The pain and ego death of disconnection from the outside world as re-direction into the self

Well, fellow travelers. After eating massive amounts of pumpkin pie and left-over Christmas dinner as a daily i.v. and watching old episodes of "Monk" until Tony Shaloub is all I see when I close my eyes, walking aimlessly along Venice beach watching the surfers, watching all the people who appear to be so connected hear to this Planet Earth journey while myself feeling like a stranger visiting this place not knowing why I am here at all or not being able to identify 1 thread that connects me to the identity of this place. What a surreal experience! But I just keep going through motions to see if anything can pull me into caring about being here, but nothing does and then, I get ready for bed, shake the quilt out, and I hear something that sounds like my glasses clicking or falling or something.
Startled, I realize my glasses are gone. I begin crying. I begin feeling the disconnect that has been pervading through everything, finally honestly feeling. Through my layringitis, I can't really cry with the tone of the voice that I know, but I do know my feelings, the feeling of sadness. Suddenly, I feel connected to the honesty of the disconnect and I cry and cry until the tears are finished. There are still no glasses, but I go to sleep and it is a sleep of deep re-memberment

The breath catches and I feel like I am suffocating, but I hear the doctor's voice telling me that I am 99% oxygen and my lungs are clear so I know it is an identity from another timeline trapped behind suppression architecture that does not allow good inter-face with this dimension, and I reach down deep into the place in my lungs that feels blocked and I attempt to breathe this disconnected identity up into my lungs in this 3rd dimensional body. It is so good to know what is really happening. Now, I get that I, in the 3d body, am the one who can breathe these parts from other timelines into these lungs to be part of this body and that that is my number one job in this life. At least that is the absolute priority for my soul at this time, not going forward to manifest or create or be a part of this 3d world, have a career, make an outward impact on this world, know myself as something or someone important who is contributing or connected here. NO, the number one priority is to re-claim all soul pieces home into this now self. And having no thing going forward in the top- side world seems to be the way this consciousness keeps itself available to the in-coming wounded.

And so it is that i find my clarity in this understanding of what is going on. It is not an easy time for the ego, continuing to grasp and claw at the outside world for anything to cling to, being met only by emptiness to fall back upon again and again, but it is this falling into emptiness that enables me to be the great and glorious mother's heart that calls back everything that has ever been a part. And I assume when we are finally all here, we will go forward in some way into this world to do all the things I am envisioning and give all that i came to give to humanity and the Earth. But for now, I remain in the receiving station for the incoming wounded, a sacred receiving room indeed.

  Deafeningly empty for the ego, 

but loud and clear for the deeper soul that lives to re-member all.

They say the new year will bring new movement. We shall see. 

Blessings to all my fellow travelers

Led into Gold

As I am emerging out of a deep dive and physical cleansing since Black Friday. I am seeing with clear vision so much as I cough and hack up and give back so much debris from inside this vessel. Yes, there has never been an answer outside to the glaring lack of this presence inside. The answer has always been to follow the call of this great upgrade and die to all that needs to leave this vessel, and upon it’s compost re-combine the sweetest most aligned substances of this architecture and raw materials to create a vessel that can carry the highest light into this world that that which sponsored me came to deliver to humanity. And so it is: All the lack has been like a prodding stick to push me forward into this deep process of un-doing and re combining and surrendering, like the metal that goes again and again into the oven with it’s mercury angel to be purified. The alchemy of evolution is quite astounding. I was trained as an ancient alchemist to turn lead into gold by manipulating the metal, smashing it into a poultice that could receive it’s angel of water vapor insemination, putting it into the fire so sex could happen, re-combining it into it’s upgraded form sequentially so that finally lead was rendered into Gold. And I made a typo there for a second, but what a marvelous typo it is because that is exactly it. Here on Earth even when we find ourselves as Lead because we are, indeed, on a Christed planet, we will eventually be led back to our Gold! I don’t know if I ever dreamed in that life time, that we , as humanity would someday literally undergo exactly what that metal did undergo to become elemental , white powder gold. Well, yes we are my friends. Birthing the Christ in time for Christmas 2014. So much love to all!

Final days of Incubation

Hello all,

just a short check in. So much seems to be at a stand still right now. I am finding myself held in a no action, no forward movement time. Hang in there. let the core survival fears and the lack imprints clear as you witness them from a nuetral observer stand point. On the other side of this, we will move forward with new wings! Love to all!!!

Achieving Access to locks holding in place the Inorganic Matrix

Hello loves,

Well, with the 12-12-14 gateway, we have achieved the penetration of the inorganic architecture blocking Divine Mother's access to her creation on Gaia. It is as if we have made it through the material of a dense condom that was blocking the holy seed of the living light from reaching the organic soul held hostage within matter. The metalic layers of death code have kept us out of our authentic identity for thousands of years. Now, as we throw the great radio transmitting the death frequency into the organic living dirt of the divine Earth heart of mother, all in physicality can return to its divine Christed Blue print as the founders intended for all children of the Earth.. Blessing to all. As the in-organic matrix purges, it can look pretty dark. Just hold fast to the great living mountain that is rising for us all. We are all rising together as returns Mother's living light to heal all of creation.

Important information for warriors of light In preparation for the next evolutionary Cycle beginning now through July 15th: Training for successful execution of redemption contracts

Prepare for advanced polarity integration

Beloved Community

Please only take in what resonates with you.

There are many different types of contracts being played out right now on this planet.

The particular contract that this notification addresses is only happening to some. These are the ones for whom this notice is written.You will know if this is you if my words bring you relief. If it all sounds totally nuts and you have no resonance, do not read on.

So, onward with this update. O.K. here goes! This information may seem very far out, but it has come to me from a source that I very much trust, my teacher, Lisa Renee. We are in powerful times and crucial times where we are literally changing both the past and the future in order to end the power of the dark forces on this planet. One of the service missions currently underway whose intent is to do just this, is the process of reclamation and rehabilitation of past and future selves. This reclamation is being made possible by a heightened access to all time fields. Amazingly, it is now becoming possible to reclaim alternate selves from out of past and future timelines and rehabilitate them through our currently manifesting selves in this now time. And indeed, some of us have volunteered for this mission.

We could liken this to being a wide receiver on a football team, running toward the end zone. The genetically damaged self is thrown at us and enters our energy field, at which time the dark forces attempt an interception. During this period where the genetically damaged self is returning to us but not yet safely encased within the boundary of our guardianship, the dark forces attack intensely to take the self back under their own influence, almost like the rival team attempting to repossess the ball that it had before. You see, especially in these future fallen timelines, this self was under complete possession and jurisdiction of the anti- life forces and understandably, the last thing that these forces want is for their enslaved being to be rehabilitated in the Christed sovereign architecture of the human heart.

Practically speaking, what this means is that you may all of a sudden find yourself under siege of descending thought forms,( i.e. thought forms of intense despair and fear) these selves are coming back to us from horrific timelines and do not even know anything but death and fear so it is important that we don’t let ourselves be taken into their fear. It is our job to lift them up into our love, to pull them out of mental enslavement by fear and into the heart of organic love and life. If we are armed with this knowledge of what is happening, we can quickly take control and begin rehabilitation of our damaged past and future genetics without letting them take us into their hellish realm.

This is a powerful time of reclamation. As we return these fearful identities to love, we erase the future timeline with an override from this now moment! This identity is then reclaimed by the Christ and can never be controlled by the anti life forces again.The dark forces do not want this at all so they will attack tooth and nail to prevent your now self from taking it’s full power and pulling the identity into you for rehabilitation. This intermediate period before the fearful thought forms have turned in onto themselves and began the change of direction from descending to ascending thought form, is definitely the “danger Zone” but armed with the knowledge I am giving here, I'm hoping it will give you an edge to know what you are dealing with and what the task at hand is and that you are not going crazy or dying, but you are engaged in an amazing rehabilitation of yourself that will affect not only you but the destiny of the planet. The period after this self harnessing of the descending thought forms is followed by a quiet space and then a very real feeling that you are pregnant for the new self is merging with the old self and a new life form has now been conceived. i am in this stage right now. The last week of May was the week of initiation for me.

I know this sounds like a science fiction movie, but this is what is happening and if you know it, you will be much better able to meet the challenge and execute the reclamation.  No one can really help you once the interface is underway. Really, you are 100% in charge of haulting the momentum of your descending thought forms and redirecting them into ascending thought forms. This is the task at hand. I would be happy to work with anyone who contact me to assist in this process as an energy healer. Many of us are going through this side by side. Blessings as we face this next level of initiation and thank you so much for volunteering in this sacred process of genetic repair and reclamation of our humanity as  a species of ascending love. May peace and love and organic living light prevail on Earth!

June 3^rd, 8^th wedding Anniversary, birthing the blood of love

Today is my 8^th wedding anniversary with my beloved Frank, and amazing union that has taken us through the bowels of duality, delivering us into the double diamond sun body of Christed sacred marriage. Thank you honey for being my partner in this great symphony of becoming. Everyday in every way, my love for you grows and grows. I am waiting in sweet anticipation for all the blooms yet to blossom on our endlessly flowering tree!

Re writing the blood into the blood of love, lifting the jailing architecture that imprisons light and letting light fly free like a million butterflies flying out of the black sun or a million platinum silver, gold doves bursting free out of the cauldron of dualities boiling brew of toil and trouble. Setting myself free from illuminati shackles of death and fear, rising to soar as the blossoming rose that is my divine birth right!

Rising in my rainbow glory as the queen of heaven to birth the double diamond sun body christed matrix within the womb cauldron of duality! Yes, Yes, yes!!!!

And today I sing with 9 children songs of  love and joy and celebration. Children who are answering the call of my heart to join together and sing the song of joy to uplift each and every human heart into the dawn of Love for all

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Information about upcoming class

The Return to our Divine Humanity, 

a 6 week class to provide support and guidance during this time of great transition and transformation.

The information of the class will be brought forward in the context of music, visual art and guided visualization journeys. We will explore the power of song affirmation to help us anchor in the templates of self love and unity.

Here is a video with more information! 

2014 is the year we truly begin to blossom back into our multi-dimensional selves. This entails multiple shifts at the cellular level affecting our mental, physical and emotional selves greatly. My intention is to provide you with helpful information as well as practical tools to assist during this time while creating a safe and loving container for the blossoming of community. 

This year especially, there is a massive re-encryption or re-writing of our beings that is going on at a cellular level, it is the shift out of the “false king of tyranny” or duality matrix into the “Solar sacred marriage” or unity matrix. This also corresponds to an upgrade from a carbon based biology to a silicate based biology. This radical change involves many facets of our beings and a deep surrendering of egoic desires to the agenda of the higher mind and heart. It is a time of death and rebirth, dismantling long held beliefs in order to reclaim our divine heritage.

In this 6 week class we will receive a basic overview of  the evolutionary changes underway at this time, becoming familiar with our 12 tree grid that is our divine human blueprint. We will explore the balancing of masculine and feminine energies within ourselves and anchor in the living template of the sacred marriage of our own self love. We will learn tools and techniques for embracing and allowing space for "negative" emotions to be released. We will explore the power of song and chant to help us anchor in states of equanimity and peace as well as seeding the living light templates within us.  Each class will include guided imagery healing journey, inter-active play and group discussion. I hope you can join us for this beautiful  journey. Classes will be held Wednesday evenings from 7:00 P.M. – 9:30 P.M.  running from May 14^{th -}  June 18^th with an introductory evening on May 7^th. Cost is $88 for the 6 week session. Early registration discount by May 1^st just $75.  Call Sarah at 503-679-1399 to register. Informational video coming soon!

Pull off of duality womb wall and implant into Womb of Unity February 3rd,, 2014

Hello space travelers and Earth Stewards of the family of light

Well, it has bee quite a wild ride as of late, and here is the video to go with these times!!!!