Coming Home to Self through the untangling of Romantic love Reversal grid intoxication

The gift of being in love

Coming Home to Self through the untangling of Romantic love Reversal grid intoxication,

In this treatise, I will attempt to explain how the seduction of  romantic love can be a major catalyst for achieving deeper soul union within the self.  As the pathway to the internal sun has been so badly damaged, romantic love provides a way for the self to reach out from within separation to itself through a soul uniting catalyst and give itself the map home to union.

Those who carry within them the seduction architecture have the power to magnetize the experience of being ones highest object of desire. This, if we use it consciously and with awareness, can be a great gift to our own evolution. If we get fixated on the messenger and fail to receive the message, it can be the cause of great suffering.  You see, this projection of desire for union is just that, a projection. In order to receive the gift, we must retrieve the projection and use it to call our own DNA back into sacred union!

Being in love, in a very real way, provides a scaffolding upon which to rehabilitate ones own DNA. Although the attachment and investment evoked from the emotional body can feel like bondage, there feels to be a higher purpose for this stretching process. This dynamic has the power to inspire, to draw out, to cause the impulse to become something more. In its immature form, manifesting as romantic love addiction, it can harness the attention of the masses to worship a charismatic leader and become enslaved and hypnotized to give all power of ones self away. In the case of romantic love, it can cause one to become a blithering idiot kissing the feet of the unattainable other, while completely abandoning the self.

However, in its mature form, this seduction archetype has the awesome power to actually return one to full empowerment within the self. It becomes the stronghold for the rope that enables the one in matter to pull itself up into resurrection of its DNA configured into its original self love!  It is Sophia buried deep within the earth reaching up and out to resurrect her own body from underneath the shackles of planetary miasm and veils of dead light. The love object causes a lassoing of a destination vibration upon which Sophia can tie the rope with which she rises to stand. And so this must be how being in love is a great gift!  

In my own personal life, if this projection is emanating from out of my core, the challenge is to heal the distortions within me that are currently blocking me from being able to drink from my own essence.

Is the one who carries this archetype not acting as a great surrogate conductor for the anatomy of vibrant life alive in bliss, like a magnificent orchestra in which all instruments are fully online and playing their highest role to uplift this marvelous human organism? This catalyst is somehow endowed with the power to cause the sleeping orchestra members to rise from sleep and come fully into action in their quintessential state of unified potential.

Are we not awaiting the critical mass light code activation that will awaken the orchestral instruments within us to begin to come alive as the great symphony of the achievement of self loving self within earth?

But, then, in their absence, the music falls. The players descend back into sleep. But not entirely, for now the genetic code has the information, the map back to that potential. And though it will take grief and trembling, and cracking open, the pathway will be found to anchor in that state of union within self.  And then that marvelous symphony in us rises to play all on its own! What a marvelous catalyst of evolution is romantic love! I have been through it 24 times. Each time it has delivered me to a greater state of integration. I bow at the feet of this amazing journey even through all of the tears and the heart wrenching emotional roller coaster, sometimes it has felt like too much for me to bear, to be given the glimpse of this field that is so fully alive while I have felt so disconnected inside. I have felt I would go mad! It is no wonder that my higher self has sent these catalysts of the unity field into my life fulfilling the need, the deep need of my soul to map the way home to this living field alive in joy and celebration. This glimpse of self that is loving itself is like a window opening to allow the penetration of the sun's glorious rays into an otherwise, rather shadow-filled room. 

The grid of Transposition: message to the self through the beloved

In you, I am given faith in the possibility of my becoming. The seduction sun of you is a gift, even though it is love externally focused, the false magnet of seduction is truly the only way for the DNA formed in separation configuration to receive a map and in a sense receive the imprint of soul union within. It does the job to show the DNA it's way home to its healed configuration. ( I know now that this is the union of the mitochondrial messenger RNA. As the anti life forces placed within us gender splitting technology to block the masculine side and feminine side of the RNA from connecting with each other with itself thus inhibiting the production of proteins that enable for the architecture that enables full soul embodiment.) So the "drug" of Romantic love or any other mind altering drug for that matter, has the potential to transport one beyond this gender splitting apparatus and into deep states of union, providing the map back to union. Full communication across the RNA is our divine birthright! And so I celebrate how my soul is activated by all of these love objects, calling me into rising because I was not able to possess each one of you not because I was.

So hail to the amazing power of Romantic Love!!!!

Touching the Infinite Graces of the Divine

Hello loves!

Wow, the graces of the higher heavens have been pouring into this vehicle, and I am so in love, so in awe of the beauty that is becoming available to us, mere mortals on Planet Earth in super universe 5. It appears all of this bush wacking is yielding some amazing portal openings to allow the circulatory system between the higher heavens and Earth to have connection. I don't know if these are the nadis of the etheric body that are opening more fully or what, but it feels like a partnership with the cosmos for sure that is yielding this great access. Sending blissful rainbow starlight love to shower every glorious crevice still in limitation or fear or separation. Mother's love is pouring in! They say, tomorrow, January 7th, there will be in influx of great waves of illumination! Let's just lay back and receive!!!

Identifying the imposter and re routing one’s self onto the organic timeline. Right here, Right Now, we are enough!

Hello loves. Wow, what a whirlwind of amazing revelations. I don’t know about you, but it’s been quite a ride from this outpost of consciousness.

The biggest thing I have to say is this:  "Put Peace of mind before all content of your mind! No matter how great your ideas may be, truly examine and identify what or who is fueling them because the negative entities are quite the tricksters. If given the keys to your vehicle, they will use the contents of your mind filled with your highest hopes and your most beautiful dreams, to drive you to destruction.  It is so ironic, that no matter how gorgeous the wall paper, in the hands of the wrong energies, you just might find yourself wall papering your way into the bowels of hell. Rainbows of exquisite pictures of heaven do no good at all on the inside of the crocodile's anus! I know this is a bit graphic, but believe me, this is a pretty good metaphor! I have rescued my innerchild from the grip of these torturing destructive fallen masculine energies. The image shown to me was policemen with metal spatulas smashing baby stars in the basement of Carl's Junior telling them "

"You must Try to do the Happy Dance for Mother Star!"

in a raging voice dripping with contemptfull, killing energy. This is the energy of the imposter grid. It is not our divine birthright. It was programmed into us by the forces of anti life. If this energy exists in your mind, it is time to evict it! You can't try to do the happy dance, you are the happy dance! Any way, the way this energy has manifested in me is with huge pressure to achieve enlisting my mind to unfold plans and projecting me into the future way beyond what is reasonable for the rhythm of my authentic life unfolding. 2 nights ago, everything came to a head, and my higher self managed to identify and rip out a siphoning clamp that was siphoning heart energy up into my head. I think this technology was installed in the neurons of the heart that bridge the head and the heart. Because the anti life forces cannot feed off of us when we are in fear, their goal is to get us out of our hearts where love and well being can hold us and siphon us up into a wind of mind activity and fear. That is where they feed. Well, no more. With these siphoning clamps off of my heart- mind bridge, I can actually control where I place my loyalties, and I choose sanity. I choose presence. I choose love for my child not to feed her to torturing hell hounds. Ahhh, it will take some practice, but now I can re route myself back into the arms of my love until that, once again, is my home resting point. I am receiving the information that up until the age of 7, my happy dancing heart was my home resting point. The hi-jack into mind torture software occured at age 7 when the clamps were installed in my heart. Up until age 7, I use to bounce up and down and hum to myself a happy sounding tune, at age 8, no bouncing. The happy dance was gone.

So, now, here, today, I say to these star smashing police men, "We cannot try to do the happy dance, 

        WE ARE THE HAPPY DANCE WHEN WE ARE      RESTING IN THE SWEET SEA OF OUR OWN LOVE!!!!

which occurs in the absence of efforting.

Anyway, so all this being shared, I am realizing that the starting point of our consciousness at any given moment determines the quality of what we will manifest. The assemblage point must be one of love, for the assemblage point determines the entire nature of the creation.  Only from peace of mind, can the creation of love unfold in love.  If the assemblage point, i.e. the baseline state of currently manifesting consciousness is largely in fear, no matter how beautiful the contents,

 and how amazingly healing the intention,  fear will infuse the creation. 

Therefore,  what must be put as the ultimate priority is the grounding and anchoring of one’s self into unwavering love. The inner child must be securely held in the arms of divine mother and father with a radiant and smiling heart and body infused with a baseline sense of “enoughness”   This enoughness feeling is not dependent on any achievement or status in the outside world or status on facebook. This enoughness is the authentic result of the deep connection with love and source God withn.

Only from this place of authentic connection, can we be instruments through which love based creation can manifest into this Earth for the upliftment of self and all beings!

On the night of January 2^nd I thought I was having a heart attack, but my deeper self reassured me I was ok. Deep in my sleep, I was when I awoke to these clamps in my etheric heart and the dark energy behind them. My higher self removed them at once. All day I remained in a stunned silent shock somewhere deep inside trying to make sense of what had happened. I only new that I needed to not think, not worry, just rest and that my heart was undergoing a major reset and healing. I took my flights home to Portland, and it was not until late last night when my feet touched down on Portland soil and I was back in the arms of my beloved Frank that I received the full download of just what had happened to me.

So for all who may be under hijack of this fear based energy. I send out to you this truth syrum that you may discover the imposter energy and evict it from your being, restoring your precious heart and soul to the timeline of divine love that is your birthright. And may we all know that we are enough by virtue of our very beingness independent of all achievements. We are shining stories infinitely worthy of the bountiful glory of the love that we are in all its many forms. So much love to all. May we soar into our most joyous destiny on the wings of none other than love!!!!!

The pain and ego death of disconnection from the outside world as re-direction into the self

Well, fellow travelers. After eating massive amounts of pumpkin pie and left-over Christmas dinner as a daily i.v. and watching old episodes of "Monk" until Tony Shaloub is all I see when I close my eyes, walking aimlessly along Venice beach watching the surfers, watching all the people who appear to be so connected hear to this Planet Earth journey while myself feeling like a stranger visiting this place not knowing why I am here at all or not being able to identify 1 thread that connects me to the identity of this place. What a surreal experience! But I just keep going through motions to see if anything can pull me into caring about being here, but nothing does and then, I get ready for bed, shake the quilt out, and I hear something that sounds like my glasses clicking or falling or something.
Startled, I realize my glasses are gone. I begin crying. I begin feeling the disconnect that has been pervading through everything, finally honestly feeling. Through my layringitis, I can't really cry with the tone of the voice that I know, but I do know my feelings, the feeling of sadness. Suddenly, I feel connected to the honesty of the disconnect and I cry and cry until the tears are finished. There are still no glasses, but I go to sleep and it is a sleep of deep re-memberment

The breath catches and I feel like I am suffocating, but I hear the doctor's voice telling me that I am 99% oxygen and my lungs are clear so I know it is an identity from another timeline trapped behind suppression architecture that does not allow good inter-face with this dimension, and I reach down deep into the place in my lungs that feels blocked and I attempt to breathe this disconnected identity up into my lungs in this 3rd dimensional body. It is so good to know what is really happening. Now, I get that I, in the 3d body, am the one who can breathe these parts from other timelines into these lungs to be part of this body and that that is my number one job in this life. At least that is the absolute priority for my soul at this time, not going forward to manifest or create or be a part of this 3d world, have a career, make an outward impact on this world, know myself as something or someone important who is contributing or connected here. NO, the number one priority is to re-claim all soul pieces home into this now self. And having no thing going forward in the top- side world seems to be the way this consciousness keeps itself available to the in-coming wounded.

And so it is that i find my clarity in this understanding of what is going on. It is not an easy time for the ego, continuing to grasp and claw at the outside world for anything to cling to, being met only by emptiness to fall back upon again and again, but it is this falling into emptiness that enables me to be the great and glorious mother's heart that calls back everything that has ever been a part. And I assume when we are finally all here, we will go forward in some way into this world to do all the things I am envisioning and give all that i came to give to humanity and the Earth. But for now, I remain in the receiving station for the incoming wounded, a sacred receiving room indeed.

  Deafeningly empty for the ego, 

but loud and clear for the deeper soul that lives to re-member all.

They say the new year will bring new movement. We shall see. 

Blessings to all my fellow travelers

Led into Gold

As I am emerging out of a deep dive and physical cleansing since Black Friday. I am seeing with clear vision so much as I cough and hack up and give back so much debris from inside this vessel. Yes, there has never been an answer outside to the glaring lack of this presence inside. The answer has always been to follow the call of this great upgrade and die to all that needs to leave this vessel, and upon it’s compost re-combine the sweetest most aligned substances of this architecture and raw materials to create a vessel that can carry the highest light into this world that that which sponsored me came to deliver to humanity. And so it is: All the lack has been like a prodding stick to push me forward into this deep process of un-doing and re combining and surrendering, like the metal that goes again and again into the oven with it’s mercury angel to be purified. The alchemy of evolution is quite astounding. I was trained as an ancient alchemist to turn lead into gold by manipulating the metal, smashing it into a poultice that could receive it’s angel of water vapor insemination, putting it into the fire so sex could happen, re-combining it into it’s upgraded form sequentially so that finally lead was rendered into Gold. And I made a typo there for a second, but what a marvelous typo it is because that is exactly it. Here on Earth even when we find ourselves as Lead because we are, indeed, on a Christed planet, we will eventually be led back to our Gold! I don’t know if I ever dreamed in that life time, that we , as humanity would someday literally undergo exactly what that metal did undergo to become elemental , white powder gold. Well, yes we are my friends. Birthing the Christ in time for Christmas 2014. So much love to all!

Final days of Incubation

Hello all,

just a short check in. So much seems to be at a stand still right now. I am finding myself held in a no action, no forward movement time. Hang in there. let the core survival fears and the lack imprints clear as you witness them from a nuetral observer stand point. On the other side of this, we will move forward with new wings! Love to all!!!

Achieving Access to locks holding in place the Inorganic Matrix

Hello loves,

Well, with the 12-12-14 gateway, we have achieved the penetration of the inorganic architecture blocking Divine Mother's access to her creation on Gaia. It is as if we have made it through the material of a dense condom that was blocking the holy seed of the living light from reaching the organic soul held hostage within matter. The metalic layers of death code have kept us out of our authentic identity for thousands of years. Now, as we throw the great radio transmitting the death frequency into the organic living dirt of the divine Earth heart of mother, all in physicality can return to its divine Christed Blue print as the founders intended for all children of the Earth.. Blessing to all. As the in-organic matrix purges, it can look pretty dark. Just hold fast to the great living mountain that is rising for us all. We are all rising together as returns Mother's living light to heal all of creation.