If you recall, in my blog after November 7th. I wrote about missing the ferry to Vashon Island where I was going to be united with a beloved, and that was a wild and crazy time when the direction changed. Singing that Barry Manilow song "Could this be the magic" began the unwinding. Calling out the chorus "Come come come into my arms. Let me know the wonder of all of you!!! My monad could take no more!!!! it was as if the sky opened up and my own soul monad masculine came in and said "O.K. I can't take it anymore!! He is not your beloved I am and I'm taking you back now!!! In that moment like a cosmic cutting blade of Kali, I underwent a mass cutting from all external seeking. ( you see often the victory of the soul is total ego disappointment as misalignment demands correction. It can be very painful to the extent one is attached or invested in the misaligned direction.
Right there on that day my own soul began a rather ruthless process forcing upon me my return to self. Cascading down through lifetimes of very painful abandonment and rejection and death, waiting, waiting, I was brought to the physical damage of my nervous system and the reality of the deeply compromised nerve supply from my brain to my whole body which as mentioned in the last blog entry, provided the context for the take over by the christed cell. It turned out that all this externally directed pathological needing was thrown back in my face as I hurled in a downward spiral of disconnection and rejection.
It turned out this disconnect and rejection coming into full relief was exactly what I needed as it brought me to the existing physical disconnection and damage within my nervous system. At body talk, I was to find that nerve supply from my brain to my general body was severely compromised, and that my whole life, or major parts of my behaviors were a result of this damage, a legacy of the damaged orphan seed. You see, all this seeking connection to love through the external channels was me trying to mimic the healing of this nerve supply, but the pain around this core break was so immense, I had spent my whole life defending against it. Now, I was ready to face the pain that would enable the healing, feeling the full identity of the damaged cell enabled the christed cell to penetrate through the membrane and take over the central control of the cell.
Exit the outer child
So, for as long as I can remember, I have had a near split personality, with a very real little girl child accompanying me through life and acting her own separate personality. Thank goodness, this was not a psychotic state. I have always had conscious awareness of the process. But now, it has been unveiled that this identity has been the core defense of this inner damage. As I lay my body upon the broken grid of the disconnect, I feel her dissolving back into the totality of me, and finally I feel like a grown woman. My husband will miss this little manic creature, but I told him that she will be there in the sparkle in my eyes. That's why I am sarah sparkle. It will take some adjustment for sure as it is a big re-configuration of energies.
So, today I will sing the breath of heaven song, Mary pregnant with Jesus, and I realize that I really am like Mary. This light seed code is something birthing within me in the interface of the darkness and the light, the sacred alchemy of a new life is happening. As the primary cell of my being is transformed into the triune frequency, love, grace, healing and resurrection proliferate through my entire body. Each time there is an upgrade in the primary cell, the whole body receives the upgrade for all of us.
levels within levels
So, the exciting thing if we think microcosm to macrocosm is this: We know that when a baby does not receive touch, the cells begin dying one by one, and if the neglect is severe enough, the primary cell sends out a suicide message and all cells die at once. This is the power of the primary cell. it is like an engine of creation for the whole self. So, now if we consider this on the positive side then it follows that if the primary cell achieves the healing of the sacred marriage and the birth of the triune frequency of resurrection, then every cell in the body receives the call to follow this upgrade!!!
Now, if we go out another level, what if each of us as human beings is a cell in the body of the whole of humanity and when enough of us come online to a critical mass in this sacred marriage of light, we, in effect, function as a coherent primary cell for the whole body of humanity and succeed in sounding a call to the whole of every human being on the Earth bound for the ascension timeline.
Now, stay with me, what if we take it to the next level. Now I don't know if this one is accurate, but from what many spiritual teachers have said to me, it could well be. What if the Earth itself and all of us as it's consciousness outposts contributing to the sum total of Earth, when it reaches it's critical mass sacred marriage resurrection state, serves as a primary cell for the whole of the cosmos and sends out a call to every other planet to return to love. Many have said that planet Earth is a key to many doors, that what happens to planet Earth initiates a chain reaction far and wide. Any way, at this point this is all hypotesizing, but I get goose bumps just thinking about it. What a wild ride. what a great adventure. What an amazing time.
So now, getting back to the full circle theme. Tomorrow I return to see the one I was going to see at that party and his wonderful girlfriend, and I am returning, this time as a whole being, not completely healed, but well on my way back to the full sacred marriage of my own being within my own self no longer being able to be shaken by the glory of an outside mirror, but able to stand in the true knowing that the quintessential union of lover and beloved is achieved within myself as it is for all selves. I feel now that I am ready to see them. Lover and beloved, mother and father. She held me like a mother through the great descent and return back to myself. Even through the tumult, she never let me go. I am so happy to see them both.
Pathological communion has been replaced with the knowing of the possiblity of real communion, the only real communion that exists, the communion within self. It is this communion of self love,the masculine and feminine within the self, that is the portal to our god consciousness and the connection to the infinite supply of source and the fulfillment of all desire. May we all find our way back home to the sacred marriage within and rise together as one glorious planet of light.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
The return to self, the great healing and resurrection
The Chosen Picture
(The long standing image I love most to illustrate the restoration of the healed genetic code was painted by the most talented, Catherine Andrews. ( see image for this blog post) Thank you Catherine for this image that has been a guiding light for me, I might call it the "guardian image of my healing journey. It is the quintessential union between the masculine and feminine that represents the resurrection of spiritualized matter. You see the two halves, man and woman so beautifully exchanging and merging with one another that they are literally becoming one as they birth the golden sun of the triune frequency, which is the victory of spirit once again rising up within matter.) As we know, the entire Earth and all sentient beings are engaged in this massive restoration project of the original sacred marriage.
Hello all,
It has been a while. Wow, so much has been happening since the earthquake in Japan. Interestingly enough Sendai, Japan has a mythical story attached to it about the uniting of 2 lovers, that once lived on Earth, but that exist now in the stars. Well, I believe that Japan was a massive sacrifice for enabling the return of the Masculine feminine energies to each other here from within the Earth grid of the "great divorce"
At no other time in my healing journey have I felt such momentum and power to heal. The light has been birthing from my solar plexus with a force and a power that has up-stepped tremendously since the Earth reconfigured itself on that fateful March day.
I have been writing the song of ascension, the song of the fall and the return. I have re-written it 12 times in the past 5 days. It is still very very wordy. But it's pretty coherent, and it feels complete. I will include it in a subsequent blog. So much, where to start.
The primary seed of light, hosting the embryo
I have come to understand from my Teacher, Lisa Renee that one of the projects going on in the frontline, veil-lifting light workers is something called embryonic hosting of the christ seed. As soon as I heard her describing this, I got chills all over and began sweating and crying. I knew that I was a host of one of these seeds.
Over the last weeks, the seed has been asserting itself like never before. Now what this is, is a fully healed genetic code that is actually created by the soul monad with the help of spirit, from the bone marrow in the spine. I know it sounds pretty wacky, but apparently that is how the "veil is lifted" you see this seed has the code of living light that can transform the karmicly damaged genetic code of the fallen grid int my original seed.
Talk about your fixer upper
My original seed was so badly damaged that there was no hope of it rehabilitating itself. Now, most human beings' codes are not so badly damaged that they can't be rehabilitated, but veil lifters rack up the worst Karma and the greatest amount of it that they can hold to help transform the darkness in the grid so that the living light code can return to the Earth for the Earth and all of humanity.
So, this is the lifting of the veil. it is this light seed code inside me, systematically penetrating through and transmuting all the darkness of the karmic misconfigurations of the original seed. I feel it like the distorted code is like a black veil that the light seed allows itself to be wrapped in. Then the light seed as it comes online starts vaporizing the frozen light and deadlight code, kind of like defrosting it. This happens during the birth of a star when the stars inner core blows off the outer layer so it can achieve it's full sovereign shining starness.
The nurse and the orphanage, a story of two cells
A more loving way to say it, is that the light seed is the mother medicine seed, or the nurse seed, that brings the love and light to the damaged seed which is much like a little orphanage with many damaged children. Note, the wounded seed consciousness is the consciousness experienced by the ego self, the one in time and space. The christed seed remains primarily unavailable during waking consciousness, but I have felt it come to me in the night many times. So, one can see that the task at hand is to facilitate connection between the two seeds, systematically connecting the orphan who walks the Earth with the love of source, allowing visits and the exchange of love between the nurse and the little orphans.
The bridge between the seeds
So how is this connection between the two seeds facilitated. This is quite a task, but thank goodness there is one pathway and one pathway only to facilitate ths connection, exposure to and activation by one who delivers the medicine of core oneness. O.K. in more clear terms, romantic love. ( I suppose this connection could also be facilitated by alien assistance and or near death experience) So, it turns out at the 9th dimensional level, the level of our soul monad, we exist in oneness as a conglomerant with multiple souls, also called our monadic or core soul family. Anyway, the task is for our higher self to unite us with one of these monadic family members, hopefully of our preferred physical gender. Uniting with someone who holds a feedline to the oneness, enables a pathway to be opened between the two seeds that allows for exchange of the medicine and the transmutation of the broken code. There have been 15 or so major activators in the last 13 years. The onset of the healing journey was 27 years ago.
I am only now after 27 years beginning to get what is really going on at a cellular level. Anyway, every upgrade in the healing cell is felt like an upgrade in the caliber of the inner wedding between the masculine and feminine energies within self.(The original proton/ electron misalignment in all constituents of the damaged cell come into greater and greater correction.)
The hosted becomes the host, the changing of the guard
At some point the healing was great enough between the two cells that the damaged seed was ready to be reclaim by the christed seed. When this happened for me, I felt like my beloved flew me to my home world and fully dipped me into the waters of divine bliss and then no sooner was I held in these loving arms, I was dropped out of the sky to land on broken glass in a hellish state of separation. ( mirroring the inner orphan loss of the god seed state.) This direct mirroring facilitated a dissolution of the membranes blocking the union of the two seeds. This was accomplished through the exposure to and loss of the last, i will call him the last home delivery agent. I was hurled in a downward spiral of descent and rejection which mirrored perfectly the inner damage of my nervous system and began enabling a full re-write of my inherited nervous system by the christ-seed nervous system program. this began the actual proliferation of the light seed identity into the full parameters of the of the damaged seed code. This was like the deadlight code being resurrected into the garden of eden in a sweeping rainbow over my whole body, like the terra forming of a nearly dead Earth( see blog post in early November)
One month later In December of last year I began singing a song, "born again in love" feeling like I was this essence that was singing from deep inside myself, not really understanding what the heck I was talking about, fearing I might be going insane for sure. This fear has been a close companion for the last 27 years.
For right now, as I stand before you, I feel as oneness, that there is one seed birthing inside me. My slide show journey of our second birth really describes this whole process beautifully. See "Sarahsparkle1" at youtube and fine "Journey of our Second Birth" I made this a year and a half ago not knowing I was creating the story of my life.
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A new controller at the helm
As I sense my body today, the light seed identity is now driving the light ship. It has taken over the controls. The take over has been accomplished over these last 5 months of complete hermitage from the outside world but really in this last week has been the full take over. The self needed to have a full audience with the self to accomplish the transfer. At this point now, the light seed i believe has now become the governing agent at the center of the damaged seed. ( I don't know the science involved, just describing the sensations. I imagine it is in the nucleus re-writing the genetic code) Any scientists out there, I'd love to know the real physical correlations to this if you happened to know.)
For the last week or so, my conscious self has felt like my brain is being possessed and taken over by something else, this something else being like a quantumn engine of love,beauty and passion. In my body talk session these were the elements: the restoration of healed nerve supply from brain to general body, the energy of flight defined by the union of masculine and feminine and the reconnection of myself as source to an infinite number of satellites defined by the consciousness of the one breath was the session. Also the energy of Uranus defined by the consciousness of being a visionary and the consciousness of change.
The Bird as bridger of starseed and human
I am feeling the connection to my bird-tribe self. It feels like bird energy is merging into me. The bird seems to be serving as an intermediary bridging agent between the starseed genetic code and the damaged human code because before the bird started merging in me I felt like a star mermaid landed here with no bridge to the human race on Mar 18th. This was very scarey. i prayed for a means of connecting and integrating this new part and voila!! bird starts rising up in me enabling the connection of the two like a bridge. Thank you Bird~~~. It is quite wierd. Lisa says the progenitors of the human race are the birds, dolphins and cats. not the ones we see on earth, a much more advanced form of the species. So I guess I come from the bird line most predominantly or that is the connection that is being utilized most predominantly to accomplish this ascension.
Healing the one mass of confused broken circuitry
So, right now is about the restoration of optimal nerve supply from my brain to the whole of my body. i am fatigued and literally feel like I'm dying so much of the time. like I'm cloaked in death stuff, but life is trying to find its way back.I feel really ill these days. Existing is literally a huge enema as the christ seed asserts the return of it's identity within the war-torned and oh so weary, battle fatigued soldier. I sense that as the love returns to this land to a critical mass degree, i will start feeling good, and I will have energy for love making and dancing and as it comes fully online I will take to the road to pour this medicine over the Earth and provide the healed code so all may restore the pathways in their damaged primary seeds and be restored to their full glory. For now, I rest. preparing to rise and sing wherever needed.
Rising in love, rising in light. The Earth is Rising out of the light. ( from my song, Love's triumphant return)
Saturday, April 2, 2011
The energy of flight, preparing the vehicle for take off
Hello all,
wow,with my 46th birthday just last Thursday, So much change is coming in!!! Uranus is sitting on my sun and the sweeping changes are moving through my life like a huge wind. This wind is coming up under my wings, and I feel it lifting me into flight in the form of my friend Alan king, a musician and singer of the heart who wants to tour with me and take me on the road to be his female lead, singing love songs and sweet spirit songs to light up the night and smooth this volatile transition energies of our Earth mama's labor and delivery. After 8 months of alchemical stewing in the house, I'm taking to the highway!!!!
I'm off to visit two dear friends on April 18th for our "Portal to Ascension" event in Seattle. See www.adronis.org:click on tour. We are in Portland, Oregon on the 17th, Deva Gordon and I will be providing a musical intro. Come on out and hear an amazing channel. Adronis is a beautiful, delightful being from Sirius. He is very entertaining and inspirational, providing guidance during this amazing times of transition. contact Healing Waters and Sacred Spaces in Portland to reserve your space.
Anyway, then on April 27th Alan and I will begin our road trip down to L.A. playing gigs in Eugene, Ashland or Mt. Shasta. Not sure which, Davis and then Laguna Niguel on May 1st. Alan loves to sing love songs, and so do I. We will be taking the book. "The Presence Process" with us because we will need to practice presence for sure, along the way. Just stopping to breathe and be and surrender into the moment is so important.
So, that's the news from pre-flight central. Healing and singing forever.
Sarah
wow,with my 46th birthday just last Thursday, So much change is coming in!!! Uranus is sitting on my sun and the sweeping changes are moving through my life like a huge wind. This wind is coming up under my wings, and I feel it lifting me into flight in the form of my friend Alan king, a musician and singer of the heart who wants to tour with me and take me on the road to be his female lead, singing love songs and sweet spirit songs to light up the night and smooth this volatile transition energies of our Earth mama's labor and delivery. After 8 months of alchemical stewing in the house, I'm taking to the highway!!!!
I'm off to visit two dear friends on April 18th for our "Portal to Ascension" event in Seattle. See www.adronis.org:click on tour. We are in Portland, Oregon on the 17th, Deva Gordon and I will be providing a musical intro. Come on out and hear an amazing channel. Adronis is a beautiful, delightful being from Sirius. He is very entertaining and inspirational, providing guidance during this amazing times of transition. contact Healing Waters and Sacred Spaces in Portland to reserve your space.
Anyway, then on April 27th Alan and I will begin our road trip down to L.A. playing gigs in Eugene, Ashland or Mt. Shasta. Not sure which, Davis and then Laguna Niguel on May 1st. Alan loves to sing love songs, and so do I. We will be taking the book. "The Presence Process" with us because we will need to practice presence for sure, along the way. Just stopping to breathe and be and surrender into the moment is so important.
So, that's the news from pre-flight central. Healing and singing forever.
Sarah
Friday, March 18, 2011
Love Peace and Harmony, the only thing I will choose to have falling on me
It is dawning on me the parallels of this idea of poisonous radiation and nuclear fall-out compared to the poisonous fall-out of this collective mental body and its' toxic thoughts. Since the only place I can truly control is my own mind. I am noticing my thoughts of fear that really tare down my immune system and realizing that the most important protective and loving way to treat myself right now is to stop focusing on all the fear hype and just breathe in love and light. Dr.Sha is trying to get 3 million people singing the song, Love peace and Harmony, the first song he ever wrote for the healing of the world….”I love my heart and soul. I love all humanity. Join hearts and souls together. Love peace and Harmony. These vibrations are the vehicle because this is the truth of where we are going. This. Love peace and harmony, joy gratitude appreciation, these are the gateway emotions that lift us out of reach of the toxic, downward- spiraling emotions of fear and despair and deliver us up as if on wings into the higher vibrational frequency range of well being and joy, the frequency range that is our true identity. Love peace and harmony. Climbing up and up. Lifting us ever higher into these states of well being. We have already lived through the disaster of Chernobyl which was much worse than this so within reason, while eating the recommended foods, taking safe iodine drops. I know am focusing my thoughts away from fear and into life. This is how I am limiting my exposure to the toxins that are closest to my home
I realize right now that I am apprehending the sum total of all lifetimes in which I died in disasters. They are all coming at once like a giant fear feast of delicacies and cocktails pouring through my consciousness. And yesterday I wrapped my widest stretching arms around all of them. And I said “Hello everyone, I feel you, I see you, I recognize you, and now we are going on a new time line. This is a time line of love, joy, safety and ascension into sweet experiences and to do this you must leave the old world behind and take my hand." And they did, and all of the lifetimes were lifted, all of them like hundreds of little faces are lifted up as I , now, with them in my arms, choose present moment thoughts of love, care, tenderness, peace, well being. Safety and joy. Even if there is a large Earthquake right where I am, I can stay in expansive love. The telemeres of my DNA were born to be in expansive love regardless of the external conditions. My DNA knows this, and as I re-write the fear time-line into the love time-line, my own DNA can be free to come into the love position and strengthen its posture here. So, this is the deep and profound task in every moment.
Last night as I stood in front of the warm water in the shower, I opened my heart, I felt my wing bones expanding in my back and I felt myself shining like an angel of love. It felt so good. And I realized this is a pretty new posture for me, but I want to live every moment expressing as this shining light in its fullest. And I thought to myself, "in this moment I am expressing into life who I truly am and what I truly want to see growing and expanding its full identity into all the Earth." And I thought for a moment, asking the question "Do we represent love or fear in each moment? Are we a campaign worker for fear or for love’s campaign." Of course we cannot fully choose love until we have faced the core fears we carry and welcomed them into the heart to hear what they have to say and put our arms around them fully. Only then do we have the possibility of choosing in the now and re-routing into the architecture of love. And this, happening within me now is the process of the soon-to-be butterfly, piercing through the chrysalis to become a new species or it is at least the state of the black goo between the change to a new species where the imaginal cells are coming into butterly alignment. Dr. Sha’s song, “Love, Peace and Harmony” which He wrote for the whole human race to move into love is a great song for bringing the imaginal cells into correct alignment. I am listening right now. You can hear it at drsha.com. He also has free conference calls 6 times a day where you can tune in and sing soul songs of prayer and alignment with a group.
How is everyone else moving through this amazing time of awakening? I would love to know your processes, all of you amazing caterpillar- butterfly pals out there. All with unique colors and sparkles and gifts and songs. How are you my butterfly friends? I love you all.
Many blessings to all, and may we all be held in a place of love, safety, peace and great joy as we feel our connection as one, the great entity of unity consciousness, the great butterfly rising out of the undefined black goop or I see it also as a great bird that is the Earth and all humanity, shedding the density of fear and lifting it’s great wings to fly~~~.
( my computer keyboard just added that sign while I wasn’t looking, I don’t know how to make that sign!, guess it wanted to share too, beautiful wavy line. I wonder if there is an ascending spiral. That would be even better.)
I realize right now that I am apprehending the sum total of all lifetimes in which I died in disasters. They are all coming at once like a giant fear feast of delicacies and cocktails pouring through my consciousness. And yesterday I wrapped my widest stretching arms around all of them. And I said “Hello everyone, I feel you, I see you, I recognize you, and now we are going on a new time line. This is a time line of love, joy, safety and ascension into sweet experiences and to do this you must leave the old world behind and take my hand." And they did, and all of the lifetimes were lifted, all of them like hundreds of little faces are lifted up as I , now, with them in my arms, choose present moment thoughts of love, care, tenderness, peace, well being. Safety and joy. Even if there is a large Earthquake right where I am, I can stay in expansive love. The telemeres of my DNA were born to be in expansive love regardless of the external conditions. My DNA knows this, and as I re-write the fear time-line into the love time-line, my own DNA can be free to come into the love position and strengthen its posture here. So, this is the deep and profound task in every moment.
Last night as I stood in front of the warm water in the shower, I opened my heart, I felt my wing bones expanding in my back and I felt myself shining like an angel of love. It felt so good. And I realized this is a pretty new posture for me, but I want to live every moment expressing as this shining light in its fullest. And I thought to myself, "in this moment I am expressing into life who I truly am and what I truly want to see growing and expanding its full identity into all the Earth." And I thought for a moment, asking the question "Do we represent love or fear in each moment? Are we a campaign worker for fear or for love’s campaign." Of course we cannot fully choose love until we have faced the core fears we carry and welcomed them into the heart to hear what they have to say and put our arms around them fully. Only then do we have the possibility of choosing in the now and re-routing into the architecture of love. And this, happening within me now is the process of the soon-to-be butterfly, piercing through the chrysalis to become a new species or it is at least the state of the black goo between the change to a new species where the imaginal cells are coming into butterly alignment. Dr. Sha’s song, “Love, Peace and Harmony” which He wrote for the whole human race to move into love is a great song for bringing the imaginal cells into correct alignment. I am listening right now. You can hear it at drsha.com. He also has free conference calls 6 times a day where you can tune in and sing soul songs of prayer and alignment with a group.
How is everyone else moving through this amazing time of awakening? I would love to know your processes, all of you amazing caterpillar- butterfly pals out there. All with unique colors and sparkles and gifts and songs. How are you my butterfly friends? I love you all.
Many blessings to all, and may we all be held in a place of love, safety, peace and great joy as we feel our connection as one, the great entity of unity consciousness, the great butterfly rising out of the undefined black goop or I see it also as a great bird that is the Earth and all humanity, shedding the density of fear and lifting it’s great wings to fly~~~.
( my computer keyboard just added that sign while I wasn’t looking, I don’t know how to make that sign!, guess it wanted to share too, beautiful wavy line. I wonder if there is an ascending spiral. That would be even better.)
Thursday, March 10, 2011
The prison of the mind or the wings of the heart?
Hello all,
In the last blog entry, I believe I was talking about the commitment to erect a tantric temple in a war zone. Well, I believe I have been making some serious headway, or heart way rather. With the removal of a large defensive matrix from my lungs and a huge watershed clearing of outdated mental concepts and a return to the heart as my center of identity, the body is coming online to accomodate the identity of the tantric temple. I don't exactly understand the physics of it. But the other night I saw this beautiful naked man standing before me in my meditation and I felt him coming in to merge with me, and I felt myself as the receptive feminine opening to receive him. This is the merging that I have been waiting for as now, I am receptive to the outer act of love making now that the inner love-making has returned to a configuration of my masculine and feminine as one.
My teacher, Lisa Renee says that this is achieved by correcting the spin ratios of the electron merkabic fields and the proton merkaba fields. I dont' exactly understand this, but I know it is about a partnership with mind, masculine electron and heart, feminine proton energy that creates a new healed mind/ heart complex which allows all emotion and is free of mind control programs of the 3rd dimensional grid. This healed mind/heart complex enables one to soar above the tortured mental body into the 5th dimensional mind in synchronization with the heart and higher heart, opening into frequencies of deep joy and bliss. With joy as the compass, one is freed from enslavement to mental concepts and can move from this now moment to the next in flow and synchronicity with the one intelligence of unity and bliss.
We are experiencing a very definite split between the beings who are locked in the mental body where polarity is being amplified, fear is being fed in large quantities. This in contrast to the rising unity field which is feeding the ones who are living in the heart as their center, the sweetest vibrations of home that they have ever known, that we have ever known.
It is almost like the tension of opposites in the fabric of the emotionally driven mental body is pulling itself a part and the knit of the fabric is stretching open and through these little holes is pouring the light of heaven, the aurora rainbows of the Christed field of ecstasy and bliss, waves of delight and flow. Those of us who have been on the path to open the planet into the light all these years, will feel ourselves being dowsed with the most glorious energy, like nectar or water after walking through a seemingly interminable dessert. And so it is a splitting of the worlds.
To free oneself from the mental body's dominion, feel all trauma and pain that creates compulsive thought patterns, Gain back control over the emotional body through self witnessing and presencing activities. Breathe and be, and be with the natural world that is not under enslavement. Then we can all arrive in the heart and grow the wings that can enable us to fly upon these beautiful air currents, supportive winds carrying us up into the fullness of our destiny as one, reunited in love. we are ascending on the sweet staircase of the heart, learning to hold neutrality around all things that we may stay open and connected to our God source.
Rising in love on the wings of neutrality and joy, we anchor the architecture for God's expression here within the Earth.
Happy days!!!!!!!!!
In the last blog entry, I believe I was talking about the commitment to erect a tantric temple in a war zone. Well, I believe I have been making some serious headway, or heart way rather. With the removal of a large defensive matrix from my lungs and a huge watershed clearing of outdated mental concepts and a return to the heart as my center of identity, the body is coming online to accomodate the identity of the tantric temple. I don't exactly understand the physics of it. But the other night I saw this beautiful naked man standing before me in my meditation and I felt him coming in to merge with me, and I felt myself as the receptive feminine opening to receive him. This is the merging that I have been waiting for as now, I am receptive to the outer act of love making now that the inner love-making has returned to a configuration of my masculine and feminine as one.
My teacher, Lisa Renee says that this is achieved by correcting the spin ratios of the electron merkabic fields and the proton merkaba fields. I dont' exactly understand this, but I know it is about a partnership with mind, masculine electron and heart, feminine proton energy that creates a new healed mind/ heart complex which allows all emotion and is free of mind control programs of the 3rd dimensional grid. This healed mind/heart complex enables one to soar above the tortured mental body into the 5th dimensional mind in synchronization with the heart and higher heart, opening into frequencies of deep joy and bliss. With joy as the compass, one is freed from enslavement to mental concepts and can move from this now moment to the next in flow and synchronicity with the one intelligence of unity and bliss.
We are experiencing a very definite split between the beings who are locked in the mental body where polarity is being amplified, fear is being fed in large quantities. This in contrast to the rising unity field which is feeding the ones who are living in the heart as their center, the sweetest vibrations of home that they have ever known, that we have ever known.
It is almost like the tension of opposites in the fabric of the emotionally driven mental body is pulling itself a part and the knit of the fabric is stretching open and through these little holes is pouring the light of heaven, the aurora rainbows of the Christed field of ecstasy and bliss, waves of delight and flow. Those of us who have been on the path to open the planet into the light all these years, will feel ourselves being dowsed with the most glorious energy, like nectar or water after walking through a seemingly interminable dessert. And so it is a splitting of the worlds.
To free oneself from the mental body's dominion, feel all trauma and pain that creates compulsive thought patterns, Gain back control over the emotional body through self witnessing and presencing activities. Breathe and be, and be with the natural world that is not under enslavement. Then we can all arrive in the heart and grow the wings that can enable us to fly upon these beautiful air currents, supportive winds carrying us up into the fullness of our destiny as one, reunited in love. we are ascending on the sweet staircase of the heart, learning to hold neutrality around all things that we may stay open and connected to our God source.
Rising in love on the wings of neutrality and joy, we anchor the architecture for God's expression here within the Earth.
Happy days!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Crossing the precipice to find home
Hello all. Well, it is Thursday, March 3rd, and the journey to birth home continues through deep density, veils of heaviness and despair, places where it feels life has never been, swimming through the no man's land between the out breath of the old world and the in breath of the new. The journey to immerse one's self into this dimension and birth the Christed field of light is quite the undertaking. i am posting a slide show I made of my cover of Tina Malia's "Shores of Avalon" This song and the accompanying pictures depict the sense of crossing the unknown wilderness, ocean sea to enable the two parts of self to find each other here within Earth and thus spiritualize matter and resurrect the fear based world into the love based vibration by unifying the masculine and feminine polarities into the triune frequency of resurrection, liberating us from fear and suffering and lifting us into radiant communion and love for all creatures and all the Earth. What a time this is!!! Lisa Renee says that March will see amazing expansion and coming of the unity code to the Earth, birthing itself through the opening of nodal acupressure 12the dimensional frequency hubs all over the Earth. Love is taking back the night. Even as the super rich are plotting to buy more and more of the Earth's water, and the unspeakable implication to basic human rights this implies. There time is coming to an end. Love will reign on this Earth. Come March the football changes hands and we are running it into the end zone of ascension. Finally the tide of love and unity to lift us on it's coming body. Ah, what a ride as the body of unity rises to stand, to breathe to animate itself and all of us as cells in it's great body to receive the clear knowing of our tasks to rehabilitate the unity code throughout matter!!!Twill be joyous work in deed!!!! Here is the link for the video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4IH110I8p40
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Anchoring the template of lover and beloved through the driving winds of mental body resistance.
Love Vs Separation
Hello fellow travelers. wow, since I last wrote, we've seen many peoples of the world rising up and overthrowing their governments, losing their fear and standing up for their humanity. And many, especially in Libya, have had the willingness to risk death to bring liberation from tyranny.
My own mind is mirroring this process for sure. My ego mind is much like Ghadafi, ruling over maybe his own front yard now, but still defiant and quite resistant to turn and surrender into the force of his own un-doing. My mental body does not like the prospect of surrendering to be in my body, to abandon the incessant attempts at creating abundance through thinking and plotting and planning. Last night, My own mind turned in upon itself and realized the futility of its own identity. it has always lived under the delusion that it's activity was bringing abundance to the self, but now it realizes that it's very identity is the active rejection of presence and the active rejection of being in the body. And of course there can be no true joy without embodiment.
so now, even knowing all this, the unraveling is slow like a stand off between all the inertia of the psyche and the persistent demand to turn toward the collective, the heart and the body to participate in the joy that is presence. This morning it felt like Frank was operating on my mind as he was reaching into a bowl with a spoon. My team of surgeons was busily dismantling all the last strong holds of my cognitive identity.
We made love last night, our bodies covered in coconut oil. The feminine and the child parts of myself, swimming in a sea of presence with my beloved, and yet my mental body standing there poised with his gun, hating every second of it. What a strange situation, he the gatekeeper to my felt passion. He, that still, has the power to render me limp and dead with now passion. This part of myself still holds a deep and very strongly pervading hatred, rage and great resistance to any sexual contact, actually a deep and pervading hatred of anything that makes me remember I am in a body. I have yet to have penetrated into the core traumas which deny me access to this body as a place of pleasure. I know this is coming in time. There is so much patience required, to trust that all layers are emerging into consciousness at their perfect time. And so Frank and I continue asserting the vibration of lovers into the passive dead field of the mind's festering rage, like a plea that won't be silenced, like a sled dog team that must get through to deliver the medicine to a dying people. This is our iditerod! Like architects of a tantric temple that have a contract to build this thing in the middle of a war site, and even though the cold, hard anger and pain of war is all around, we continue through the terrain, carrying the sacred wood and the vibrantly-colored, silk fabrics of glorious beauty through the frozen army poised with guns in enemy stance. The architects of the promise of beauty and joy will not be stopped. They will anchor love into this barren and pain-filled place, and by the time the job is done, every army man will be dancing, immersed in the sweet celebration of love and communion that this temple will bring.
The template of lover and beloved will overcome the template of enemy patterning that has long governed this Earth and held the triune frequency of resurrected dna hostage under it's grip of rage and unforgiveness.
And within my marriage to Frank, all these elements are at play as they are over the current grid of Earth. This is why, even though a hundred times we have talked of givng up and going where the army is not, the love in our hearts and the commitment to this work will not allow him to leave. I have always been in it for the long hall, feeling the mission and the purpose from the very beginning when we truly wanted to kill each other much of the time. I knew there was incredible potential to bring love and unity into a very dark place if we could stay together. But Frank, he has wanted to leave so many times, but something in him must know what is happening at a deeper level because he stays. 13 years of marriage to this project and here is our pact!
The pact of the lovers
We will dare to make love every day outside the door where the govt. of division and hatred is still actively convening until the iron doors come down and this glorious essence of lover and beloved saturates every parameter of the mind of separation consciousness, bathing and swimming in the ecstasy and rapture of the dawning of the perpetual circuit of love thoughout mind, spirit and body for this self, this relationship and for all of humanity and our mother Gaia.
Last night my spirit guides told me that if I were to measure the trauma and the pleasure quotient of these many lives on Earth and on off Earth planets. It would come up at least 80% torture, with 20% or less weighing in with the possiblity of pleasure associated with this body. This is why the mental body says, "No way, I am just not going to surrender to this hell hole!" But there are new parts of me now that know that the past can be washed away in the glory of this now moment, that in the miraculous vibrations of the reunion with full soul essence here in this body, all the cummulative torture horror can be resurrected into remembered joy. yes Love can embody here within this Earth and as it does it heals all!!! all that has gone before. And so I continue. And so... "long live love, let it overcome every system of separation, let it lift up all the world!!!" We will not give up. Here's to the full installment of tantric temples all over this beautiful Earth and ever more houses for the celebration of the ecstatic communion between heaven and Earth.
Honoring the unity architecture of the star children
And here's to structures and systems that support, ever more, the amazing genius of the star children of today. May they sing and dance and explore and seek and be free to spiral into the glory of their spirit, mind, heart, body union which serves as our beacon to the return into our full potential selves. Here at the lead-up to planetary ascension, may we surrender our systems of separation and mind-numbing education to the genius of their authentic beauty, creativity and advanced neurological configurations that are showing us and leading us to our future identity as galactic humans.
And so, on March 1st, we March forth!
Hello fellow travelers. wow, since I last wrote, we've seen many peoples of the world rising up and overthrowing their governments, losing their fear and standing up for their humanity. And many, especially in Libya, have had the willingness to risk death to bring liberation from tyranny.
My own mind is mirroring this process for sure. My ego mind is much like Ghadafi, ruling over maybe his own front yard now, but still defiant and quite resistant to turn and surrender into the force of his own un-doing. My mental body does not like the prospect of surrendering to be in my body, to abandon the incessant attempts at creating abundance through thinking and plotting and planning. Last night, My own mind turned in upon itself and realized the futility of its own identity. it has always lived under the delusion that it's activity was bringing abundance to the self, but now it realizes that it's very identity is the active rejection of presence and the active rejection of being in the body. And of course there can be no true joy without embodiment.
so now, even knowing all this, the unraveling is slow like a stand off between all the inertia of the psyche and the persistent demand to turn toward the collective, the heart and the body to participate in the joy that is presence. This morning it felt like Frank was operating on my mind as he was reaching into a bowl with a spoon. My team of surgeons was busily dismantling all the last strong holds of my cognitive identity.
We made love last night, our bodies covered in coconut oil. The feminine and the child parts of myself, swimming in a sea of presence with my beloved, and yet my mental body standing there poised with his gun, hating every second of it. What a strange situation, he the gatekeeper to my felt passion. He, that still, has the power to render me limp and dead with now passion. This part of myself still holds a deep and very strongly pervading hatred, rage and great resistance to any sexual contact, actually a deep and pervading hatred of anything that makes me remember I am in a body. I have yet to have penetrated into the core traumas which deny me access to this body as a place of pleasure. I know this is coming in time. There is so much patience required, to trust that all layers are emerging into consciousness at their perfect time. And so Frank and I continue asserting the vibration of lovers into the passive dead field of the mind's festering rage, like a plea that won't be silenced, like a sled dog team that must get through to deliver the medicine to a dying people. This is our iditerod! Like architects of a tantric temple that have a contract to build this thing in the middle of a war site, and even though the cold, hard anger and pain of war is all around, we continue through the terrain, carrying the sacred wood and the vibrantly-colored, silk fabrics of glorious beauty through the frozen army poised with guns in enemy stance. The architects of the promise of beauty and joy will not be stopped. They will anchor love into this barren and pain-filled place, and by the time the job is done, every army man will be dancing, immersed in the sweet celebration of love and communion that this temple will bring.
The template of lover and beloved will overcome the template of enemy patterning that has long governed this Earth and held the triune frequency of resurrected dna hostage under it's grip of rage and unforgiveness.
And within my marriage to Frank, all these elements are at play as they are over the current grid of Earth. This is why, even though a hundred times we have talked of givng up and going where the army is not, the love in our hearts and the commitment to this work will not allow him to leave. I have always been in it for the long hall, feeling the mission and the purpose from the very beginning when we truly wanted to kill each other much of the time. I knew there was incredible potential to bring love and unity into a very dark place if we could stay together. But Frank, he has wanted to leave so many times, but something in him must know what is happening at a deeper level because he stays. 13 years of marriage to this project and here is our pact!
The pact of the lovers
We will dare to make love every day outside the door where the govt. of division and hatred is still actively convening until the iron doors come down and this glorious essence of lover and beloved saturates every parameter of the mind of separation consciousness, bathing and swimming in the ecstasy and rapture of the dawning of the perpetual circuit of love thoughout mind, spirit and body for this self, this relationship and for all of humanity and our mother Gaia.
Last night my spirit guides told me that if I were to measure the trauma and the pleasure quotient of these many lives on Earth and on off Earth planets. It would come up at least 80% torture, with 20% or less weighing in with the possiblity of pleasure associated with this body. This is why the mental body says, "No way, I am just not going to surrender to this hell hole!" But there are new parts of me now that know that the past can be washed away in the glory of this now moment, that in the miraculous vibrations of the reunion with full soul essence here in this body, all the cummulative torture horror can be resurrected into remembered joy. yes Love can embody here within this Earth and as it does it heals all!!! all that has gone before. And so I continue. And so... "long live love, let it overcome every system of separation, let it lift up all the world!!!" We will not give up. Here's to the full installment of tantric temples all over this beautiful Earth and ever more houses for the celebration of the ecstatic communion between heaven and Earth.
Honoring the unity architecture of the star children
And here's to structures and systems that support, ever more, the amazing genius of the star children of today. May they sing and dance and explore and seek and be free to spiral into the glory of their spirit, mind, heart, body union which serves as our beacon to the return into our full potential selves. Here at the lead-up to planetary ascension, may we surrender our systems of separation and mind-numbing education to the genius of their authentic beauty, creativity and advanced neurological configurations that are showing us and leading us to our future identity as galactic humans.
And so, on March 1st, we March forth!
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