Upgrading the nervous system to accommodate bliss

Hello all,

Since the unplug from the reversal grid pretty much finalized May 18th, my nervous system has been untying itself, like untangling itself at night when the body is sleeping. For the first time, I feel that I am able to make positive gains in the directions of my thoughts toward lifeward, embodied joy, and this is showing up as I steadily take steps to align with my musical career. I'm currently building my site on gigmasters. It is such a metaphor. The only song it has let me upload is the Sarah Mclauchlan song, I will Remember you. Instead of giving in to my impatience and feeling frustrated, I thought about the message here. I logged in and listened to the song looking at my profile picture and hearing the sweet loving message, and I felt this overwhelming love cascading through me for myself, the one in the picture. I realized it was all perfect. The universe wanted me to feel that song for myself before it would allow any other uploads, the message being that our self love and right alignment within self must be achieved first before there can be any movement into the world. This has been a consistent theme in my life.

Physically, my body has begun to start it's regeneration, drinking from the sweet fount of the zero point field deep in my still point between the rib cage. My nervous system is re-making itself into a sophisticated and complex highway for the circulation of life-force and the feelings of bliss and ecstasy. ONe step at a time. It's like it is re-generating and reconstructing itself from the road system of 3rd world country into the highway system of a major city like Los Angeles or Seattle.
Never a dull moment for sure. Life blossoming evermore into form!!!
Bye for now.

a Time of Service

Well, it is just about 1 month since my last post. Much has happened and continues to unfold. I journeyed down to the home of my childhood in Venice beach from April 26th- May 14th. There, I stayed with mom and dad and witnessed my dad moving more and more toward the end of his life. I am quite clear now that I will move down to Venice to help my mom take care of him as soon as my mom calls for me. Meanwhile a major unplugging from the dark grid occurred with me and linking me to the divine mother the day before Mother's day, all seeming to coincide with the unplugging of 5th dimensional beings from the contaminated grid and and re-routing them into the heart of the mother. Very interesting the parallels

Now with my genetic material under re-habilitation, there is no forward movement as a self right now. This time of going to serve my mom and dad just comes at a perfect time, as midwifing my father into the other side is the midwifing of myself into adulthood and maturity preparing me to fulfill my earth mission here.There is great potential now that the 5th dimensional architecture is being rehabilitated. This means that many souls on 3rd dimensional Earth will also be able to be re-habilitated into correct alignment with god source. Perhaps the splitting of worlds will be much less brutal than we previously thought. It is good news in deed.
Well, there is not much else to report. Much love to all!!!!

Sarah

Coming Full circle since November 7th, the journey from pathological communion to true communion, the end of the child fragment.

If you recall, in my blog after November 7th. I wrote about missing the ferry to Vashon Island where I was going to be united with a beloved, and that was a wild and crazy time when the direction changed. Singing that Barry Manilow song "Could this be the magic" began the unwinding. Calling out the chorus "Come come come into my arms. Let me know the wonder of all of you!!! My monad could take no more!!!! it was as if the sky opened up and my own soul monad masculine came in and said "O.K. I can't take it anymore!! He is not your beloved I am and I'm taking you back now!!! In that moment like a cosmic cutting blade of Kali, I underwent a mass cutting from all external seeking. ( you see often the victory of the soul is total ego disappointment as misalignment demands correction. It can be very painful to the extent one is attached or invested in the misaligned direction.

Right there on that day my own soul began a rather ruthless process forcing upon me my return to self. Cascading down through lifetimes of very painful abandonment and rejection and death, waiting, waiting, I was brought to the physical damage of my nervous system and the reality of the deeply compromised nerve supply from my brain to my whole body which as mentioned in the last blog entry, provided the context for the take over by the christed cell. It turned out that all this externally directed pathological needing was thrown back in my face as I hurled in a downward spiral of disconnection and rejection.

It turned out this disconnect and rejection coming into full relief was exactly what I needed as it brought me to the existing physical disconnection and damage within my nervous system. At body talk, I was to find that nerve supply from my brain to my general body was severely compromised, and that my whole life, or major parts of my behaviors were a result of this damage, a legacy of the damaged orphan seed. You see, all this seeking connection to love through the external channels was me trying to mimic the healing of this nerve supply, but the pain around this core break was so immense, I had spent my whole life defending against it. Now, I was ready to face the pain that would enable the healing, feeling the full identity of the damaged cell enabled the christed cell to penetrate through the membrane and take over the central control of the cell.

Exit the outer child

So, for as long as I can remember, I have had a near split personality, with a very real little girl child accompanying me through life and acting her own separate personality. Thank goodness, this was not a psychotic state. I have always had conscious awareness of the process. But now, it has been unveiled that this identity has been the core defense of this inner damage. As I lay my body upon the broken grid of the disconnect, I feel her dissolving back into the totality of me, and finally I feel like a grown woman. My husband will miss this little manic creature, but I told him that she will be there in the sparkle in my eyes. That's why I am sarah sparkle. It will take some adjustment for sure as it is a big re-configuration of energies.

So, today I will sing the breath of heaven song, Mary pregnant with Jesus, and I realize that I really am like Mary. This light seed code is something birthing within me in the interface of the darkness and the light, the sacred alchemy of a new life is happening. As the primary cell of my being is transformed into the triune frequency, love, grace, healing and resurrection proliferate through my entire body. Each time there is an upgrade in the primary cell, the whole body receives the upgrade for all of us.

levels within levels

So, the exciting thing if we think microcosm to macrocosm is this: We know that when a baby does not receive touch, the cells begin dying one by one, and if the neglect is severe enough, the primary cell sends out a suicide message and all cells die at once. This is the power of the primary cell. it is like an engine of creation for the whole self. So, now if we consider this on the positive side then it follows that if the primary cell achieves the healing of the sacred marriage and the birth of the triune frequency of resurrection, then every cell in the body receives the call to follow this upgrade!!!
Now, if we go out another level, what if each of us as human beings is a cell in the body of the whole of humanity and when enough of us come online to a critical mass in this sacred marriage of light, we, in effect, function as a coherent primary cell for the whole body of humanity and succeed in sounding a call to the whole of every human being on the Earth bound for the ascension timeline.

Now, stay with me, what if we take it to the next level. Now I don't know if this one is accurate, but from what many spiritual teachers have said to me, it could well be. What if the Earth itself and all of us as it's consciousness outposts contributing to the sum total of Earth, when it reaches it's critical mass sacred marriage resurrection state, serves as a primary cell for the whole of the cosmos and sends out a call to every other planet to return to love. Many have said that planet Earth is a key to many doors, that what happens to planet Earth initiates a chain reaction far and wide. Any way, at this point this is all hypotesizing, but I get goose bumps just thinking about it. What a wild ride. what a great adventure. What an amazing time.

So now, getting back to the full circle theme. Tomorrow I return to see the one I was going to see at that party and his wonderful girlfriend, and I am returning, this time as a whole being, not completely healed, but well on my way back to the full sacred marriage of my own being within my own self no longer being able to be shaken by the glory of an outside mirror, but able to stand in the true knowing that the quintessential union of lover and beloved is achieved within myself as it is for all selves. I feel now that I am ready to see them. Lover and beloved, mother and father. She held me like a mother through the great descent and return back to myself. Even through the tumult, she never let me go. I am so happy to see them both.

Pathological communion has been replaced with the knowing of the possiblity of real communion, the only real communion that exists, the communion within self. It is this communion of self love,the masculine and feminine within the self, that is the portal to our god consciousness and the connection to the infinite supply of source and the fulfillment of all desire. May we all find our way back home to the sacred marriage within and rise together as one glorious planet of light.

The return to self, the great healing and resurrection

The Chosen Picture

(The long standing image I love most to illustrate the restoration of the healed genetic code was painted by the most talented, Catherine Andrews. ( see image for this blog post) Thank you Catherine for this image that has been a guiding light for me, I might call it the "guardian image of my healing journey. It is the quintessential union between the masculine and feminine that represents the resurrection of spiritualized matter. You see the two halves, man and woman so beautifully exchanging and merging with one another that they are literally becoming one as they birth the golden sun of the triune frequency, which is the victory of spirit once again rising up within matter.) As we know, the entire Earth and all sentient beings are engaged in this massive restoration project of the original sacred marriage.


Hello all,

It has been a while. Wow, so much has been happening since the earthquake in Japan. Interestingly enough Sendai, Japan has a mythical story attached to it about the uniting of 2 lovers, that once lived on Earth, but that exist now in the stars. Well, I believe that Japan was a massive sacrifice for enabling the return of the Masculine feminine energies to each other here from within the Earth grid of the "great divorce"
At no other time in my healing journey have I felt such momentum and power to heal. The light has been birthing from my solar plexus with a force and a power that has up-stepped tremendously since the Earth reconfigured itself on that fateful March day.

I have been writing the song of ascension, the song of the fall and the return. I have re-written it 12 times in the past 5 days. It is still very very wordy. But it's pretty coherent, and it feels complete. I will include it in a subsequent blog. So much, where to start.

The primary seed of light, hosting the embryo


I have come to understand from my Teacher, Lisa Renee that one of the projects going on in the frontline, veil-lifting light workers is something called embryonic hosting of the christ seed. As soon as I heard her describing this, I got chills all over and began sweating and crying. I knew that I was a host of one of these seeds.
Over the last weeks, the seed has been asserting itself like never before. Now what this is, is a fully healed genetic code that is actually created by the soul monad with the help of spirit, from the bone marrow in the spine. I know it sounds pretty wacky, but apparently that is how the "veil is lifted" you see this seed has the code of living light that can transform the karmicly damaged genetic code of the fallen grid int my original seed.

Talk about your fixer upper

My original seed was so badly damaged that there was no hope of it rehabilitating itself. Now, most human beings' codes are not so badly damaged that they can't be rehabilitated, but veil lifters rack up the worst Karma and the greatest amount of it that they can hold to help transform the darkness in the grid so that the living light code can return to the Earth for the Earth and all of humanity.
So, this is the lifting of the veil. it is this light seed code inside me, systematically penetrating through and transmuting all the darkness of the karmic misconfigurations of the original seed. I feel it like the distorted code is like a black veil that the light seed allows itself to be wrapped in. Then the light seed as it comes online starts vaporizing the frozen light and deadlight code, kind of like defrosting it. This happens during the birth of a star when the stars inner core blows off the outer layer so it can achieve it's full sovereign shining starness.

The nurse and the orphanage, a story of two cells

A more loving way to say it, is that the light seed is the mother medicine seed, or the nurse seed, that brings the love and light to the damaged seed which is much like a little orphanage with many damaged children. Note, the wounded seed consciousness is the consciousness experienced by the ego self, the one in time and space. The christed seed remains primarily unavailable during waking consciousness, but I have felt it come to me in the night many times. So, one can see that the task at hand is to facilitate connection between the two seeds, systematically connecting the orphan who walks the Earth with the love of source, allowing visits and the exchange of love between the nurse and the little orphans.

The bridge between the seeds

So how is this connection between the two seeds facilitated. This is quite a task, but thank goodness there is one pathway and one pathway only to facilitate ths connection, exposure to and activation by one who delivers the medicine of core oneness. O.K. in more clear terms, romantic love. ( I suppose this connection could also be facilitated by alien assistance and or near death experience) So, it turns out at the 9th dimensional level, the level of our soul monad, we exist in oneness as a conglomerant with multiple souls, also called our monadic or core soul family. Anyway, the task is for our higher self to unite us with one of these monadic family members, hopefully of our preferred physical gender. Uniting with someone who holds a feedline to the oneness, enables a pathway to be opened between the two seeds that allows for exchange of the medicine and the transmutation of the broken code. There have been 15 or so major activators in the last 13 years. The onset of the healing journey was 27 years ago.

I am only now after 27 years beginning to get what is really going on at a cellular level. Anyway, every upgrade in the healing cell is felt like an upgrade in the caliber of the inner wedding between the masculine and feminine energies within self.(The original proton/ electron misalignment in all constituents of the damaged cell come into greater and greater correction.)

The hosted becomes the host, the changing of the guard

At some point the healing was great enough between the two cells that the damaged seed was ready to be reclaim by the christed seed. When this happened for me, I felt like my beloved flew me to my home world and fully dipped me into the waters of divine bliss and then no sooner was I held in these loving arms, I was dropped out of the sky to land on broken glass in a hellish state of separation. ( mirroring the inner orphan loss of the god seed state.) This direct mirroring facilitated a dissolution of the membranes blocking the union of the two seeds. This was accomplished through the exposure to and loss of the last, i will call him the last home delivery agent. I was hurled in a downward spiral of descent and rejection which mirrored perfectly the inner damage of my nervous system and began enabling a full re-write of my inherited nervous system by the christ-seed nervous system program. this began the actual proliferation of the light seed identity into the full parameters of the of the damaged seed code. This was like the deadlight code being resurrected into the garden of eden in a sweeping rainbow over my whole body, like the terra forming of a nearly dead Earth( see blog post in early November)

One month later In December of last year I began singing a song, "born again in love" feeling like I was this essence that was singing from deep inside myself, not really understanding what the heck I was talking about, fearing I might be going insane for sure. This fear has been a close companion for the last 27 years.
For right now, as I stand before you, I feel as oneness, that there is one seed birthing inside me. My slide show journey of our second birth really describes this whole process beautifully. See "Sarahsparkle1" at youtube and fine "Journey of our Second Birth" I made this a year and a half ago not knowing I was creating the story of my life.

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A new controller at the helm

As I sense my body today, the light seed identity is now driving the light ship. It has taken over the controls. The take over has been accomplished over these last 5 months of complete hermitage from the outside world but really in this last week has been the full take over. The self needed to have a full audience with the self to accomplish the transfer. At this point now, the light seed i believe has now become the governing agent at the center of the damaged seed. ( I don't know the science involved, just describing the sensations. I imagine it is in the nucleus re-writing the genetic code) Any scientists out there, I'd love to know the real physical correlations to this if you happened to know.)

For the last week or so, my conscious self has felt like my brain is being possessed and taken over by something else, this something else being like a quantumn engine of love,beauty and passion. In my body talk session these were the elements: the restoration of healed nerve supply from brain to general body, the energy of flight defined by the union of masculine and feminine and the reconnection of myself as source to an infinite number of satellites defined by the consciousness of the one breath was the session. Also the energy of Uranus defined by the consciousness of being a visionary and the consciousness of change.

The Bird as bridger of starseed and human

I am feeling the connection to my bird-tribe self. It feels like bird energy is merging into me. The bird seems to be serving as an intermediary bridging agent between the starseed genetic code and the damaged human code because before the bird started merging in me I felt like a star mermaid landed here with no bridge to the human race on Mar 18th. This was very scarey. i prayed for a means of connecting and integrating this new part and voila!! bird starts rising up in me enabling the connection of the two like a bridge. Thank you Bird~~~. It is quite wierd. Lisa says the progenitors of the human race are the birds, dolphins and cats. not the ones we see on earth, a much more advanced form of the species. So I guess I come from the bird line most predominantly or that is the connection that is being utilized most predominantly to accomplish this ascension.

Healing the one mass of confused broken circuitry

So, right now is about the restoration of optimal nerve supply from my brain to the whole of my body. i am fatigued and literally feel like I'm dying so much of the time. like I'm cloaked in death stuff, but life is trying to find its way back.I feel really ill these days. Existing is literally a huge enema as the christ seed asserts the return of it's identity within the war-torned and oh so weary, battle fatigued soldier. I sense that as the love returns to this land to a critical mass degree, i will start feeling good, and I will have energy for love making and dancing and as it comes fully online I will take to the road to pour this medicine over the Earth and provide the healed code so all may restore the pathways in their damaged primary seeds and be restored to their full glory. For now, I rest. preparing to rise and sing wherever needed.

Rising in love, rising in light. The Earth is Rising out of the light. ( from my song, Love's triumphant return)

The energy of flight, preparing the vehicle for take off

Hello all,

wow,with my 46th birthday just last Thursday, So much change is coming in!!! Uranus is sitting on my sun and the sweeping changes are moving through my life like a huge wind. This wind is coming up under my wings, and I feel it lifting me into flight in the form of my friend Alan king, a musician and singer of the heart who wants to tour with me and take me on the road to be his female lead, singing love songs and sweet spirit songs to light up the night and smooth this volatile transition energies of our Earth mama's labor and delivery. After 8 months of alchemical stewing in the house, I'm taking to the highway!!!!

I'm off to visit two dear friends on April 18th for our "Portal to Ascension" event in Seattle. See www.adronis.org:click on tour. We are in Portland, Oregon on the 17th, Deva Gordon and I will be providing a musical intro. Come on out and hear an amazing channel. Adronis is a beautiful, delightful being from Sirius. He is very entertaining and inspirational, providing guidance during this amazing times of transition. contact Healing Waters and Sacred Spaces in Portland to reserve your space.

Anyway, then on April 27th Alan and I will begin our road trip down to L.A. playing gigs in Eugene, Ashland or Mt. Shasta. Not sure which, Davis and then Laguna Niguel on May 1st. Alan loves to sing love songs, and so do I. We will be taking the book. "The Presence Process" with us because we will need to practice presence for sure, along the way. Just stopping to breathe and be and surrender into the moment is so important.

So, that's the news from pre-flight central. Healing and singing forever.

Sarah

Love Peace and Harmony, the only thing I will choose to have falling on me

It is dawning on me the parallels of this idea of poisonous radiation and nuclear fall-out compared to the poisonous fall-out of this collective mental body and its' toxic thoughts. Since the only place I can truly control is my own mind. I am noticing my thoughts of fear that really tare down my immune system and realizing that the most important protective and loving way to treat myself right now is to stop focusing on all the fear hype and just breathe in love and light. Dr.Sha is trying to get 3 million people singing the song, Love peace and Harmony, the first song he ever wrote for the healing of the world….”I love my heart and soul. I love all humanity. Join hearts and souls together. Love peace and Harmony. These vibrations are the vehicle because this is the truth of where we are going. This. Love peace and harmony, joy gratitude appreciation, these are the gateway emotions that lift us out of reach of the toxic, downward- spiraling emotions of fear and despair and deliver us up as if on wings into the higher vibrational frequency range of well being and joy, the frequency range that is our true identity. Love peace and harmony. Climbing up and up. Lifting us ever higher into these states of well being. We have already lived through the disaster of Chernobyl which was much worse than this so within reason, while eating the recommended foods, taking safe iodine drops. I know am focusing my thoughts away from fear and into life. This is how I am limiting my exposure to the toxins that are closest to my home

I realize right now that I am apprehending the sum total of all lifetimes in which I died in disasters. They are all coming at once like a giant fear feast of delicacies and cocktails pouring through my consciousness. And yesterday I wrapped my widest stretching arms around all of them. And I said “Hello everyone, I feel you, I see you, I recognize you, and now we are going on a new time line. This is a time line of love, joy, safety and ascension into sweet experiences and to do this you must leave the old world behind and take my hand." And they did, and all of the lifetimes were lifted, all of them like hundreds of little faces are lifted up as I , now, with them in my arms, choose present moment thoughts of love, care, tenderness, peace, well being. Safety and joy. Even if there is a large Earthquake right where I am, I can stay in expansive love. The telemeres of my DNA were born to be in expansive love regardless of the external conditions. My DNA knows this, and as I re-write the fear time-line into the love time-line, my own DNA can be free to come into the love position and strengthen its posture here. So, this is the deep and profound task in every moment.

Last night as I stood in front of the warm water in the shower, I opened my heart, I felt my wing bones expanding in my back and I felt myself shining like an angel of love. It felt so good. And I realized this is a pretty new posture for me, but I want to live every moment expressing as this shining light in its fullest. And I thought to myself, "in this moment I am expressing into life who I truly am and what I truly want to see growing and expanding its full identity into all the Earth." And I thought for a moment, asking the question "Do we represent love or fear in each moment? Are we a campaign worker for fear or for love’s campaign." Of course we cannot fully choose love until we have faced the core fears we carry and welcomed them into the heart to hear what they have to say and put our arms around them fully. Only then do we have the possibility of choosing in the now and re-routing into the architecture of love. And this, happening within me now is the process of the soon-to-be butterfly, piercing through the chrysalis to become a new species or it is at least the state of the black goo between the change to a new species where the imaginal cells are coming into butterly alignment. Dr. Sha’s song, “Love, Peace and Harmony” which He wrote for the whole human race to move into love is a great song for bringing the imaginal cells into correct alignment. I am listening right now. You can hear it at drsha.com. He also has free conference calls 6 times a day where you can tune in and sing soul songs of prayer and alignment with a group.

How is everyone else moving through this amazing time of awakening? I would love to know your processes, all of you amazing caterpillar- butterfly pals out there. All with unique colors and sparkles and gifts and songs. How are you my butterfly friends? I love you all.

Many blessings to all, and may we all be held in a place of love, safety, peace and great joy as we feel our connection as one, the great entity of unity consciousness, the great butterfly rising out of the undefined black goop or I see it also as a great bird that is the Earth and all humanity, shedding the density of fear and lifting it’s great wings to fly~~~.
( my computer keyboard just added that sign while I wasn’t looking, I don’t know how to make that sign!, guess it wanted to share too, beautiful wavy line. I wonder if there is an ascending spiral. That would be even better.)

The prison of the mind or the wings of the heart?

Hello all,

In the last blog entry, I believe I was talking about the commitment to erect a tantric temple in a war zone. Well, I believe I have been making some serious headway, or heart way rather. With the removal of a large defensive matrix from my lungs and a huge watershed clearing of outdated mental concepts and a return to the heart as my center of identity, the body is coming online to accomodate the identity of the tantric temple. I don't exactly understand the physics of it. But the other night I saw this beautiful naked man standing before me in my meditation and I felt him coming in to merge with me, and I felt myself as the receptive feminine opening to receive him. This is the merging that I have been waiting for as now, I am receptive to the outer act of love making now that the inner love-making has returned to a configuration of my masculine and feminine as one.

My teacher, Lisa Renee says that this is achieved by correcting the spin ratios of the electron merkabic fields and the proton merkaba fields. I dont' exactly understand this, but I know it is about a partnership with mind, masculine electron and heart, feminine proton energy that creates a new healed mind/ heart complex which allows all emotion and is free of mind control programs of the 3rd dimensional grid. This healed mind/heart complex enables one to soar above the tortured mental body into the 5th dimensional mind in synchronization with the heart and higher heart, opening into frequencies of deep joy and bliss. With joy as the compass, one is freed from enslavement to mental concepts and can move from this now moment to the next in flow and synchronicity with the one intelligence of unity and bliss.

We are experiencing a very definite split between the beings who are locked in the mental body where polarity is being amplified, fear is being fed in large quantities. This in contrast to the rising unity field which is feeding the ones who are living in the heart as their center, the sweetest vibrations of home that they have ever known, that we have ever known.

It is almost like the tension of opposites in the fabric of the emotionally driven mental body is pulling itself a part and the knit of the fabric is stretching open and through these little holes is pouring the light of heaven, the aurora rainbows of the Christed field of ecstasy and bliss, waves of delight and flow. Those of us who have been on the path to open the planet into the light all these years, will feel ourselves being dowsed with the most glorious energy, like nectar or water after walking through a seemingly interminable dessert. And so it is a splitting of the worlds.

To free oneself from the mental body's dominion, feel all trauma and pain that creates compulsive thought patterns, Gain back control over the emotional body through self witnessing and presencing activities. Breathe and be, and be with the natural world that is not under enslavement. Then we can all arrive in the heart and grow the wings that can enable us to fly upon these beautiful air currents, supportive winds carrying us up into the fullness of our destiny as one, reunited in love. we are ascending on the sweet staircase of the heart, learning to hold neutrality around all things that we may stay open and connected to our God source.
Rising in love on the wings of neutrality and joy, we anchor the architecture for God's expression here within the Earth.
Happy days!!!!!!!!!