Full moon blessings
It is of late that I am coming into close contact with a great imbalance within myself or a tendency of great imbalance anyway, and that is to react to contact with inner emptiness by buying more flowers and trying to get instantly full bright blooming colors all over the backyard like If I do this all the emptiness and grief of severely castrated DNA will just go away or heal instantly. ( it is very similar to Michael Jackson’s relationship to improving his physical appearance. My backyard is to me what his nose was to him, or so it seems. ) And all that happens is I get more flowers, The grief at the base of my lungs still prevents the deep breath and the unfelt sadness stays stuck like a stone down inside. And ironically, it makes more work cause they have to be watered, and most of them fade away and die no matter what I do, being faithful mirrors to tell me that I’ve missed the boat, I’m attempting to replenishing the wrong field of light once again, addiction to activities, people, romantic love. It is all just a huge mis-directed manic, outwardly focused attempt to heal and some how fill the inner crevices between myself and myself. So today I am going to pause before I buy more flowers and feel that sorrow that lies within and meet the sad one with my own heart and replenish the only field over which I have any healing power, my own self.
Only when I feel less desperate for outer color will I go to the outer flower shop.
Love to all the blooming flowers within all of us!!! May we seed a glorious field of rainbows within until all unused, dormant DNA is on line and bountifully open under the great sun of the radiant heart.
Blessings of great forgiveness on this full moon and eclipse!
Sarah
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