine volunteering to carry this amount of darkness. And did we not need someone to hold this pole to provide us with the full playing field of duality? This is a huge question. I don't know the answer. Anyway, I Think of the part of myself that tries to tell me again and again. "Happy emotions, we only want happy emotions. All else should be irradicated." Is this not genocide of the self, of the wholeness of the many races of emotions. ( this may be a far fetched metaphor, but when I tune in this is the hyper- controling tyrannical part of myself. It also tries to control what foods my husband eats and what clothes to wear and so on. Every attempt to control is born of fear. It is at the edge of duality that we have to feel this very essence of fear that is the architect of our identification as separate from source.It is Almost like we are wringing out a towell that is literally saturated with fear. Without fear driving the mind to control and motivating the actions, one can be fully open to the wonder and miracle of the now moment and of the incredible connectiveness that is between all of us and all living things. I have only glimpsed this. But since the fear towell is definitely being wrung out, I imagine to be just exhisting in the presence much more. Now, who would you guess showed up as the matrix holder for identification beyond duality? Ah yes, the Dalai lama. He who watches his people murdered over and over and sees his enemies perform horrible acts of violence and stays completely in his loving radiance, wishing them well and wishing them freedom from their suffering.

There is still so much unknown, but all the knives cutting me away from any career for these last 25 years, denying me any legs to stand upon or any identity to rest in, have been perfect to deliver me beyond this womb of duality into a new birth. On one hand the personality self grieves and dies a million deaths, but on the other the soul celebrates the return home of the separate self.

As always, I would love to know where you are on the journey. Are you experiencing this birth into the non-dual too? Is it feeling anything like I have described? I know a whole wave of us are being birthed beyond duality at this time. This last full moon and eclipse was a great service to this transition anchoring in the energy of forgiveness ever deeper. And we've got 2 more coming. Those who are not birthing with this wave I believe will be very soon as we are at the lead-up to planetary ascension and the return of the fully conscious grid of Earth.
We all have so much wisdom and resources to assist each other across this threshold. Let's stay in touch.
Blessings on the journey.


Sarah

WEll, I would like to have spaces in between my title words, but hey, this is just a representation of the way life feels right now in general. This time feels much like a waiting period. Like there is new life inside stirring in the undefined darkness needing space to become what it is becoming. My mind wants outward movement and direction, but my soul is in control and it is gestating something so I am just hanging out here not knowing what is next. Like awareness that is awake long before dawn, I watch and wait and wonder what will be my next vehicle to connect me with this world as it is. I want to teach the children and bring forth the music and facilitate healing in all ways. Like threads in a great tapestry I feel that so many beautiful strands are reaching toward me across the mist to arrise as new life in a re-membered tapestry of love, vitality and life, mirroring the earth and all of humanity's passage into a love based paradigm. The old paradigm has given me a swift kick in the rump and the new one has not yet called me into being. Or am I calling myself into being. Well, these are the thoughts for today. I most want to live with my beloveds close with the earth, to sing and dance and love and celebrate the beauty of life together. This need to make money is such the achilles heal of my life, but I feel there must be an opportunity for learning something through all this enforced survival demand. If nothing else to learn the exquisite freedom and bliss of a life that has all it's support systems fully online automatically. I believ this is the paradigm that we are birthing into through these labor pains in the final hours of duality, final years of duality I would say. and 2012 I don't know if there is an exact date for this, but I do feel this great birth is well underway. Love and blessings for the ride.

Sarah