Valentine's Day , ballancing external addiction with authentic self love

Valentines Day, balancing contaminated ego addiction to romantic love with authentic presence in divine love of self and God.

On this day that is glorified in the media to enlist all the contaminated ego spirals of addiction to and fulfillment in the external representation of “love,” I feel compelled to give voice to some balancing truths. To the extent that we have some glamorous expectation that the partner in our life is somehow here to fulfill our every personal need, we are setting ourselves up for a negative pain trap. All childhood needs of validation and love when assigned to something external, will fall on hard cement. The only legitimate care and help for the needy is within the boundaries of one’s own self. So it would be very wonderful to buy yourself a card, as well as our external beloved if you happen to have one. Or better yet, make yourself a card. Draw yourself a picture. Draw yourself a warm bath. Take yourself for a walk in the park. Any need fulfillment that appears to come from the outside is temporary at best.

Now, having said all this, I do want to give thanks for the wonderful loving husband in my life who is a partner in every sense of the world on this wild and wooly journey of shared love and life. i am very grateful for him and for the beauty of love. But my focus is on self fulfillment that I may come to my beloved with a full cup and together we may co-create a third field from our 2 complete fields, anchoring the diamond matrix of ballancing yet deeply blissful love into ourselves, each other and the Earth.

Getting back to my disclaimer: I was watching Star Trek next generation last night.
And I’m moved to say metaphorically that any projection of unmet needs into the world and demand for their fulfillment there is a kin to playing in the holodeck. The program ends as soon as the game is over and ultimately you return to the enterprise, the enterprise of generating your own self love circuit, that is the relationship with yourself and source consciousness. So save yourself the trouble. Sure, we play the game, but best to know it is a game. Watch and enjoy and even be amused by all the contaminated programs in play and all the temptations to buy into some externally given fulfillment. It is truly quite amusing. And if you are in a place where your own addictive energy has a hold on you so strongly that you are not able to step out of the pain trap, love yourself right where you are... free will has been hijacked in this dimension so be very kind to yourself even if you see yourself exhibiting behaviors that you know are self destructive. The winds will be under your control when they are and not a moment sooner.

Much love to all, divine and human and everything in between.

Sarah