Valentine's Day , ballancing external addiction with authentic self love

Valentines Day, balancing contaminated ego addiction to romantic love with authentic presence in divine love of self and God.

On this day that is glorified in the media to enlist all the contaminated ego spirals of addiction to and fulfillment in the external representation of “love,” I feel compelled to give voice to some balancing truths. To the extent that we have some glamorous expectation that the partner in our life is somehow here to fulfill our every personal need, we are setting ourselves up for a negative pain trap. All childhood needs of validation and love when assigned to something external, will fall on hard cement. The only legitimate care and help for the needy is within the boundaries of one’s own self. So it would be very wonderful to buy yourself a card, as well as our external beloved if you happen to have one. Or better yet, make yourself a card. Draw yourself a picture. Draw yourself a warm bath. Take yourself for a walk in the park. Any need fulfillment that appears to come from the outside is temporary at best.

Now, having said all this, I do want to give thanks for the wonderful loving husband in my life who is a partner in every sense of the world on this wild and wooly journey of shared love and life. i am very grateful for him and for the beauty of love. But my focus is on self fulfillment that I may come to my beloved with a full cup and together we may co-create a third field from our 2 complete fields, anchoring the diamond matrix of ballancing yet deeply blissful love into ourselves, each other and the Earth.

Getting back to my disclaimer: I was watching Star Trek next generation last night.
And I’m moved to say metaphorically that any projection of unmet needs into the world and demand for their fulfillment there is a kin to playing in the holodeck. The program ends as soon as the game is over and ultimately you return to the enterprise, the enterprise of generating your own self love circuit, that is the relationship with yourself and source consciousness. So save yourself the trouble. Sure, we play the game, but best to know it is a game. Watch and enjoy and even be amused by all the contaminated programs in play and all the temptations to buy into some externally given fulfillment. It is truly quite amusing. And if you are in a place where your own addictive energy has a hold on you so strongly that you are not able to step out of the pain trap, love yourself right where you are... free will has been hijacked in this dimension so be very kind to yourself even if you see yourself exhibiting behaviors that you know are self destructive. The winds will be under your control when they are and not a moment sooner.

Much love to all, divine and human and everything in between.

Sarah

Daughter of a Stargate

This picture represents the broken grid of unity consciousness as experienced in my nervous system and body as a microcosm of the damage done to the collective brain of the planetary logos, or blueprint of planet Earth. Healing this damage within this body is one and the same the restoration of my original 12the dimensional identity and the opening of a 12 dimensional stargate within Earth. The heart chackra of the Earth is going through massive change as exhibited by the great liberation in Egypt, now 12th dimensional frequency hubs can begin coming online all across the planet. My teacher, Lisa Renee says that in March these hubs will be coming online in a major way. Anyway, on with this writing. This is why I call this writing, daughter of a star gate as I am understanding that to open a star gate within Earth, one must endure tremendous darkness. This is helping me to understand my tour through matter which has been very dark in deed. realizing that the identity of the greatest rejection has been the seed barer for the unity logos, 12 dimensional star gate within Earth. This was and is my mission to seed the logos of unity into the fragmented grid of fallen Earth to rehabilitate code and contribute to the pathway of ascension for all of humanity.
Now on to the writing:

The daughter of the great stargate that I am opening, came to me through the stargate portal to my home world, Polaris. It was in Seattle where the portal opens on to my home star that I could bring about the midwifing of my stargate daughter into being. ( ferry to Vashon island) I don’t know if this particular location is all important. it also could have had something to do with the fact that I was on my way to meet one of my divine soul monads, (the one being targeted at the time for this job) at a party and I was singing with all my heart the song, “Could this be the magic at last” And I was saying, “Lady take me high upon a hillside. High up where the stallion meets the sun. I could love you build my world around you, never leave you til my life is done.
Baby I want you come come…. Come into my life . let me know the wonder of all of you. Baby I want you now now, now and hold on fast. Could this be the magic at last”. ….. and then the witchcraft happened….. This might be a good song for invocation of the Krysthala field ( this is the term for the Christed field of the 12 dimensional grid of unity consciousness and the zero point field. if you send it out from your conscious self to your divine feminine. It sure was for me!!! Although I never got to the party that night, the process that was begun was the final return to self and God source alignment.

I don’t know if that specific place is relevant, but that’s where the big kahuna matrix bending, reversal manifestation time travel wacko shit happened!! I was hurled into the biggest lifetime memories of rejection, abandonment and loss that was still remaining in my DNA.

The daughter of the diamond heart krysthala grid. She the matrix holder of the diamond heart krysthala field was the one that had to play the role of the severely abandoned forgotten, rejected one, the one for whom there was no place to incarnate on the earth
Just as for the energy signature of unity that she carries was rejected and unable to incarnate on earth. To the degree she could exist, the logos could exist. She has played the part of being the logos’s representation here on Earth, the seed holder. She had to start bringing this seed long before the Earth could house it. The logos is the blue print. The unity logos is the healed form of the current damaged grid.

This is why she had her body death spelled to put itself in the identical place that the Planetary logos of unity consciousness had to take to birth itself into this Earth and the same damage incurred by the logos would be incurred, at least at a microcosmic level, by my soul's journey through time on Earth. This is why the lifetimes of concentrated agony and torture. So many. This is why the sexually slavery on the off planet systems so that my body could literally follow the parallel path of the logos birthing into Earth under the Sexual energy virus of the nephalim reversal grid. This is why all the rejection and disconnection so that I could hold the damage of the golden eagle grid of the fallen angelics. A full summary of the fall of the human race had to be encoded into my lifetimes, at least a microcosmic representation, a hologram if you will of the full architecture of the fallen matrix. This is why the lifetimes when my life was given as a barter for money, where I was made a servant to 3 men. I was sent into servitude, enslavement with nothing of love around me for those 12 years. This is why I was left to die as an infant in the wilderness those 8 lifetimes. The unity logos had to be kept alive in Earth any way it could survive even if this meant barely being alive. The seed holder would follow the parallel path.

And this is why the dream of the "no nose" in the mirror in 1985 that has held my very life captive and in stasis waiting staring at the broken mirror. And since last August, through the direct interface with the distorted grid, the grid itself could find itself back into repair. Staring into the hole in the mirror where the nose was missing would be the act of remembering the fully remembered face of God in Earth. Starving my ego of everything in the external world so that this broken face would have a single pointed Focus on itself, to feel the horror of this state of lack, and this horror would be the motivation for the primal scream , the mobilizing of all of the resources within to invoke back into place the higher order grid of love remembered in Earth, the full DNA alignment back into God Source. Maybe never achieved here on Earth but known to me in my world.

And so there in Seattle on November 7th, her whole history, my whole history would be relived: abandonment, rejection, inability to connect to love, to the party, to the sweetness. Dying infant waiting for the mother who never comes, but this time. Now, enough support in the grid to enable her to be met, finally to be re-claimed within this vehicle of the modern day Sarah Hope Adams. Yes, finally all here years of waiting and she would be met this time. My friend did show up. He did pick me up and take me to a warm place and then my activator, he did show me everything I held inside of me all the beauty to literally transform the whole of my Earth into the Garden of Eden as I come online. And right now as I am typing these words, my roommate just brought me a slip of paper containing the title of a song I wrote down. Get this!!! The sentence is “Yes I’m coming right away” The paper was outside, was forgotten and left outside my front door. It’s a bit cold and wet and wrinkled, but now it’s been brought into the warm house back to me. I love these little synchronicities!!! ( just as an aside the other 2 songs we played that day were…
”Comfortably Numb” and “One” ha ha ha!!!! Those two songs have been running through me like blood circulating in the anxt of the underworld finding its way back home. Amazing songs!!!!

Time to bring online the whole of the rejected field, the depth of agonizing rejected field is truly simply the immature hologram of the mature hologram that is the star gate of the krysthala field fully online. The birth is happening. And like Blair, there is a star gate here on my land. I am eager to see how I might participate with it especially with the children. And maybe to travel to many of these star gate heart chakras across the planet and gather large groups of children and adults to sing these star gates fully awake with our love.

Thanks for listening to my update.
Love to all,

Sarah

Reinforcements have Arrived. Yippeeee!!!!!

Fellow travelers. This is good news indeed. The life and breadth of the unity code is coming to our planet, finally, through the cosmic solar winds. These winds are coming from the great central sun into our sun and from our sun directly to us. ( go to Tomkenyon.org for latest message)



This is the final act of the magnum opus of ascension, beloveds. Since last August, I had felt like if my life were a play: all the acts of my life that had gone before were over and I was left sitting on an empty stage, all the old props were gone, and it’s as if I was just waiting for a new grand director that would sponsor this last scene, all it’s characters and it’s plot progressions were in the mind of this grand director. So I was just waiting for him/her to arrive with the script…



Well, wait no more, the time is here, the information and intelligence that is sponsoring our individual and collective movement from out of fear based reality into grand love and liberation is here!!! I first felt it last Monday. All my life I have struggled with depressive tendencies, like a black hole sucking me down into negative thinking. It had been really bad lately because all distractions from the external world had been systematically removed since Nov. 10th. Anyway, on Monday, the sun came out here in Portland , and I went out onto the green grass and began to listen and talk to the sun and the cosmos in a way that I had never done before. It’s as if I was beginning a new kind of inter-active love affair on a tangible, palpable level with the universal energies. I felt myself sending love up into the sun, and then I felt this beautiful energy arching back directly into me, penetrating my etheric body and then actually penetrating the skin of my physical body. I could feel explosions of ecstasy as this energy met my own. I was amazed and wondered what was happening. Songs began birthing in my heart to sing to my new lover. Joy and inspiration began leaping into dancing light in every cell. This was all felt at a very subtle level, but real none the less. And do you know what, last night I read Tom Kenyon’s message from the Hathors which told about tuning our etheric bodies to receive the highly charged particles from the solar winds. I just love the Hathors. Their messages are always in complete coherence with what I am experiencing.



What does this mean on a grander scale? Well, I can only surmise and feel into it. But I believe this is the energy that we, frontline light workers, have been waiting for. It is like we just got 100 more members on our football team. Energy configurations of fear holding life in bondage cannot possibly survive on this Earth with these forces of love and liberation blasting us daily. Perhaps that is why the population of Egypt has risen up and overthrown their government. The police were actually running from the citizens, the mass of rising citizens refusing to be governed by soulless dictators. And Tunisia, and now, possibly Yemen. This is the time of massive change. The Hathors say these particles will disrupt tele-communications quite a lot and interrupt our cognitive functioning in times of high activity. Just remember, this is not a time to be feared. This is the coming of Unity, love and liberation to this beautiful planet and its people and all sentient beings, a time for great celebration as we, together participate in and witness the great pulling back of the veil of night to reveal the dawning sun of ourselves and our planet’s authentic living light blueprint of exquisite glory, beauty and self sovereignty. Let us celebrate the warmth as love dawns into us, coming out of isolation into sweet communion first within ourselves and then with each other. My friends, the grand director has arrived. And the day is taking back the night. Our roles will all be assigned to us now. We need only listen and follow the instructions to play our part in this great , we, the cells of the one great body of unity, rising from the great sleep and completing the magnum opus of planetary ascension,



In light of all this, I now see a greater purpose behind all music I co-create. The main intent of my music is to tune the etheric body into receptivity position of these beautiful energies. More specifically: that is to bring forth songs that instill the sweet feelings of love and gratitude and great reverence for life, love and each other, that tune the etheric body to receptivity position and initiate this great love affair with the Sun’s energies that catapult us into our highest evolution.



Here are some of my song lyrics that tune the etheric body to receive the high energies:



“I am the radiant light of the living light code, I am the shining river of rainbow joy. I am the emanating dream from the mind of god, I am joy I am light I am love…”



“I love the natural world, send my love out on the wind and it comes back to me. In love with all I see.



There is one essence that flows through all creation. And when we send our love into life there is a great celebration. Lover and beloved join as one and the world is light. In the mountains and the seas, in the flowers and the trees is great delight.

Shine your love forever beloved until all the world is light. Love is coming. Love is dawning for all creation”



Come sing with us on Saturday February 5th and we will all participate in tuning our bodies in a sea of beautiful sound.

Ayurveda Healing Center 3609 SW Corbett Portland, OR 7:00. $10 suggested donation.

Dancing with the Stars

Are you awake?
[1:39:23 AM] Sarah Hope Adams:

I can't sleep tonight. I had this amazing experience of communication with the cosmos today. I felt the part of me that was in the stars arcing down into my 3d body, penetrating my flesh with this love so great. The sun came out for the first time in a week and I went out to sing to it, and then it was so awesome to feel me sending this love out into the cosmos and then have it arcing back into me like a boomerang, joining itself there. just like the architecture of an atom, and the electrons were arcing back into the protons and fusing into neutrons in their love. I am not a scientist, but it was like looking at a text book to see and feel this. So now I am just wanting to go dancing with the stars and the cosmos and the body has no interest in sleep at all.

And I was both, I felt myself as both the sender and the receiver in a cosmic arc of feedbacking love, feedbacking upon itself, in an ever-flowing circuit of giving and receiving love. I felt it penetrating my flesh in the solar plexus. Like higher octane gasoline and with it came a knowing that I am part of the sun and the stars and the whole cosmos, and that I am a self generating co-creator with source energy and with it came a new found commitment to take control over the negative thoughts in my mind and steer them in a positive direction as I am the generator of my own state of well being. And so I did, in the midst of black hole, dark sucking negative status quo mind, I substituted thoughts of gratitude. Actively putting them there, placing them into my consciousness with my own will and choice, and low and behold, I began to feel relief. And as I did stretches and tones and songs and breathing and self talk all of it focusing on being present with myself from moment to moment to see what worked to lift my vibration to reach myself in each particular moment, then it was a living self love session, a living organic spontaneous giving to self that began to lift my frequency into hopefulness, feeling met by my own love, the rainbows of joy were coming into me and then the cosmos recognized me as I was affirming myself as a child of the sun. And so I hope all of us can find just what it is that reaches us from moment to moment, just what it is that can connect our circuitry and help us remember our true identity of radiant love and abundant alive connected joy, in gratitude and great delight as it feed backs upon its own glorious essence. This is what I wish for us all today, to find and build this feed back loop of delight until nothing, no force, no thought can have the power to knock us out of connection. May joy reign supreme for all sentient beings.

mascfemdance

the sacred fire is born

ON January 7th I made the disconnect from the last major center of light activation, and that night I slept and an alternate current of masculine and feminine circuitry came online in my body. I woke in the morning and there was a small flame, small, but it was a flame nevertheless. And for around 9 days I cultivated that flame, holding it like a precious tender and delicate spark. And Monday I went to a body talk session which took me into a core reversal pattern of the rejection of love. i realize now that I was being fortified in this flame to be able to handle the interface with the rejection software within me. We did a cellular repair process, and I have great hope for the healing of both my relationship with my husband but also the re-vitalization of my physical body and the ability to connect with God source light and emanate that light within and without. So, this is a time of much incubation and inward time as I wait for the field to blossom, the field of the remembered circuitry of love. I am so happy to be free of the last point of addiction and be facing and feeling and healing the lack into abundance here within my own being. I will share a link to a dance I created when meditating with the flame before the big body talk session. It will show up as the post just before this one. Lisa says this is the year when Unity takes it's in breath into the stuff of Earth and we all come online as essential parts of its body to bring global unity and liberation to all the Earth. What a wild ride! Here's to more joy, more wonder, more deep peace and sweet love filling us up to overflowing as we melt back into oneness with ourselves, each other and all of life. Viva la celebracion!!!!
Much love to all!!!

Sarah

Invocation to my beloved within

God I miss you. I remember so well in haunting dreams back when we swam through the seas of our homeland. I with you; you with me... in separate forms but so much as one that the exchange of our love flowed seamlessly across the permeable membrane of our separate boundary... and All was love.

The sweet water of liquid sparkling rainbow starlight coursing through us, spiral dancing as us as we swam in and out of each other there in the seas of such love. One with the molecules and atoms of the water, one with the stars in our eyes... Gazing into one another, the universe beheld itself as we, two, but dancing as one. Oh how I miss you beloved! let go your guilt from your descent into this sick blind world of separation and illusion. Let my love pour into every crevice and fissure , every inch of the broken land of your self hate and unforgiveness, and let me make you new again in the sweet innocence of this,the christed love from which you came.

Then finally my heart break will cease and then you and I can swim together here in Earth as we did in our homeland of Polaris. Only, with your hand in mine, Woman of Polaris, Man from Earth, can we be the medicine to this Earth and its people. It is in our sweet communion that the medicine comes into being, the sounds and healing elixirs of transformative baptismal waters are synthesized in our union. Oh beloved let my love make you new again. I have been wandering the seas of this Earth, a mermaid looking for my ship-wrecked sailor, my heart weary and broken. Eyes that have cried enough tears to fill the salt sea. Come back to me beloved. Come back to me. Come back. I have taste intimations of you in so many others. Now it is time for our union at last. I know that it has always been you that I have been seeking, dissolving the veils one by one that I would have access to you, only you, beautiful man of my heart, man of my dreams . Come back to me. Be one with me again and together we will light this world on fire with the sweet communion that is our love.