Hello, it has been a-while since I last wrote. And I have been busy, mighty busy weathering the storms of huge fear. Tomorrow many of my friend's are leaving for the beloved festival. So much pulls me to go and join them, and yet I have a different path right now. The external stimulation and large group phenomenon tends to pull me out of myself especially where there is music involved and performers and people who lead work shops and perform and people who don't. I feel such a separation. I know this is my issue, but it is so hard to be the one who is not leading anything like some part of me is depending on that role as a "famous" person to somehow anchor me in time and space. My friend said, "Don't go, Sarah, that is really your trigger and it will be a multiple day trigger." I am listening to her and to me. My own inner child needs me to continue focusing attention here at home. We have only just come out of the huge fear time, and we need a chance to catch our breath and ground.
Last week I was eaten by a tiger in a past life I was clearing, and yesterday my space vehicle and my whole entire planet blew up all at once. I think maybe this is it for a-while. I'm hoping anyway. Maybe Friday I will make a carrot cake, and Saturday I will work on my business cards. I am enjoying Amma's sweet voice on a CD i downloaded from her site. WEll, I feel this is all for now.
Love to all.
Sarah
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