The path of Empowerment

Well, beloved friends,

I am just going to give a little update as it is simple and succinct was is happening here now.

for 28 years the core focus of my life has been to vaporize layer by layer the veil between my core infant self and the mother source god of all creation. I have had 21 activators delivering to me, each another portion of the field to be mended, forging another artery of connection between the rejected embryo and the christed embryo template within me. And I realize the solace and hermitage of my life has been for the purpose of building pressure to shine the laser and force vaporization of the veil through starving self from all external connection ( well, not all, but mostly all) And now, this blessed time. At my body talk session we opened the portal back to source consciousness and because of this, I can remain stable even in the presence of a powerful map to rememberment.

So, this is the task at hand, to feel the map, grieve the separation and mend the portal ever more. Also to participate in cooking and yoga and train the self to motivate itself with the loving discipline of "Ascension Bootcamp!" This is the activation of my here-to-fore passive will to nourish myself. It is a time of learning how to parent myself too.

So, it is a marvelous time, and soon I return home to Venice to assist my papa through his passage into the next world.

Great love to all!!!!

Sarah

And now,

Alchemical Sample Transmutation Yet Again!

oh, my goodnes, home from LA with new field of fragmentation identity totally interfacing in consciousness . It is wierd. it is painfilled. It is much to breath into my body, mind and heart. Interacting with light trapped under frozen bars of death and co-existing alongside it in consciouness is very painfull. And yet in these frozen popsicles seems to be the message and the possiblity of total self empowerment. There is this knowing that I have total creation power to bring anything about like transmuting toxins in my food to accessing the upward spiral of living light in each and every moment simply by opening my will to do so.

What a strange juxtoposition of pain and sorrow and deep grief and also excitement as I glimpse total creatorship power inside the creatrix field, the new universe that seems to be opening before me as i transmute this last layer of reversal code. It almost feels like this is the last layer of the imprisoned light that actually opens into the next creational universe made possible through this magnum opus journey of light's descent into matter. As i write this is, it is as if light of a golden dawn is shining and this last layer of the prison has windows through which I can glimpse the dawning of the light of a new creational universe.

Finally, the fruit of the long journey of self remembrance. Finally, the opening into the new field of creation is perceived! To gain access to the unlocking of the tyranny of metalurgic bond in matter (this is the identical process of lead being made into white powder gold, transforming metal to elemental) We had to surrender and let it take us as light and roll us under, pinning us down into total submission, At this point underpinned all the way down, we gain access to the metalurgic bond, whose transmutation ( of the last layer) yields the creatrix field of spiritualized matter, the sweet fruit of the journey a physical vehicle through which is birthed the Diamond heart of GOD!

i've been down through the wash rinse repeat cycle about 22 times now and each time I feel the smashing and lock of matter, and each time by my presence, the metalurgic bond is broken and the reversal neutralized and another piece of matter spiritualized. I am waiting for critical mass when the whole sample takes on the identity of liberation as resurrected physical substance into new creational field. What a long long process, 28 plus years now on the journey to escavate and restore the authentic self. And as we as a planet and people reach critical mass in the nuetralizing of the death grid and liberate the living light to express fully within matter, what a world we will see beginning to out picture before us. As we see the harbinger of this world in the "Occupy" movement gaining momentum and strength.


For this majesty outpicturing in physicality, I wait with baited breath!!!

A Deal of Utmost Symbiosis

As I come more fully into form as integrated spirit and matter, I am understanding more of the perks of our decision to incarnate as have ourselves composted in the bowels of the reversal grids of darkness, addiction, external consumption, fear and separation from God.

I like to think of it as a simple conversation that went something like this.

The light says to the dark. Let's make a deal: I will bring to you the experience of resurrecting your form into eternal living light, and the darkness said, "and I will give to you a superior vehicle from which to perceive the glory of God as it is expressing throughout all creation and an alchemical friction so strong that it will enable the birth of your and my God into form. I shall be the mud in which the greatest lotus can come to blossom!" Then they shook hands, and the deal was struck!

And now as we awaken from out of the grid of separation consciousness, we resurrect all death into eternal life and we rise with the heart, soul, body and vehicle to behold and decode the amazing glory of God manifesting throughout form! I'll say it was quite a deal!!!! And as we come to radiate the expansive love of God presence, we harmonize all imbalances and sooth our mother Gaia as she and we move ever forward toward the next level of our potential!

Anchoring into the field of love

To host universal events, one must limit themselves to certain protocols.

Much of my waking time is spent negotiating with the divine intelligence to find where I can step in a way that is not interfering with the unfolding of the divine dance.

Many of the steps I, myself, would be poised to take, are just not allowed by the guidance angel governing and protecting the unfoldment of the wombchild within.

And so, we go, always negotiating, checking in.

I know the most supportive incubative womb environment is one of effortlessness and joy that simply dwells in a state of already always more than enoughness. This is definitely the vibration and state that is most full with benevolent potential to nourish and grow the blossoming one.

And yet, I still must navigate bringing money to myself in some way in this world.

So the big question becomes: How do I simultaneously nurture the seed within while bringing forth financial abundance. It must be a wave of effortless responding to that which already is ripe for the giving that intersects with true service and meaning and joyful upliftment, enabling full expansion of the space-holding placenta and brings me $1000- $1500/ month.

Ahh, right now, singing feels the best to me, but not just singing any songs.

Singing songs that bring joy and healing heart/soul songs that pour medicine into the tender heart and call one into the heart of the primordial sea of bliss and oneness.

So, I've got a concert scheduled for December 11th which will dovetail with Elizabeth's open house. There will be holiday songs as well as my originals with cello playing too.

and that will be good.

The lightness of being is the most highly beneficial vibration for all that is becoming, growing, bathing in light and healing to become the sacred marriage within. The boyancy of floating and gliding on the surface of the joy sea, acclimating to the sense of being infinitely supported by the myriad of light molecules, ever lifting, ever loving, all around. And playing with my beloved star sister, bantering back and forth in playful languages of joy while diving in and out of the joy ripples of the light sea, I feel so at home. I walked to her on my two land legs yet from the moment we touched, we have been swimming together in a sea of such bountiful flowing light. And here there is no process. All is sweet bliss in this now. And it is these nows building upon each other in an ever more blessed string of love filled, presence filled jewels, that are the building blocks, the ascending stair steps that move me out of fear and into love, anchoring my being ever more into the field of love.

And so, it is the journey. I am realizing that in a way it is the background identity of fear, from which I am ever emerging, which gives me such a powerful and tangible appreciation for the power and beauty of each taste of love as it dawns. On the airplane, a place where I have been accustomed to feel much fear, I could feel the walls of separation consciousness coming down a little more with each inter-action. I had a middle seat so there opportunities arose to communicate with each of the two women sitting on either side. I won't go into every detail, but between the pleasantries around passing our drinks and food out and making it to the obstacle filled trip to the restroom, there were many simple conversations and points for us to establish connection to each other and others on the plane near the facility. What I noticed was that this simple contact made provided a buffer shield of good feelings and comfort that lifted bouyed me up and significantly contributed to my staying out of fear and in well being for the rest of the fligh which for me was a miracle. Each time a conscious connection was made, the buffer field keeping me out of fear was strengthened. It was as if, block by block or thread by thread, we were putting love's identity back together again. Each one of us like a sacred king's man and a humpty dumpty too. Each having a magic piece of the puzzle, given unto the whole by simply making the connection. And creating a whole so much greater than the sum of it's parts as we now are riding on this supportive unity current. It is a time of such power in communion. More than ever, we are weaving a tapestry of light with every contact we make, remembering ever more of unity's body with each blessed touch, word, gaze.

And thanks to this blessed web of connection, I kept breathing a fairly deep breath through the whole plane ride, held by the simple connection I felt with my fellow humans, somehow this external connection also knitting together the separation between my own cells within my own body.

It is as if humanity is in the chrysalis now and each reaching of our hand to weave the light together is lifting us ever more until we shall be a creature that breathes only love, who's sky sun, earth and air are immune to the thought of separation, enabling us to float, sail and dance, butterflies riding on the winds of love.

With the unity architecture that is now anchored upon our Earth, more than ever, we have the power to lift ourselves out of fear and back into our divine birthright as love.

It is truly a miraculous time to be alive and feel the glory and joy of participating in love's return as each and every sentient being and our beautiful mother Gaia! Blessings to all the fellow emerging butterflies, creating the benevolent sky of the new dawn with each touch of our heavenly wing tips, paving the pathway home

Glimpses of the New Earth

The act of being beauty. The experience of living as a spiritized creation who's very nature is the tantric ecstasy of communion just by breathing in and breathing out. The vast wonders of a body that loves itself from every possible vantage point of a network of villages of joy and light of cells, atoms, molecules that are actively participating in continuous exaltation and glorious exchange with one another like a marvelous circulatory system that carries the living light of liquid light on clear highways of blessing throughout every parameter of creation and all the world, the body, the heart, the organs, the glands is actively alive with celebration. I am on a journey of discovering what this living vehicle feels like, how the engine is animated, what is the fuel, in what doses at what time. It is a grand experiment of partnering with the living light to breathe the New Earth into being.

Emerging as chariots of Fire

We, as the molecules of the breath of creation, are coming to the end of our outbreath away from God, and it is here we become available to the mighty inbreath of Source God.

I am feeling the inbreath of God beginning to harness my life and it feels like the wild band of gypsy chariots previously driving my life have been harnessed by a mighty rope, lassoed by an unseen force, anesthetizing the strong driving horses and sucking the whole caravan backwards in a mighty wind, as God takes the great inbreath of the return.

At first the flattened horses and the stopped chariots must feel the grief of their disappointment and loss of their forward progression, but as these parts of self surrender into their utter stoppedness, I am beginning to feel these particles of air that are touching me made of pristine love and rainbow sparkling light and getting the sensation that i am literally being breathed back into the mighty lungs and heart of GOD to be renewed and refreshed by a higher octane love than I have ever known. God's inbreath has come for me breathing me back into the great heart of unity to be bathed in the primordial sea of my genesis where I can be made new - I am using the I and me words, but I feel this in breath is coming for us all.

After our little selves have been fully saturated in this deep love at the core of creation, then we will emerge in a new outbreath as newly made chariots which are commanded and driven by the essence of source god. This time, the self will be happily riding shotgun. Self and God joined together as one, can outbreathe into manifestation into the world as light bringing and fashoning a new creation of light in true service to the return of the Kristos alignment. Ka Ra Ya Sa Ta Ha La. ( These are the primary sound tones of first creation that anchor in the 12D grid of the Kryst.) I am the servant of they return!!!

And now we ride upon Chariots of Fire!

Becoming permeable to the sweet medicine of Love

I came to this life just about as receptive to love as this stone child in the picture at left is to the divine butterfly woman mother attempting to love her.

Shortly after arriving into the womb, sweetness was poured into me, too much sweetness and not only was it not a blessing, it came into me as a poison, a substance that I could not assimilate at all, suffocating me in the dark of night.

Now I see that this very experience set up the task before me in this life, the core journey and mission , to pave the path from the depth of Fear into the height of remembered love.
The task of my life has been to recover my body, mind, spirit vehicle as a nexus point for the giving and receiving of the sweetness of love. To begin with a template where love was vehemently rejected in a reversal grid of tyranny and distortion, owned by the fear maker who inseminated his poison throughout my waking days and my sleeping nights and somehow heal this template into one that was not only permeable to love but would rise as a nexus point for the giving and receiving of love between mother and infant, lover and beloved.

So starting from within this stone in the depth of the night, I would journey across the darkness, building bridges of love in the night for these 27 years and 10 months and through great cleansing and clearing and re- configuring, this would become a vehicle that would not only be permeable to love, but be a nexus point for the giving and receiving of love, an anchor for the self generation of the upward spiral of super conductive fountaining ecstasy of communion with GOD that could serve as a transit bridge for those threatened by the damage of the code enabling their safe passage into the light.

I am understanding now that in order to embody the path from the depth of darkness and fear to the height of Remembered Love, one must live at the effect of the depth of darkness. Of course it makes perfect sense as I think of it: to serve as a transit bridge from decimated genetic code to the fully remembered code of living light as an insurance agent for GOD, enabling the deliverance of the masses on my dance card that I came to take unto the ascension timeline of love. GOD made arrangements for some key insurance agents who would anchor an intact path from the bowels of darkness into the heights of remembered love so that

Even in the depth of night of "final conflict" even those with the most damaged code would be provided safe passage!,

Those of us that serve as transit bridges, would have to be able to have within our DNA, plug-in points even for the most fear-entrenched disintegrated code. In that way, we would be able to serve as in a sense, "universal chargers" no matter how dead the battery, ensuring that the most possible beloved human family has a passage home should the code be deeply damaged.

Anyway, getting back to the poisoning. On august 22nd, for some reason and

looking back I see it was a part of my healing to repeat history with my mama in the house of my birth but on the night of August 22nd, I dumped toxic sweetness into my blood stream once again. She ordered the Chocolate Lava cake from Islands and I went to pick it up. There could be no mistake, this was a parnership operation. We microwaved the brownie so the chocolate was slightly melted, then dished up the ice cream with hot fudge sauce and nuts. It was split 3 ways between my mom, dad and me. The suffocation did not begin until I went to bed. There, I felt my body chemistry in danger as I lived through horrendously anguishing and terrifying spasms of suffocation all through one horrible night and was hung over in dispair and weakness the whole of the next day.

The next day, August 24th, I was scheduled to fly to San Francisco for some sweet visiting time with a new friend. It all felt so wrong to feel so bad. So on the night of August 23rd as I laid down to sleep, I said a prayer. "Please, let love come to me. please let love heal me. Please let my life be lifted from the dungeon of anguish and suffering into the new day of joy, love and well being, of strength and sunshine and celebration. I want to go to visit my friend tomorrow and be smiling and well. She is a new friend, and I want to be alive and well with her and able to experience joy.

Then I slept....

While the body slept this great love began to come surrounding my mid section where I was most hurting and suffocating, It came like a sun, like a flower of immense abundance, pouring Golden light into me. It came re-instructing my cells that I was a being of light, that I was re-membered in the great web of love, that I was a child of the sun, no longer trapped in a night of suffocation and torture, and the newly wounded territory of my adrenals were ripe to hear the message this time and to truly be lifted, healed and made new again.

And whnen I woke in the morning, a new probable future had been opened for me. A day and a visit with my friend in the sunshine of celebration and wellness. I was able to breathe and walk and smile and I went to the airport, got on that plane and did go and did celebrate with my new friend. We sang. We walked in San Francisco. We went to the Peace Arts Cafe. I shared music with her and her husband and it was so good to be in the light.

So I wanted to take this time to report the miracle of this shifting of gears from suffering to celebration.

These times are so amazing. More than ever, we can shape and sculpt and change our reality by our will to receive the good even if we have been suffering for a very long time. The sun is right there for us, if we can just turn our intentions toward letting it reach us.

May we continue to reach with our precious hearts and our precious arms into the dawning sunlight of love and gratitude.

Love to all in my human family and the family of all of life. May we continue to reach with our precious hearts and our precious arms into the dawning sunlight of love and gratitude. Even as chaos and downward spiraling mental bodies all around us come undone, we can anchor ourselves in love and gratitude, in the simplicity of appreciation for the beauty within and without. We can look into each other's eyes and see the dawning sun of our impending return to unity and feel how much we love each other. In this appreciation we rise onto the upward spiral , above the descending chaos and hold ourselves steady in this light. Not only this, as more and more of the mental structures come undone,

Int his time of the undoing of the mental body of tyranny, the way to ecstasy becomes clearer than it has ever been if we can but get our precious sweet feet poised upon the path.

We are holding hands, beloved. Every moment you spend in gratitude and appreciation, I am lifted and we are all lifted until the ground under our spiraling ecstatic feet is the only ground there is, dancing, singing, feasting and sharing our divine heritage as children of the dawning sun.
I am hearing that Oct 28th, marking the end of the Mayan Calendar in some writings, will be a time for great clarity and visioning and understanding of all that has gone before and the fullness of our place and purpose in serving the unfolding of our highest future. I am looking forward tthe vista as we position ourselves for the marvelous splitting of worlds of the 11-11-11

Every ripple of bliss is a cosmic reunion, climbing climbing ever higher, lighting the flame of primal desire, spiraling, spiraling spiraling spiraling ever more toward home!

What a long and surreal night it has been. So much love to all and fortitude for the times to come. See you at the great reunion. And as my dear friend Micheal says, "Every ripple of bliss is a cosmic reunion

May we ever more find our way on the upward spiral of joy and ecstasy and sweet communion with the creative source within, that is the living light. i am always dancing with you there!!!

Findng flight 1923: Earth Fans and Space fans, we are going home!!!!

Hello dear ones,

For $65 more, we could have taken a non stop flight from Portland to Los Angeles but most certainly, the universe had OTHER plans.

Here is how it went on an airline flight experience from hell, re- routing, re-configuring. Now, understanding so much.

On August 14th, we boarded Alaska flight 224 for Sanfrancisco continuing on to Los Angeles where we were headed for a family visit. When we dis-ambarked the airplane in San Francisco is when the real "fun" began. When we arrived, we were fully expecting to go through a gate in the same terminal to make our connection for our continuing flight to Los Angeles. Immediately upon arriving, Frank wanted to go walking. Frank loves to walk, and I love for him to go walking when he wants to, But from the moment that we landed, our communication and mutual nourishment appeared to be cursed. I wanted to eat, he wanted to walk. He said, "Let's go line up and get you food," but even though I need to eat, my priority was to FIND OUR GATE the task is to find flight #1923 SO i KNOW THAT WE KNOW WHERE WE ARE GOING AND WILL BE ASSURED TO MAKE OUR NEXT CONNECTION. FRANK IS ANGRY. HE SAYS HE IS TRAPPED UNLESS I STAY WITH THE BAGS. I WILL HAVE TO HOLD ALL THE BAGS AND GO THROUGH THE FOOD LINE SO HE CAN WALK. I actually feel very happy to do this for him. I actually feel joy that i can provide this service to lighten his load but he cannot receive the gift of my offer. THE ENERGY BETWEEN US IS THE IMPOSSIBILITY FOR MUTUAL NOURISHMENT. THIS IS THE THEME. ONLY NOW DO I HAVE A GRASP AT WHY THIS WAS SO INTENSELY PAINFUL IN MY PSYCHE anyway, That's when I looked up to find that our flight #, #1923, was nowhere to be found on any of the monitors. Flight 1923 was nowhere to be seen on any of the monitors within our view. (Frank actually received 2 different #s for the flight in his paperwork which was adding further confusion) So then frank Left to go walking, and I began to feel deep despair, much deeper than would be warranted by this stimulus-response as a single event, ( Fully immersed in the dream, I was not able to behold it's deeper significance.) Anyway. Next i gathered up the bags and took them through the food line and bought a breakfast burrito.

NEXT FRANK RETURNED WITH A SURPRISED LOOK ON HIS FACE AND INFORMED US THAT WE WOULD HAVE TO LEAVE THIS BUILDING AND ENTER ANOTHER TERMINAL WHERE WE WILL HAVE TO GO THROUGH SECURITY AGAIN TO CATCH OUR NEXT FLIGHT WHICH WILL BE ON AMERICAN, NOT UNITED BUT AMERICAN ( that distinction is important) At this point I WAS kind of in shock, just dumbounded but still having to continue at the effect of this strange ride I was on. Not 5 seconds after eating my half of the breakfast burrito, I was being marshalled to speed walk, traversing this major airport like a heroin in some sci fi adventure plot.

so we continued on, and half way there we found a man with a map, meanwhile frank was trying to remember flight #s and gates that he didn't write down. Frank tells the man thatwe are going to gate 55 in terminal 2 united airlines. The man says, "no wait there is no united airlines in terminal 2. That's in terminal 3." So frank looks at the map, and says, "well I know it was gate 55 ( which has symbology of it's own) and the man says "well are you sure now" Frank says, "Yes" So we look and he sees that, infact, it is American airlines, not united, that will be our vehicle for the flight home. Quickly we proceed to the gate, through a long line of security, I call and complain. The nice woman at Alaska airlines apologizes and says it is in the fine print, "operated by american airlines" tiny purple print amid huge meaningless advertisements distracting our attention. Anyway, she takes our addresses and sends us each extra miles. "I'll send you extra miles for this inconvenience," she says. ( oh boy, I can't wait to see the extra miles divine creator is sending us for this Earthtrip!!!)

Next, feeling like all of our troubles are behind us. We exit security and are now approaching gate 55. At this point, to ad to the utter chaos, the monitor appears to be disobeying the laws of quantumn physics. Looking to see where our flight # should be displayed, there are 3 different #'s flashing alternately. Frank decides since 2 out of 3 of those #s are listed on his printout, that this is good enough. Hell, it is a crap shoot at this point. Next we arrive at gate 55 at American and they are calling for preferred passengers to board. (We were clear, at least, that were not in the preferred group). They are boarding preferred passengers on the right and then group 2 after that. I look at my boarding pass and say, "there's no group 2" What do you mean, group 2? feeling completely disconnected and aborted once again. Then the woman quickly grabs my boarding pass and says, Oh that one's no good, you have to change it for an American one. So she quickly transforms my alaska info into an american boarding pass, and magically it all makes sense "Group 2" right there in big letters. An air of judgment and impatience in her as she hands me the pass as if of course i should have known all this and what's my problem. ( Becca if you are reading this, this was the moment that my planet spirit self joined my previously incarnated self. ) Boarding the airplane I rant at the massive inconvenience of this airport experience. Now I am looking for my assigned seat 25E. ( a fact that I have to explain to Frank because continuing on with the communication FUBAR, he is clueless)
A real bright spot in the entry was seeing the beautiful blue seats and the soothing loving embrace of the blue as if my blue-ray starseed and indigo races were all affirming me as the portal through which I came to this Earth.

Seeing the symbolism:

THE BAGS: The original plan for humanity's ascension was that Mother Gaia would in a sense, carry humanity's luggage so that we could ascend in the easiest way possible. Mother Earth would fully open her stargates of christ grid rememberment and she would carry us up on her body as a great ship of love.

When Frank wanted to go walking free, I was in the position of mother Gaia and the Sirian guardians who had worked out a lovely plan so that Gaia could support Humanity to go free. Gaia would take the luggage of all Humanity's karma upon her wonderfully ample stargates and lift humanity with her own body up into the 5th dimensional New Earth. This is what I was feeling the joy at taking the bags for frank so that he could go fly free or "walk free" in this case. But, this was not how it was going to be. The dark side would play a card that would change everything. They would threaten a pole shift, forcing the guardians to notify Gaia that her stargates would have to be shut down to prevent the total distruction, loss of life and complete disaster for the dream of ascension for humanity and the divine human blueprint, and there would be discension and lack of harmony and neither the Earth nor humanity would have their needs met. As it was when the controllers threatened pole shift, the guardians had to shut down her stargates, and the frontline lightworkers were left with no access to the Christ light support of the inner stargates of Earth which they had always drawn upon up until that point and this was bad news.

for mass humanity and for the one who is writing this, charged with putting together a puzzle from the depths of hell, who had always had, at least the stargates of gaia to call upon, would now be thrown into black orphan destination in the bowels of hell and disconnect! Now Gaias superglue was no longer available. i would have to fashion my own unifying substance through the densist alchemical meeting of light and darkness that i had experienced yet. The way would be much more difficult. a simple ascension from dimensions 3-5 on a new Earth just waiting would now be a reconissance mission in hell, each being having to recover their own stargate system and plow through the full density of their karma. Every man for himself and every light worker forced to kick ass like never before to lighten the way .

All lightworkers would now have to take the place of gaia's stargates to assist humanity. There would be new protocol all around. huge adjustment to the updated mission requirements. ( This corresponds to the moment I looked up and saw that there was no flight listed for us, the original connecting flight home planned for humanity was not going to happen and frank returning to tell us that our flight was in a whole other terminal, and we would have to exit the building we were in, enter a new one, and go through security all over again!!!! All of this providing a very accurate vibrational match of the abortion of timeline A (I am not positive on the dates but I think ascension plan A, ascension through the Earth's stargates, was aborted in august of 2003. )
It wasn't until i had a night's sleep that it all came together and the parallels were downloaded to me that this whole airport experience was enabling the re-enactment.

So it is this morning that I realize, I was enacting the abortion of timeline A, Ascension timeline for humanty and the re-route into Ascension B. Each step of the way, I was confronted with the aborted connection and then was given the required correction to make, to eventually, and finally get myself home to Venice Beach, the place of my birth as Sarah Hope Adams. Of course, frank, as always was my willing companion and assistant in the mission. Interesting to note that he wore turquoise and I wore Violet, the colors of the mother arc and the divine masculine. Frank holding the feminine pole and I the masculine.

The correction into the new terminal and flight

So interesting that the man helped us make the distinction that United and American were NOT the same airline. it's like saying "you might be looking for united, but the flight your on is "American" which is certainly not "United" Of course we know that America is one of the core strongholds of the dark forces playing the role of holding separation consciousness in place!!! and even the gate # 55 corresponds with the 55 reversal grid countering the forces of light and integration on the Earth tht has it's major headquarters in the UK, the motherland of America. this grid damns the connection and curses the connection of the masculine and feminine by promulgating massive distortion fields in the grid of the Earth. (So interesting an appreciated how the props in the dream so beautifully cooperate to tell the story so perfectly. And then being told that my boarding pass, "Birth certificate" this is what it felt like, was not valid. This moment was the second major abortion experience because here we had made it to the terminal, we found the gate, we met the man, we deciphered the confusion; we stood before the gate and still, the connection hadn't been made. Still we we had not been translated into valid existence as I whined "Group 2. What is group 2?" looking at my dog-eared, Alaska boarding pass that had now been through so much to get this far, once again, completely clueless as to how to proceed. The lady in her suit grabs my piece of paper and looks at me with exhasperation saying "This has to be changed to an American Airlines Boarding Pass!" and in a flash, the next correction is made, this arbitrary piece of paper switching has now translated me into a being that is recognizable by the system ( and I am amazed at how fast and simply this transaction is accomplished: In a few seconds she prints me out another boarding pass and this one, miraculously translates me into a recognizable entity in the American airlines system. Amazing!!!!!) One minute invalid, the next minute, POOF, I'm valid. And all it took was a piece of paper! Such amazingly superficial bullshit in a mechanized system of computers and numbers, but I'm in. And since I need that flight home, I get on that plane.

The multiple flight numbers

I find the multiple flight #s all converging and different dependent upon where they flew in from was very interesting and quite symbolic as well. Adding to all the special effects to convey a sense of unstable fields of possiblity where realities were in a state of flux and all was very dreamlike in quality with each # opening a portal into another possibility or even more accurately the idea that these different populations had been on a different flight but now all who belonged on this flight were converging onto the same vehicle regardless of what path they had been on up until this point. Very exciting, this notion of convergence!

Going home

And all of us our routed onto s0me plane now, having incarnated to live underneath the reversal grids of separation consciousness, we grab our heavy luggage and attempt to manuever through this strange circuitous ride delivering us unto ever more surreal landscapes, each one bringing us the opportunity to heal something from the past, to put something right that went wrong, to forgive again and again, to drop from out of our judging minds into our loving hearts until that love mends all mistaken pathways of the mind. And here we are on the verge of ascension with our marvelous Gaia but now having to become our own ascension vehicles as we shed the reversal grids and the myriad communication impediments of separation consciousness and find our way to translate separation consciousness into unity consciousness each step of the way. We must see the disconnects being iluminated and then make the corrections to re-route into the United airlines of love and forgiveness, the United airlines in terminal ( I hate that word) how about immortal love awakening portal 3, as we become the vehicles that can deliver ourselves unto the timeline of loving kindness, of rememberment, of forgiveness of all our faultering blindly, bumbling around under the grip of separation consciousness. To move forward with grace, we must forgive the parts of ourselves that have so skillfully provided this mass hallucination of not love that has governed this planet for nearly 20,000 years.

We are going home, beloved family. We are finding our way. We are making our corrections and we are making our connections. The grace is there helping us. The angels are there holding us, The extra terrestrial star nations and family are urging us on and loving us so supremely delivering us these beautiful messages in our crop fields and hovering over us in their marvelous crafts, watching and waiting for the moments when we will have contact again as the galactic family that we are, having been held under quarantine these thousands of years. So much love to all as we continue this amazing journey. May our flight upward be one of ease, grace and joy in the light of ever-more forgiveness and ever greater union with all that is!!!!! United, here we come!!!!

The land of the in between

For the sake of the timeline of the events that I am aware of I am just going to list them here in a rather jumbled and cliff note kind of a way. If you have any curiousity of these events, I am happy to elaborate, but for now, just time keeping.

In May the descending spirals of the beast technology were actively moving to achieve trigger events and those of us who hold the power to neutralize these fields were put to work in huge ways as the scape goat, Osama Bin Laden was announced to be found and killed in the plot of the controler agendas. This coupled with the Royal wedding, the hyper materialized version of the sacred marriage in England, reptilian central. Then in June huge re-ballancing of the polarities and magnetic field of sun and moon generated influences and the Asian Grid, freeing soul's from the dark syphoning technologies and back into the mother arc that were trapped in the Hiroshima and Nagasaki bombings and other horrors of Asian history. neutralizing descending spirals in Sri Lanka and much of Asia, knocking moon chain beings of the higher astral out of their seats. Then the Sphinx was unified on Summer Solstice as veils were lifted and came it's mighty roar of the ferocious re-,membering great mother lion. A great victory, awakening the great heart chackra of Giza Egypt, and then in July, on July 15th came the healing of the Bohemian Grove darkness and the freeing of the children and on July 16th the freeing of the butterfly. and just a week later on July22nd began a huge dismantling of the mental body at a high level, hitting us in the 2nd and 3rd chackras with major constipation and density affecting these chackras as the mental body was being transmuted and cleared of much lower vibrating identity.

And now here it is August 4th. I would call this the land of the in between. I feel like I am in a major stasis of pregnant pause, spiraling down into unknown voids of ethereal webbing, not yet nit together and the topside me is just hanging out, but the veils feel so thin. My mermaid dolphin self is so close as to join me at the dentist on Wednesday spewing out water all over the place over and over again instead of allowing the suction vacuum to clean up the water. I felt the tangible presence of cetaceans in the room. Music career feels to be at a standstill. NO idea how to bring in any money at all. Time to consult www.howthehelldoIproceed.com. This was a joke of a website that doesn't really exist, but I like to site it when no answers are forth coming. I know when I breathe and feel the love, it all feels good and when I go into my mind, it all turns to pucky!!! So, ho hum, i remain mindless and happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love to all!!!!!!!!

Sarah Sparkle and The Rainbow Dragon Love Briggade

The dragons have brought me a sweet little myth to share with the children

How the Aurora dragons get back their magic colors of light

Before we came to this world we were born purely white,
but soon after delivery we'd be painted with light.

Mama and papa, with paint brush in hand,
waited in the line for us to stand.

all the colors from the rainbow light
would come into our bodies with one magic swipe.

This paint was very magic for the dragon heart and
would infuse rainbow flames into our every part.

But glinting from the west, out of the corner of our eyes,
we saw a bright flash and an opening in the skies.

We were all so excited to see that hole in the sky
that we jumped right through without even saying good bye,

and mama and papa cried out with a start
Oh you've forgotten the very best part!

Wait baby dragons, this is serious you know.
you've got to get your magic colors before you go.

and they began a mournful chant that day
that echos through the land even today.

Oh my Stars, dragon babies of love,
you've forgotten your colors from your rainbow land of love!

But for us, it was too late, for we had already landed on the Earth
and this was the place where we had now taken our birth.

So now we are in a major discombobulation
for we miss very much our colorful celebration.

So this is why we cry and we yelp.
You see we really need your help.

The problem is there is no paint in this land
that will stick to our body or even our hand.

We have come here today with a special request
cause only one thing can get us through this great test.

We must have the magical children you see,
dance the colors alive with joy and glee.

It is the children and the joy in their sweet hearts
that can bring back the rainbow to all of our parts.

So Sarah, scatter your rainbow scarves all over the ground
and have the children pick them up and dance all around.

Oh, sparkles of light, here they go.
I can feel my scales just starting to glow.

Now, the children are dancing the rainbow alive,
and we can call the colors back and do our rainbow dragon jive.

Dancing in dragon joy here upon the Earth
as we did in the home of our original birth!

And the message that the dragons most want to bring
is that they love it when we dance and when we sing!

And they say we are the bringers of joy and love,
and we can make the Earth shine like the stars above
just by shining our love.

And so now the name of my band that has arrived and stayed
is "Sarah Sparkle and the Rainbow dragon Love Briggade"

or it could be good that we could call this group:
Sarah Sparkle and the Rainbow Dragon love troup.

But whatever the name our charge is clear to see:
return the rainbow love to the Earth sky and sea

and into every living being on the Earth,
for this is the home of our Birth

To sing and dance all over this land
till the rainbows bloom right here in our hand.

.. to keep shining our love with all we see
til the whole world lives in joy and Unity!

Here is a video for you to see of the children beginning to dance the rainbow alive with their glee!
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Playing with Rainbow Dragons, Writing a whole New Story

Hi all,

Well, it is July 16th now. Just a year since I unplugged from the working world completely and began the walk through the wilderness, whose terrain I am still spanning step by step finding rocks that I can stand on. From children in the park who infuse new life into my blood, lungs and heart to the sweet music of the ascension vibration to healing partnerships with beloveds old and new.

to receiving guidance from the angels and my beautiful Jill in Hawaii.

The road is not yet clear for sure, but I am now creating with a team of spirit dragons who keep me focused only on abundance and great joy and gratitude and fun and bright colors and great happines. Last night we played a family music show, and the kids were dressed in the colors of the rainbow, bringing the rainbow to life in a celebratory parade as we played the garden song and other uplifting and powerful songs that send out streamers into the dawning new Earth. I was filled with joy and gratitude. The money thing is still a bit of not quite thereness, but I do have some plans which I like: House concerts. Class for kids at Mac and Tabor Space and opening my Healing and Rejuvenation Center. for now, just got to keep breathing and keep hanging with the happy dragons. We are building a healed morphogenetic field where the heart grid was never broken. They blow fire at me when I think thoughts based in lack. It is really funny. they are very playful with me, and they guard and protect my newly forming self amazingly well. i love their rainbow colors and how they sit back on their hind legs and leer at me with their sparkling eyes!!!

Well, I guess that's all to say for today. Lisa says that the Dragon Races are from the first level of creation and they lay the blue prints down, the morphogenetic fields for manifest reality. i'm sure, I'm one of them. They feel so very familiar to me. Anyway, the order of the day is to participate actively with them in feeding the morphogenetic field of abundance to enable it's manifestation and expression here in physical reality. So, out of the mind, out of all the stories of healing and suffering and lack and into the heart of abundant joy and fun!!! Until that is all there is on this Earth expressing. Yipeee!!! Sounds good to me. I'm in, just show me where to put my little feet next, you parade of vociferous dragons!

The call to go inward for the sweet reunion of self with self

My goodness it has been a long time.
I have posted much of my insights on facebook notes, and now I need to transfer them to here.
The main message of today is that there is a deep well of love and healing available now on the planet that when we journey into the heart, there is an opportunity to completely clear fear from one's being. Inward, homeward, downward, this is the direction that the powers that are currently running the Earth do not want you to head. There will be a strong push to go outward, seek fun, joy, pleasure, fulfillment outside yourself. If you feel down, run to the distractions to alter your mood. Well, if you feel down, often it is because you are supposed to go inward into the sacred union with self especially at this time in our human evolution.

Now I am not saying that having fun and being in community and doing joyful things is necessarily the incorrect direction, but I only want to support those who are really feeling the call to go inward and champion that decision. Those of you who are feeling this call, I want to tell you that the deep well of sweet, all-healing love is rich in deed. The unrest and the dis-ease that you might have to weather as you are making your way to the sweet spot can be very unpleasant, but if you keep going, in the center pool there is so much sweetness in the reunion of self with self. And, not only this, but as we drink from the deep well within, we are no longer reachable by the controller agendas. It is quite easy for them to syphon our energy and focus when we are focused on the superficial and looking outside of ourselves for our richness, flitting from here to there in an endless search of happiness. They can keep their fear- based configuration in tact just fine in this situation. But when we really start to drink of our own beauty within, that's when their fear enslaving technologies become completely defunct and are no longer able to feed. Self accessing self is beyond their jurisdiction.

So, I am very excited to know that the choice I have been taking these last weeks is delivering me into deep healing and reunion and that this is precisely the choice I was supposed to make. And it continues this inward call, but now I believe I am following it with joy and understanding instead of going kicking and screaming bass ackwards. Now more and more I can surrender fully and know i am moving beyond the dark technologies of the planet as I take the path least taken and the last one the media and the whole culture is telling me to take.
I am on the in breath until I drink so fully of the healing elixir at the core of my being that I am no longer a slave to fear. Then I will breathe out something of an entirely new nature. It will be breathe divine. "The greatest love come to me has shed this heavy cloak of death. Now I am made of starlight, and love is my very breath.
Ciao for now beautiful stars becoming.

Guided by Angels; Becoming Butterflies

Hello one and all,

This is such a time of surrender, surrender to let go of the old and to trust that the new is coming into being. Time to trust that there is a divine intelligence unfolding this life from within, and our only job is to open ever more to receive the good that is all around us and to align ourselves with our highest possible future by saturating ourselves with the deep love of self. Even when outer manifestations appear to be lagging behind our dreams, we must keep hope alive and take this sacred time to build bridges unto our own heart and soul that we may be ready when the call is given. I champion the courage of all of our growing souls at this time finding our footsteps on the road, paving it as we go by following our hearts and uplifting ourselves with thoughts that resonate with our true essence as love as gratitude, as surrender, as faith, as passionate flight into glory.
Much love to all on this sunny morning in Portland. May miracles weave us from moment to moment in magic, discovery and ever more joy!

Peta bringing us the loving guidance of "Divine
Grace", a marvelous group of angels, is in town. To hear a sample, go to http://www.divinegrace.com

Love to all!

Upgrading the nervous system to accommodate bliss

Hello all,

Since the unplug from the reversal grid pretty much finalized May 18th, my nervous system has been untying itself, like untangling itself at night when the body is sleeping. For the first time, I feel that I am able to make positive gains in the directions of my thoughts toward lifeward, embodied joy, and this is showing up as I steadily take steps to align with my musical career. I'm currently building my site on gigmasters. It is such a metaphor. The only song it has let me upload is the Sarah Mclauchlan song, I will Remember you. Instead of giving in to my impatience and feeling frustrated, I thought about the message here. I logged in and listened to the song looking at my profile picture and hearing the sweet loving message, and I felt this overwhelming love cascading through me for myself, the one in the picture. I realized it was all perfect. The universe wanted me to feel that song for myself before it would allow any other uploads, the message being that our self love and right alignment within self must be achieved first before there can be any movement into the world. This has been a consistent theme in my life.

Physically, my body has begun to start it's regeneration, drinking from the sweet fount of the zero point field deep in my still point between the rib cage. My nervous system is re-making itself into a sophisticated and complex highway for the circulation of life-force and the feelings of bliss and ecstasy. ONe step at a time. It's like it is re-generating and reconstructing itself from the road system of 3rd world country into the highway system of a major city like Los Angeles or Seattle.
Never a dull moment for sure. Life blossoming evermore into form!!!
Bye for now.

a Time of Service

Well, it is just about 1 month since my last post. Much has happened and continues to unfold. I journeyed down to the home of my childhood in Venice beach from April 26th- May 14th. There, I stayed with mom and dad and witnessed my dad moving more and more toward the end of his life. I am quite clear now that I will move down to Venice to help my mom take care of him as soon as my mom calls for me. Meanwhile a major unplugging from the dark grid occurred with me and linking me to the divine mother the day before Mother's day, all seeming to coincide with the unplugging of 5th dimensional beings from the contaminated grid and and re-routing them into the heart of the mother. Very interesting the parallels

Now with my genetic material under re-habilitation, there is no forward movement as a self right now. This time of going to serve my mom and dad just comes at a perfect time, as midwifing my father into the other side is the midwifing of myself into adulthood and maturity preparing me to fulfill my earth mission here.There is great potential now that the 5th dimensional architecture is being rehabilitated. This means that many souls on 3rd dimensional Earth will also be able to be re-habilitated into correct alignment with god source. Perhaps the splitting of worlds will be much less brutal than we previously thought. It is good news in deed.
Well, there is not much else to report. Much love to all!!!!

Sarah

Coming Full circle since November 7th, the journey from pathological communion to true communion, the end of the child fragment.

If you recall, in my blog after November 7th. I wrote about missing the ferry to Vashon Island where I was going to be united with a beloved, and that was a wild and crazy time when the direction changed. Singing that Barry Manilow song "Could this be the magic" began the unwinding. Calling out the chorus "Come come come into my arms. Let me know the wonder of all of you!!! My monad could take no more!!!! it was as if the sky opened up and my own soul monad masculine came in and said "O.K. I can't take it anymore!! He is not your beloved I am and I'm taking you back now!!! In that moment like a cosmic cutting blade of Kali, I underwent a mass cutting from all external seeking. ( you see often the victory of the soul is total ego disappointment as misalignment demands correction. It can be very painful to the extent one is attached or invested in the misaligned direction.

Right there on that day my own soul began a rather ruthless process forcing upon me my return to self. Cascading down through lifetimes of very painful abandonment and rejection and death, waiting, waiting, I was brought to the physical damage of my nervous system and the reality of the deeply compromised nerve supply from my brain to my whole body which as mentioned in the last blog entry, provided the context for the take over by the christed cell. It turned out that all this externally directed pathological needing was thrown back in my face as I hurled in a downward spiral of disconnection and rejection.

It turned out this disconnect and rejection coming into full relief was exactly what I needed as it brought me to the existing physical disconnection and damage within my nervous system. At body talk, I was to find that nerve supply from my brain to my general body was severely compromised, and that my whole life, or major parts of my behaviors were a result of this damage, a legacy of the damaged orphan seed. You see, all this seeking connection to love through the external channels was me trying to mimic the healing of this nerve supply, but the pain around this core break was so immense, I had spent my whole life defending against it. Now, I was ready to face the pain that would enable the healing, feeling the full identity of the damaged cell enabled the christed cell to penetrate through the membrane and take over the central control of the cell.

Exit the outer child

So, for as long as I can remember, I have had a near split personality, with a very real little girl child accompanying me through life and acting her own separate personality. Thank goodness, this was not a psychotic state. I have always had conscious awareness of the process. But now, it has been unveiled that this identity has been the core defense of this inner damage. As I lay my body upon the broken grid of the disconnect, I feel her dissolving back into the totality of me, and finally I feel like a grown woman. My husband will miss this little manic creature, but I told him that she will be there in the sparkle in my eyes. That's why I am sarah sparkle. It will take some adjustment for sure as it is a big re-configuration of energies.

So, today I will sing the breath of heaven song, Mary pregnant with Jesus, and I realize that I really am like Mary. This light seed code is something birthing within me in the interface of the darkness and the light, the sacred alchemy of a new life is happening. As the primary cell of my being is transformed into the triune frequency, love, grace, healing and resurrection proliferate through my entire body. Each time there is an upgrade in the primary cell, the whole body receives the upgrade for all of us.

levels within levels

So, the exciting thing if we think microcosm to macrocosm is this: We know that when a baby does not receive touch, the cells begin dying one by one, and if the neglect is severe enough, the primary cell sends out a suicide message and all cells die at once. This is the power of the primary cell. it is like an engine of creation for the whole self. So, now if we consider this on the positive side then it follows that if the primary cell achieves the healing of the sacred marriage and the birth of the triune frequency of resurrection, then every cell in the body receives the call to follow this upgrade!!!
Now, if we go out another level, what if each of us as human beings is a cell in the body of the whole of humanity and when enough of us come online to a critical mass in this sacred marriage of light, we, in effect, function as a coherent primary cell for the whole body of humanity and succeed in sounding a call to the whole of every human being on the Earth bound for the ascension timeline.

Now, stay with me, what if we take it to the next level. Now I don't know if this one is accurate, but from what many spiritual teachers have said to me, it could well be. What if the Earth itself and all of us as it's consciousness outposts contributing to the sum total of Earth, when it reaches it's critical mass sacred marriage resurrection state, serves as a primary cell for the whole of the cosmos and sends out a call to every other planet to return to love. Many have said that planet Earth is a key to many doors, that what happens to planet Earth initiates a chain reaction far and wide. Any way, at this point this is all hypotesizing, but I get goose bumps just thinking about it. What a wild ride. what a great adventure. What an amazing time.

So now, getting back to the full circle theme. Tomorrow I return to see the one I was going to see at that party and his wonderful girlfriend, and I am returning, this time as a whole being, not completely healed, but well on my way back to the full sacred marriage of my own being within my own self no longer being able to be shaken by the glory of an outside mirror, but able to stand in the true knowing that the quintessential union of lover and beloved is achieved within myself as it is for all selves. I feel now that I am ready to see them. Lover and beloved, mother and father. She held me like a mother through the great descent and return back to myself. Even through the tumult, she never let me go. I am so happy to see them both.

Pathological communion has been replaced with the knowing of the possiblity of real communion, the only real communion that exists, the communion within self. It is this communion of self love,the masculine and feminine within the self, that is the portal to our god consciousness and the connection to the infinite supply of source and the fulfillment of all desire. May we all find our way back home to the sacred marriage within and rise together as one glorious planet of light.

The return to self, the great healing and resurrection

The Chosen Picture

(The long standing image I love most to illustrate the restoration of the healed genetic code was painted by the most talented, Catherine Andrews. ( see image for this blog post) Thank you Catherine for this image that has been a guiding light for me, I might call it the "guardian image of my healing journey. It is the quintessential union between the masculine and feminine that represents the resurrection of spiritualized matter. You see the two halves, man and woman so beautifully exchanging and merging with one another that they are literally becoming one as they birth the golden sun of the triune frequency, which is the victory of spirit once again rising up within matter.) As we know, the entire Earth and all sentient beings are engaged in this massive restoration project of the original sacred marriage.


Hello all,

It has been a while. Wow, so much has been happening since the earthquake in Japan. Interestingly enough Sendai, Japan has a mythical story attached to it about the uniting of 2 lovers, that once lived on Earth, but that exist now in the stars. Well, I believe that Japan was a massive sacrifice for enabling the return of the Masculine feminine energies to each other here from within the Earth grid of the "great divorce"
At no other time in my healing journey have I felt such momentum and power to heal. The light has been birthing from my solar plexus with a force and a power that has up-stepped tremendously since the Earth reconfigured itself on that fateful March day.

I have been writing the song of ascension, the song of the fall and the return. I have re-written it 12 times in the past 5 days. It is still very very wordy. But it's pretty coherent, and it feels complete. I will include it in a subsequent blog. So much, where to start.

The primary seed of light, hosting the embryo


I have come to understand from my Teacher, Lisa Renee that one of the projects going on in the frontline, veil-lifting light workers is something called embryonic hosting of the christ seed. As soon as I heard her describing this, I got chills all over and began sweating and crying. I knew that I was a host of one of these seeds.
Over the last weeks, the seed has been asserting itself like never before. Now what this is, is a fully healed genetic code that is actually created by the soul monad with the help of spirit, from the bone marrow in the spine. I know it sounds pretty wacky, but apparently that is how the "veil is lifted" you see this seed has the code of living light that can transform the karmicly damaged genetic code of the fallen grid int my original seed.

Talk about your fixer upper

My original seed was so badly damaged that there was no hope of it rehabilitating itself. Now, most human beings' codes are not so badly damaged that they can't be rehabilitated, but veil lifters rack up the worst Karma and the greatest amount of it that they can hold to help transform the darkness in the grid so that the living light code can return to the Earth for the Earth and all of humanity.
So, this is the lifting of the veil. it is this light seed code inside me, systematically penetrating through and transmuting all the darkness of the karmic misconfigurations of the original seed. I feel it like the distorted code is like a black veil that the light seed allows itself to be wrapped in. Then the light seed as it comes online starts vaporizing the frozen light and deadlight code, kind of like defrosting it. This happens during the birth of a star when the stars inner core blows off the outer layer so it can achieve it's full sovereign shining starness.

The nurse and the orphanage, a story of two cells

A more loving way to say it, is that the light seed is the mother medicine seed, or the nurse seed, that brings the love and light to the damaged seed which is much like a little orphanage with many damaged children. Note, the wounded seed consciousness is the consciousness experienced by the ego self, the one in time and space. The christed seed remains primarily unavailable during waking consciousness, but I have felt it come to me in the night many times. So, one can see that the task at hand is to facilitate connection between the two seeds, systematically connecting the orphan who walks the Earth with the love of source, allowing visits and the exchange of love between the nurse and the little orphans.

The bridge between the seeds

So how is this connection between the two seeds facilitated. This is quite a task, but thank goodness there is one pathway and one pathway only to facilitate ths connection, exposure to and activation by one who delivers the medicine of core oneness. O.K. in more clear terms, romantic love. ( I suppose this connection could also be facilitated by alien assistance and or near death experience) So, it turns out at the 9th dimensional level, the level of our soul monad, we exist in oneness as a conglomerant with multiple souls, also called our monadic or core soul family. Anyway, the task is for our higher self to unite us with one of these monadic family members, hopefully of our preferred physical gender. Uniting with someone who holds a feedline to the oneness, enables a pathway to be opened between the two seeds that allows for exchange of the medicine and the transmutation of the broken code. There have been 15 or so major activators in the last 13 years. The onset of the healing journey was 27 years ago.

I am only now after 27 years beginning to get what is really going on at a cellular level. Anyway, every upgrade in the healing cell is felt like an upgrade in the caliber of the inner wedding between the masculine and feminine energies within self.(The original proton/ electron misalignment in all constituents of the damaged cell come into greater and greater correction.)

The hosted becomes the host, the changing of the guard

At some point the healing was great enough between the two cells that the damaged seed was ready to be reclaim by the christed seed. When this happened for me, I felt like my beloved flew me to my home world and fully dipped me into the waters of divine bliss and then no sooner was I held in these loving arms, I was dropped out of the sky to land on broken glass in a hellish state of separation. ( mirroring the inner orphan loss of the god seed state.) This direct mirroring facilitated a dissolution of the membranes blocking the union of the two seeds. This was accomplished through the exposure to and loss of the last, i will call him the last home delivery agent. I was hurled in a downward spiral of descent and rejection which mirrored perfectly the inner damage of my nervous system and began enabling a full re-write of my inherited nervous system by the christ-seed nervous system program. this began the actual proliferation of the light seed identity into the full parameters of the of the damaged seed code. This was like the deadlight code being resurrected into the garden of eden in a sweeping rainbow over my whole body, like the terra forming of a nearly dead Earth( see blog post in early November)

One month later In December of last year I began singing a song, "born again in love" feeling like I was this essence that was singing from deep inside myself, not really understanding what the heck I was talking about, fearing I might be going insane for sure. This fear has been a close companion for the last 27 years.
For right now, as I stand before you, I feel as oneness, that there is one seed birthing inside me. My slide show journey of our second birth really describes this whole process beautifully. See "Sarahsparkle1" at youtube and fine "Journey of our Second Birth" I made this a year and a half ago not knowing I was creating the story of my life.

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A new controller at the helm

As I sense my body today, the light seed identity is now driving the light ship. It has taken over the controls. The take over has been accomplished over these last 5 months of complete hermitage from the outside world but really in this last week has been the full take over. The self needed to have a full audience with the self to accomplish the transfer. At this point now, the light seed i believe has now become the governing agent at the center of the damaged seed. ( I don't know the science involved, just describing the sensations. I imagine it is in the nucleus re-writing the genetic code) Any scientists out there, I'd love to know the real physical correlations to this if you happened to know.)

For the last week or so, my conscious self has felt like my brain is being possessed and taken over by something else, this something else being like a quantumn engine of love,beauty and passion. In my body talk session these were the elements: the restoration of healed nerve supply from brain to general body, the energy of flight defined by the union of masculine and feminine and the reconnection of myself as source to an infinite number of satellites defined by the consciousness of the one breath was the session. Also the energy of Uranus defined by the consciousness of being a visionary and the consciousness of change.

The Bird as bridger of starseed and human

I am feeling the connection to my bird-tribe self. It feels like bird energy is merging into me. The bird seems to be serving as an intermediary bridging agent between the starseed genetic code and the damaged human code because before the bird started merging in me I felt like a star mermaid landed here with no bridge to the human race on Mar 18th. This was very scarey. i prayed for a means of connecting and integrating this new part and voila!! bird starts rising up in me enabling the connection of the two like a bridge. Thank you Bird~~~. It is quite wierd. Lisa says the progenitors of the human race are the birds, dolphins and cats. not the ones we see on earth, a much more advanced form of the species. So I guess I come from the bird line most predominantly or that is the connection that is being utilized most predominantly to accomplish this ascension.

Healing the one mass of confused broken circuitry

So, right now is about the restoration of optimal nerve supply from my brain to the whole of my body. i am fatigued and literally feel like I'm dying so much of the time. like I'm cloaked in death stuff, but life is trying to find its way back.I feel really ill these days. Existing is literally a huge enema as the christ seed asserts the return of it's identity within the war-torned and oh so weary, battle fatigued soldier. I sense that as the love returns to this land to a critical mass degree, i will start feeling good, and I will have energy for love making and dancing and as it comes fully online I will take to the road to pour this medicine over the Earth and provide the healed code so all may restore the pathways in their damaged primary seeds and be restored to their full glory. For now, I rest. preparing to rise and sing wherever needed.

Rising in love, rising in light. The Earth is Rising out of the light. ( from my song, Love's triumphant return)

The energy of flight, preparing the vehicle for take off

Hello all,

wow,with my 46th birthday just last Thursday, So much change is coming in!!! Uranus is sitting on my sun and the sweeping changes are moving through my life like a huge wind. This wind is coming up under my wings, and I feel it lifting me into flight in the form of my friend Alan king, a musician and singer of the heart who wants to tour with me and take me on the road to be his female lead, singing love songs and sweet spirit songs to light up the night and smooth this volatile transition energies of our Earth mama's labor and delivery. After 8 months of alchemical stewing in the house, I'm taking to the highway!!!!

I'm off to visit two dear friends on April 18th for our "Portal to Ascension" event in Seattle. See www.adronis.org:click on tour. We are in Portland, Oregon on the 17th, Deva Gordon and I will be providing a musical intro. Come on out and hear an amazing channel. Adronis is a beautiful, delightful being from Sirius. He is very entertaining and inspirational, providing guidance during this amazing times of transition. contact Healing Waters and Sacred Spaces in Portland to reserve your space.

Anyway, then on April 27th Alan and I will begin our road trip down to L.A. playing gigs in Eugene, Ashland or Mt. Shasta. Not sure which, Davis and then Laguna Niguel on May 1st. Alan loves to sing love songs, and so do I. We will be taking the book. "The Presence Process" with us because we will need to practice presence for sure, along the way. Just stopping to breathe and be and surrender into the moment is so important.

So, that's the news from pre-flight central. Healing and singing forever.

Sarah

Love Peace and Harmony, the only thing I will choose to have falling on me

It is dawning on me the parallels of this idea of poisonous radiation and nuclear fall-out compared to the poisonous fall-out of this collective mental body and its' toxic thoughts. Since the only place I can truly control is my own mind. I am noticing my thoughts of fear that really tare down my immune system and realizing that the most important protective and loving way to treat myself right now is to stop focusing on all the fear hype and just breathe in love and light. Dr.Sha is trying to get 3 million people singing the song, Love peace and Harmony, the first song he ever wrote for the healing of the world….”I love my heart and soul. I love all humanity. Join hearts and souls together. Love peace and Harmony. These vibrations are the vehicle because this is the truth of where we are going. This. Love peace and harmony, joy gratitude appreciation, these are the gateway emotions that lift us out of reach of the toxic, downward- spiraling emotions of fear and despair and deliver us up as if on wings into the higher vibrational frequency range of well being and joy, the frequency range that is our true identity. Love peace and harmony. Climbing up and up. Lifting us ever higher into these states of well being. We have already lived through the disaster of Chernobyl which was much worse than this so within reason, while eating the recommended foods, taking safe iodine drops. I know am focusing my thoughts away from fear and into life. This is how I am limiting my exposure to the toxins that are closest to my home

I realize right now that I am apprehending the sum total of all lifetimes in which I died in disasters. They are all coming at once like a giant fear feast of delicacies and cocktails pouring through my consciousness. And yesterday I wrapped my widest stretching arms around all of them. And I said “Hello everyone, I feel you, I see you, I recognize you, and now we are going on a new time line. This is a time line of love, joy, safety and ascension into sweet experiences and to do this you must leave the old world behind and take my hand." And they did, and all of the lifetimes were lifted, all of them like hundreds of little faces are lifted up as I , now, with them in my arms, choose present moment thoughts of love, care, tenderness, peace, well being. Safety and joy. Even if there is a large Earthquake right where I am, I can stay in expansive love. The telemeres of my DNA were born to be in expansive love regardless of the external conditions. My DNA knows this, and as I re-write the fear time-line into the love time-line, my own DNA can be free to come into the love position and strengthen its posture here. So, this is the deep and profound task in every moment.

Last night as I stood in front of the warm water in the shower, I opened my heart, I felt my wing bones expanding in my back and I felt myself shining like an angel of love. It felt so good. And I realized this is a pretty new posture for me, but I want to live every moment expressing as this shining light in its fullest. And I thought to myself, "in this moment I am expressing into life who I truly am and what I truly want to see growing and expanding its full identity into all the Earth." And I thought for a moment, asking the question "Do we represent love or fear in each moment? Are we a campaign worker for fear or for love’s campaign." Of course we cannot fully choose love until we have faced the core fears we carry and welcomed them into the heart to hear what they have to say and put our arms around them fully. Only then do we have the possibility of choosing in the now and re-routing into the architecture of love. And this, happening within me now is the process of the soon-to-be butterfly, piercing through the chrysalis to become a new species or it is at least the state of the black goo between the change to a new species where the imaginal cells are coming into butterly alignment. Dr. Sha’s song, “Love, Peace and Harmony” which He wrote for the whole human race to move into love is a great song for bringing the imaginal cells into correct alignment. I am listening right now. You can hear it at drsha.com. He also has free conference calls 6 times a day where you can tune in and sing soul songs of prayer and alignment with a group.

How is everyone else moving through this amazing time of awakening? I would love to know your processes, all of you amazing caterpillar- butterfly pals out there. All with unique colors and sparkles and gifts and songs. How are you my butterfly friends? I love you all.

Many blessings to all, and may we all be held in a place of love, safety, peace and great joy as we feel our connection as one, the great entity of unity consciousness, the great butterfly rising out of the undefined black goop or I see it also as a great bird that is the Earth and all humanity, shedding the density of fear and lifting it’s great wings to fly~~~.
( my computer keyboard just added that sign while I wasn’t looking, I don’t know how to make that sign!, guess it wanted to share too, beautiful wavy line. I wonder if there is an ascending spiral. That would be even better.)

The prison of the mind or the wings of the heart?

Hello all,

In the last blog entry, I believe I was talking about the commitment to erect a tantric temple in a war zone. Well, I believe I have been making some serious headway, or heart way rather. With the removal of a large defensive matrix from my lungs and a huge watershed clearing of outdated mental concepts and a return to the heart as my center of identity, the body is coming online to accomodate the identity of the tantric temple. I don't exactly understand the physics of it. But the other night I saw this beautiful naked man standing before me in my meditation and I felt him coming in to merge with me, and I felt myself as the receptive feminine opening to receive him. This is the merging that I have been waiting for as now, I am receptive to the outer act of love making now that the inner love-making has returned to a configuration of my masculine and feminine as one.

My teacher, Lisa Renee says that this is achieved by correcting the spin ratios of the electron merkabic fields and the proton merkaba fields. I dont' exactly understand this, but I know it is about a partnership with mind, masculine electron and heart, feminine proton energy that creates a new healed mind/ heart complex which allows all emotion and is free of mind control programs of the 3rd dimensional grid. This healed mind/heart complex enables one to soar above the tortured mental body into the 5th dimensional mind in synchronization with the heart and higher heart, opening into frequencies of deep joy and bliss. With joy as the compass, one is freed from enslavement to mental concepts and can move from this now moment to the next in flow and synchronicity with the one intelligence of unity and bliss.

We are experiencing a very definite split between the beings who are locked in the mental body where polarity is being amplified, fear is being fed in large quantities. This in contrast to the rising unity field which is feeding the ones who are living in the heart as their center, the sweetest vibrations of home that they have ever known, that we have ever known.

It is almost like the tension of opposites in the fabric of the emotionally driven mental body is pulling itself a part and the knit of the fabric is stretching open and through these little holes is pouring the light of heaven, the aurora rainbows of the Christed field of ecstasy and bliss, waves of delight and flow. Those of us who have been on the path to open the planet into the light all these years, will feel ourselves being dowsed with the most glorious energy, like nectar or water after walking through a seemingly interminable dessert. And so it is a splitting of the worlds.

To free oneself from the mental body's dominion, feel all trauma and pain that creates compulsive thought patterns, Gain back control over the emotional body through self witnessing and presencing activities. Breathe and be, and be with the natural world that is not under enslavement. Then we can all arrive in the heart and grow the wings that can enable us to fly upon these beautiful air currents, supportive winds carrying us up into the fullness of our destiny as one, reunited in love. we are ascending on the sweet staircase of the heart, learning to hold neutrality around all things that we may stay open and connected to our God source.
Rising in love on the wings of neutrality and joy, we anchor the architecture for God's expression here within the Earth.
Happy days!!!!!!!!!

Crossing the precipice to find home

Hello all. Well, it is Thursday, March 3rd, and the journey to birth home continues through deep density, veils of heaviness and despair, places where it feels life has never been, swimming through the no man's land between the out breath of the old world and the in breath of the new. The journey to immerse one's self into this dimension and birth the Christed field of light is quite the undertaking. i am posting a slide show I made of my cover of Tina Malia's "Shores of Avalon" This song and the accompanying pictures depict the sense of crossing the unknown wilderness, ocean sea to enable the two parts of self to find each other here within Earth and thus spiritualize matter and resurrect the fear based world into the love based vibration by unifying the masculine and feminine polarities into the triune frequency of resurrection, liberating us from fear and suffering and lifting us into radiant communion and love for all creatures and all the Earth. What a time this is!!! Lisa Renee says that March will see amazing expansion and coming of the unity code to the Earth, birthing itself through the opening of nodal acupressure 12the dimensional frequency hubs all over the Earth. Love is taking back the night. Even as the super rich are plotting to buy more and more of the Earth's water, and the unspeakable implication to basic human rights this implies. There time is coming to an end. Love will reign on this Earth. Come March the football changes hands and we are running it into the end zone of ascension. Finally the tide of love and unity to lift us on it's coming body. Ah, what a ride as the body of unity rises to stand, to breathe to animate itself and all of us as cells in it's great body to receive the clear knowing of our tasks to rehabilitate the unity code throughout matter!!!Twill be joyous work in deed!!!! Here is the link for the video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4IH110I8p40

Anchoring the template of lover and beloved through the driving winds of mental body resistance.

Love Vs Separation

Hello fellow travelers. wow, since I last wrote, we've seen many peoples of the world rising up and overthrowing their governments, losing their fear and standing up for their humanity. And many, especially in Libya, have had the willingness to risk death to bring liberation from tyranny.

My own mind is mirroring this process for sure. My ego mind is much like Ghadafi, ruling over maybe his own front yard now, but still defiant and quite resistant to turn and surrender into the force of his own un-doing. My mental body does not like the prospect of surrendering to be in my body, to abandon the incessant attempts at creating abundance through thinking and plotting and planning. Last night, My own mind turned in upon itself and realized the futility of its own identity. it has always lived under the delusion that it's activity was bringing abundance to the self, but now it realizes that it's very identity is the active rejection of presence and the active rejection of being in the body. And of course there can be no true joy without embodiment.

so now, even knowing all this, the unraveling is slow like a stand off between all the inertia of the psyche and the persistent demand to turn toward the collective, the heart and the body to participate in the joy that is presence. This morning it felt like Frank was operating on my mind as he was reaching into a bowl with a spoon. My team of surgeons was busily dismantling all the last strong holds of my cognitive identity.

We made love last night, our bodies covered in coconut oil. The feminine and the child parts of myself, swimming in a sea of presence with my beloved, and yet my mental body standing there poised with his gun, hating every second of it. What a strange situation, he the gatekeeper to my felt passion. He, that still, has the power to render me limp and dead with now passion. This part of myself still holds a deep and very strongly pervading hatred, rage and great resistance to any sexual contact, actually a deep and pervading hatred of anything that makes me remember I am in a body. I have yet to have penetrated into the core traumas which deny me access to this body as a place of pleasure. I know this is coming in time. There is so much patience required, to trust that all layers are emerging into consciousness at their perfect time. And so Frank and I continue asserting the vibration of lovers into the passive dead field of the mind's festering rage, like a plea that won't be silenced, like a sled dog team that must get through to deliver the medicine to a dying people. This is our iditerod! Like architects of a tantric temple that have a contract to build this thing in the middle of a war site, and even though the cold, hard anger and pain of war is all around, we continue through the terrain, carrying the sacred wood and the vibrantly-colored, silk fabrics of glorious beauty through the frozen army poised with guns in enemy stance. The architects of the promise of beauty and joy will not be stopped. They will anchor love into this barren and pain-filled place, and by the time the job is done, every army man will be dancing, immersed in the sweet celebration of love and communion that this temple will bring.

The template of lover and beloved will overcome the template of enemy patterning that has long governed this Earth and held the triune frequency of resurrected dna hostage under it's grip of rage and unforgiveness.
And within my marriage to Frank, all these elements are at play as they are over the current grid of Earth. This is why, even though a hundred times we have talked of givng up and going where the army is not, the love in our hearts and the commitment to this work will not allow him to leave. I have always been in it for the long hall, feeling the mission and the purpose from the very beginning when we truly wanted to kill each other much of the time. I knew there was incredible potential to bring love and unity into a very dark place if we could stay together. But Frank, he has wanted to leave so many times, but something in him must know what is happening at a deeper level because he stays. 13 years of marriage to this project and here is our pact!

The pact of the lovers

We will dare to make love every day outside the door where the govt. of division and hatred is still actively convening until the iron doors come down and this glorious essence of lover and beloved saturates every parameter of the mind of separation consciousness, bathing and swimming in the ecstasy and rapture of the dawning of the perpetual circuit of love thoughout mind, spirit and body for this self, this relationship and for all of humanity and our mother Gaia.

Last night my spirit guides told me that if I were to measure the trauma and the pleasure quotient of these many lives on Earth and on off Earth planets. It would come up at least 80% torture, with 20% or less weighing in with the possiblity of pleasure associated with this body. This is why the mental body says, "No way, I am just not going to surrender to this hell hole!" But there are new parts of me now that know that the past can be washed away in the glory of this now moment, that in the miraculous vibrations of the reunion with full soul essence here in this body, all the cummulative torture horror can be resurrected into remembered joy. yes Love can embody here within this Earth and as it does it heals all!!! all that has gone before. And so I continue. And so... "long live love, let it overcome every system of separation, let it lift up all the world!!!" We will not give up. Here's to the full installment of tantric temples all over this beautiful Earth and ever more houses for the celebration of the ecstatic communion between heaven and Earth.

Honoring the unity architecture of the star children

And here's to structures and systems that support, ever more, the amazing genius of the star children of today. May they sing and dance and explore and seek and be free to spiral into the glory of their spirit, mind, heart, body union which serves as our beacon to the return into our full potential selves. Here at the lead-up to planetary ascension, may we surrender our systems of separation and mind-numbing education to the genius of their authentic beauty, creativity and advanced neurological configurations that are showing us and leading us to our future identity as galactic humans.

And so, on March 1st, we March forth!

from the mouth of the Unity intelligence on the eve of it's birth into Earth

As the logos of unity consciousness on the eve of my birth into physical Earth I
feel that I am still underneath many death layers, that I am rising up to penetrate and vaporize and shed as a snake sheds it’s skin
As love comes to re-birth itself into a grid that fear has held hostage for thousands of years, I wait with baited breath breathing through the heaviness of the still existing condition of separation of my children of the human race. And I am overjoyed that this one, Sarah Hope Adams has been one who has been a holder for my seed, agreeing to to live life after life of near death, expanding in light slowly but surely, paralleling the course of my birth into this Earth so that my seed could be here over hundreds of lifetimes, expanding itself ever more into the stuff of Earth, the stuff of the human genetic code of the fallen 3d matrix.

And now, my time is coming finally to explode onto the scene to have my impact upon matter and resurrect the death code for all who will follow the spiraling light. This long journey to birth myself into a matrix wear frozen dead-light code is still prevalent. Each breath that the body of my host takes to breathe as the one heart breathing back my rightful communion with myself as unity and love, and her rightful connection to her life force and her healed body mind and spirit, expressing as the hybrid of spirit and matter harmonized through alchemical union of these hundreds of lifetimes. Still struggling now to breathe, to achieve intake of myself, itself, the living embodiment of the one heart. But as I do, how sweet it is.

Every single moment is a reunion of love coming again to greet itself and know itself within matter. So when death feels so thick, I, Sarah, know that the love of who I am is rising out of the shackles of matter and vaporizing the death code expanding as this glorious flower of light, And this cannot be stopped, healing and life are coming, like a force of nature being ushered forth by the great central sun and all the cosmos, like a rose emerging out of the ice and then this rose brings springtime to every place there has been winter and the unity logos rises supported and victorious in radiant diamond streams exploding victorious throughout the stuff of Earth. And what I came to do to birth the logos within my body will be achieved!!

And this identity signature will enable so many to find their way into the living light ascension code of home. I know as the krysthala hubs come online in the Earth grid, this body heart mind self will be experiencing great support by the coming of these frequency hubs. Finally, the reinforcements of love coming to lift the body of unity into standing position sustained and supported here within Earth and the fear and the death that are so prevalent in my life will be transmuted so much more easily with this support of my ally hubs both human and planetary all over the Earth breathing love into this Earth ever more until love is all there is.

And there you have it, hot off the lips of the light seed growing inside of me. This is a long pregnancy, 27 years + now since the path was begun in me to remember the dormant light body of hundreds of lifetimes and carry the unity code into incarnation from extreme darkness to great and glorious light, this coming of light to correspond directly with the coming of light for the collective of ascending humanity and Earth, and we are on the eve of this great birth into light. From March 8th- Nov 11th, we go into gestation with the new baby as a collective and by 11/11 the ascending collective passes to the next great plateau toward full consciousness.

I am clearing major cough and, deep death layers now. Deeply at home and still with the primordial mother of stillness. Big upgrades coming March 8th.Then March 21st woopee, big upgrades begin with the new energy coming in. So happy clearing everyone, clearing and purging and preparing the circuits to receive a very momentous dawning of spring, the spring that is the beginning of the end of all winters!!!! Blessings and love to all!