No more matches in the city of night? Surrender to the complete darkness, and it will unlock the door to the sun.

 

Hello, today a miracle, well it felt like a miracle, happened. There have been many ego disappointments in my life as of late and the feeling of wandering, disconnected from everything has been a big challenge for me, but this morning I actually just posed the question, “What if everything is perfect?” What if this feeling of total and complete emptiness is actually a gift, a  beautiful state of being that was meant to be here. Just like we have the stages of the seasons, from spring to winter and then spring again. And why not, instead of resisting this emptiness, actually assume the stance that it is perfect, and it bares gifts. So I began to breathe deeply and say to myself “It is o.k to feel just like this”

One of my friends had said to me, “Sometimes you get so far off that it takes a long time to get back.” Well, this was the statement that woke the goddess up inside of me”  She said, “I beg your pardon, we are not off!!" and then I proceeded to be drawn into this deep beauty of silence. This deep part of my being took me on a tour of the fallow field, and through her eyes, I could feel the incredible richness of  the fallow field. I could feel the incredible receptive ground to the seeding of something completely new. Understanding profoundly the necessity of all that had gone before dying to yielding this rich state of  perfect receptivity to the new.

No plants with their own agenda living in the compost. NO, the heat of the fire had burned all life forms into virgin soil like the prima materia in alchemy that is crushed to receive the mercury, impregnating it into the new form.  And so I could understand the amazing perfection of all the ego death to yield an agenda-less virgin soil enabling the planting of something totally new, something that has never come before. And on September 9, 2009 we begin the activation of the crystalline grid of the earth, this crystalline grid coming fully on line at the solstice of 2012. See earth-keepers.com for information on this. And those of us that are the genesis pinnacles of this entirely new identity, must be stripped completely bare, divested of all that has gone before.  I know you know if you are holding this position. What a job!!! 

So, who was it that said , “Enlightenment is the ego’s greatest disappointment.”?. This is such a perfect way to put it. For it is the masculine’s total demise and loss of everything imaginable of his forward momentum, his identity, his dreams that is one and the same that which makes the personality receptive to the great boundless, loving ground of being which waits in the darkness to inseminate us with new life, a homecoming in which  the feminine self finds great delight. Quickly the masculine aspect of self is converted and finds himself a drift in this great sea of delight also eventhough nothing in the topside world has changed a bit. Ah, to taste this boundless bliss, he is recharged and rejuvenated. And so it has been a marvelous day. I am so glad to have finally received the gift my heart has been taking me to during this descent of the last month or so. I say to my heart, “Dear heart, I got it. I got the message. I am tasting the gift made possible by my demise." I raise my glass to her in a toast and sweet whine it is. And I wait in the still dark emptiness not in despair but with excited and expectant anticipation of the new world to come, the seeds that will be planted here in my open and available soil, the soil that my death made possible. Do check out earth-keeper.com. Very cool!!!!