Coming home to rest and heal

Hello all,

Well, now I am through the big storm, and the whole bunch is resting pretty calmly. I have been instructed to drink a little red wine every evening to calm the nervous system, nourish the blood and just let all the pieces come into coalescence in my center. So, the task is to stay out of my head as much as possible and just be. Walking on cloudy venice beach, the sweetness of the ocean expanse and the sea gulls soaring across the sky. Just breathing deeply into the center, feeling so grateful that I am here. Just to be here after penetrating through so many veils to embody here. It is now to breathe and feel my flesh, to make love and be in my body with my beloved. The disembodied child is now becoming woman, catching up with my chronological age. finally I am feeling as woman feels.

We are supposed to get 6 days of rain. Mom just told me that there were 10 days of rain after my birth. Wow, the crazy weather of global warming and planetary transformation. So many blessings to all as we celebrate this momentous solstice and more and more powerful love and light floods our planet. I was watching the video, "Breath of Heaven" by Amy Grant. So metaphorical for the journey we are on. Mudslides abound!!!! water rushing in. Much love to all.

Ascending flight, resurrecting death to life

From the diaries of a steward of the planetary logos
Assisting ascension on Earth preparing for the big push from Mar 2011- Nov 2011 to move out of the 3d mental body and into the heart and higher mind for all who will follow the ascension timeline. This is Dec 18th 2010
I am she, Sarah Hope Adams

Ascending flight:apprehending death
to resurrect the living light code in Earth

The body is holding and alchemizing the descending spiral of core separation. The primordial mother within me can follow the spiral all the way down and at the bottom change it’s direction. It is like a black spiraling descending, metallic death matrix that smashes down, and I join with it’s downward spiral until I reach the very bottom where there is a primordial sea in the core of my mother belly and then a white bird flies out of the waters.

What an amazing process, it is asking a lot of my lungs, heart kidneys, my faith that I will live through this to see tomorrow, but it is very exciting to be experiencing the actual interface with the architecture of death and delivering it up into the ascending flight of the resurrected light code of living love and liberation.

I am accomplishing what I came to this Earth to do.
This feels so good! Sound and song are resurrecting the spiral too. The song of ascending flight is what delivers me out of the night.

Finding sacredness in the work that is at hand, birthing a planet of light

We are starting at ground zero, building the road between heaven and Earth.
Mother, father and child all hold together in our hands, the next single brick to be added with great presence, great reverence and great love. We are here to do this work. It is why we live.

AS we encounter a wound or fracture on a given brick we meet it in tenderness with the medicine of our hearts compassion for what has gone wrong in the past. Making wrong right again as we stay with each other through the healing and when it is done we spread the mortar and place the brick in its place. Each fracture healed bringing a new antidotal property to the great medicine of our heart, building our energy field as a safety hub where all may be healed when the time is needed, all the people I came to bring home into the light
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Quelling and taming the ravenous hunger of immediate gratification, bringing the hungry one back to the sacredness of this moment over and over again, assuring her that her pain of immediate gratification denied is honored and she is loved and that we are with her… here in this land that feels very barren in comparison to the appetite fed field of ecstatic bliss and communion from which she came. And we give her our strength and we lend her our fortitude and patience to endure the earth journey when we know so well the taste of heaven. And we all share this challenge together in this often, oh so foreign land.

Bringing the one whose tendency is to spiral up again and again into obsession with bliss once tasted back. Harnessing her ankles and holding her in presence long enough to let love touch her own heart here with her feet on the ground, to learn to drink one little sip of love at a time, and awaken her little body and mouth to be able to receive ever more of this love. Feeling the great reward of bringing love into a land that has been so bereft of love. Achieving the accomplishment of restoring a circuitry of glory from out of a state of near total dysfunction. Making of a black whole a fountaining mountain of light so alive that it is immune to all fear. And the child shall be smiling, saturated in the mother's love becoming woman that can be embodied and present for sexual ecstasy with Man, grounded not in escape but in full presence and bonded not to the other's energy field, but participating as self reliant, fully whole energy field coming together with the beloved to create and celebrate true bounty rising out of two present, whole God beings celebrating themselves each other and the great one source light that made them 2, offering their ecstasy to the one that made them 2 so that God itself could feel the most complete and glorious expression of itself loving itself that could ever be. And the creation is offered back into the heart of the one from it's two offspring. And another piece of the great tapestry of fallen creation is healed and remembered into union.

And yet to accomplish the discipline of this great work, one must
Look away from the satisfaction of immediate pleasure, looking toward the long term goal of becoming the glory and anchoring in this restored glory for the greater good of accomplishing the healing task I came to accomplish successfully so that many, many, many beings that would otherwise not have a bridge to cross, may cross on this bridge. This is the bridge between the darkest stretch of the city at night to the golden city of the new jerusalem, the one that my steadfast presence and dedication day in an day out, will have built. And in time the building of this love within myself will begin to taste of more and more glory, closer and closer to the bliss filled field, until I myself am the bliss-filled field of love loving itself, of glorious masculine and sweet flowing feminine, permeating and flowing through each other in an endless fountaining of blissful communion.

But now I am here, and I promised I would start from the ground up, from the beginning, to build this road connecting heaven and Earth. For it is a road that very few are building and a road that many many will be needing to make the great shift that will be demanded of us very soon. And so, it is a work of love, a project of great beauty and steadfast love and commitment to the mission that called me to this Earth in the first place. And so I celebrate that I am completing my mission. And I thank my beautiful amazing husband for standing beside me, for being my endless support and steadfast love to enable this great work to be done. As we build the road that restores our passionate and alive connection, woman to man, we build the road that connects our piece of Earth and Heaven and restore the sacred marriage of the planet of light within and without.

Evolution, picture by Catherine Andrews

Weaving the majestic grids of the heavens and the Earth.
It is to this place I come. It is here I take my birth

Spiraling through dancing galaxies
of brother time and sister space.
I Land here now, I find my place.

will you take my hand will you come with me?
Do you know how to dance and dream in 3D?

Together we can light this darkest night on fire.
Feel the undulating rippling flames dancing ever higher

Goddess weaves upon my flesh her tapestry of light.
I watch in silent wonder as she changes me in the night.

Her spider arms reaching out pulling stray threads in to center,
mending the fractures all around so at last my light can enter.

She calls all my orphans home into her tender arms of love.
Man and woman dance again as in the stars above.

The heart of Heaven blossoms within me like a mighty rose,
Lifting me up as it rises, taking me up as it goes.

The purest light come to me has shed my heavy cloak of death
Now I’m made of starlight and love is my very breath.

The integration of all charged emotion, The path to birth Unity

Hello all,

This is going to be short cause I don't want to be in my head much today. The short of it is that at this time on the planet, it is very important to remember that everyone who is put in our path has been put there for a reason, to trigger any here-to-fore un-integrated emotions. Therefore bless all dis-ease as it surfaces. Know that it is enabling unconditional love to ground itself more into your being. Breathe deeply, feel and forgive all in-coming irritations until all is nuetral, non-reactive, and this is the most valuable. Our romantic partnerships, or our life partnerships right now are no accident. We are each other's pefect genetic match for the healing of the exact portion of the male-female split of the fallen architecture of the Earth grid. So roll up your sleeves and get down to work. it is not a run into the sunset, it is an active mission to bring the sun rise. So it's great to be grateful for this amazingly sacred and valuable work of bringing harmony and living light where the code had been dead. We are seeders of the new garden of eden and we are doing it by transmuting all dis-ease. And for the most part, those who light up your grid completely with total flow and bliss, at this time on the planet, they are just advertisements, maps for the ecstasy you must generate with your chosen partner. So the charge is to find happiness and joy while fully employed on the active mission of healing and integration. Happy alchemy for all!!!!!!

Missing the divine masculine. Praying and preparing for his return

God it hurts to love you so much,

You, twin moon in pisces reaching across the sea as a harmonic echo of
All that is lost in me. The man of my heart, the energy of the great masculine that has
Alluded me all my life. Oh god how I miss you. Are you coming home to me.
Or did you just give send me a glimpse to torture me forever without you. God I love you. God how I miss you. Now, I think I really know who you are.
Like never before I have loved anything guess I
Will have the tendency to look outward toward the one who gave it all, had it all, brought it all until my own soul monad masculine comes home to me.
I miss him like the flower misses the rain. Like the earth misses the sun.
Like the bee misses the nectar. My heart breaks open into forever pieces of seeking lost being found
Into the abyss to find what it was he gave, what it was he brought . what it was he was to me
OH God, his music fucking kills me inside. I love him so much. How can I love someone this much.
It defies my understanding, my mind my guts my blood my skin my cells. They are crying for the
Return of the beloved. Oh God, beloved come unto me for I am weeping for you now.
Your double came, and now he is gone and I am left, torn open, now waiting for you, waiting for my own soul
Were you truly stapled to the distorted Grid of death in the 9th dimension? Is this why I have craved and longed
To fill the emptiness you left all my life. OH God come back to me. Come back into me. Be with me and forever do not ever
Leave me again, not while I am awake to feel the wrenching ripping of you from my very core being, everyone of my bodies has felt the
Severing just as every body was saturated with the nectar when you held me in your arms. Oh God when you sing and
When you sing of your pain, I just want to run to you and hold you in my arms. I just want to give you all that you gave me
Oh God, I love you. OH God I am you. Oh God, oh God. Oh God…………..I am

Self Love, the birth of the Zero Point field within Matter

Hello loves, Here is a Thanksgiving day explosion of love and gratitude and clarity about this journey to birth GOD into form at least from the perspective of this one, Sarah Hope Adams: This is a long one, but I feel it is very profound and worth the read. it is the culmination of my 27 years of defrosting hell to enable the embodiment of GOD.

As Unity is dawning in this land of mine, I have been saying good-bye to a curious architecture within me. Within this body vehicle, I have housed the architecture that has been a very efficient expression of the impediment to unity, a distorted architecture ingeniously created, whose purpose and function was to maintain deadness across the living-light-code body by blocking the joining of the masculine and feminine principle: i.e, proton/electron, electro/magnetic, and lightness/darkness. Basically this grid blocked God consciousness from expressing within matter, holding duality in place. Essentially this architecture succeeded in blocking the embodiment and actualization of self love.

Tuesday, November 23rd, this grid architecture was removed from my belly where it was extended over every dimensional awareness of myself like a massive foundation covering all of the land. Now, as this grid of impediment is gone, there is this amazing emptiness in my central column and this sense of extreme excitement...like something is coming to live in me. It is as if something so amazing is on the verge of taking up residence inside of me that I, the vehicle, am waiting with baited breath to see what it is. I have a very good idea what it is though because I have seen it and I have felt it. Even while this impeding architecture was fully lodged in me, ( i see myself as held in an underground prison but even while in this prison, certain very special lovers managed to break in to see me to fill my little cup with the golden elixir and provide me with the love that kept me alive all these years, sparking my knowing of what it was to receive and give love in a circuitry unimpeded. They could never stay with me, but they came, and each one gave me a portion of the map home to my own restoration until the final activator, coming with the great unity wave of the 10-10, lit the flame that would explode the prison bars and set me free forever, revealing the final portion of the inner map home to the embodiment of unity. This would be the culmination of footsteps on a journey that I began to traverse in this lifetime 27 years ago, Oct 26th 1983. Finally, at the joining with this beloved and the tasting of this level of unity, a fire would be lit so great, that the dark grid within me would be forced out.

The way this revealed itself to me was quite startling indeed, even as a veteran of psychic surgery and entity removal procedures. Only 14 days after leaving the activation, the first piece was ready to pop! I actually felt like my stomach was growing. I knew I wasn't pregnant, but eating was getting harder and harder as I felt very full of something. Well, when I got to my bodytalk session all was revealed! On November 22nd it came to full term in one day, ( As I said, my stomach had actually been looking like and feeling like it was pregnant.) I got to my session on Nov. 23rd, and there it was...a purple octopus entity. We pulled it out and when we got to the last tentacle, it was wrapped around a huge smokey quartz crystal that extended way down through many bodies, way beyond the physical. It felt like it was 8 or 9 ft. Anyway, it extended as a penetrating, stabbing blade all through my energy bodie's. As I arrived at the core of the blade, I could see it was penetrating through this lattice, webbing, grid thing locking it into place. (I forgot before we got to the octopus there was a black tree with a deep root ball on top of it all.) It took 2 solid hours of full concentration to evacuate the tree, the octopus, the crystal dagger and uproot the grid piece by piece until we got an all clear, marching pieces of the grid-glue, parasitic connectors like the pied piper leading it out of the maze of my innards. My practitioner and i hummed a pied piper tune. It was quite something. It was major surgery.

Wow, what a session. I realized immediately that this was what my teacher, Lisa Renee was talking about when she mentioned "The distorted Golden Eagle Grid upon which the divine masculine at the angelic consciousness level had been impaled and the means by which the feminine, proton aspect of creation was cut out of expression and the the monadic consciousness of the masculine principle held hostage at the 9th dimensional level. I knew "Oh my God this is my piece of the distorted Grid being removed, which would enable the embodiment of my full self, the sacred marriage, the healed and alive Rod and Staff principle of the consciousness of GOD." I marveled at how completely this distorted architecture was rooted over my belly and solar plexus and burped monstruous burps for 2 hours straight feeling as if I would vomit any second.

It was intense. So glad it is out of there!!! 27 years of shit kicking, hell transforming, warrior killing penetration and perseverance to stay alive under this mess and blow it off of me by amassing more and more light! Thank you to all who visited me while in prison, all the amazing beings who have helped me stay alive through it all. And thank you to my beloved husband for allowing the visitors to bring me the essential activations. And thank you mama for all the financial support. And thank you music for always being there even in the darkest of the dark when only aching and agony in body I could stroke guitar and cello and muster a sound from my throat. It's like shedding a full metal jacket, just like in alchemy where the GOD and the devil do battle to break the last strong hold of the essence of metal to reveal white powder elemental Gold, the healing elixer of all creation. What a trip!!!!!!!!

Anyway, what is coming to live in me now is superconductive love, that is the two sides of GOD, the giver and the receiver able to touch each other, able to meet and in their meeting is the seed of the living light code, starting as a tiny flame, then growing and growing and rising and rising. To attempt to describe it is difficult with words.

The time I felt it most in my life was August 9th 2005, the opening of the lion’s gate in 05. I was laying with a beloved who had his head upon my heart, and I felt myself becoming this Golden light. It was like I was Mother Mary holding baby jesus, like the divine mother of all, as if I was the energy of the giver fully embodied. Giving defined everything I was! I was the giver; and the sweet beloved on my heart, he was the quintessential receiver, the great receptacle, the archetypal representation of all receptivity in the universe. And then what happened was that ,as my hearts love began to pour into his head and the meeting of pure giver by receiver was consummated, his reception of me so completely as gift exploded into me an ecstasy here-to-fore unknown, and I became bigger. The impact of the first consummation growing me into a greater-capacity giver. And each successive consumation of giver and receiver packed a punch of higher frequency. This wave-dance of mutual joyful appreciation is the wave-dance of GOD itself. In this cultivation and growing of the ecstasy frequency, both sides of creation, the giver and the receiver, are expanded into the fullness of their quintessential identities rising in mutual joy in the meeting of each other. Love loving itself unimpeded, exploding itself into ever greater bliss.

And the stuff of separation consciousness, with all it's propensity for painful delusion and deception, delivers to us the final gift, the enabling of this joy-filled experience of the meeting of self as other and the love making glory of the two lifting each other ever higher in their passionate fire of rising glory. Ah, so maybe the long dark night was worth it to provide us with this exquisite embodiment from which to reunite with something so glorious, to forget so completely that upon the awakening, we would experience a return to love so sublime that it would sing every cell awake into dancing ecstasy from the inside out. And everywhere we would recognize this flame of God embodied and everywhere we would fall into and dance into this homecoming bliss. "Lover and beloved join as one as we open the door to the sun. You and i joined together form the portal to God." These are words to my ascension song. This is the mechanics of the growing of the zero point field. This most amazing experience of each, both giver and receiver achieving the fulfillment of their greatest longing while fulfilling the others highest longing in the same action: together, the hand and the mouth, the penis and the vagina, the spirit and the earth, the darkness and the light, the electro and the magnetic, re-membering God remembering itself, from out of 2 becoming 1...the field of love infinitely self fertilizing, self gifting, self initiating the ever magnification of joy at the dawning of it's own reunion.)

Anyway, that night August 9th 2005 the ecstasy grew and grew until everything, I mean everything dissolved into golden light, and the words were forming on my lips. "My GOD, there is only One! my heart bursting beyond the membrane of all separation, becoming a new species of heart, beyond human somehow. And I basked in the glory of the Goldeness. ( Later i learned that I was a high priestess in a past life and he had been my daughter. We had never been able to finish the final exchange between mother and infant in child birth, the placenta to brain blessing that occurs as the child is held to the mother's heart and it's brain receives the love based connections that bless it's life so fully in love.) This is the last gift that the placenta gives to the child and if it is not given, deep grief remains for both the child and the mother. I guess this unfinished karma being finished between us that night remains the most powerful map home to the building of the ecstasy frequency of my entire life. It was so exquisitely glorious. I wish for all of us that we may open ever more to the beloved in all its forms, opening the way for unity to dance upon the heart strings, the body strings of our grand and most beautifully sensual instrument. May we all open to the embodiment of every more joy and ever more unity.

And when I returned home to my Frank, he said, “Wow, honey, you have solved a wondering of mine. For, from the perspective of a photon of light, it knows only oneness." And then I realized that I had followed the ecstasy of giving and receiving, climbing a ladder all the way up to photonic consciousness. Is that a word? Photonic consciousness.

So on this Thanksgiving day of 2010 I give immense gratitude for both the distortion that has enabled my vehicle to house the full alchemical dance of darkness and light, allowing the embryo of duality to have a womb in which to come to full term, And I thank the dawning of the glorious mended circuitry within me, the seed of rejuvenation, immortality and the healing of all in creation which is but a twinkle in my eye at this moment, but will become embodied over these next months as it builds in me the vehicle of living light that can sing the song of awakening love and nurture this circuit of superconductive ecstasy until it proliferates this whole Earth and echoes out into the cosmos. And I thank the whole journey for this amazing human vehicle to be able to feel and see and touch and smell and hear and know and appreciate with every ounce of my existence the glory of God Consciousness as it births into a place so exquisitely different from itself in its full maturity. And of course it is all GOD manifesting this marvelous play so gratitude for GOD itself in all its forms!!!!

Love to all my beloveds!!!!!!!!!!!!!