Tell me: which master do you serve, fear or love?

Ah so I awoke early this morning with the windstorm of thoughts blowing around in a gust, but I believe there are some valuable gems in the mix to share.

The first thing to get is the brain, the physical structure of the brain is a receiver.
It is not a creator of thoughts, but a receiver of frequencies that impulse it's machine. The great task standing before us is that this receiver of the brain is currently held ransom much of the time by unconscious, impulsive programs put in place to avoid presence and therefore, to avoid pain.

The best metaphor for the blast of mind activity that results to avoid pain is that of a great wind that constantly attempts and many times succeeds in ripping our attention out of the present moment. These impulse comes from the survival based fear fueled solar plexus chakra. The higher mind has no gateway into the solar plexus. We are only reachable by the higher mind when we can begin dwelling in our hearts.

So how do we begin to slow and eventually calm the wind and arrive more and more into our hearts? To do this we must begin to face the pain we are avoiding. All of us have a vat of unconscious pain that our mind is slave to to some degree. So the key is to begin a practice of vigilance to identify which behaviors feel to be driven by an unpeaceful energy, interrupt these behaviors and feel the pain or the fear and unrest that is present just under the surface.

Simultaneously, it is tantamount that we actively and deliberately take the steps that will bring joy into our lives from moment to moment. This also keeps us open to be impulsed by our higher mind and heart.
There is a joy that is our authentic nature, and our footsteps long to walk this path for it resonates with who we are. Like a child simply putting one foot in front of the other, creating her stairway to heaven step by step, we must follow our joy.
This is not a quest for joy that is born out of the wind of unfelt pain, but this is a joy that emanates from it's own seed of self within. It has an organic impulse like a seed that wants to blossom and a star that longs for the revelation of it's light.

So, it may seem paradoxical in nature, but these are 2 different mechanisms: And the reaction to each is very different indeed. For the 1st, the pathological joy questing of the mind must be dismantled for it is driven by dis-ease and desperation. While in direct contrast, the authentic joy arising from the core of self, must be nurtured, nourished and put at the helm of the ship as the actual compass by which we steer the life. Very different indeed, but on the surface seeming to be after the same thing. The mind is not in reality. It does believe that it is going the right direction, and sometimes it can be quite tricky to unmask it's self deluding behavior, but if it's impulse cannot be sustained without your conscious attention moving it, then you've got pathological joy questing. while cultivating and following the authentic joy steps of the seed self is self sustaining. The impulse of that basic joy will keep arising again and again. Maybe in a different form, but that doesnt' matter and it can arise independent of anything the attention is focused on. One good way to tell which is which is that the former will be accompanied by a "needing to get" feeling, like your running on a tread mill with a hungry monster biting at your ankle's just behind you. The latter is more just an organic arising of "yes, this is what I'm supposed to do, like when the flower receives the impulse to grow another step toward it's eventual blossoming and puts out a fresh green leaf.

At this time in our history, not waking up is no longer an option. The tension that is increasing in the lower mind field is becoming a mine field. So it is tantamount that all of humanity begin actively participating in the upgrade of consciousness to become impulsed more and more by the higher mind and heart and remove ourselves from that which holds the bondage to the lower mind.

The number one way we free ourselves from the mine field of the lower mind is to dismantle addictive behaviors and feel the pain that is underneath. Breathe, Be present. Find connection to what is alive in you in every moment, and if there is unrest, meet it with love and release the pain. Breathing in joy and light and connection to god source energy in it's place. This is how we make the upgrade we are being asked to make by Novmeber of 2011, we must be out of the mine field or there she blows!!!!

Another metaphor I love is that the pool we have been swimming in is about to become more and more a pool of pirannas. For quite some time they have been babies with only little nubs for teeth, but beware because now they are maturing, and with maturation comes the truth of the teeth. So we must simply begin moving to a higher pool to do our swimming, one that is filled with the waters of the higher mind and heart beyond identification with the emotionally driven identiy. Emptying the vat of unconscious pain we become more and more able to arrive in these clear waters of love and balance and sovereignty over the bondage to the emotional body and lower mind impulse.
I wish us all well, as we engage consciously in this process of extricating ourselves from the mine field of unconsciousness and become ever more sovereign over our lives.
love and blessings to all.

Sarah

Changing Times

Hello dear family,

How is everyone feeling during these major shifting times when the mother earth is quaking and shaking and shifting to accomodate more light coming into the planet. Last night I got to speak to a lovely group of people about conscious evolution and love and evolving from the 3rd chakra of fear based, survival driven separation consciousness up to the 4th, heart chakra of love and unity. What an elevator ride. We talked about the dismantling of all beliefs anchored in separation and the enema of fear and grief as we uncover the here-to-fore repressed pains and traumas of the emotions emerging into consciousness.

My question to my self and the universe is really: How can my life's experience truly be of service to humanity. Where does my knowledge and experience inter-face and truly serve those who are listening. I love sharing and teaching and feeling that I am making a difference and helping to prepare people for the effect of the big shifts as the guard changes on this planet from fear to love. Not sure how to do it. Not sure what parts of my knowledge to leave out.

The difference , as I understand it, really the only difference between star seeds and awakening humans is that starseeds receive activation from within and awakening humans will be undergoing the same awakening and dismantling and emotional purging but there shifts will be triggered by the light coming into the planet from the outside. So really now we are all in the same boat because the symptomology is truly the same at this point.

My mind is just so active. I need to feel my attachment to be a teacher, feel the anxt and pain of invisibility underneath this major attachment.
Anybody can relate out there. My teacher, Lisa Rene at wwww.energeticsynthesis.com says that we must get underneath all attachments and feel the distressing emotions that they are masking. OH boy, still got major work to do.
Well, I guess I'll sign off now. am loving Christine Day's new book. Check it out at frecuenciesofbrilliance.com, Pleiadian energies to assist us in birthing our muti-dimensional natures. Also check out solfeggio frecuencies on youtube. Wow, 528 HZ Divine love and transformation, miracles. Also family of Jacob on youtube. Melchizadek144. So beautiful. So much glory being shared visual and auditory.
Well, I guess that's all.
Love to all,

Sarah

Rolling with the punches

Hello all,

The las few days there has been a feeling of major resistance, many opportunities to clear fear and shame. I do believe a powerful wave of high frequency energy is coming in just now and it is calling us into a greater level of participation and incarnation as unity consciousness awake alive and engaged. The powerful activation of March 20th is approaching. See www.earth-keeper.com . This is a time of increasing demand for light integration which we know means calling up greater levels of unresolved shadow. I am writing a short installation here because I am on a library computer. Interfacing with the world of the fear-based fragmented reality is feeling very unsatisying today and all days really. The only thing that is real is the incredible love I feel connecting me to all living things. Now, if only the capacity to feel and appreciate this love could give me a niche, a job in this dimension. The world of money and marketing is so not what engages me, and yet it feels like I must play at least while it still is in play.
Love to all. My time is up.

The lost song of creation, grasping to remember

I have been listening to Pink Floyd's song "Comfortably Numb" and it is really bringing me to an intense place of longing and anxt. I'm playing my cello with it, climbing up these emotion notes, over and over again, pouring out of me, soaring up the neck to the higher octave and I am fueled by such anguish. So I decide, ya know I think I just need to feel the pain that is in this song for me.

And then I go in to feel it, and i see it all, me in the womb, the song of my preferred light body organization creation is coming through loud and clear, and then, all of a sudden I lose the song, I can't hear it. I'm struggling so hard not to lose it as it's being wripped from my reality like mist fading into oblivion. And in the absence of the song the living light code of beauty falls into the default creation of the current level of separation consciousness being infiltrated into me by the surrounding womb. And I scream "Mom, why did you stop playing the song, go back press the play button, and she says, " I don't even know that song. I didn't even know i was playing a song. Somehow the button on the tape recorder just went off andt he piped in guiding message of my passage into joy and rememberment in form is gone. And the anxt and anguish at having the song, and being held within it's destiny and then dropped like an orphan into the confusing darkness of jumbled dna, un recoverable as light, unrecoverable as joy, unrecoverable as sovereign, but rather, a cog in the machine of the fear based reality, a default android asleep in the matrix, without the song, this is my only choice.

But now, living the fullness of the loss, I can go back and chose again.
This time I chose to know that i never lost the song, that I have always been held in the field of the light and that the song is in my blood and in my bones, and I need only believe that it is there and was never lost to instruct the DNA back into original innocence position. So I guess I am working on this. And Crystal beings all around me are activating the unity field, but then when I leave them I feel dependent on them as the source of the acess to the field, the key is to tell myself I am the unity field. I am resting in oneness with source. The fall never happened. I am found in the exquisite homecoming within self.

And the drama of lack and struggle and anxt in me screams loud saying. Are you crazy, It's empty, it's not full, it's broken, it's not whole, it's fallen it's not in tact. And i say, that is a nightmare for the field was never broken, and who I am was never at the effect of any of this. Who i am has always been resting in total wholeness of foundness and unitedness, and beginning to train my brain to dwell beyond the drama and cease manufacturing thoughts of wanting and desire in this place of total fulfillment, how can there be want. Ah, so, this interesting dance continues at the edge of duality, the fat lady of the emotional body is enjoying her final swan songs, but soon their will be no attention focused there to hold identification in the drama.
Well, I guess that is all to say for now.

So much love and so many blessings to all.

The wedding/ massacre and wedding once again

Getting ready for the crystalline Grid activation of March 10th and beyond. check out earth-keeper.org


From within duality, it is like waking up at your wedding feast, and most of the guests are happy and loving each other and partying together

But there is a whole section of your table that is anesthetized under numbing agents because if awake, they would kill each other with their murderous rage.

At the end of the night, the anesthesia has to come off, and we have to get every one at our table back to love with each other. This is what the activation of the

Crystalline grid and the return to full consciousness demands of us. So before the big hit in March, we need to start moving through the layers of dis-ease within self

And begin feeling the resistance, the unforgiveness, and the sadness and isolation at the bottom of the rejection, the hopelessness, the powerlessness of all the lives

held in bondage, the programs of self imprisonment the hamster wheels of our brains. Feel it all, allow it all up to be met in our awareness and the DNA can reset

itself back into the innocence of the grand and sacred union with itself as the bride. Like in the movie, Forest Gump, when Forest finally gets to be with the love of

his life, and then he finds out that there is just one problem. She has Aids and is dying. To me this is an amazing metaphor for human condition. It is much like this

being married to a beautiful bride, but she is plagued with fear and death. To bring her close to you , is to make love with death itself. In a very real sense our

journey to the restoration of the unity code and the sacred marriage within self demands that we bring all that is of darkness into our hearts to heal. We,through our

forgiveness and willingness to feel all, bring the resurrection of the fire of oneness to our own land. The song "Dark night of the Soul" by Lorena Mckenitt is so exquisite as it tells this journey back to the beloved through the dark of night.

Building the muscle of presence, escaping the atomic harness of the mental body

Now more than ever, my fellow travelers we must learn and practice the allowance of all emotions in the moment they surface. This is our only way to remain in high vibrational states. The powers that be that want to maintain limited consciousness have an atomic harness in place at the mental body level. This means : mental body = hell.

So How do we stay out of the mental body? Simple, Be with emotions as they surface. If you find yourself jumping into mental activity to avoid a painful feeling, return to the breath and the heart until you have allowed the unpleasant emotion or memory and pop out the otherside into neutrality once again. Neutrality is the baseline you want to be operating from as emotional charges will enslave you into the land of hell. I am using stronger language here because this is no joke. Our sparring partners are demanding a greater level of presence from us than ever before. They are driving our evolution forward by turning up the heat like this. It is all part of the game, the ending of the game of duality, that pushes us to the next level of consciousness, non dual and all embracing in its nature as Love.

The best analogy I have found for this whole end game is that the mental body is like a big swimming pool. Now this pool has always been a pool of piranha fish, but up until now, for most of us, these piranhas who shared the pool with us were babies. Their teeth were blunt, some a little spiny. We bumped into them at times and they even smiled through their pointy teeth. We were able to feel a sense of some freedom and well-being while in the pool. Well, not anymore. Now these Piranhas are fully grown adults, no more smiles just ready to eat us alive with their cutting annihilating teeth of death. Death to our joy frecuency that is!. Now we spin the mental wheels and they are waiting to mash us into a chime of despair, agony and hell. This is why we got to stay out of that pool. The only way, as I have said to stay out is to keep returning to the heart and the higher mind by allowing all we most resist until we have calm mind. If we are strategizing, I guarantee you the beasts are already nipping at our ankles. Ouch!!!

So the times demand vigilance with the higher awareness to identify any surfacing emotion that we are resisting and surrender to feeling it and popping out the other side into nuetrality, this way we can maintain our high vibration of joy and well-being, flowing in our heart and higher mind, side-stepping the piranha pool with this moment to moment vigilance. Because the times are quite intense and I do feel I want to share the “emotional freedom” techniques I have learned. I am going to keep my sliding scale rate of $25 and up through at least March of next year. So if you feel called, come and see me.
Bye for now. Tomorrow is a portal day so Breathe, and have your lemaz partners standing by.
Love,

Sarah

Thank God Duality has a Shelf Life

All I can say is “thank god duality does indeed have a shelf life!!!!!”

Deep at the core of your being is an ocean of endless love. It is true all ties that have held my attention polarized at the astral, denser level are desolving now and I am being re-absorbed back into the field of the next level. From this vantage point as it calls me back into it, it feels to be teaming with life spawning in every instant, multiple ripples per second is this firey inter-action of dynamic undulating self activating field of light. It is magnetizing me now.

The grip of the level of consciousness where duality is real is loosening and I am receiving the access to the part of myself that exists at the next level. It has always existed,but I have never, I mean this is the first time I have had access. ?This is the field of light that I sensed in Eric’s eyes, and the field of light that the multiple lifestreams converging in this now moment have been drawing me towards. He came and opened the door to so much of myself that to taste of this richness was now impossible at the current level, the level of consciousness that was polarized in duality could never match the frecuencies he opened, And now finally the inner craving is being met, the core thirst is being quenched. The intolerability of this starvation state has enabled the breaking down of the walls that blocked me from the subtle field of consciousness. The best way I can describe it is that this intense longing is like laser light waring down the grip of the soul’s attention’s magnetic attraction to the denser level of the, senese, desire, form, emotion, questing, wanting. All this, it is if after one has played the game in here so fully, duality actually starts to mold, like it has a shelf life. Thank God. And when it does the magnificent river of self activating dancing light begins to call to us.

As the attention is pulled off of duality, we begin to hear the voice, feel the seduction of the incredibly rich life substance of the subtle field, our next destination of conscious focus. The starvation finally ends as I, the separate mind self is taken back into the sweet river of light from which I came the great mother love, divine mother at the heart of all existence, the substance that dreamed all matter into form. I am this. This is reclaiming me, and I am so so so grateful. It is in the silence that I can fully be taken back into this field of the mother light,and so no more words now, the mind wantws to tell you all about the sea and the boundary of it’s shoreline, but the heart and the soul just want to dive in. Here I go!!

Wait before I go in. this mind has one more thing. “So then the question, the one question to ponder to be of assistance to any and all who are seeking liberation is how do we, is there something that the doer, if there is a doer can do to hasten the loosening of the grip, to bring on this “molding” or disintegrating of the attention’s magnetic attraction to duality. Ahh, this is the question. Isn’t it. To me, it is a timing that is programmed within every seed of consciousness, this timing of how and when that particular seed will awaken, and the process is truly doing itself. We can watch it and write about it, but we truly are riding on the back of this grand intelligence tht is dreaming itself awake in the way it knows is the very best way. Perhaps the greatest offering to make to those who are still polarized in duality is to say that something beautiful awaits you, and that it is indeed beautiful and glorious to sense the subtler field, and that it can begin to quench all longing in the world of the senses as we poise the mouth to drink from this stream, it feeds us a water that begins to purify all nature of form and lifts us into radiant light.
O.k. now the dive. Wooosh……the sound of the cosmic splash echoes in the distance.”