Coming Full circle since November 7th, the journey from pathological communion to true communion, the end of the child fragment.

If you recall, in my blog after November 7th. I wrote about missing the ferry to Vashon Island where I was going to be united with a beloved, and that was a wild and crazy time when the direction changed. Singing that Barry Manilow song "Could this be the magic" began the unwinding. Calling out the chorus "Come come come into my arms. Let me know the wonder of all of you!!! My monad could take no more!!!! it was as if the sky opened up and my own soul monad masculine came in and said "O.K. I can't take it anymore!! He is not your beloved I am and I'm taking you back now!!! In that moment like a cosmic cutting blade of Kali, I underwent a mass cutting from all external seeking. ( you see often the victory of the soul is total ego disappointment as misalignment demands correction. It can be very painful to the extent one is attached or invested in the misaligned direction.

Right there on that day my own soul began a rather ruthless process forcing upon me my return to self. Cascading down through lifetimes of very painful abandonment and rejection and death, waiting, waiting, I was brought to the physical damage of my nervous system and the reality of the deeply compromised nerve supply from my brain to my whole body which as mentioned in the last blog entry, provided the context for the take over by the christed cell. It turned out that all this externally directed pathological needing was thrown back in my face as I hurled in a downward spiral of disconnection and rejection.

It turned out this disconnect and rejection coming into full relief was exactly what I needed as it brought me to the existing physical disconnection and damage within my nervous system. At body talk, I was to find that nerve supply from my brain to my general body was severely compromised, and that my whole life, or major parts of my behaviors were a result of this damage, a legacy of the damaged orphan seed. You see, all this seeking connection to love through the external channels was me trying to mimic the healing of this nerve supply, but the pain around this core break was so immense, I had spent my whole life defending against it. Now, I was ready to face the pain that would enable the healing, feeling the full identity of the damaged cell enabled the christed cell to penetrate through the membrane and take over the central control of the cell.

Exit the outer child

So, for as long as I can remember, I have had a near split personality, with a very real little girl child accompanying me through life and acting her own separate personality. Thank goodness, this was not a psychotic state. I have always had conscious awareness of the process. But now, it has been unveiled that this identity has been the core defense of this inner damage. As I lay my body upon the broken grid of the disconnect, I feel her dissolving back into the totality of me, and finally I feel like a grown woman. My husband will miss this little manic creature, but I told him that she will be there in the sparkle in my eyes. That's why I am sarah sparkle. It will take some adjustment for sure as it is a big re-configuration of energies.

So, today I will sing the breath of heaven song, Mary pregnant with Jesus, and I realize that I really am like Mary. This light seed code is something birthing within me in the interface of the darkness and the light, the sacred alchemy of a new life is happening. As the primary cell of my being is transformed into the triune frequency, love, grace, healing and resurrection proliferate through my entire body. Each time there is an upgrade in the primary cell, the whole body receives the upgrade for all of us.

levels within levels

So, the exciting thing if we think microcosm to macrocosm is this: We know that when a baby does not receive touch, the cells begin dying one by one, and if the neglect is severe enough, the primary cell sends out a suicide message and all cells die at once. This is the power of the primary cell. it is like an engine of creation for the whole self. So, now if we consider this on the positive side then it follows that if the primary cell achieves the healing of the sacred marriage and the birth of the triune frequency of resurrection, then every cell in the body receives the call to follow this upgrade!!!
Now, if we go out another level, what if each of us as human beings is a cell in the body of the whole of humanity and when enough of us come online to a critical mass in this sacred marriage of light, we, in effect, function as a coherent primary cell for the whole body of humanity and succeed in sounding a call to the whole of every human being on the Earth bound for the ascension timeline.

Now, stay with me, what if we take it to the next level. Now I don't know if this one is accurate, but from what many spiritual teachers have said to me, it could well be. What if the Earth itself and all of us as it's consciousness outposts contributing to the sum total of Earth, when it reaches it's critical mass sacred marriage resurrection state, serves as a primary cell for the whole of the cosmos and sends out a call to every other planet to return to love. Many have said that planet Earth is a key to many doors, that what happens to planet Earth initiates a chain reaction far and wide. Any way, at this point this is all hypotesizing, but I get goose bumps just thinking about it. What a wild ride. what a great adventure. What an amazing time.

So now, getting back to the full circle theme. Tomorrow I return to see the one I was going to see at that party and his wonderful girlfriend, and I am returning, this time as a whole being, not completely healed, but well on my way back to the full sacred marriage of my own being within my own self no longer being able to be shaken by the glory of an outside mirror, but able to stand in the true knowing that the quintessential union of lover and beloved is achieved within myself as it is for all selves. I feel now that I am ready to see them. Lover and beloved, mother and father. She held me like a mother through the great descent and return back to myself. Even through the tumult, she never let me go. I am so happy to see them both.

Pathological communion has been replaced with the knowing of the possiblity of real communion, the only real communion that exists, the communion within self. It is this communion of self love,the masculine and feminine within the self, that is the portal to our god consciousness and the connection to the infinite supply of source and the fulfillment of all desire. May we all find our way back home to the sacred marriage within and rise together as one glorious planet of light.

The return to self, the great healing and resurrection

The Chosen Picture

(The long standing image I love most to illustrate the restoration of the healed genetic code was painted by the most talented, Catherine Andrews. ( see image for this blog post) Thank you Catherine for this image that has been a guiding light for me, I might call it the "guardian image of my healing journey. It is the quintessential union between the masculine and feminine that represents the resurrection of spiritualized matter. You see the two halves, man and woman so beautifully exchanging and merging with one another that they are literally becoming one as they birth the golden sun of the triune frequency, which is the victory of spirit once again rising up within matter.) As we know, the entire Earth and all sentient beings are engaged in this massive restoration project of the original sacred marriage.


Hello all,

It has been a while. Wow, so much has been happening since the earthquake in Japan. Interestingly enough Sendai, Japan has a mythical story attached to it about the uniting of 2 lovers, that once lived on Earth, but that exist now in the stars. Well, I believe that Japan was a massive sacrifice for enabling the return of the Masculine feminine energies to each other here from within the Earth grid of the "great divorce"
At no other time in my healing journey have I felt such momentum and power to heal. The light has been birthing from my solar plexus with a force and a power that has up-stepped tremendously since the Earth reconfigured itself on that fateful March day.

I have been writing the song of ascension, the song of the fall and the return. I have re-written it 12 times in the past 5 days. It is still very very wordy. But it's pretty coherent, and it feels complete. I will include it in a subsequent blog. So much, where to start.

The primary seed of light, hosting the embryo


I have come to understand from my Teacher, Lisa Renee that one of the projects going on in the frontline, veil-lifting light workers is something called embryonic hosting of the christ seed. As soon as I heard her describing this, I got chills all over and began sweating and crying. I knew that I was a host of one of these seeds.
Over the last weeks, the seed has been asserting itself like never before. Now what this is, is a fully healed genetic code that is actually created by the soul monad with the help of spirit, from the bone marrow in the spine. I know it sounds pretty wacky, but apparently that is how the "veil is lifted" you see this seed has the code of living light that can transform the karmicly damaged genetic code of the fallen grid int my original seed.

Talk about your fixer upper

My original seed was so badly damaged that there was no hope of it rehabilitating itself. Now, most human beings' codes are not so badly damaged that they can't be rehabilitated, but veil lifters rack up the worst Karma and the greatest amount of it that they can hold to help transform the darkness in the grid so that the living light code can return to the Earth for the Earth and all of humanity.
So, this is the lifting of the veil. it is this light seed code inside me, systematically penetrating through and transmuting all the darkness of the karmic misconfigurations of the original seed. I feel it like the distorted code is like a black veil that the light seed allows itself to be wrapped in. Then the light seed as it comes online starts vaporizing the frozen light and deadlight code, kind of like defrosting it. This happens during the birth of a star when the stars inner core blows off the outer layer so it can achieve it's full sovereign shining starness.

The nurse and the orphanage, a story of two cells

A more loving way to say it, is that the light seed is the mother medicine seed, or the nurse seed, that brings the love and light to the damaged seed which is much like a little orphanage with many damaged children. Note, the wounded seed consciousness is the consciousness experienced by the ego self, the one in time and space. The christed seed remains primarily unavailable during waking consciousness, but I have felt it come to me in the night many times. So, one can see that the task at hand is to facilitate connection between the two seeds, systematically connecting the orphan who walks the Earth with the love of source, allowing visits and the exchange of love between the nurse and the little orphans.

The bridge between the seeds

So how is this connection between the two seeds facilitated. This is quite a task, but thank goodness there is one pathway and one pathway only to facilitate ths connection, exposure to and activation by one who delivers the medicine of core oneness. O.K. in more clear terms, romantic love. ( I suppose this connection could also be facilitated by alien assistance and or near death experience) So, it turns out at the 9th dimensional level, the level of our soul monad, we exist in oneness as a conglomerant with multiple souls, also called our monadic or core soul family. Anyway, the task is for our higher self to unite us with one of these monadic family members, hopefully of our preferred physical gender. Uniting with someone who holds a feedline to the oneness, enables a pathway to be opened between the two seeds that allows for exchange of the medicine and the transmutation of the broken code. There have been 15 or so major activators in the last 13 years. The onset of the healing journey was 27 years ago.

I am only now after 27 years beginning to get what is really going on at a cellular level. Anyway, every upgrade in the healing cell is felt like an upgrade in the caliber of the inner wedding between the masculine and feminine energies within self.(The original proton/ electron misalignment in all constituents of the damaged cell come into greater and greater correction.)

The hosted becomes the host, the changing of the guard

At some point the healing was great enough between the two cells that the damaged seed was ready to be reclaim by the christed seed. When this happened for me, I felt like my beloved flew me to my home world and fully dipped me into the waters of divine bliss and then no sooner was I held in these loving arms, I was dropped out of the sky to land on broken glass in a hellish state of separation. ( mirroring the inner orphan loss of the god seed state.) This direct mirroring facilitated a dissolution of the membranes blocking the union of the two seeds. This was accomplished through the exposure to and loss of the last, i will call him the last home delivery agent. I was hurled in a downward spiral of descent and rejection which mirrored perfectly the inner damage of my nervous system and began enabling a full re-write of my inherited nervous system by the christ-seed nervous system program. this began the actual proliferation of the light seed identity into the full parameters of the of the damaged seed code. This was like the deadlight code being resurrected into the garden of eden in a sweeping rainbow over my whole body, like the terra forming of a nearly dead Earth( see blog post in early November)

One month later In December of last year I began singing a song, "born again in love" feeling like I was this essence that was singing from deep inside myself, not really understanding what the heck I was talking about, fearing I might be going insane for sure. This fear has been a close companion for the last 27 years.
For right now, as I stand before you, I feel as oneness, that there is one seed birthing inside me. My slide show journey of our second birth really describes this whole process beautifully. See "Sarahsparkle1" at youtube and fine "Journey of our Second Birth" I made this a year and a half ago not knowing I was creating the story of my life.

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A new controller at the helm

As I sense my body today, the light seed identity is now driving the light ship. It has taken over the controls. The take over has been accomplished over these last 5 months of complete hermitage from the outside world but really in this last week has been the full take over. The self needed to have a full audience with the self to accomplish the transfer. At this point now, the light seed i believe has now become the governing agent at the center of the damaged seed. ( I don't know the science involved, just describing the sensations. I imagine it is in the nucleus re-writing the genetic code) Any scientists out there, I'd love to know the real physical correlations to this if you happened to know.)

For the last week or so, my conscious self has felt like my brain is being possessed and taken over by something else, this something else being like a quantumn engine of love,beauty and passion. In my body talk session these were the elements: the restoration of healed nerve supply from brain to general body, the energy of flight defined by the union of masculine and feminine and the reconnection of myself as source to an infinite number of satellites defined by the consciousness of the one breath was the session. Also the energy of Uranus defined by the consciousness of being a visionary and the consciousness of change.

The Bird as bridger of starseed and human

I am feeling the connection to my bird-tribe self. It feels like bird energy is merging into me. The bird seems to be serving as an intermediary bridging agent between the starseed genetic code and the damaged human code because before the bird started merging in me I felt like a star mermaid landed here with no bridge to the human race on Mar 18th. This was very scarey. i prayed for a means of connecting and integrating this new part and voila!! bird starts rising up in me enabling the connection of the two like a bridge. Thank you Bird~~~. It is quite wierd. Lisa says the progenitors of the human race are the birds, dolphins and cats. not the ones we see on earth, a much more advanced form of the species. So I guess I come from the bird line most predominantly or that is the connection that is being utilized most predominantly to accomplish this ascension.

Healing the one mass of confused broken circuitry

So, right now is about the restoration of optimal nerve supply from my brain to the whole of my body. i am fatigued and literally feel like I'm dying so much of the time. like I'm cloaked in death stuff, but life is trying to find its way back.I feel really ill these days. Existing is literally a huge enema as the christ seed asserts the return of it's identity within the war-torned and oh so weary, battle fatigued soldier. I sense that as the love returns to this land to a critical mass degree, i will start feeling good, and I will have energy for love making and dancing and as it comes fully online I will take to the road to pour this medicine over the Earth and provide the healed code so all may restore the pathways in their damaged primary seeds and be restored to their full glory. For now, I rest. preparing to rise and sing wherever needed.

Rising in love, rising in light. The Earth is Rising out of the light. ( from my song, Love's triumphant return)

The energy of flight, preparing the vehicle for take off

Hello all,

wow,with my 46th birthday just last Thursday, So much change is coming in!!! Uranus is sitting on my sun and the sweeping changes are moving through my life like a huge wind. This wind is coming up under my wings, and I feel it lifting me into flight in the form of my friend Alan king, a musician and singer of the heart who wants to tour with me and take me on the road to be his female lead, singing love songs and sweet spirit songs to light up the night and smooth this volatile transition energies of our Earth mama's labor and delivery. After 8 months of alchemical stewing in the house, I'm taking to the highway!!!!

I'm off to visit two dear friends on April 18th for our "Portal to Ascension" event in Seattle. See www.adronis.org:click on tour. We are in Portland, Oregon on the 17th, Deva Gordon and I will be providing a musical intro. Come on out and hear an amazing channel. Adronis is a beautiful, delightful being from Sirius. He is very entertaining and inspirational, providing guidance during this amazing times of transition. contact Healing Waters and Sacred Spaces in Portland to reserve your space.

Anyway, then on April 27th Alan and I will begin our road trip down to L.A. playing gigs in Eugene, Ashland or Mt. Shasta. Not sure which, Davis and then Laguna Niguel on May 1st. Alan loves to sing love songs, and so do I. We will be taking the book. "The Presence Process" with us because we will need to practice presence for sure, along the way. Just stopping to breathe and be and surrender into the moment is so important.

So, that's the news from pre-flight central. Healing and singing forever.

Sarah