Looking back over these 26 years since the journey into the wilderness began at age 18 in 1983, the journey to penetrate the darkness and birth my light into this place so unlike my home, I note the good, the bad and the ugly and everything in between. There have been countless half births, quarter births or less as i examine the failed attempts and incomplet transfers of my soul's true essence into this world. I look with compassion and amazement at this long journey. I also take note of the beautiful times, the magical moments when my high soul was able to penetrate the distorted architecture of this mind and touch me for a moment thanks to so many soul family beloveds and the sheer beauty of the natural world, shining like a crystal rainbow to touch my heart even there.
At the end of the night, you rub your eyes and just thank god that it was all a dream as all the anti-life particles melt away in the morning light and the details of the night, all the many players, fade into the distance. And now, even amidst my father's complete cognitive deterioration and my dear mother's stress, there is so much gratitude that I am here embodying in this physical vessel. Here, experiencing what it is to be a human woman. Last night I received the beginning of the human woman download from Debbie Boone and Taylor Swift, their starlit eyes, shining their souls with physical bodies radiantly alive. And I found the french language like an open portal of sweet memory drawing me deep into the sensual pleasures of its sound as I put coconut oil upon my body in the bath. So now I am loving the french language. It is the closest transfer of my liquid world of boundaryless love. And maybe some past lives in france are assisting with the instruction memory of human woman. I like being a human woman, very sensual and beautiful and soft in the flesh and body. This human body such a marvelous vehicle from which to experience the many forms of love loving itself, inter-acting with itself in so many glorious ways. The tantalizing colors, textures, sounds, sensations of this realm are truly rich.
I breathe in the fresh air of dawn and I re-dedicate this vehicle and this life to the ever growing mission of the rehabilitation of humanity and the Earth and achieving the ascension as smoothly and sweetly as possible for all beings. I consecrate my life to God source light with all intention for the Law of one to resurrect all in-organic code into the organic living light code.
For my life belongs to the mission completely, and I am good with that. Maybe not completely good with that or I wouldn't even need to write the following statement to tell you. I have long since died to all illusory beliefs that my personal desires have any bearing at al on the course this path will take. I am 100% plugged into and fueled by the Divine mind of GOD. Until it says move, I wait and so I am a lady in waiting in a way. At least i know, I want to learn French. I am also going to flood this body, personality and soul with the light and love of presence. So that's about all for now. My job is to heal, balance and fill this vehicle with the sweet medicine of love that I may be ready for my active mission when I am called to action! Merry Christmas every one and Happy Holidays!
Until Next
Sarah
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