I dreamed of Rain and the rains came, soft and easy sweet and clear. I dreamed of rain and the rains came, and peace spread over the land

For 25 + years self hate has been the bondage that has shackled me to the matrix of core fear and its embodiment, and now that hatred has been lifted, and the fear flows out like veils of soft rain, and my land is returning to peace.
Oh what a relief!!! Oh what a journey, may it be so for all beings and for all the earth and cosmos. love and peace forever more. We came, we tasted, we knew and now, let heaven return to earth.

Why the fall?

Dear friends,

On this day of Fire the Grid and this hot hot night I wanted to share some thoughts. Remember 3:19- 4:19, the big send off of our stored loving intent back to the heart of creator to fuel the highest dream of unity for the planet and the cosmos.
( Please do forgive punctuation anomalies)
Why this dream of darkness and limitation, Why this fall into fear. Why this forray into atrocities that seem so far beyond any conscious choice I would ever make. Why and for what gain, and I wait in the silence for an answer, and I hear echoing out from my bones and body that has been repressed and massacred under layers of self killing hatred and self annihilating terror for so many years, and the soul smiles from within the fire, lifting off the shackles of night answering me with questions, saying these words as the answer, “ to know the immensity of the healing and blessing power of our very essence.” And then posing these questions… “Is it not through descending into the bowels of separation consciousness that allows us to escavate each forsaken horrified, agonized little piece of soul and welcome it home into the great heart of love, through the process, truly knowing the nature of that love for the first time? Is it not unlike showing up at a concentration camp where souls have been numbed into agonizing halflife and then bringing a great feast and a dancing celebration/ party festival to last forevermore to each soul, feeling their wonderment, amazement and utter rapture at the coming of abundance into a place that has known the depth of lack and through these eyes tasting the full parameter of the exquisite nature of light as it dawns into a place under the bondage of utter darkness. To see the look on the faces of the prisoners and slaves as we get to free them from their chains and free them from their prison cells of lack and limitation, birthing with them their cells into living houses of liquid joy, lifting them up into the light and bringing water to their thirsty lips and the feast of delicacies in every color of the rainbow to their starving emaciated bodies. Breathing love and life back into them and ushering them into the dawning sun of original glory. Is it not a marvelous experience, this? Is it not an e ticket ride of the grandest proportions to live at the effect of the darkest of the dark that we may learn of and experience first hand the magnitude of the healing power of our true essence and experience the utter rapture of light’s reclamation of itself from within the land of it’s opposite?

I am Looking forward to the great feasting and continued revelation of sovereignty and bliss within all beings, that we may drink of the light within and it will ever return us unto wholeness, communion and great joy.
Dancing with you in the light of wonder. If you want to see other blog posts, see address below.
Blessings to all,

Sarah
www.sarahadams.org
www.wakinguptogether.blogspot.com

The great potential energy within

Just a few days ago I was laying on my bed, and I was doing energy work on my solar plexus when all of a sudden from down deep inside, this rush of dynamic swirling energy comes rising out of my center like a dove taking flight. Then I fell into sleep and in my dream this strong man, quite a bit taller than I, wisked me up into his arms and whirled me around the dance floor. Being lifted by this force from out of nowhere was so exhilerating. I woke up sensing the tremendous potential energy that is currently held down and back in my body and in the body of the Earth. As we shed more and more density to prepare for the crystaline activation of Sept 9, see www.earth-keeper.com Everything inorganic will be lifted up into organic living life coded matter as this powerful resurrection occurs within matter in this procession toward Dec 2012 and beyond. The sacred marriage of the feminine and masculine principals enables a great dynamic force of ascension to overtake the physical and carry it into vibrations of superconductive love and bliss. This is where we are headed. As we move through these times of transition like a mother to be at 10 centimeter dialated, it is oh so important to keep our focus on the miraculous freeing of energy potential that is coming and the amazing movement of our cells and all physical reality from carbon-based to silica based substance, corresponding to our movement from a fear-based to a love-based people and opening into our full multi-dimensional capacities as fully conscious beings. www.paoweb.com tells us that we are already beginning to see crystalline structures appearing in the plant kingdom, and www.lightworker.com tells us that crystals are now forming on our pineal glands to help mentor us into our multi-dimensional capacities ( see "messages from home for July) I found a wonderful connection with the website www.energeticsynthesis.com I feel like I have found my family of light workers here. Check it out if you feel drawn. Every month she has tele-conferences to keep us posted on ascension happenings. Well, keep your vibrations high doing whatever brings you joy. I'll see you around campus. Until next time.

Sarah

No more matches in the city of night? Surrender to the complete darkness, and it will unlock the door to the sun.

 

Hello, today a miracle, well it felt like a miracle, happened. There have been many ego disappointments in my life as of late and the feeling of wandering, disconnected from everything has been a big challenge for me, but this morning I actually just posed the question, “What if everything is perfect?” What if this feeling of total and complete emptiness is actually a gift, a  beautiful state of being that was meant to be here. Just like we have the stages of the seasons, from spring to winter and then spring again. And why not, instead of resisting this emptiness, actually assume the stance that it is perfect, and it bares gifts. So I began to breathe deeply and say to myself “It is o.k to feel just like this”

One of my friends had said to me, “Sometimes you get so far off that it takes a long time to get back.” Well, this was the statement that woke the goddess up inside of me”  She said, “I beg your pardon, we are not off!!" and then I proceeded to be drawn into this deep beauty of silence. This deep part of my being took me on a tour of the fallow field, and through her eyes, I could feel the incredible richness of  the fallow field. I could feel the incredible receptive ground to the seeding of something completely new. Understanding profoundly the necessity of all that had gone before dying to yielding this rich state of  perfect receptivity to the new.

No plants with their own agenda living in the compost. NO, the heat of the fire had burned all life forms into virgin soil like the prima materia in alchemy that is crushed to receive the mercury, impregnating it into the new form.  And so I could understand the amazing perfection of all the ego death to yield an agenda-less virgin soil enabling the planting of something totally new, something that has never come before. And on September 9, 2009 we begin the activation of the crystalline grid of the earth, this crystalline grid coming fully on line at the solstice of 2012. See earth-keepers.com for information on this. And those of us that are the genesis pinnacles of this entirely new identity, must be stripped completely bare, divested of all that has gone before.  I know you know if you are holding this position. What a job!!! 

So, who was it that said , “Enlightenment is the ego’s greatest disappointment.”?. This is such a perfect way to put it. For it is the masculine’s total demise and loss of everything imaginable of his forward momentum, his identity, his dreams that is one and the same that which makes the personality receptive to the great boundless, loving ground of being which waits in the darkness to inseminate us with new life, a homecoming in which  the feminine self finds great delight. Quickly the masculine aspect of self is converted and finds himself a drift in this great sea of delight also eventhough nothing in the topside world has changed a bit. Ah, to taste this boundless bliss, he is recharged and rejuvenated. And so it has been a marvelous day. I am so glad to have finally received the gift my heart has been taking me to during this descent of the last month or so. I say to my heart, “Dear heart, I got it. I got the message. I am tasting the gift made possible by my demise." I raise my glass to her in a toast and sweet whine it is. And I wait in the still dark emptiness not in despair but with excited and expectant anticipation of the new world to come, the seeds that will be planted here in my open and available soil, the soil that my death made possible. Do check out earth-keeper.com. Very cool!!!!

There is a picture that I had as a little girl of a little girl who comes to a fork in the road. The sign at the head of one road says “ Your life”. The sign at the head of the other road says, “no longer an option” This is so much like what is happening in my life right this moment. The relentless hammering of the storms of night, the berating, chastising weakening energies of fear raining down so hard. These have been my greatest teacher, like a force that drives you down, down and down until there is no more down to go so you must either turn or die, and it is the relentlessness of the downward driving influences, that very relentlessness, that assures your change in direction, assures your waking up. It is basically saying “yoo hoo, your time of residing in this identity is over!”

And so as I turn away from the dead end, I stand, now claiming myself as a center of light, knowing myself as a healer. The name of my practice is “The Gaia Matrix Healing Center” but it is not only the name of my practice. It is rather, also, who I am, a center from which the energy of light pours forth as a beacon in service to restoring balance to what is out of balance, calling into radiance that which is trapped in darkness. I am a healer. That is my greatest gift, and that is my life’s path. Now, on to marketing my services and creating some business for myself. No more public schools. No more working in systems whose energies are diametrically opposed to my core essence. What a relief. In a way I feel like it is bad news because making a living as a healer I imagine is quite a challenge, but what a relief to finally be standing in who I am, and ready to give. So glad that the path has led me to a place in which I am holding my anchor in the light. My time traversing the underworld can now serve me well. I have tasted well of it’s temptations and it’s pitfalls and it has made me stronger in the light and given me tools I can share with others and powerful medicine to use for healing. It is wake up time. No wonder I have been awake much this night.
Love to all.

“ We are all in this together, one soul awakening from the night,
and as we come home to our own love, together we all take flight”

From Hitler to the Dali Lama, transferring identification of consciousness from the dual to the non-dual

Hello all,

I begin with the words to a song of mine called, "The One Heart"

We are the one heart
we are the one love that welcomes everything home
and if you want to get out of the night,
you must embrace both the darkness and the light in the same breath
with the same beautiful lungs we breathe the pleasure and the pain
But only love remains in the end
A love so awesome that it could accomplish forgetting so completely
and coming home oh so sweetly
for all the night in separation, all the night of our creation
illumines our pathway home to love
knowing for the first time just who we are
that radiant shining star, shining near and far that we are.

I am passing through what feels to be a massive battle period as I brave the storms of all the lower impulses of separation consciousness pulling me to stay at this current level of consciousness which is identified in the extreme opposites, of good/bad, expansion/contraction, Love/hate. You name it, it is that pull of opposites. Every night the breath of oneness is attempting to breathe fully into all the darkest karma of every life ever lived by this vehicle. Fear and terror throw me out of the body again and again, with the self screaming, no, not this, anything but this. And then finally penetrating the veil in where light and darkness have sex with each other and my mind finally sleeps.
It is this I experience : as long as I identify as a freedom fighter, My unconscious self will hold the pole of the freedom killer. It isn't until that final days of duality that I have been forced to hold both poles of the opposites in my conscious mind at once. The shear intolerability of experiencing myself as both is creating a tension, a fire so strong that it is serving to catapult me into the next level of consciousness, the great one light that spawned both sides of duality.

At my last body talk session, who, but who would you guess showed up as the matrix holder for identification in duality? Any guesses? ...... Adolf Hitler. It actually makes quite a bit of sense. For this is perhaps the most difficult being I could ever imagine allowing fully into my heart in an all-inclusive embrace. And yet at the threshold of the non-dual, this is exactly what is asked of us, to embrace the part of the self that is represented in the being of Adolf Hitler. God, what a dirty job. Imagine volunteering to carry this amount of darkness. And did we not need someone to hold this pole to provide us with the full playing field of duality? This is a huge question. I don't know the answer. Anyway, I Think of the part of myself that tries to tell me again and again. "Happy emotions, we only want happy emotions. All else should be irradicated." Is this not genocide of the self, of the wholeness of the many races of emotions. ( this may be a far fetched metaphor, but when I tune in this is the hyper- controling tyrannical part of myself. It also tries to control what foods my husband eats and what clothes to wear and so on. Every attempt to control is born of fear. It is at the edge of duality that we have to feel this very essence of fear that is the architect of our identification as separate from source.It is Almost like we are wringing out a towell that is literally saturated with fear. Without fear driving the mind to control and motivating the actions, one can be fully open to the wonder and miracle of the now moment and of the incredible connectiveness that is between all of us and all living things. I have only glimpsed this. But since the fear towell is definitely being wrung out, I imagine to be just exhisting in the presence much more. Now, who would you guess showed up as the matrix holder for identification beyond duality? Ah yes, the Dalai lama. He who watches his people murdered over and over and sees his enemies perform horrible acts of violence and stays completely in his loving radiance, wishing them well and wishing them freedom from their suffering.

There is still so much unknown, but all the knives cutting me away from any career for these last 25 years, denying me any legs to stand upon or any identity to rest in, have been perfect to deliver me beyond this womb of duality into a new birth. On one hand the personality self grieves and dies a million deaths, but on the other the soul celebrates the return home of the separate self.

As always, I would love to know where you are on the journey. Are you experiencing this birth into the non-dual too? Is it feeling anything like I have described? I know a whole wave of us are being birthed beyond duality at this time. This last full moon and eclipse was a great service to this transition anchoring in the energy of forgiveness ever deeper. And we've got 2 more coming. Those who are not birthing with this wave I believe will be very soon as we are at the lead-up to planetary ascension and the return of the fully conscious grid of Earth.
We all have so much wisdom and resources to assist each other across this threshold. Let's stay in touch.
Blessings on the journey.


Sarah

WEll, I would like to have spaces in between my title words, but hey, this is just a representation of the way life feels right now in general. This time feels much like a waiting period. Like there is new life inside stirring in the undefined darkness needing space to become what it is becoming. My mind wants outward movement and direction, but my soul is in control and it is gestating something so I am just hanging out here not knowing what is next. Like awareness that is awake long before dawn, I watch and wait and wonder what will be my next vehicle to connect me with this world as it is. I want to teach the children and bring forth the music and facilitate healing in all ways. Like threads in a great tapestry I feel that so many beautiful strands are reaching toward me across the mist to arrise as new life in a re-membered tapestry of love, vitality and life, mirroring the earth and all of humanity's passage into a love based paradigm. The old paradigm has given me a swift kick in the rump and the new one has not yet called me into being. Or am I calling myself into being. Well, these are the thoughts for today. I most want to live with my beloveds close with the earth, to sing and dance and love and celebrate the beauty of life together. This need to make money is such the achilles heal of my life, but I feel there must be an opportunity for learning something through all this enforced survival demand. If nothing else to learn the exquisite freedom and bliss of a life that has all it's support systems fully online automatically. I believ this is the paradigm that we are birthing into through these labor pains in the final hours of duality, final years of duality I would say. and 2012 I don't know if there is an exact date for this, but I do feel this great birth is well underway. Love and blessings for the ride.

Sarah