healing the atom, exciting times!!!

so for many weeks, my spirit guides have been telling me not to change my name. They say Sarah Hope Adams. It is important that you keep that name at least for a-while and maybe for the duration. Now I get it, sarah hope atoms. It is restoring the hope atoms of the light-seed coded atoms of our original human blueprint before the distortion and manipulation that rendered the compromised light and fear-based world we see today in the human race at large.

December 26th
, the grief so intense, the third night of major suffocation cycles at night attempting to breathe as unity consciousness and confronting major paralysis in diaphragm and lungs. Then on that night I write a treatise that demands the return of the house of God to my form, that demands the return of lover and beloved to dance as a fire at the core of every cell in my being. That night suffocation again and so much grief

After the exposure to healed proton/ electron, masculine feminine sacred marriage of living light state and the return home to the broken, grieving great divorce between proton/ electron in my own mind body and physiology at so many levels, finally the relief came on December 28th, the morning of December 28th when I demanded to breathe a breath in my body, a full breath that would yield sufficient oxygen, is when I was given the knowledge of the damage at the atom level. I was shown that the atom was quite sick. I was given the commands, "Be love" Be Union." Then, I had to jump out of bed and drive somewhere so I had to put the whole thing on halt.
then i call my friend while on the freeway, and she confirms that she is working at the same level with the frozen light which our teacher, Lisa Renee, talks about quite extensively. So my friend and I get really excited and agree to talk the next motning. On the morning of Dec 28th, we were told we could take a look at the damaged atom, the state of the light harnessed at the third dimensional mind control system. It was icky, but we did take a look. And now I have to run to breakfast. I am really excited though and I can breathe! We have seen the site of the enslavement of light by the controllers. Now we just have to wait to see what we do next. My friend received the info that we were gathering information for high spiritual guardians who looked through our eyes and now could better see the situation and diagnose and treat the miasms in the atom. so now we wait to see what to do next. It definitely is a partnership between humans and guardian beings outside the human realm. I

I feel so much hope though, and I can breathe. The grief is finally over. This cycle anyway, but maybe this is the core of all grief....

This process is corresponding to the inter-action between me and my husband who are healing the proton/ electron union from within mental body enemy patterning. We dare to go into hostile cognitive territories of rejection that hold our deep potential passion at bay and hold it out of our experience. We have been working this for almost 14 years.. And I know now that this is directly connected to the healing of the atom. The love based atom has electrons whose orbits are highly elliptical. The symetrical orbit of fear based enemy patterning is not the natural state. So interesting that scientists call the love based electron/ proton arrangement, "superderformity" Isn't that ironic. Anyway, I have to run to help mom. I just wanted to share the latest on this wild ride. Wow, what a trip.
Love to all and Happy New Year, 2011 the restoration kicks into high gear!!!!!!!1

Laying upon the cored fracture to birth unity consciousness. Here is a beautiful video from the nativity story following this writing.

Laying down upon the core fracture of separation consciousness to transform the field of separation into the field of unity. Once you have tasted the full combination of the perfect mixture of elements of the masculine and feminine dance that is the identical identity of the original proton and electron union which I did in Oct and Nov, then you can now be rejected by that identity in this physical plane and thrown back onto the crucifix of the core fracture. This experience no matter how painful is truly the greatest gift for a steward of unity consciousness come to heal all separation because it is this experience that initiates the down elevator that delivers me right to the door of cellular repair of separation consciousness across the bones, muscles, lymphatic, Nervous system, wei chi and all the body's systems. I'm also experiencing the axe blade that cut across my mid section 2 inches above the belly button and the vertical axe cut that chopped me in half during the final hours of my life in ancient Lemuria. I tried the route of just stopping my breathing to avoid feeling the horror, but No i really want to live through this and serve the ascension for that is why I came! So death is not an option, and the one who could somehow stop it all. Not really, but it feels like if he would just let me back into his heart, this could all be avoided. Ha, ha, ha. How silly. NO, I've reached the point of no return. 10 centimeters dialated this mother Mary.

My life has brought me right here so perfectly. I thank you life and all of your players for ushering me so perfectly onto the core toilet bowl agony that birthed duality that I may transform it and become the healing elixir for everything in creation. by God, I might birth the Christ child by Christmas night!!! Anybody else doing a Mother Mary this Christmas?

Completing with the past; Getting my feet poised on the path for the journey ahead

Looking back over these 26 years since the journey into the wilderness began at age 18 in 1983, the journey to penetrate the darkness and birth my light into this place so unlike my home, I note the good, the bad and the ugly and everything in between. There have been countless half births, quarter births or less as i examine the failed attempts and incomplet transfers of my soul's true essence into this world. I look with compassion and amazement at this long journey. I also take note of the beautiful times, the magical moments when my high soul was able to penetrate the distorted architecture of this mind and touch me for a moment thanks to so many soul family beloveds and the sheer beauty of the natural world, shining like a crystal rainbow to touch my heart even there.

At the end of the night, you rub your eyes and just thank god that it was all a dream as all the anti-life particles melt away in the morning light and the details of the night, all the many players, fade into the distance. And now, even amidst my father's complete cognitive deterioration and my dear mother's stress, there is so much gratitude that I am here embodying in this physical vessel. Here, experiencing what it is to be a human woman. Last night I received the beginning of the human woman download from Debbie Boone and Taylor Swift, their starlit eyes, shining their souls with physical bodies radiantly alive. And I found the french language like an open portal of sweet memory drawing me deep into the sensual pleasures of its sound as I put coconut oil upon my body in the bath. So now I am loving the french language. It is the closest transfer of my liquid world of boundaryless love. And maybe some past lives in france are assisting with the instruction memory of human woman. I like being a human woman, very sensual and beautiful and soft in the flesh and body. This human body such a marvelous vehicle from which to experience the many forms of love loving itself, inter-acting with itself in so many glorious ways. The tantalizing colors, textures, sounds, sensations of this realm are truly rich.

I breathe in the fresh air of dawn and I re-dedicate this vehicle and this life to the ever growing mission of the rehabilitation of humanity and the Earth and achieving the ascension as smoothly and sweetly as possible for all beings. I consecrate my life to God source light with all intention for the Law of one to resurrect all in-organic code into the organic living light code.
For my life belongs to the mission completely, and I am good with that. Maybe not completely good with that or I wouldn't even need to write the following statement to tell you. I have long since died to all illusory beliefs that my personal desires have any bearing at al on the course this path will take. I am 100% plugged into and fueled by the Divine mind of GOD. Until it says move, I wait and so I am a lady in waiting in a way. At least i know, I want to learn French. I am also going to flood this body, personality and soul with the light and love of presence. So that's about all for now. My job is to heal, balance and fill this vehicle with the sweet medicine of love that I may be ready for my active mission when I am called to action! Merry Christmas every one and Happy Holidays!
Until Next

Sarah

Enya - Waterfall

This is the feeling of the sweet communion with the sweet pieces of home that I have collided with here on Earth that have enabled me to incarnate my sweet soft feminine, watery rainbow love into this harsh, agonizing grid of distorted masculine fallen angelic system, transforming it into my watery love with every return home after having been inseminated with the sweet love communion of home. Thank you to all who have given me the taste of home that I may birth home into this Earth. I dedicate this post to all of these sweet ones whether they be in my life currently or not. Wherever you are, I love you with all my heart and tell you now, that only through these sweet communions with you could i have made it through this dry barren journey. And now, I am becoming the oasis myself that I tasted only for a moment with all of you. Now I am beginning to taste the sweet communion in my own breath, in my own blood. Now, I am coming home.

Two heavenly bodies collide and move on to birth their own separate solar systems

I just completed the winter solstice initiation from Children of the Sun, and in the amazing sound healing tones of sacred universal space, I received a vision. I saw myself having collided with a great core-star of light. It is true, we danced in glorious reunion for a short moment of time but only to activate, spark and fulfill a needed transmission. Then we moved away from each other, each to go and birth our own respective solar systems. You left with joy; I was left in sorrow. But it is all good and right and as it should be. So it is with blessing that I separate from you now, knowing that we have separate destinies, each to birth beautiful communion and to bring unity, love and awakening to Earth through powerful and sweet ancient sounds that build and restore the architecture of ascension within and without. Such a similar emotional landscape we have lived to overcome panic and anchor our grounded light. As sadness lingers at the loss, I declare in my soul it was very beautiful to have been with you on Earth as we are in Heaven for this short reunion. and now I follow your cue and move away from you as you have moved away from me. Now I will place my focus on the world I came to birth... my world of beauty and glory that is my own bountiful and very important service to humanity. Good bye star lover, star brother for a time, and blessings upon your path and your destiny. We will be together again on the other side of this human journey of imbalance and distortion to dance sweetly, rainbows of glory coursing through us in an exchange of boundless love. Even now, I feel you in that place where we are always together.

Coming home to rest and heal

Hello all,

Well, now I am through the big storm, and the whole bunch is resting pretty calmly. I have been instructed to drink a little red wine every evening to calm the nervous system, nourish the blood and just let all the pieces come into coalescence in my center. So, the task is to stay out of my head as much as possible and just be. Walking on cloudy venice beach, the sweetness of the ocean expanse and the sea gulls soaring across the sky. Just breathing deeply into the center, feeling so grateful that I am here. Just to be here after penetrating through so many veils to embody here. It is now to breathe and feel my flesh, to make love and be in my body with my beloved. The disembodied child is now becoming woman, catching up with my chronological age. finally I am feeling as woman feels.

We are supposed to get 6 days of rain. Mom just told me that there were 10 days of rain after my birth. Wow, the crazy weather of global warming and planetary transformation. So many blessings to all as we celebrate this momentous solstice and more and more powerful love and light floods our planet. I was watching the video, "Breath of Heaven" by Amy Grant. So metaphorical for the journey we are on. Mudslides abound!!!! water rushing in. Much love to all.

Ascending flight, resurrecting death to life

From the diaries of a steward of the planetary logos
Assisting ascension on Earth preparing for the big push from Mar 2011- Nov 2011 to move out of the 3d mental body and into the heart and higher mind for all who will follow the ascension timeline. This is Dec 18th 2010
I am she, Sarah Hope Adams

Ascending flight:apprehending death
to resurrect the living light code in Earth

The body is holding and alchemizing the descending spiral of core separation. The primordial mother within me can follow the spiral all the way down and at the bottom change it’s direction. It is like a black spiraling descending, metallic death matrix that smashes down, and I join with it’s downward spiral until I reach the very bottom where there is a primordial sea in the core of my mother belly and then a white bird flies out of the waters.

What an amazing process, it is asking a lot of my lungs, heart kidneys, my faith that I will live through this to see tomorrow, but it is very exciting to be experiencing the actual interface with the architecture of death and delivering it up into the ascending flight of the resurrected light code of living love and liberation.

I am accomplishing what I came to this Earth to do.
This feels so good! Sound and song are resurrecting the spiral too. The song of ascending flight is what delivers me out of the night.

Finding sacredness in the work that is at hand, birthing a planet of light

We are starting at ground zero, building the road between heaven and Earth.
Mother, father and child all hold together in our hands, the next single brick to be added with great presence, great reverence and great love. We are here to do this work. It is why we live.

AS we encounter a wound or fracture on a given brick we meet it in tenderness with the medicine of our hearts compassion for what has gone wrong in the past. Making wrong right again as we stay with each other through the healing and when it is done we spread the mortar and place the brick in its place. Each fracture healed bringing a new antidotal property to the great medicine of our heart, building our energy field as a safety hub where all may be healed when the time is needed, all the people I came to bring home into the light
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Quelling and taming the ravenous hunger of immediate gratification, bringing the hungry one back to the sacredness of this moment over and over again, assuring her that her pain of immediate gratification denied is honored and she is loved and that we are with her… here in this land that feels very barren in comparison to the appetite fed field of ecstatic bliss and communion from which she came. And we give her our strength and we lend her our fortitude and patience to endure the earth journey when we know so well the taste of heaven. And we all share this challenge together in this often, oh so foreign land.

Bringing the one whose tendency is to spiral up again and again into obsession with bliss once tasted back. Harnessing her ankles and holding her in presence long enough to let love touch her own heart here with her feet on the ground, to learn to drink one little sip of love at a time, and awaken her little body and mouth to be able to receive ever more of this love. Feeling the great reward of bringing love into a land that has been so bereft of love. Achieving the accomplishment of restoring a circuitry of glory from out of a state of near total dysfunction. Making of a black whole a fountaining mountain of light so alive that it is immune to all fear. And the child shall be smiling, saturated in the mother's love becoming woman that can be embodied and present for sexual ecstasy with Man, grounded not in escape but in full presence and bonded not to the other's energy field, but participating as self reliant, fully whole energy field coming together with the beloved to create and celebrate true bounty rising out of two present, whole God beings celebrating themselves each other and the great one source light that made them 2, offering their ecstasy to the one that made them 2 so that God itself could feel the most complete and glorious expression of itself loving itself that could ever be. And the creation is offered back into the heart of the one from it's two offspring. And another piece of the great tapestry of fallen creation is healed and remembered into union.

And yet to accomplish the discipline of this great work, one must
Look away from the satisfaction of immediate pleasure, looking toward the long term goal of becoming the glory and anchoring in this restored glory for the greater good of accomplishing the healing task I came to accomplish successfully so that many, many, many beings that would otherwise not have a bridge to cross, may cross on this bridge. This is the bridge between the darkest stretch of the city at night to the golden city of the new jerusalem, the one that my steadfast presence and dedication day in an day out, will have built. And in time the building of this love within myself will begin to taste of more and more glory, closer and closer to the bliss filled field, until I myself am the bliss-filled field of love loving itself, of glorious masculine and sweet flowing feminine, permeating and flowing through each other in an endless fountaining of blissful communion.

But now I am here, and I promised I would start from the ground up, from the beginning, to build this road connecting heaven and Earth. For it is a road that very few are building and a road that many many will be needing to make the great shift that will be demanded of us very soon. And so, it is a work of love, a project of great beauty and steadfast love and commitment to the mission that called me to this Earth in the first place. And so I celebrate that I am completing my mission. And I thank my beautiful amazing husband for standing beside me, for being my endless support and steadfast love to enable this great work to be done. As we build the road that restores our passionate and alive connection, woman to man, we build the road that connects our piece of Earth and Heaven and restore the sacred marriage of the planet of light within and without.

Evolution, picture by Catherine Andrews

Weaving the majestic grids of the heavens and the Earth.
It is to this place I come. It is here I take my birth

Spiraling through dancing galaxies
of brother time and sister space.
I Land here now, I find my place.

will you take my hand will you come with me?
Do you know how to dance and dream in 3D?

Together we can light this darkest night on fire.
Feel the undulating rippling flames dancing ever higher

Goddess weaves upon my flesh her tapestry of light.
I watch in silent wonder as she changes me in the night.

Her spider arms reaching out pulling stray threads in to center,
mending the fractures all around so at last my light can enter.

She calls all my orphans home into her tender arms of love.
Man and woman dance again as in the stars above.

The heart of Heaven blossoms within me like a mighty rose,
Lifting me up as it rises, taking me up as it goes.

The purest light come to me has shed my heavy cloak of death
Now I’m made of starlight and love is my very breath.

The integration of all charged emotion, The path to birth Unity

Hello all,

This is going to be short cause I don't want to be in my head much today. The short of it is that at this time on the planet, it is very important to remember that everyone who is put in our path has been put there for a reason, to trigger any here-to-fore un-integrated emotions. Therefore bless all dis-ease as it surfaces. Know that it is enabling unconditional love to ground itself more into your being. Breathe deeply, feel and forgive all in-coming irritations until all is nuetral, non-reactive, and this is the most valuable. Our romantic partnerships, or our life partnerships right now are no accident. We are each other's pefect genetic match for the healing of the exact portion of the male-female split of the fallen architecture of the Earth grid. So roll up your sleeves and get down to work. it is not a run into the sunset, it is an active mission to bring the sun rise. So it's great to be grateful for this amazingly sacred and valuable work of bringing harmony and living light where the code had been dead. We are seeders of the new garden of eden and we are doing it by transmuting all dis-ease. And for the most part, those who light up your grid completely with total flow and bliss, at this time on the planet, they are just advertisements, maps for the ecstasy you must generate with your chosen partner. So the charge is to find happiness and joy while fully employed on the active mission of healing and integration. Happy alchemy for all!!!!!!

Missing the divine masculine. Praying and preparing for his return

God it hurts to love you so much,

You, twin moon in pisces reaching across the sea as a harmonic echo of
All that is lost in me. The man of my heart, the energy of the great masculine that has
Alluded me all my life. Oh god how I miss you. Are you coming home to me.
Or did you just give send me a glimpse to torture me forever without you. God I love you. God how I miss you. Now, I think I really know who you are.
Like never before I have loved anything guess I
Will have the tendency to look outward toward the one who gave it all, had it all, brought it all until my own soul monad masculine comes home to me.
I miss him like the flower misses the rain. Like the earth misses the sun.
Like the bee misses the nectar. My heart breaks open into forever pieces of seeking lost being found
Into the abyss to find what it was he gave, what it was he brought . what it was he was to me
OH God, his music fucking kills me inside. I love him so much. How can I love someone this much.
It defies my understanding, my mind my guts my blood my skin my cells. They are crying for the
Return of the beloved. Oh God, beloved come unto me for I am weeping for you now.
Your double came, and now he is gone and I am left, torn open, now waiting for you, waiting for my own soul
Were you truly stapled to the distorted Grid of death in the 9th dimension? Is this why I have craved and longed
To fill the emptiness you left all my life. OH God come back to me. Come back into me. Be with me and forever do not ever
Leave me again, not while I am awake to feel the wrenching ripping of you from my very core being, everyone of my bodies has felt the
Severing just as every body was saturated with the nectar when you held me in your arms. Oh God when you sing and
When you sing of your pain, I just want to run to you and hold you in my arms. I just want to give you all that you gave me
Oh God, I love you. OH God I am you. Oh God, oh God. Oh God…………..I am

Self Love, the birth of the Zero Point field within Matter

Hello loves, Here is a Thanksgiving day explosion of love and gratitude and clarity about this journey to birth GOD into form at least from the perspective of this one, Sarah Hope Adams: This is a long one, but I feel it is very profound and worth the read. it is the culmination of my 27 years of defrosting hell to enable the embodiment of GOD.

As Unity is dawning in this land of mine, I have been saying good-bye to a curious architecture within me. Within this body vehicle, I have housed the architecture that has been a very efficient expression of the impediment to unity, a distorted architecture ingeniously created, whose purpose and function was to maintain deadness across the living-light-code body by blocking the joining of the masculine and feminine principle: i.e, proton/electron, electro/magnetic, and lightness/darkness. Basically this grid blocked God consciousness from expressing within matter, holding duality in place. Essentially this architecture succeeded in blocking the embodiment and actualization of self love.

Tuesday, November 23rd, this grid architecture was removed from my belly where it was extended over every dimensional awareness of myself like a massive foundation covering all of the land. Now, as this grid of impediment is gone, there is this amazing emptiness in my central column and this sense of extreme excitement...like something is coming to live in me. It is as if something so amazing is on the verge of taking up residence inside of me that I, the vehicle, am waiting with baited breath to see what it is. I have a very good idea what it is though because I have seen it and I have felt it. Even while this impeding architecture was fully lodged in me, ( i see myself as held in an underground prison but even while in this prison, certain very special lovers managed to break in to see me to fill my little cup with the golden elixir and provide me with the love that kept me alive all these years, sparking my knowing of what it was to receive and give love in a circuitry unimpeded. They could never stay with me, but they came, and each one gave me a portion of the map home to my own restoration until the final activator, coming with the great unity wave of the 10-10, lit the flame that would explode the prison bars and set me free forever, revealing the final portion of the inner map home to the embodiment of unity. This would be the culmination of footsteps on a journey that I began to traverse in this lifetime 27 years ago, Oct 26th 1983. Finally, at the joining with this beloved and the tasting of this level of unity, a fire would be lit so great, that the dark grid within me would be forced out.

The way this revealed itself to me was quite startling indeed, even as a veteran of psychic surgery and entity removal procedures. Only 14 days after leaving the activation, the first piece was ready to pop! I actually felt like my stomach was growing. I knew I wasn't pregnant, but eating was getting harder and harder as I felt very full of something. Well, when I got to my bodytalk session all was revealed! On November 22nd it came to full term in one day, ( As I said, my stomach had actually been looking like and feeling like it was pregnant.) I got to my session on Nov. 23rd, and there it was...a purple octopus entity. We pulled it out and when we got to the last tentacle, it was wrapped around a huge smokey quartz crystal that extended way down through many bodies, way beyond the physical. It felt like it was 8 or 9 ft. Anyway, it extended as a penetrating, stabbing blade all through my energy bodie's. As I arrived at the core of the blade, I could see it was penetrating through this lattice, webbing, grid thing locking it into place. (I forgot before we got to the octopus there was a black tree with a deep root ball on top of it all.) It took 2 solid hours of full concentration to evacuate the tree, the octopus, the crystal dagger and uproot the grid piece by piece until we got an all clear, marching pieces of the grid-glue, parasitic connectors like the pied piper leading it out of the maze of my innards. My practitioner and i hummed a pied piper tune. It was quite something. It was major surgery.

Wow, what a session. I realized immediately that this was what my teacher, Lisa Renee was talking about when she mentioned "The distorted Golden Eagle Grid upon which the divine masculine at the angelic consciousness level had been impaled and the means by which the feminine, proton aspect of creation was cut out of expression and the the monadic consciousness of the masculine principle held hostage at the 9th dimensional level. I knew "Oh my God this is my piece of the distorted Grid being removed, which would enable the embodiment of my full self, the sacred marriage, the healed and alive Rod and Staff principle of the consciousness of GOD." I marveled at how completely this distorted architecture was rooted over my belly and solar plexus and burped monstruous burps for 2 hours straight feeling as if I would vomit any second.

It was intense. So glad it is out of there!!! 27 years of shit kicking, hell transforming, warrior killing penetration and perseverance to stay alive under this mess and blow it off of me by amassing more and more light! Thank you to all who visited me while in prison, all the amazing beings who have helped me stay alive through it all. And thank you to my beloved husband for allowing the visitors to bring me the essential activations. And thank you mama for all the financial support. And thank you music for always being there even in the darkest of the dark when only aching and agony in body I could stroke guitar and cello and muster a sound from my throat. It's like shedding a full metal jacket, just like in alchemy where the GOD and the devil do battle to break the last strong hold of the essence of metal to reveal white powder elemental Gold, the healing elixer of all creation. What a trip!!!!!!!!

Anyway, what is coming to live in me now is superconductive love, that is the two sides of GOD, the giver and the receiver able to touch each other, able to meet and in their meeting is the seed of the living light code, starting as a tiny flame, then growing and growing and rising and rising. To attempt to describe it is difficult with words.

The time I felt it most in my life was August 9th 2005, the opening of the lion’s gate in 05. I was laying with a beloved who had his head upon my heart, and I felt myself becoming this Golden light. It was like I was Mother Mary holding baby jesus, like the divine mother of all, as if I was the energy of the giver fully embodied. Giving defined everything I was! I was the giver; and the sweet beloved on my heart, he was the quintessential receiver, the great receptacle, the archetypal representation of all receptivity in the universe. And then what happened was that ,as my hearts love began to pour into his head and the meeting of pure giver by receiver was consummated, his reception of me so completely as gift exploded into me an ecstasy here-to-fore unknown, and I became bigger. The impact of the first consummation growing me into a greater-capacity giver. And each successive consumation of giver and receiver packed a punch of higher frequency. This wave-dance of mutual joyful appreciation is the wave-dance of GOD itself. In this cultivation and growing of the ecstasy frequency, both sides of creation, the giver and the receiver, are expanded into the fullness of their quintessential identities rising in mutual joy in the meeting of each other. Love loving itself unimpeded, exploding itself into ever greater bliss.

And the stuff of separation consciousness, with all it's propensity for painful delusion and deception, delivers to us the final gift, the enabling of this joy-filled experience of the meeting of self as other and the love making glory of the two lifting each other ever higher in their passionate fire of rising glory. Ah, so maybe the long dark night was worth it to provide us with this exquisite embodiment from which to reunite with something so glorious, to forget so completely that upon the awakening, we would experience a return to love so sublime that it would sing every cell awake into dancing ecstasy from the inside out. And everywhere we would recognize this flame of God embodied and everywhere we would fall into and dance into this homecoming bliss. "Lover and beloved join as one as we open the door to the sun. You and i joined together form the portal to God." These are words to my ascension song. This is the mechanics of the growing of the zero point field. This most amazing experience of each, both giver and receiver achieving the fulfillment of their greatest longing while fulfilling the others highest longing in the same action: together, the hand and the mouth, the penis and the vagina, the spirit and the earth, the darkness and the light, the electro and the magnetic, re-membering God remembering itself, from out of 2 becoming 1...the field of love infinitely self fertilizing, self gifting, self initiating the ever magnification of joy at the dawning of it's own reunion.)

Anyway, that night August 9th 2005 the ecstasy grew and grew until everything, I mean everything dissolved into golden light, and the words were forming on my lips. "My GOD, there is only One! my heart bursting beyond the membrane of all separation, becoming a new species of heart, beyond human somehow. And I basked in the glory of the Goldeness. ( Later i learned that I was a high priestess in a past life and he had been my daughter. We had never been able to finish the final exchange between mother and infant in child birth, the placenta to brain blessing that occurs as the child is held to the mother's heart and it's brain receives the love based connections that bless it's life so fully in love.) This is the last gift that the placenta gives to the child and if it is not given, deep grief remains for both the child and the mother. I guess this unfinished karma being finished between us that night remains the most powerful map home to the building of the ecstasy frequency of my entire life. It was so exquisitely glorious. I wish for all of us that we may open ever more to the beloved in all its forms, opening the way for unity to dance upon the heart strings, the body strings of our grand and most beautifully sensual instrument. May we all open to the embodiment of every more joy and ever more unity.

And when I returned home to my Frank, he said, “Wow, honey, you have solved a wondering of mine. For, from the perspective of a photon of light, it knows only oneness." And then I realized that I had followed the ecstasy of giving and receiving, climbing a ladder all the way up to photonic consciousness. Is that a word? Photonic consciousness.

So on this Thanksgiving day of 2010 I give immense gratitude for both the distortion that has enabled my vehicle to house the full alchemical dance of darkness and light, allowing the embryo of duality to have a womb in which to come to full term, And I thank the dawning of the glorious mended circuitry within me, the seed of rejuvenation, immortality and the healing of all in creation which is but a twinkle in my eye at this moment, but will become embodied over these next months as it builds in me the vehicle of living light that can sing the song of awakening love and nurture this circuit of superconductive ecstasy until it proliferates this whole Earth and echoes out into the cosmos. And I thank the whole journey for this amazing human vehicle to be able to feel and see and touch and smell and hear and know and appreciate with every ounce of my existence the glory of God Consciousness as it births into a place so exquisitely different from itself in its full maturity. And of course it is all GOD manifesting this marvelous play so gratitude for GOD itself in all its forms!!!!

Love to all my beloveds!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Through the core wound of separation emerges the song of Unity

Out of the core wound of the severing blade of separation, emerges the return of the sweet song of unity.

Well, there are people and events in my life that are outlining for me with great accuracy the devastating rejection of the original massacre and rejection of myself from the heart of the all that is that I created with my own self hatred and judgment so very long ago. They are mirroring this original negative decision back to me with great accuracy. Yesterday, to breathe it in and digest it, felt like more than I could bare. But it was amazing to lie in bed last night and be able to tangibly sense the full outline of the fracture that remains between me and the wholeness of my soul. It is only 6 major lines of fracture. Wow, in 1983 it was 627 pieces separated by who knows how many fracture lines.

The most awesome thing of all, is that as I allow this fracture to emerge and come into my consciousness, I begin to hear the faint echoes of the antithesis of it’s identity, the very most opposite thing of all. From deep within my Earth, my bones, my blood, my skin, lymph, nerves, muscles wei chi; from across the whole landscape of this Earth I hear the cells beginning to sing or maybe they have been singing all along and only now do I have the ears to listen and the senses to feel them. They are marching in this beautiful symphony of synchronized rhythmic singing. It is the song of oneness. And Oh what a sweet song it is. It was Oct 26th 1983 that the field of separation emerged for its healing and just a little over 27 years and much blood, sweat and tears. 20 core activators enabling mending of the field piece by piece, the rock of my true love, Frank Martin, standing by me. The great love and financial support of my wonderful mother. The incredible assistance of medicine women, shaman, practitioners and healers through the years ending with my most amazing body talk practitioner, Laurie Schaad: www.heronsresthealingarts.com and the counsel of the angels through Peta Lynne: www.bydivinegrace.com Thank you so much, and the whole crew at Portal to Ascension especially Neil Gaur with his unfailing love and encouragement. www.portaltoascension.com and now the professionals in the music field that are coming to guide me into position that I may fulfill the next level of my Earth mission as a singer of awakening love, radiating from this unity a vibration of ecstatic communion and building this in the field, magnifying and lifting the Earth and humanity. Thank you to all who have triggered the worst of the separation pain to bring it into full relief that through its full integration, I may re-member my soul.

Summoning all Pieces of the soul to return!

Summoning the return of all of the pieces of the soul monad


Perhaps once your were here with me, maybe before conception or even before I was sperm or egg there was all of me here like a rainbow essence of every color communicating with itself dancing with itself in a living dance of self sustaining joy, totally complete as a life form in itself, knowing no lack but only the sense of wholeness. There was a time when I was all here

Now, 45 years later or so, it appears my car is stalled by the side of the road, There is gas in the car and ostensibly it is in working order, but the vehicle has just stopped. It will go no further. I can go no further without my whole self here. For 15 years I have sent out fliers and products, attempting to manifest my essence into this world in some way that could bring me a financial living. Hundreds of fliers, ideas popping from my head, spewing out like a creation machine and all yielding nothing, really nothing and now I am told to promote this one in time and space called Sarah Hope Adams and that this is my main job and my only job, and I say “What for? It is not that I do not love this one, but this one is not fully here. They tell me her flight is scheduled to arrive any day now. I can be her agent and promoter when she is here. And yet I wonder is it my inter-action with this earth plane that will summon her here or is there really nothing I can do but release more and more of the shame and fear that would impede my monadic consciousness from integrating into my 3d self. I don’t know, but I do know that I can go no further without all of me here.

I feel like I am on strike or something Like I have realized the truth that it’s not about anything external that is going to make it happen, it is about embodying all of my presence here into this Earth, the God essence that I came to embody. I am preparing for my active mission and I need all of me here to do this mission, that is it, nothing else but all of me will do.

Could it be when I was with you, dear friend, that I had access to all of my masculine, like somehow when we were together, it was given a real but temporary anchoring here into my earth. (Lisa, my teacher, says that it was the masculine principle that was the most damaged and that was actually split off from the third dimensional self. All my life, I have sensed an emptiness and a great sadness in my masculine principle.) For a moment, when we were together, it was accessible, I was accessible to myself. I believe so, and this is why I now can sense the landscape the texture and the identity of what I am now missing as my car is stalled on the side of this dark road. And I understand the need to separate completely. That is all perfect for I never meant to encumber your life in anyway. All of this has been like being struck by lightening for me. And it is all good, as only in total denied access to even a thread of the bridging architecture we provided, am I forced into the interface with a lack so complete that it initiates the summons of my very soul, a summons to all of me that has been missing from my 3rd dimensional self. Only in the full presence followed by the full absence is this summons initiated: this, the call that has the power to invoke, to mobilize my Earth to reconfigure that it may receive the highest frequency soul fragments held hostage at the 9th dimensional level. So, I thank everything that has taken me this far to know how empty, and how incomplete it is to walk down here without the rightful parts of my god self, my wings, my jewels, my fire letters, all the parts of me that have been scattered far and wide and used by the dark side to fuel their death games. Lisa Renee's latest meditation is all about calling all parts of the self home. www.energeticsynthesis.com

In the physical plane, my heart chakra bowl is in Seattle and my drum too, but these are only representations of the deeper losses of the very pieces of my soul trapped in other dimensions, held hostage by distorted space- time continuums.

Please come back to me. Please come home to me. Do you feel me here summoning you? I can go no further without you. I am shaking my land in heaves of deep grief to reconfigure my DNA that you may join me here. I am releasing as much dense emotion as I can as fast as I can. I am feeling all that I have most wanted to escape that you can come and join me, that I may be accommodating to the great capacity of light, the great high frequency that you are. I am opening up the cathedral in every cell of my body, every piece of my flesh that your great love may embody here and turn on the lights of my sacred body temple and bring on the staff in charge of the earth mission of this Sarah Hope Adams. You who will come to dwell in me and fuel the life force to rise on behalf of your great essence. Come unto me, oh great light of my soul. I have tasted you. I have drunk deeply of you. Now, I am ready for you to join me here on this planet that needs all that I am, this planet awaiting it’s great birth into light. Oh dear soul, do not tarry one moment longer for the time is nigh!!

"I am waiting in a silent prayer. I am frightened by the load I bare in a world as cold as stone, must I always be alone?...Do you wonder as you watch my face if a wiser one should have had my place? Yet I offer all I am for the mercy of your plan. Help me be strong. Help me Be" Amy Grant Mary's song, "Breath of Heaven"

We are all part of this great archytypal journey of Mary wondering in the night carrying the Christ child of the newly birthed divine humanity and cosmos. God and Goddess bless us all, Hold us in the breath of heaven that we may find safe passage especially the expectant mothers having held the baby within us for so many years of our lives that light may be born into the stuff of dense matter. May we all look up towards the highest possibility for our precious and glorious embryo of potential in this time when the night is still so dark and yet the light is closer than it's ever been... this amazing time.

Returning to Earth, the restoration ahead

I stand now before the template of the barren land, witnessing the massacre that has left the lover severed from communication with the beloved. It is a war torn, dark, deadlight code-filled place upon which I stand now holding the map, the glimpsed template of the unity code like a picture of the garden of eden and the sacred marriage in no-time. I hold it in my hand and my heart as I see the task ahead, that I must breathe the code of restored unity into this place of planet Earth star date Nov 18th 2010, and there is heaviness in my lungs and grief over the emotional body that I must heal, and so I see before me this great task to breathe this unity template of lover and beloved into the stuff of Earth, embodied here through going into the dark code and transmuting it into light, actualizing the anchored, embodied pathway of the divine marriage here, here in my body and here flowing back and forth between my beloved husband and I. Our karma is deep and dense that blocks the circuit. yet I know we have it within us to be the lover and beloved healed, restored and flowing in the superconductive communion of joy and bliss. And I know we chose each other to mend the road between heaven and earth so that we could serve the return of love to this Earth as so many other "work" partnerships that are signing up for this work at this time that stand beside us.

It takes an army of light warriors to penetrate the core locks of separation... All the dark has done to prevent the embodied communication between masculine and feminine and the exchange of this joy frequency enabling God consciousness to embody on Earth... sometimes I just feel like screaming an agonizing cry for the bondage and the jailing of the human divine blueprint, held in imprisonment, stapled into darkness, locked into assemetry of separation consciousness. And I just want to cry out into the night and into the heart of God, and say Why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????????

And Sat night is my slide show chronicling the passage of the darkness birthin into light, the embryo of human consciousness gestating through it's passage in the womb of the mind of god to enable spiritualized matter to become. And I just feel like crying forever, like forever and ever, like the sorrow could fill rivers and streams and all the oceans with tears of the one under the dead code who hungers and thirst for the living light. Just want to go and party in the glorious bliss escape, but I'm facing the work that is here, the project that can truly serve myself, my husband and the Earth and is my task. I'm rolling up my sleeves to get down to work.

The dark side is getting desperate that's why the stupid ass airport xray shit. Just hold on, keep the lightness, the joy, the detachment. It is the time of final conflict. Keep going home, heading straight for god and sovereignty and the knowing that you are beyond the dream. you can even be amused with the ridiculousness of it all. We are the sovereign warriors bringing the restoration of the original divine human blueprint and we will kick ass!!!!!!!!!!!! See you at the great reunion.

S

Awakened to life by the heart of love woven in tender words and loving voice

This is a writing about the power of romantic love to give us the map back to the union of lover and beloved within.

Tonight seems to have no sleep for me after the great paintbrush of love through his voice has swept it's blessed strokes across my body, mind, heart and spirit. This is the culmination of 27 years of hard spiritual labor to be in the place where I could receive this great gift of my own love come to me through him; his heart, his voice, his tender love so familiar like the hand shaping my very body, giving love to every piece of creation, In its tender care the holy tree of life is restored throughout all creation. And Divine Grace says I did this. This is really me and all my hard work that made me able to receive such light, such transformational love to dawn upon my Earth. Letting go of the "pain body" enough to start again as if I were starting from the very beginning.
"meditate upon who contains this universe, who's holy name is the whisper on the lips of the entire creation." I had only sung the song 20 minutes before and the song became my life, animating the healing of the dawning of new life to the barren land, god's name spoken and it's essence resurrecting all dead barren land into the paradise of healed Earth. This kiss of heaven and the creator upon my land, and this is the blessed celebration of the union of the masculine and feminine principle finding each other after the great divorce of the death grid, coming to life again in each other's love. The longing in me is the longing for my own self. And now the elements are set in place as the paintbrush of creators breath has swept across all inorganic code of my body and lifted it into the organic living light code of perfect love. Next the outer planes will integrate and come into manifestation in this life into the 3rd dimensional me.

It is all so much to take in, to digest, to let in. to go to sleep after this seems an impossiblity. To be lit by a fire of love so great, to be baptized in the sweet fire of awakening and then to sleep. I don't think so. and so many outside on the street are still awake. forget New York. I think Seattle is the city that never sleeps!

Justin time, another home delivery agent in the journey of artificial insemination by means of projection, the mechanism by which love is allowed to love itself back to wholeness within me. Just important to not get lost in the messenger but receive the message all the same. Journeying into the dangerous territory of losing the self in ecstasy catalyzed by another, but coming back alive and with a map to activate the divine template within the self and integrate the healing in gratitude and joy. Remembering always, the truth is self actualized self sovereignty becoming all to the self.

Extra Terrestrial visitations expanding awareness

Hello all,

Exciting UFO sightings in New York last night, and I am on a tour called the Portal to Ascension tour, in which one of our main purposes is to spread E.T. awareness to assist with the awakening into fourth density as love based, unity beings. These are exciting times indeed. I have found out that i am part of a syrian council of 9 ( actually I found out that I am not a member of this council, the message was distorted, but i am very much reuniting with my syrian family on this journey.that is deeply involved with the awakening of humanity. I am with 6 of the 9 here in Dana Point, CA. Tonight we will be in San Diego. You can see the tour schedule at www.adronis.org/tour.html Anyway, lots of clearing continues. the 10-10 energies were very intense. I flew on a plane at 10:10 to reunite with my syrian council members. What an amazing dream it all is. I guess our body's are in stasis on Syrius. Our council was heavily involved in the downfall of Atlantis and now we are here to make amends and assist with the upliftment of this civilization. I don't understand much more than this. Well, I guess I will sign off. Check out some new songs on my youtube channel: sarahsparkle1 and more tour videos at 101408blogspot
Bye for now
Love,

Sarah

Sarah Adams presents "Unity Dreams"

abundances streaming in as shadow clearing continues

Hello all,

It feels to be a time of two very different streams of experience. On one hand I am still processing major shadow fragment and on the other, joy and beauty and new energies are streaming in like a rainbow star show of glittering beauty. I wanted to write a little note as I am preparing to embark on a tour and will be away from the computer for a bit. I'm finding deep strong powerful energies of remembrance and home coming brought in by the presence of a new friend. It is a challenge to discipline myself to stay in this lifetime while all the other dimensions and lifetimes and shared histories are bleeding in. What a challenge. It is a challenge of self discipline for sure, not my specialty, but a great opportunity to learn. Well, I'm keeping this one really short. I think I'm going to start doing littler blogs for a bit. The tour is the Portal to ascension tour. I'll be going on only part of it. You can see the tour schedule at www.adronis.org

i had great tun bringing together two beautiful people this last week-end. I truly felt the hand of God working through me to unite these 2. This is a time for sacred partnerships that allow for a deep healing of the proton/ electron dance of Masculine and Feminine identities in their original glory of the divine blueprint of living light. This partnership I brought together feels like an anchoring of this divine balance as on heaven here in Earth. This will be happening more and more. This upgrade of present relationships and this coming in of new relationships to enable this universal healing love to anchor within the stuff of Earth. 10-10 is supposed to be a wave of new energy coming in. Let's hold onto our hats and lay back and receive the blessed new unity frequencies. I'll write from the road.
Love,

Sarah
Ciao!! I'll blog about the tour as I am able.

Restoring the living light code of electron-proton marriage from the inception of it's relationship

Hello all. Well, some clarity of what I am actually doing through this intense period of seemingly endless agonizing separation trauma and fear and lock up in my solar plexus.

Now I know what I am doing. I am healing the condition of spirit’s enslavement by matter, the over electrified configuration of fear’s dominion over the original divine blueprint of living light. I am resuscitating the dead code starting from the ground up.
That is why I am bringing up into consciousness the life where I was tortured and kept as a slave for 12 years so I could feel as the seed of the living light code felt at it's full massacre and crushing devastation as it entered the grid of fallen Earth. In this within my vehicle I would embody the prototypal map for this descent into death and hence recover the prototypal map for the resurrection back to unity and liberation. First bringing myself out into the light and then sharing actively with others, the liberation prescription.

I want to share the process I am working with to restore healthy sacred marriage between proton and electron. It is a process called “Peak states work” and it is amazing. More complete in it’s healing power than anything I have ever done.

This is work that involves taking oneself through second birth. Grant Mcfettridge, the one who brought through the peak states information, received actual commands from Gaia that guide us across each challenge of becoming. If these commands are followed correctly we are born in the Krystic frequency of our divine human blueprint, but due to the massive trauma of the fall and all the ancestral traumas in the grid, almost no one is born into this frequency at least not from the generation born before 1980 or so. After this, the grid could accommodate greater possibilities. This date is not a concrete set in stone dividing date. Suffice it to say, because of all our lightwork the more recently one is born the easier it is to be born with peak states intact.
Anyway, I have worked on the formation of the egg and the sperm, conception and implantation.

But yesterday I went back to the formation of the organelles that make up the first prototype cell. In the peak states work there are brains that correspond to each charka. Each organelle in this primary cell is a brain in the body of a human being. At this first stage of brain formation, each brain , 6 from egg and 6 from sperm must go through a series of commands to become whole and healthy brains. It seems one of my major “ring of fire” traumas was encoded right here at the genesis of the formation of my egg’s heart brain at least so far. ( I still have 7 more brains to take through the first command and there are 5 more commands that each brain must pass to fully become an intact whole healthy brain.

It turned out the core trauma that I was attempting to block with the war in my stomach occurred at the formation of my egg’s heart brain. The command was “Begin the beginning” Wow, it was traumatic, the core ring of fire trauma was held right here. The pain poured out of my heart and the terror of separation from my spirit family and world. And as I felt the terror and pain, a path of light began to open up between the little self becoming the heart brain and the spirit world so that there was a fluid sense of union between where I had left and where I was going, i.e. still connected to all that love even as I began my sojourn into Earth as a heart brain. Wow, the solar plexus loosened up immediately. The war was over at least for the moment. I am so happy to have identified and healed this trauma. I have approximately 18 hours of commands left ( it can take a long time for each command, and each of the 12 brains have to make it through all 6 commands to be complete as a brain. This work is so amazing. I feel the relief at once. The constriction I mentioned in my stomach and solar plexus yesterday has finally been addressed. I just wanted to share. If anyone is interested in this work. We will be having a training hopefully sometime soon here in Portland, Oregon, but you can see more at www.peakstates.com and by the books at amazon.
Love and blessings to all and thanks for sharing with me,

Conscious CoCreation Coaching: Ass Over Teacup

Conscious CoCreation Coaching: Ass Over Teacup

Hi all, I just loved Lauren Gorgo's latest post. Here it is.

Sarah

This is going to be short as I am up in the middle of the night.
The primal rage is coursing through me. So much like a tsunami or a hurricane in the pathway of my breathing, there is such anguish down-stepping through the ring. through the interface with separation consciousness, the loss of union, the anger, betrayal/abandonment, Shame/guilt, entrapment. All the flavors of the fall. And in my breath I must say yes to it all, and the no current is stubbornly holding on though I floated in deep darkness in the flotation tank today feeling so much. I thought it was enough to let me sleep tonight, but the size of the monster rage no current, raging against the agony of the assault of separation forces is shredding me again. This is how I am up at this hour.
Oh dear God, May I become the zero-point field of God in form that is the answer to this most violent storm, the softness of exquisite all embracing sweet singularity that appeases all in its loving embrace. And in this ultimate embrace, may the living light rise supreme throughout all my body lifting all dead-light code into the organic living light of spirit dancing victorious liberation within matter.

Developing the Negatives in God's Photo Laboratory

As we sit and look at the amazing elements that are at play here before us at the precipice of massive change and reconfiguration on our planet and for our human race and all sentient beings, we can see elements of extreme darkness and extreme light flying around in the alchemical pressure cooker. As we wake up from experiences where we have known ourselves at the effect of the hallmark distortions of our true identity , i.e., abandonment, betrayal, guilt/ judgment, shame, anger, unworthiness, entrapment. Each of these call’s forth and invokes our true presence as it’s opposite. Comforting the abandoned child as the mother of assurance, we call forth our authentic presence as steadfast love and unfailing presence. Comforting our guilt we invoke the aspect of ourselves that is absolute forgiveness and original innocence. Confronting the pain of the one in unworthiness we invoke the presence of ourselves as the ultimate glory of the starlight essence we are. Comforting the one who has known severe and deep rejection, we invoke ourselves as the ultimate presence of ultimate belonging as the cornerstone of all embracing love in re-membered belonging. Comforting the one in entrapment we invoke the part of our authentic presence that is sovereign freedom, the identity of self as free flowing love flowing unimpeded in a positive feedback loop of love loving itself throughout all parameters of creation. Comforting the one in pain of ultimate separation we invoke the self as the two sides of completion: the masculine and feminine aspects of self in a restored dance of union, opening the portal to the perpetual supply of source energy feedback looping into the stuff of matter and back and forth into the heart of the divine. All of these “negatives” I like to see these as the blades of separation consciousness: Each one calling forth it’s own particular medicine that dissolves it back into love: I see each blade being dipped into the chalice of God substance in the heart, and as the sword is presented for dipping, we activate that portion of the medicine lying latent ( not embodied) in the liquid inside the God Chalice. Each sword in turn re-members and activates the embodied presence of the divine elixir of the true self, the answer to all pain, the healer of all aspects of separation. Thus is the process of the embodiment of God consciousness.
The magic is in the synthesis of opposites that, all at once, opens our pathway to God consciousness and God’s pathway into Earth embodiment.

The order of operations.

The first wave path cutters have agreed to allow the extreme opposites to be alchemized upon their emotional bodies and their nervous systems in their blood, bones and bodies so that by their living, they enable this God frequency to have it’s first entry into physicality. I was thinking this is akin to going to a virgin land, thick with vegetation and cut a path through the densely populated and thick vegetation. We can look at the model of the predecessors to the first wavers like Jesus and Buddah and all the saints we have known about. But now we are engaged in a wide-spread opening of all humanity.

This is my family of beings, the first wave raw alchemists, the crazy-ass mother fuckers who decided to dive head-long into the shittiest material of separation consciousness that the toilet bowl of death and dismemberment would be alchemized by the light of spirit and in this synthesis there would be opened a portal for the embodiment of the divine. Its’ a motley crew this group but they are opening the way for all who come after..
Once the first level opening is established, those who come after open the subsequent layer and so on, so that all waves of humanity is utilizing the evolution of the group that came before. This is like a massive lifting of the veil of separation consciousness with all or our hands poised and participating at the levels where they can assist, enabling together the opening of a path so gloriously wide and bright that even the youngest souls at the bottom rungs of evolution are enabled passage into the whole new level of consciousness as we cross into planetary ascension. I.E, anyone who chooses may cross into the home vibration of ascended Earth.

Stay tuned for a cool healing song circle

Called “Bathing in the light of the Soul” I am beginning to receive sound packets for activating and awakening the DNA. Can’t wait to share. There will also be plenty of group toning and singing and inter-active celebration.

Sourcing Abundance within

Hello all,

It has been a-while since my last post, and life has been changing amazingly much. I have left all tutoring jobs. Allegedly I though I could tell my clients that it was because I was going on tour across the U.S. to share my music and travel with a band of healing angels which I am still partially doing. I'll be going with portal to ascension for about 6 days and then flying home. Sleep still comes much easier in my own bed as the major theme for my life is stabilizing my own energies within self.

A big part of this is unplugging as much as I can from the external world and all the advertising pulls of the internet to take this tele-class and sign up for this community and buy this product that is all somehow going to give me something that I need and don't already have. I am addressing this lie, this bombarding lie that floods us in western society that implies in it's very veins that we are not enough and there is something out there we need. Wow, just unsubscribed from 12 mailing lists. What a relief! But it's more than that it's my own mind that tells me I've got to add energy to the sytem, I've got to strive, make, prepare, produce, figure out sell, market... Whatever it is. Just this constant sense that I must keep efforting for something that is not here. Ahhhh, so enough of the lie. Now I want to talk about the truth!

The truth is that I am a being of infinite abundance that everything that I need is already here... that the very air molecules are made of love, that love permeates every piece of creation, that bliss is bountifully emanating from the spawning field of light that courses through my veins and is in my own breath. It is that close. In the absence of all the external pulling and seduction, at the bottom of the frenzied searching and seeking, this love is there...like a river flowing at the base of my being. Enoughness is the state of my true being. it is the default position that my soul rests upon, like a soft feather bed of already always having just what I need.

I went in and laid on the healing table, deciding to become my own client for a time. That's what my life seems to be about right now... not reaching out to bring anything in to myself, but learning to fill myself from inside, learning to connect mother and child within and drink from the circuit of my own self love until I feel truly full. This drinking can only happen as I unplug and exhaust the externally seeking circuitry. What a task. And the mind is so afraid that if it doesn't sign up for some class, it will be left behind and miss the bus to paradise. And that this class is different. This one is the one that really matters when at the base of it, I just need to address that fear that somehow I don't have what I need within myself and my life as it exists to get what i truly need, and then it comes right back down to taking that little infant back to the healing table and letting her nurse from the breasts of my own heart's love, the only thing that can ever satiate her thirsty starving heart.

So, that is where I find myself. Frank, my wonderful husband is handling all the bills as long as I don't spend money on anything but gas and food. So the universe has it set up perfectly that I must unplug to this notion that I need anything out there to make me whole. I guess it's all perfect, but sometimes it really sucks trying to change directions so completely like this. Is anyone else going through this stuff? I'd love to know.
Anyway, I guess that is pretty much it for now. My teacher, lisa Renee, says that the actual architecture of the mind of God is imprinting at the third eye for many fo us now, and it is completely demanding total re-configuration. Maybe this movement into sourcing the self from within is that re-configuration within me.
Anyway, I will sign off for now.
Blessings to all.

Sarah

Aligning with the trajectory for our highest possible future

These are amazing times, times that we will look back on and see un-precedented changes in the very fabric of our human experience.
Unity, joy, liberation, that which we truly are, is now demanding the unplug from the dark matrixes of belief in bondage and suffering that we may be available to the divine body of unity being re-habilitated right now. As of July 17th we are officially on a new time line, one that is being driven by the identity of love and unity to bring forth a new global brain that reflects the innate truth of this love and unity. All in our lives that does not actively promote love, liberation and joy will be falling away for we cannot continue to serve as a cog in the status quo matrix created by separation consciousness. If we are to poise ourselves in alignment with this new body coming into being, we can no longer Maintain a posture that serves the separation matrix for we cannot actively serve a system of separation and a system of unity. The great awakening is commencing and the cells in the body of unity consciousness are beginning to hear the call to move into their position upholding the walls of the arteries and veins that will enable the blood of the one heart to course through unimpeded and victorious. The body is being resuscitated to rise again. We are beings of love, joy, sovereignty, magic, creativity and service to the one love.

Spaceship Earth is going back to love and all who will stay upon her will follow suit. The time of sleep is over. We all have roles as arteries and veins in this great circulatory system of loves rise triumphant on this planet. We must stand in position that the blood of joy and life can flow through us unimpeded.

It is scarey to leave that which is known, but there is no choice now, and we can do it. We can step into the void and find our wings. We can be lifted into joy, step by step and receive money while we are rising. I know this is possible. I haven't really experienced it yet, but I know others who have. And as this happens for me, I will share it with you to give you the courage to take a stand for love. We are all in this together. Something so much greater is moving us now. It is the great essence of love itself stirring us on toward a higher destiny.

Their must be a ballanced synergy of higher mind and heart in partnership for the structure to be suitable architecture to house and promote the circulation of the blood of joy. All cognitive dominant activities will be traded in for activities that spring forth from a sacred and joyful union of mind and heart.

Leave all that feels like a struggle, risk doing your joy. If it does not resonate in joy for you, cut your giving to it, and demand that the universe bring you an upgrade. I wish we could all live together and not pay rent right now and just support each other jumping into our joy and living in that space in between, hugging and loving and encouraging each other. Well, consider this what i am doing right now as I write these words. We are never alone. Our spirit guides are just waiting for us to look up and ask for help and listen for the answers. Like I say i don't know exactly how this is done. How will my music, healing and children joy careers come on line to support my new joy aligned life. I'll let you know.

Many blessings as we jump the cliff to fly. For certain, we are holding hands.

Sarah

The superior reality of unity

Hello all,


I am posting this beautiful picture by Melissa Harris of the birth of butterflies bursting forth. I believe we are in a time of great meta-morphosis and caterpillar and butterfly medicine can give us many insights into how to navigate this passage. Our caterpillar timelines are demanding to be let go of and our soul realigned with butterfly timelines and destinies. Someone described this as maturing all the immature holodynes of density and pain into mature holodynes or joy and lightness, of the fruit reaped from the labor or perhaps it is more accurate to say simply aligning with a past where the labor never happened. This is what I am seeing just this past 2 weeks or so after years of feeling victim to the past happenings. Now, I am actually wiping them from the record and re-writing or rather tuning into an already written probable reality and selecting that one to be the life I lived instead. ( well, my body can respond as if that one is the one I lived ) It is so neat.

Jee, it has been such a long time since my last post. So much has happened and is happening as we prepare for the climax of this amazing summer of astrological configurations, ( opening of the Lion's Gate August 8th, Cardinal T Cross by mid August with 5 major oppositions in the outer planets, the most powerfully shit kicking radical power in 200 years ) faccilitating major death and rebirth into totally new configurations of form that will hold much greater levels of light than the obsolete structures deathing and composting at the feet of the mighty majestic unity wave rising triumphant. It is a major cleaning out your closet to make upgrades and let go of all that cannot make the frecuency jump into higher consciousness. So I am experiencing all of this. How about you?

Getting back to this idea of re-writing timelines, for sure the coolest thing that has been happening since the beginning of July thanks to my friend Todd in Hawaii and I guess to the cummulative work of roto-rooter clearing I have been doing for 26 plus years. I am now actually experiencing that I do have the power to influence my state of being and change it for the better in this now moment. To my great surprise and delight, I am getting that I can actually re-write different timelines and align myself with these (after I feel the traumas and the emotions attached to the previously lived timelines of suffering and victimization.) that is. I am experiencing this with my own body, mind, spirit. Hard to understand with the pea brain, but we are in an unlimited universe which means every single possiblity has happened so I simply dream a sweet past experience, disassociate from painful past, align myself with other preferred probable reality and command that my whole system be upgraded to reflect the new time line, replacing all trauma with joy and empowerment and radiant health. It is amazing to experience such a thing.

I always thought I had to heal the pain from within the paradigm where the pain existed, I never dreamed I could unhook one reality and re-align with a chosen one and have my body, mind and spirit follow the template of this upgrade, but it is happening. Another example is that the severe shattering of my soul, literally blown a part in a very real life time that I lived is being re-written as well.

Just this morning this booming voice was speaking, "The superior reality of unity supersedes and dissolves all realities of separation. As you assert the frecuency of onenes, the template of union and ballance, the perfection of love, harmony and beauty, everything else must fall at its feet." And the superior reality begins to instruct the cells of the body back into perfection, back into joyful homeostatic optimal, dancing, inspired, god-filled biology of celebration. For the divine human blue print is joy, and when the divine identity of the one begins asserting itself,all is lifted up into dancing joy in effortless ease. It is simply the experience of love loving itself without interruption from the lies of separation super-imposed on the lower bodies.

So the question is: how and when does this access to the divine blueprint of unity become available? I believe it is opening in us all. I know that I came here to earth to open a stargate that spans dimensions 1-12 and this process has been a 27 year enema. I am told that this stargate, this field that is opened by this particular vehicle will be employed as a full functioning stargate to be one of the stations for ascension. This was the guardians of the Earth's insurance policy incase the original ascension plan was foiled as it was when the controllers forced shut down of the earth's natural stargates in 2003. Organic stargates would now be the only way to enable the passage to insure all humanity who choose can make the passage. Anyway, so I am experiencing just today for the first time, the tube is mending, the tube of light that runs the gamut of the chakras. The stargate feels to be really asserting itself to come online. It is like it is birthing itself from an intelligence way beyond my personality self. I just have to go lay in bed, toning and chanting with my hand bridging the great site of the wound at the solar plexus that separates the personality matrix from the soul matrix of chakras 4,5 and 6. (Lisa Renee talks about this on her facebook page. Very cool snippet of her lates lecture at Eceti Ranch. Check it out!)
Anway, the damage of the fracture here in the solar plexus is being super-seded by this big booming presence of unity that declares the bomb never shattered me. The fall never happened. I have always been held in the arms of love, always mended, always one, always mended. The full gateway between earth and heaven has always been fully intact. This superior truth of unity is laying it's template upon my dream of separation and sucking every last piece of the violent lie up into its great crystal lotus heart as I experience the penetration of the membrane between the personality and the soul matrix. The penetration that I have been working to achieve or has been working to achieve itself for nearly 27 years in this lifetime at least. And after 27 years of struggle, the beginnings of knowing what it is to have a full breath is dawning in me. The beginnings of not having to have my hands fastened to the scarring of my etheric body at the fracture point to unity me with life-force enough to get me from one moment to the next. Excuse me. I have always been held in the oneness. I have always been held in the oneness. So this truth is instructing everything back into true alignment. Last night the grief was so intense, but I could feel dimensions converging in my solar plexus, and pieces of my self touching them selves in a near full interface along the central line.

WEll, I realize this is probably kind of far-out and wierd for readers. It is just another day in the life of an organic stargate. Are there any other organic stargates out there reading this? God it would be awesome to support each other. Or if you, reading, know a friend who might resonate, connect us if you will. You'll know because of the great divorce at he solar plexus that attempts to block the flow of heaven and earth, the exchange of heaven and earth that is. What a process it is to clear this channel. Unbelievable.
So, this is basically what's new. I long to share all my new healing techniques discovered this last two weeks. Write to me if this interests you or go to www.sarahadams.org. I can work on the phone or in person so location is not a limitation.

Another creation that is arising as this stargate is mended is the glimpse of a new kind of concert/ sing-a-long... This is the glimpse of healing song gatherings that employ words and melodies to program the authentic truth of the living light and awaken the divine human blueprint. These special concerts and their locations will be posted in the calendar section of my website so come if you can. It is all like a grand laboratory to experiment with the most effective modalities for resurrecting the divine human blue-print that is our birth right of freedom and joy.
I hope to see you around Campus.
Much love to all!

Sarah

a solid foundation

My one word of advice for us all right now cause it's been a lesson this week especially is take time to feel the sadness and the fear if you can sense them. Take time to give them a space to be known. I am realizing I keep efforting at keeping my vibration high and happiness as the state I'm experiencing, but then I noticed this gnawing sadness underneath and thought:" hmm, I can sort of hold it at bay and push it down and continue to dance on top of it." but this was taking a lot of effort so I decided to go down and welcome it up, and wow so much sadness and fear, but today after releasing this layer, I notice it is taking much less effort to just feel the flowing life force and the natural state of bliss. Being willing to leach out the toxic emotions from the foundation is so important so that we can build something with true staying power that resonates with the highest integrity, balance and the highest love and that won't have to be torn down and re-built the match the standards of the coming vibrations of awakening. Yes, we might as well do the foundational work now. Anything that rises as a construction out of a fear-based mind will have to come down. Shore up those foundations in deep unconditional love and allowance of all emotions. Do not go forth in action unless you are existing in balance and relative non attachment. Then you can truly be of use to the divine plan only when you really have no vested interest in any of it at the ego level. Ironic, isn't it. By the time the ego gets it's wish it is so dissolved that it really doesn't care. but the Soul knows and celebrates in drama-less contentment and a sense of rightness as we stand to take our place in power and love, to fulfill the roles we came to fulfill in the timing of the awakening of the one and the all.
good bye for now.

I just wanted to share this with all.
So much love to everyone. As more and more awaken to their core love, we will all be floating so easily on the sweetest river. It is coming. In the meantime we build our own and our collective stairway to heaven piece by piece, peace by peace and love by love and tear by tear.

Our true nature is infinite abundance

Sunday as I was checking out the beautiful Tum Water Falls Park in Olympia, I was spoken to from a deep place within myself, reminded that all the seeming lack brought on by my current financial situation is just part of an illusory fabric constructed out of mistaken beliefs. I surveyed the sudden harsh steep slopes of the man made dam in contrast to the kinder, gentler gates constructed so beautifully alongside these, giving the Salmon an option of gentleness and ease. I asked to myself, isn't there an option of ease for me? There must be something beyond all this struggle and impossiblity and seeming dead end of lack. Then this voice came from within and said, ah, there is a place where all is already full; there is a place where abundance abounds and love pours into you from all sides, dancing into you and filling you and what's more, you are this place. Your suffering is caused by identifying with what you are not. And although nothing really changed in my situation, I began to feel a great sense of ease as if I was already home and that no out-picturing in this conditional reality can define who I am. I will not give an illusory network of beliefs and assumptions and conditions the power to take me from my peace, the peace of who I already am. I can't wait to return in September to watch the salmon and behold the path of gentleness and kindness before them. I know in the wild they would jump many steep falls and the wild is always better than anything man-made, but small steps to attempt to co-exist with nature are so appreciated.

And if I go to singing alive here in a couple of weeks, I will go with the knowing that the place I drink from and feed from is within the earth, the sky and my own being. I do not need to lead a big circle to prove I am loved on the Earth or to feel my hungry soul. I've been looking to be fed by other people's validation and attention. This is not the true feeding place. Looking here can only lead to suffering and disappointment for it is life's job to guide me to the fountain within to drink there of the source. So all the programming of desperation for love from childhood is just a blessed pointer to the true feeding ground within.

I would love to lead a large circle with enough people to sing 4 parts and really weave the tapestry of sound, but if that doesn't happen. O.K. If I come with meat on my bones, the meat I am finding now as I turn my identification to the fullness within, i will not be looking to the outer from a desperate place. And who knows, the greatest thing of all would be if I could feel the joy of everyone else's victory's and joys and not be so focused on getting but rather at least 50% or more of my energy on giving to others and being a blessing to others. Yes, this is why I came to Earth. Well both to fill my inner cup and to feel the joy of sharing the bounty with others feeling joy wherever so it be that "the one" is rejoicing.
Love and blessings to all

floating in space

Hello, and the captains log entry for today is mainly about feeling very disconnected. Feeling like I'm floating in space with nothing tethering me. i suppose it could be a pleasant situation but that is not how it is coming in through my filters. i feel quite sad and lost in this floating space like Major Tom when he has lost connection to the earth base, and he begins hurling toward Earth. Last week Thursday April 22- Tuesday the 27th, it was like the fall of a civilization within me, so much die off, so much letting go! Then after the massive weeping and de-toxing into surrender the waste was carried away like magic and the ground was completely barren waiting for the new to come. And on Tuesday morning I felt the beginnings, the first scaffolding of an edifice of light installed on the new ground. That was exciting, but now, today, there is a sense of absolute nothingness that is unsettling. Anyone else feeling this?
Let's stay connected. What a wild ride. Maybe it is just an absence of things pulling at my attention. Perhaps I should be grateful for the lack of drama.
Until Next....love and blessings

Bravers of the impassable code

So it is a time for the changing of hands, what has been well kept inside the city of fear is now being delivered unto the land of love. WE, the restorers of the code of the human angel, have braved the city of the night. We have come and laid our bodie's our very lives upon the grid of separation and fear, we have air-lifted provisions from the land of love to fortify us in the depth of battle, we have grown our base of love more and more from within this land, and now it is time for the penetration of the night sky itself that liberates us once and for all, and transforms the nature of the substance of the veil of fear itself for all who will come after.

I realize now, that many do not relate to my story, my particular experience, but perhaps some reading this do. Many are playing the role of holding a genetic code that is passable enough, love based enough, that they can live in this amazingly compromised expression of life that we see here on planet earth especially in our western society of fragmented structures, enslaved economy, school systems that farm us off for 6 hours a day, jobs that farm us off while the sun is awake and deliver us at dusk. If the inner state of the DNA is passable, one can be trained and raised to live complacent in this reality, but if the state of the DNA is severely damaged, one cannot live within this compromised system. One must give their whole energy to seed a world that reflects the unity and the love that is alive inside the shattered code. At our core, we, human beings have an exquisitely beautiful GEnetic code aligned with love and sovereignty and co-creatorship with all of existence. Before the massacre of our code, we lived as outbreaths of God in great concert with the music of existence, the music of life. Those of us who have come to brave the impassable code, carry this awakened song memory within us and it fuels us through the darkest of the night. It fuels us to keep persevering until we have penetrated the night sky of fear with our very bodie's.

My trip to Joshua tree retreat to the "Celebrate your Light" retreat was my way of saying that no matter how strong the fear comes, I will persevere in the face of it, and I will live to stand on the other side of it. Now, it is the final separation from my birth mother's karmic placental soup, to extricate myself from all that has gone before in limitation, and to stand as a citizen of the world of love based reality. Deep in the night, under my own loving hands, I work on the mending of the fracture, bringing cellular repair along the line of my solar plexus, the line of the great war.

I am remembering myself as an integral part of the matrix of life, the matrix of the remembered light body of the earth and all the cosmos as it was before the interference. Ahhhh, yes, but no matter how badly shattered and severed the genetic code of the human angel, it is still the genetic code of the human angel: and when enough of it is intact, fear is vaporized by its essence. Nearly 27 years now of the great work to remember the code, and I am having glimpses of just who this human angel is and what it feels like to live as this living light code. Hold onto your suspenders everyone. WE are so much more than we now know ourselves to be. Think the size of the stay puff man in the movie "Ghost Busters" and you are getting closer.
Blessings to all whether immersed in the passable code that will become more and more glorious or the ones immersed in the inpassable code: May you have great strength and perseverence to penetrate your night sky and stand as love once again. I am with you. And guess what? The code is not impassable. The Jail bars have their limit. Thank God, but they do give you quite a run for the money.

the petrie dish of becoming

I'm realizing right now I feel like a petrie dish of scattered non descript fragments of Genetic material. And my task is just to breathe love into the mass, and continue one foot in front of the other to grow it into a living self sustaining organism. I feel like I myself am this organism and my love in every moment gives me the juice to proceed with the next moment. There is nothing in my external life to hold onto. It's like I have to create the womb for this pre-self organism all on my own, or rather with creator, I get to behold it's becoming and have faith when it all feels so empty. It is quite a challenge to keep going sometimes and to keep believing.

But we do as we keep breathing the sweet breath of life when we stop to let the sweet oxygen in to revive us. The oxygen of the now moment unfettered by the what ifs of lack and fear, just present in the enoughness of the breath of now.

The Winds of Change

I don't know if you fellow earth travelers are feeling it, but great change feels to be afoot. It is a kin to a great wind that is ripping out all the anchors of the known constructs of my identity. Here is the log from my cognitive mind

Captains log 3-30-10: 900 hours

The wind of change is upon us. It has ripped the last boat from it's harbor, the anchors are all coming up. The hold fleet is at the affect of this great wind, it comes from the west, terror echos from the crew, terror through the night... there is nothing to be seen in the depth of the darkness, only to feel what is being ripped away as we watch the harbor lights receedng into the distance. Wind is here that will not be denied. We have no power against it. It exerts it's force upon us carrying us into unknown harbors. It is clear that we cannot fight this force that is taking us now. We know we are going, but we know not where, into the night, towards a new light. The boy and the girl are becoming teenagers falling in love, magnificent and glorious innocence of first love in the valley of delight. but the enchanted kingdom and their union is the death of the entire framework of this mental mechanism of defenses and tyranny. As they love a sun rises that is the death of my harbor of separation and control. As their love overtakes more and more of the scene, a great valley of beauty and wonder rises up into being and the ending of my world, makes this rising possible. Ah, perhaps surrender is not so bad after all.