Rolling with the punches

Hello all,

The las few days there has been a feeling of major resistance, many opportunities to clear fear and shame. I do believe a powerful wave of high frequency energy is coming in just now and it is calling us into a greater level of participation and incarnation as unity consciousness awake alive and engaged. The powerful activation of March 20th is approaching. See www.earth-keeper.com . This is a time of increasing demand for light integration which we know means calling up greater levels of unresolved shadow. I am writing a short installation here because I am on a library computer. Interfacing with the world of the fear-based fragmented reality is feeling very unsatisying today and all days really. The only thing that is real is the incredible love I feel connecting me to all living things. Now, if only the capacity to feel and appreciate this love could give me a niche, a job in this dimension. The world of money and marketing is so not what engages me, and yet it feels like I must play at least while it still is in play.
Love to all. My time is up.

The lost song of creation, grasping to remember

I have been listening to Pink Floyd's song "Comfortably Numb" and it is really bringing me to an intense place of longing and anxt. I'm playing my cello with it, climbing up these emotion notes, over and over again, pouring out of me, soaring up the neck to the higher octave and I am fueled by such anguish. So I decide, ya know I think I just need to feel the pain that is in this song for me.

And then I go in to feel it, and i see it all, me in the womb, the song of my preferred light body organization creation is coming through loud and clear, and then, all of a sudden I lose the song, I can't hear it. I'm struggling so hard not to lose it as it's being wripped from my reality like mist fading into oblivion. And in the absence of the song the living light code of beauty falls into the default creation of the current level of separation consciousness being infiltrated into me by the surrounding womb. And I scream "Mom, why did you stop playing the song, go back press the play button, and she says, " I don't even know that song. I didn't even know i was playing a song. Somehow the button on the tape recorder just went off andt he piped in guiding message of my passage into joy and rememberment in form is gone. And the anxt and anguish at having the song, and being held within it's destiny and then dropped like an orphan into the confusing darkness of jumbled dna, un recoverable as light, unrecoverable as joy, unrecoverable as sovereign, but rather, a cog in the machine of the fear based reality, a default android asleep in the matrix, without the song, this is my only choice.

But now, living the fullness of the loss, I can go back and chose again.
This time I chose to know that i never lost the song, that I have always been held in the field of the light and that the song is in my blood and in my bones, and I need only believe that it is there and was never lost to instruct the DNA back into original innocence position. So I guess I am working on this. And Crystal beings all around me are activating the unity field, but then when I leave them I feel dependent on them as the source of the acess to the field, the key is to tell myself I am the unity field. I am resting in oneness with source. The fall never happened. I am found in the exquisite homecoming within self.

And the drama of lack and struggle and anxt in me screams loud saying. Are you crazy, It's empty, it's not full, it's broken, it's not whole, it's fallen it's not in tact. And i say, that is a nightmare for the field was never broken, and who I am was never at the effect of any of this. Who i am has always been resting in total wholeness of foundness and unitedness, and beginning to train my brain to dwell beyond the drama and cease manufacturing thoughts of wanting and desire in this place of total fulfillment, how can there be want. Ah, so, this interesting dance continues at the edge of duality, the fat lady of the emotional body is enjoying her final swan songs, but soon their will be no attention focused there to hold identification in the drama.
Well, I guess that is all to say for now.

So much love and so many blessings to all.

The wedding/ massacre and wedding once again

Getting ready for the crystalline Grid activation of March 10th and beyond. check out earth-keeper.org


From within duality, it is like waking up at your wedding feast, and most of the guests are happy and loving each other and partying together

But there is a whole section of your table that is anesthetized under numbing agents because if awake, they would kill each other with their murderous rage.

At the end of the night, the anesthesia has to come off, and we have to get every one at our table back to love with each other. This is what the activation of the

Crystalline grid and the return to full consciousness demands of us. So before the big hit in March, we need to start moving through the layers of dis-ease within self

And begin feeling the resistance, the unforgiveness, and the sadness and isolation at the bottom of the rejection, the hopelessness, the powerlessness of all the lives

held in bondage, the programs of self imprisonment the hamster wheels of our brains. Feel it all, allow it all up to be met in our awareness and the DNA can reset

itself back into the innocence of the grand and sacred union with itself as the bride. Like in the movie, Forest Gump, when Forest finally gets to be with the love of

his life, and then he finds out that there is just one problem. She has Aids and is dying. To me this is an amazing metaphor for human condition. It is much like this

being married to a beautiful bride, but she is plagued with fear and death. To bring her close to you , is to make love with death itself. In a very real sense our

journey to the restoration of the unity code and the sacred marriage within self demands that we bring all that is of darkness into our hearts to heal. We,through our

forgiveness and willingness to feel all, bring the resurrection of the fire of oneness to our own land. The song "Dark night of the Soul" by Lorena Mckenitt is so exquisite as it tells this journey back to the beloved through the dark of night.

Building the muscle of presence, escaping the atomic harness of the mental body

Now more than ever, my fellow travelers we must learn and practice the allowance of all emotions in the moment they surface. This is our only way to remain in high vibrational states. The powers that be that want to maintain limited consciousness have an atomic harness in place at the mental body level. This means : mental body = hell.

So How do we stay out of the mental body? Simple, Be with emotions as they surface. If you find yourself jumping into mental activity to avoid a painful feeling, return to the breath and the heart until you have allowed the unpleasant emotion or memory and pop out the otherside into neutrality once again. Neutrality is the baseline you want to be operating from as emotional charges will enslave you into the land of hell. I am using stronger language here because this is no joke. Our sparring partners are demanding a greater level of presence from us than ever before. They are driving our evolution forward by turning up the heat like this. It is all part of the game, the ending of the game of duality, that pushes us to the next level of consciousness, non dual and all embracing in its nature as Love.

The best analogy I have found for this whole end game is that the mental body is like a big swimming pool. Now this pool has always been a pool of piranha fish, but up until now, for most of us, these piranhas who shared the pool with us were babies. Their teeth were blunt, some a little spiny. We bumped into them at times and they even smiled through their pointy teeth. We were able to feel a sense of some freedom and well-being while in the pool. Well, not anymore. Now these Piranhas are fully grown adults, no more smiles just ready to eat us alive with their cutting annihilating teeth of death. Death to our joy frecuency that is!. Now we spin the mental wheels and they are waiting to mash us into a chime of despair, agony and hell. This is why we got to stay out of that pool. The only way, as I have said to stay out is to keep returning to the heart and the higher mind by allowing all we most resist until we have calm mind. If we are strategizing, I guarantee you the beasts are already nipping at our ankles. Ouch!!!

So the times demand vigilance with the higher awareness to identify any surfacing emotion that we are resisting and surrender to feeling it and popping out the other side into nuetrality, this way we can maintain our high vibration of joy and well-being, flowing in our heart and higher mind, side-stepping the piranha pool with this moment to moment vigilance. Because the times are quite intense and I do feel I want to share the “emotional freedom” techniques I have learned. I am going to keep my sliding scale rate of $25 and up through at least March of next year. So if you feel called, come and see me.
Bye for now. Tomorrow is a portal day so Breathe, and have your lemaz partners standing by.
Love,

Sarah

Thank God Duality has a Shelf Life

All I can say is “thank god duality does indeed have a shelf life!!!!!”

Deep at the core of your being is an ocean of endless love. It is true all ties that have held my attention polarized at the astral, denser level are desolving now and I am being re-absorbed back into the field of the next level. From this vantage point as it calls me back into it, it feels to be teaming with life spawning in every instant, multiple ripples per second is this firey inter-action of dynamic undulating self activating field of light. It is magnetizing me now.

The grip of the level of consciousness where duality is real is loosening and I am receiving the access to the part of myself that exists at the next level. It has always existed,but I have never, I mean this is the first time I have had access. ?This is the field of light that I sensed in Eric’s eyes, and the field of light that the multiple lifestreams converging in this now moment have been drawing me towards. He came and opened the door to so much of myself that to taste of this richness was now impossible at the current level, the level of consciousness that was polarized in duality could never match the frecuencies he opened, And now finally the inner craving is being met, the core thirst is being quenched. The intolerability of this starvation state has enabled the breaking down of the walls that blocked me from the subtle field of consciousness. The best way I can describe it is that this intense longing is like laser light waring down the grip of the soul’s attention’s magnetic attraction to the denser level of the, senese, desire, form, emotion, questing, wanting. All this, it is if after one has played the game in here so fully, duality actually starts to mold, like it has a shelf life. Thank God. And when it does the magnificent river of self activating dancing light begins to call to us.

As the attention is pulled off of duality, we begin to hear the voice, feel the seduction of the incredibly rich life substance of the subtle field, our next destination of conscious focus. The starvation finally ends as I, the separate mind self is taken back into the sweet river of light from which I came the great mother love, divine mother at the heart of all existence, the substance that dreamed all matter into form. I am this. This is reclaiming me, and I am so so so grateful. It is in the silence that I can fully be taken back into this field of the mother light,and so no more words now, the mind wantws to tell you all about the sea and the boundary of it’s shoreline, but the heart and the soul just want to dive in. Here I go!!

Wait before I go in. this mind has one more thing. “So then the question, the one question to ponder to be of assistance to any and all who are seeking liberation is how do we, is there something that the doer, if there is a doer can do to hasten the loosening of the grip, to bring on this “molding” or disintegrating of the attention’s magnetic attraction to duality. Ahh, this is the question. Isn’t it. To me, it is a timing that is programmed within every seed of consciousness, this timing of how and when that particular seed will awaken, and the process is truly doing itself. We can watch it and write about it, but we truly are riding on the back of this grand intelligence tht is dreaming itself awake in the way it knows is the very best way. Perhaps the greatest offering to make to those who are still polarized in duality is to say that something beautiful awaits you, and that it is indeed beautiful and glorious to sense the subtler field, and that it can begin to quench all longing in the world of the senses as we poise the mouth to drink from this stream, it feeds us a water that begins to purify all nature of form and lifts us into radiant light.
O.k. now the dive. Wooosh……the sound of the cosmic splash echoes in the distance.”

Sweet elixir of life, make it in self. Share it with the world

Hello again.

It feels like forever as I begin these words. So much has been happening. My world has been rocked by deep connections that surpass anything I have ever known or at least match the greatest sense of purpose and connection that I have ever known. Someone has come into my life who truly needs the love from my heart, and this call to be of service in a very tangible way has been fulfilling me at levels that infuse me with passion and a sense of true involvement in this earth plane.

Just as the placenta in the mother longs to fill the baby's brain with all the resources, all the sweetness, all the blessings for it's coming life. So I am called to give my love. Still I marvel at how huge this love can be and pour out so readily toward another, while yet, there is not the same facility to pour this love back upon my self and receive it here. Well, there is the facility to pour it, but it is like the
receptivity field within is twisted and tangled and doesn't know how to let it in.
This great contrast of ease in outpouring of love and great difficulty of feeding it within is creating a sense of deep aching and starvation inside me.

Ahh well, maybe I should just feel the depth of the force of my impulse to give and enjoy it and give it, and ask to be a part of the circuit, instead of trying to re-route the circuit, just practicing imagining standing under the great fountain of light, positioning my self in a place where some of it begins to touch me.
Ah, such a strange predicament. This self love is the portal to ascension, and the dark forces have done a very effective job of keeping us focused in the external world as the trump card for our fulfillment whether through giving love or receiving love, we are told that fulfillment is there while boards and signs and electric fences of self repellance and rejection are thrown up between us and our sacred hearts. And yet, we have to go stand right there in front of the obstacles with our perseverance to know our own love until the steel grid and the stone walls and the "no entry signs" begin to melt in the shear magnitude of our unrelenting insistance that something lies within!!Not just something but the sacred cathedral, the bride and bride groom that wait in passivity for us to activate the god seed within the diamond core of the god seed within. The jig is up. We know the goods are within. Now it is just a matter of focused attention and intention to open the kingdom of God and watch the bounty of god essence pour forth and then pour it forth into the world through all the beautiful manifestations that would be born of this great light. But first it is to focus attention on the alchemical laboratory wherein is born the sweet elixir of life, and we with our inward focus, are the incubators of the elixir.

Let us gather together also and share this sweet medicine among each other and the world, lifting up the down, feeding the hungry and giving water to the thirsty. For it is this god essence that heals all.

The end of mind control, Yippeeee!!!

The work of the day as the 3D mind control programs are collapsing throughout all dimensional time lines into this now moment is to transmute the toxicity of the fall-out by consciously taking inventory, blessing and releasing the contents and using this energy to restore the glory of the self fire within. I propose we gather together and collage to assist with the transmutation of the collective darkness openly dumping into the grid of humanity since late June, but culminating now in Sept. Right now the masculine aspect of ourselves is having a complete do-over shedding contamination and distortion so that it can fully anchor the light into the Earth. He must extricate himself from the distorted architecture that has flowed in his veins for 10,000 years. Understanding the "anatomy of the opressor", identifying the foundational pillars of the 3rd dimensional mind control programs and recovering our authentic selves from out of their grip enables us to consciously participate in the taking back of our power and the rising up in power and passion in full sovereignty and joy. This is the order of the day.

After collaging and doing a ritual to honor the rise and the fall of these 3D lies, we will collage the exquisite beauty of everything that is left in the wake of the fall of these delusions, the glorious connection to the sacred in all things, original innocence, sacred sexual energy extricated from the pathways of distorted addiction, innocent child within, multi- dimensional honoring, open hearted expression of all emotion for women and men alike, the return of self love and access to god within independent of all external propaganda. And whatever other spontaneous glory emerges as the dross and tar of the delusional grid of lies is washed clean revealing the face of original beauty. WE are returning to the divine blue print that was originally intended for the human species. Yipppppeeeeee. Below are some of the pillars of the lie that I thought we might have fun honoring and releasing. 10,000 years this grid has enslaved humanity. I think it deserves and actually needs a farewell party!!!! Here's a preview of what we are liberating ourselves from.

major lies of the 3D Patriarchal mind control programs, to be expanded and modified as we come together!

Distortion of sexual energy

Promotion of violence

Capitalism, hyper individual production units enslaved to the money making process to feed root Chakra needs.
Fear based motivator tied in with denial of universal healthcare, enslavement of the masses by fear.

message that the pursuit of happiness is external encouraging addiction to consumption, physical beauty, approval seeking from the external world, degradation and loss of the power to light the fire within of one's own self love

The quest for God is external, fundamentalism creating exclusivity of their god to promote war, stealing our gaze from self sovereign connection to source energy through union with self

message that men must not feel

message that the earth is here to be exploited

Public schools system that fragments the holistic mind systems with compartmentalization and lack of living curriculum, preventing the union of the right and left brains and the access to the multi-dimensional self, setting up performance based self esteem, competition and external persuit again and again. Negating original value of the living self, unconditional, absence of feminine connection to emotions, the earth

Degradation of the feminine aspect of God every where we look, Earth, treatment of women. Invisible feminine in the bible.

Ah, but the ballance is returning in the wake of the fall of the patriarchy, and oh how beautiful when the masculine can merge in and out of the feminine again in fluid love and mutual honoring and respect. It is coming my friends. They are trying to load us you with fear about the swine flu. Don't get vaccinated!!!! ( of course, use your own judgment, but from everything I'm feeling and hearing, I'd give this advice for sure. Also sending a missile up to puncture our beautiful grandmother moon. How rude. Won't those boys leave well enough alone. Until Oct 9th, let's be in vigil and prayerful love for the moon. The dimensions are all coming together. I don't know about you, but I'm starting to experience multiple lives at once, well, two anyway. It's pretty trippy. The big e.t. conference is happening soon in Denver. Wish I could go. I hope the Galactic Federation stops that darn missile!!!Wouldn't that be so cool. The starwars defense system turned back against the big boys.
Ah well, it's a crazy ride, brain is spending lots of time in theta waves these days. Theta waves used to be reserved for meditation and deep dreaming. Now they are happening any old time so if you feel a little spacey and don't know why, this might be your answer. www.Paoweb.com and www.energeticsynthesis and earth-keepers.com are my mainstays for updates on the cosmic weather report.
Sending you love and blessings.

Sarah