Hello loves, Here is a Thanksgiving day explosion of love and gratitude and clarity about this journey to birth GOD into form at least from the perspective of this one, Sarah Hope Adams: This is a long one, but I feel it is very profound and worth the read. it is the culmination of my 27 years of defrosting hell to enable the embodiment of GOD.
As Unity is dawning in this land of mine, I have been saying good-bye to a curious architecture within me. Within this body vehicle, I have housed the architecture that has been a very efficient expression of the impediment to unity, a distorted architecture ingeniously created, whose purpose and function was to maintain deadness across the living-light-code body by blocking the joining of the masculine and feminine principle: i.e, proton/electron, electro/magnetic, and lightness/darkness. Basically this grid blocked God consciousness from expressing within matter, holding duality in place. Essentially this architecture succeeded in blocking the embodiment and actualization of self love.
Tuesday, November 23rd, this grid architecture was removed from my belly where it was extended over every dimensional awareness of myself like a massive foundation covering all of the land. Now, as this grid of impediment is gone, there is this amazing emptiness in my central column and this sense of extreme excitement...like something is coming to live in me. It is as if something so amazing is on the verge of taking up residence inside of me that I, the vehicle, am waiting with baited breath to see what it is. I have a very good idea what it is though because I have seen it and I have felt it. Even while this impeding architecture was fully lodged in me, ( i see myself as held in an underground prison but even while in this prison, certain very special lovers managed to break in to see me to fill my little cup with the golden elixir and provide me with the love that kept me alive all these years, sparking my knowing of what it was to receive and give love in a circuitry unimpeded. They could never stay with me, but they came, and each one gave me a portion of the map home to my own restoration until the final activator, coming with the great unity wave of the 10-10, lit the flame that would explode the prison bars and set me free forever, revealing the final portion of the inner map home to the embodiment of unity. This would be the culmination of footsteps on a journey that I began to traverse in this lifetime 27 years ago, Oct 26th 1983. Finally, at the joining with this beloved and the tasting of this level of unity, a fire would be lit so great, that the dark grid within me would be forced out.
The way this revealed itself to me was quite startling indeed, even as a veteran of psychic surgery and entity removal procedures. Only 14 days after leaving the activation, the first piece was ready to pop! I actually felt like my stomach was growing. I knew I wasn't pregnant, but eating was getting harder and harder as I felt very full of something. Well, when I got to my bodytalk session all was revealed! On November 22nd it came to full term in one day, ( As I said, my stomach had actually been looking like and feeling like it was pregnant.) I got to my session on Nov. 23rd, and there it was...a purple octopus entity. We pulled it out and when we got to the last tentacle, it was wrapped around a huge smokey quartz crystal that extended way down through many bodies, way beyond the physical. It felt like it was 8 or 9 ft. Anyway, it extended as a penetrating, stabbing blade all through my energy bodie's. As I arrived at the core of the blade, I could see it was penetrating through this lattice, webbing, grid thing locking it into place. (I forgot before we got to the octopus there was a black tree with a deep root ball on top of it all.) It took 2 solid hours of full concentration to evacuate the tree, the octopus, the crystal dagger and uproot the grid piece by piece until we got an all clear, marching pieces of the grid-glue, parasitic connectors like the pied piper leading it out of the maze of my innards. My practitioner and i hummed a pied piper tune. It was quite something. It was major surgery.
Wow, what a session. I realized immediately that this was what my teacher, Lisa Renee was talking about when she mentioned "The distorted Golden Eagle Grid upon which the divine masculine at the angelic consciousness level had been impaled and the means by which the feminine, proton aspect of creation was cut out of expression and the the monadic consciousness of the masculine principle held hostage at the 9th dimensional level. I knew "Oh my God this is my piece of the distorted Grid being removed, which would enable the embodiment of my full self, the sacred marriage, the healed and alive Rod and Staff principle of the consciousness of GOD." I marveled at how completely this distorted architecture was rooted over my belly and solar plexus and burped monstruous burps for 2 hours straight feeling as if I would vomit any second.
It was intense. So glad it is out of there!!! 27 years of shit kicking, hell transforming, warrior killing penetration and perseverance to stay alive under this mess and blow it off of me by amassing more and more light! Thank you to all who visited me while in prison, all the amazing beings who have helped me stay alive through it all. And thank you to my beloved husband for allowing the visitors to bring me the essential activations. And thank you mama for all the financial support. And thank you music for always being there even in the darkest of the dark when only aching and agony in body I could stroke guitar and cello and muster a sound from my throat. It's like shedding a full metal jacket, just like in alchemy where the GOD and the devil do battle to break the last strong hold of the essence of metal to reveal white powder elemental Gold, the healing elixer of all creation. What a trip!!!!!!!!
Anyway, what is coming to live in me now is superconductive love, that is the two sides of GOD, the giver and the receiver able to touch each other, able to meet and in their meeting is the seed of the living light code, starting as a tiny flame, then growing and growing and rising and rising. To attempt to describe it is difficult with words.
The time I felt it most in my life was August 9th 2005, the opening of the lion’s gate in 05. I was laying with a beloved who had his head upon my heart, and I felt myself becoming this Golden light. It was like I was Mother Mary holding baby jesus, like the divine mother of all, as if I was the energy of the giver fully embodied. Giving defined everything I was! I was the giver; and the sweet beloved on my heart, he was the quintessential receiver, the great receptacle, the archetypal representation of all receptivity in the universe. And then what happened was that ,as my hearts love began to pour into his head and the meeting of pure giver by receiver was consummated, his reception of me so completely as gift exploded into me an ecstasy here-to-fore unknown, and I became bigger. The impact of the first consummation growing me into a greater-capacity giver. And each successive consumation of giver and receiver packed a punch of higher frequency. This wave-dance of mutual joyful appreciation is the wave-dance of GOD itself. In this cultivation and growing of the ecstasy frequency, both sides of creation, the giver and the receiver, are expanded into the fullness of their quintessential identities rising in mutual joy in the meeting of each other. Love loving itself unimpeded, exploding itself into ever greater bliss.
And the stuff of separation consciousness, with all it's propensity for painful delusion and deception, delivers to us the final gift, the enabling of this joy-filled experience of the meeting of self as other and the love making glory of the two lifting each other ever higher in their passionate fire of rising glory. Ah, so maybe the long dark night was worth it to provide us with this exquisite embodiment from which to reunite with something so glorious, to forget so completely that upon the awakening, we would experience a return to love so sublime that it would sing every cell awake into dancing ecstasy from the inside out. And everywhere we would recognize this flame of God embodied and everywhere we would fall into and dance into this homecoming bliss. "Lover and beloved join as one as we open the door to the sun. You and i joined together form the portal to God." These are words to my ascension song. This is the mechanics of the growing of the zero point field. This most amazing experience of each, both giver and receiver achieving the fulfillment of their greatest longing while fulfilling the others highest longing in the same action: together, the hand and the mouth, the penis and the vagina, the spirit and the earth, the darkness and the light, the electro and the magnetic, re-membering God remembering itself, from out of 2 becoming 1...the field of love infinitely self fertilizing, self gifting, self initiating the ever magnification of joy at the dawning of it's own reunion.)
Anyway, that night August 9th 2005 the ecstasy grew and grew until everything, I mean everything dissolved into golden light, and the words were forming on my lips. "My GOD, there is only One! my heart bursting beyond the membrane of all separation, becoming a new species of heart, beyond human somehow. And I basked in the glory of the Goldeness. ( Later i learned that I was a high priestess in a past life and he had been my daughter. We had never been able to finish the final exchange between mother and infant in child birth, the placenta to brain blessing that occurs as the child is held to the mother's heart and it's brain receives the love based connections that bless it's life so fully in love.) This is the last gift that the placenta gives to the child and if it is not given, deep grief remains for both the child and the mother. I guess this unfinished karma being finished between us that night remains the most powerful map home to the building of the ecstasy frequency of my entire life. It was so exquisitely glorious. I wish for all of us that we may open ever more to the beloved in all its forms, opening the way for unity to dance upon the heart strings, the body strings of our grand and most beautifully sensual instrument. May we all open to the embodiment of every more joy and ever more unity.
And when I returned home to my Frank, he said, “Wow, honey, you have solved a wondering of mine. For, from the perspective of a photon of light, it knows only oneness." And then I realized that I had followed the ecstasy of giving and receiving, climbing a ladder all the way up to photonic consciousness. Is that a word? Photonic consciousness.
So on this Thanksgiving day of 2010 I give immense gratitude for both the distortion that has enabled my vehicle to house the full alchemical dance of darkness and light, allowing the embryo of duality to have a womb in which to come to full term, And I thank the dawning of the glorious mended circuitry within me, the seed of rejuvenation, immortality and the healing of all in creation which is but a twinkle in my eye at this moment, but will become embodied over these next months as it builds in me the vehicle of living light that can sing the song of awakening love and nurture this circuit of superconductive ecstasy until it proliferates this whole Earth and echoes out into the cosmos. And I thank the whole journey for this amazing human vehicle to be able to feel and see and touch and smell and hear and know and appreciate with every ounce of my existence the glory of God Consciousness as it births into a place so exquisitely different from itself in its full maturity. And of course it is all GOD manifesting this marvelous play so gratitude for GOD itself in all its forms!!!!
Love to all my beloveds!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Beautiful.
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