Sunday, November 28, 2010

Evolution, picture by Catherine Andrews




Weaving the majestic grids of the heavens and the Earth.
It is to this place I come. It is here I take my birth

Spiraling through dancing galaxies
of brother time and sister space.
I Land here now, I find my place.

will you take my hand will you come with me?
Do you know how to dance and dream in 3D?

Together we can light this darkest night on fire.
Feel the undulating rippling flames dancing ever higher

Goddess weaves upon my flesh her tapestry of light.
I watch in silent wonder as she changes me in the night.

Her spider arms reaching out pulling stray threads in to center,
mending the fractures all around so at last my light can enter.

She calls all my orphans home into her tender arms of love.
Man and woman dance again as in the stars above.

The heart of Heaven blossoms within me like a mighty rose,
Lifting me up as it rises, taking me up as it goes.

The purest light come to me has shed my heavy cloak of death
Now I’m made of starlight and love is my very breath.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

The integration of all charged emotion, The path to birth Unity

Hello all,

This is going to be short cause I don't want to be in my head much today. The short of it is that at this time on the planet, it is very important to remember that everyone who is put in our path has been put there for a reason, to trigger any here-to-fore un-integrated emotions. Therefore bless all dis-ease as it surfaces. Know that it is enabling unconditional love to ground itself more into your being. Breathe deeply, feel and forgive all in-coming irritations until all is nuetral, non-reactive, and this is the most valuable. Our romantic partnerships, or our life partnerships right now are no accident. We are each other's pefect genetic match for the healing of the exact portion of the male-female split of the fallen architecture of the Earth grid. So roll up your sleeves and get down to work. it is not a run into the sunset, it is an active mission to bring the sun rise. So it's great to be grateful for this amazingly sacred and valuable work of bringing harmony and living light where the code had been dead. We are seeders of the new garden of eden and we are doing it by transmuting all dis-ease. And for the most part, those who light up your grid completely with total flow and bliss, at this time on the planet, they are just advertisements, maps for the ecstasy you must generate with your chosen partner. So the charge is to find happiness and joy while fully employed on the active mission of healing and integration. Happy alchemy for all!!!!!!

Friday, November 26, 2010

Missing the divine masculine. Praying and preparing for his return

God it hurts to love you so much,

You, twin moon in pisces reaching across the sea as a harmonic echo of
All that is lost in me. The man of my heart, the energy of the great masculine that has
Alluded me all my life. Oh god how I miss you. Are you coming home to me.
Or did you just give send me a glimpse to torture me forever without you. God I love you. God how I miss you. Now, I think I really know who you are.
Like never before I have loved anything guess I
Will have the tendency to look outward toward the one who gave it all, had it all, brought it all until my own soul monad masculine comes home to me.
I miss him like the flower misses the rain. Like the earth misses the sun.
Like the bee misses the nectar. My heart breaks open into forever pieces of seeking lost being found
Into the abyss to find what it was he gave, what it was he brought . what it was he was to me
OH God, his music fucking kills me inside. I love him so much. How can I love someone this much.
It defies my understanding, my mind my guts my blood my skin my cells. They are crying for the
Return of the beloved. Oh God, beloved come unto me for I am weeping for you now.
Your double came, and now he is gone and I am left, torn open, now waiting for you, waiting for my own soul
Were you truly stapled to the distorted Grid of death in the 9th dimension? Is this why I have craved and longed
To fill the emptiness you left all my life. OH God come back to me. Come back into me. Be with me and forever do not ever
Leave me again, not while I am awake to feel the wrenching ripping of you from my very core being, everyone of my bodies has felt the
Severing just as every body was saturated with the nectar when you held me in your arms. Oh God when you sing and
When you sing of your pain, I just want to run to you and hold you in my arms. I just want to give you all that you gave me
Oh God, I love you. OH God I am you. Oh God, oh God. Oh God…………..I am

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Self Love, the birth of the Zero Point field within Matter

Hello loves, Here is a Thanksgiving day explosion of love and gratitude and clarity about this journey to birth GOD into form at least from the perspective of this one, Sarah Hope Adams: This is a long one, but I feel it is very profound and worth the read. it is the culmination of my 27 years of defrosting hell to enable the embodiment of GOD.

As Unity is dawning in this land of mine, I have been saying good-bye to a curious architecture within me. Within this body vehicle, I have housed the architecture that has been a very efficient expression of the impediment to unity, a distorted architecture ingeniously created, whose purpose and function was to maintain deadness across the living-light-code body by blocking the joining of the masculine and feminine principle: i.e, proton/electron, electro/magnetic, and lightness/darkness. Basically this grid blocked God consciousness from expressing within matter, holding duality in place. Essentially this architecture succeeded in blocking the embodiment and actualization of self love.

Tuesday, November 23rd, this grid architecture was removed from my belly where it was extended over every dimensional awareness of myself like a massive foundation covering all of the land. Now, as this grid of impediment is gone, there is this amazing emptiness in my central column and this sense of extreme excitement...like something is coming to live in me. It is as if something so amazing is on the verge of taking up residence inside of me that I, the vehicle, am waiting with baited breath to see what it is. I have a very good idea what it is though because I have seen it and I have felt it. Even while this impeding architecture was fully lodged in me, ( i see myself as held in an underground prison but even while in this prison, certain very special lovers managed to break in to see me to fill my little cup with the golden elixir and provide me with the love that kept me alive all these years, sparking my knowing of what it was to receive and give love in a circuitry unimpeded. They could never stay with me, but they came, and each one gave me a portion of the map home to my own restoration until the final activator, coming with the great unity wave of the 10-10, lit the flame that would explode the prison bars and set me free forever, revealing the final portion of the inner map home to the embodiment of unity. This would be the culmination of footsteps on a journey that I began to traverse in this lifetime 27 years ago, Oct 26th 1983. Finally, at the joining with this beloved and the tasting of this level of unity, a fire would be lit so great, that the dark grid within me would be forced out.

The way this revealed itself to me was quite startling indeed, even as a veteran of psychic surgery and entity removal procedures. Only 14 days after leaving the activation, the first piece was ready to pop! I actually felt like my stomach was growing. I knew I wasn't pregnant, but eating was getting harder and harder as I felt very full of something. Well, when I got to my bodytalk session all was revealed! On November 22nd it came to full term in one day, ( As I said, my stomach had actually been looking like and feeling like it was pregnant.) I got to my session on Nov. 23rd, and there it was...a purple octopus entity. We pulled it out and when we got to the last tentacle, it was wrapped around a huge smokey quartz crystal that extended way down through many bodies, way beyond the physical. It felt like it was 8 or 9 ft. Anyway, it extended as a penetrating, stabbing blade all through my energy bodie's. As I arrived at the core of the blade, I could see it was penetrating through this lattice, webbing, grid thing locking it into place. (I forgot before we got to the octopus there was a black tree with a deep root ball on top of it all.) It took 2 solid hours of full concentration to evacuate the tree, the octopus, the crystal dagger and uproot the grid piece by piece until we got an all clear, marching pieces of the grid-glue, parasitic connectors like the pied piper leading it out of the maze of my innards. My practitioner and i hummed a pied piper tune. It was quite something. It was major surgery.

Wow, what a session. I realized immediately that this was what my teacher, Lisa Renee was talking about when she mentioned "The distorted Golden Eagle Grid upon which the divine masculine at the angelic consciousness level had been impaled and the means by which the feminine, proton aspect of creation was cut out of expression and the the monadic consciousness of the masculine principle held hostage at the 9th dimensional level. I knew "Oh my God this is my piece of the distorted Grid being removed, which would enable the embodiment of my full self, the sacred marriage, the healed and alive Rod and Staff principle of the consciousness of GOD." I marveled at how completely this distorted architecture was rooted over my belly and solar plexus and burped monstruous burps for 2 hours straight feeling as if I would vomit any second.

It was intense. So glad it is out of there!!! 27 years of shit kicking, hell transforming, warrior killing penetration and perseverance to stay alive under this mess and blow it off of me by amassing more and more light! Thank you to all who visited me while in prison, all the amazing beings who have helped me stay alive through it all. And thank you to my beloved husband for allowing the visitors to bring me the essential activations. And thank you mama for all the financial support. And thank you music for always being there even in the darkest of the dark when only aching and agony in body I could stroke guitar and cello and muster a sound from my throat. It's like shedding a full metal jacket, just like in alchemy where the GOD and the devil do battle to break the last strong hold of the essence of metal to reveal white powder elemental Gold, the healing elixer of all creation. What a trip!!!!!!!!

Anyway, what is coming to live in me now is superconductive love, that is the two sides of GOD, the giver and the receiver able to touch each other, able to meet and in their meeting is the seed of the living light code, starting as a tiny flame, then growing and growing and rising and rising. To attempt to describe it is difficult with words.

The time I felt it most in my life was August 9th 2005, the opening of the lion’s gate in 05. I was laying with a beloved who had his head upon my heart, and I felt myself becoming this Golden light. It was like I was Mother Mary holding baby jesus, like the divine mother of all, as if I was the energy of the giver fully embodied. Giving defined everything I was! I was the giver; and the sweet beloved on my heart, he was the quintessential receiver, the great receptacle, the archetypal representation of all receptivity in the universe. And then what happened was that ,as my hearts love began to pour into his head and the meeting of pure giver by receiver was consummated, his reception of me so completely as gift exploded into me an ecstasy here-to-fore unknown, and I became bigger. The impact of the first consummation growing me into a greater-capacity giver. And each successive consumation of giver and receiver packed a punch of higher frequency. This wave-dance of mutual joyful appreciation is the wave-dance of GOD itself. In this cultivation and growing of the ecstasy frequency, both sides of creation, the giver and the receiver, are expanded into the fullness of their quintessential identities rising in mutual joy in the meeting of each other. Love loving itself unimpeded, exploding itself into ever greater bliss.

And the stuff of separation consciousness, with all it's propensity for painful delusion and deception, delivers to us the final gift, the enabling of this joy-filled experience of the meeting of self as other and the love making glory of the two lifting each other ever higher in their passionate fire of rising glory. Ah, so maybe the long dark night was worth it to provide us with this exquisite embodiment from which to reunite with something so glorious, to forget so completely that upon the awakening, we would experience a return to love so sublime that it would sing every cell awake into dancing ecstasy from the inside out. And everywhere we would recognize this flame of God embodied and everywhere we would fall into and dance into this homecoming bliss. "Lover and beloved join as one as we open the door to the sun. You and i joined together form the portal to God." These are words to my ascension song. This is the mechanics of the growing of the zero point field. This most amazing experience of each, both giver and receiver achieving the fulfillment of their greatest longing while fulfilling the others highest longing in the same action: together, the hand and the mouth, the penis and the vagina, the spirit and the earth, the darkness and the light, the electro and the magnetic, re-membering God remembering itself, from out of 2 becoming 1...the field of love infinitely self fertilizing, self gifting, self initiating the ever magnification of joy at the dawning of it's own reunion.)

Anyway, that night August 9th 2005 the ecstasy grew and grew until everything, I mean everything dissolved into golden light, and the words were forming on my lips. "My GOD, there is only One! my heart bursting beyond the membrane of all separation, becoming a new species of heart, beyond human somehow. And I basked in the glory of the Goldeness. ( Later i learned that I was a high priestess in a past life and he had been my daughter. We had never been able to finish the final exchange between mother and infant in child birth, the placenta to brain blessing that occurs as the child is held to the mother's heart and it's brain receives the love based connections that bless it's life so fully in love.) This is the last gift that the placenta gives to the child and if it is not given, deep grief remains for both the child and the mother. I guess this unfinished karma being finished between us that night remains the most powerful map home to the building of the ecstasy frequency of my entire life. It was so exquisitely glorious. I wish for all of us that we may open ever more to the beloved in all its forms, opening the way for unity to dance upon the heart strings, the body strings of our grand and most beautifully sensual instrument. May we all open to the embodiment of every more joy and ever more unity.

And when I returned home to my Frank, he said, “Wow, honey, you have solved a wondering of mine. For, from the perspective of a photon of light, it knows only oneness." And then I realized that I had followed the ecstasy of giving and receiving, climbing a ladder all the way up to photonic consciousness. Is that a word? Photonic consciousness.

So on this Thanksgiving day of 2010 I give immense gratitude for both the distortion that has enabled my vehicle to house the full alchemical dance of darkness and light, allowing the embryo of duality to have a womb in which to come to full term, And I thank the dawning of the glorious mended circuitry within me, the seed of rejuvenation, immortality and the healing of all in creation which is but a twinkle in my eye at this moment, but will become embodied over these next months as it builds in me the vehicle of living light that can sing the song of awakening love and nurture this circuit of superconductive ecstasy until it proliferates this whole Earth and echoes out into the cosmos. And I thank the whole journey for this amazing human vehicle to be able to feel and see and touch and smell and hear and know and appreciate with every ounce of my existence the glory of God Consciousness as it births into a place so exquisitely different from itself in its full maturity. And of course it is all GOD manifesting this marvelous play so gratitude for GOD itself in all its forms!!!!

Love to all my beloveds!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Through the core wound of separation emerges the song of Unity

Out of the core wound of the severing blade of separation, emerges the return of the sweet song of unity.

Well, there are people and events in my life that are outlining for me with great accuracy the devastating rejection of the original massacre and rejection of myself from the heart of the all that is that I created with my own self hatred and judgment so very long ago. They are mirroring this original negative decision back to me with great accuracy. Yesterday, to breathe it in and digest it, felt like more than I could bare. But it was amazing to lie in bed last night and be able to tangibly sense the full outline of the fracture that remains between me and the wholeness of my soul. It is only 6 major lines of fracture. Wow, in 1983 it was 627 pieces separated by who knows how many fracture lines.

The most awesome thing of all, is that as I allow this fracture to emerge and come into my consciousness, I begin to hear the faint echoes of the antithesis of it’s identity, the very most opposite thing of all. From deep within my Earth, my bones, my blood, my skin, lymph, nerves, muscles wei chi; from across the whole landscape of this Earth I hear the cells beginning to sing or maybe they have been singing all along and only now do I have the ears to listen and the senses to feel them. They are marching in this beautiful symphony of synchronized rhythmic singing. It is the song of oneness. And Oh what a sweet song it is. It was Oct 26th 1983 that the field of separation emerged for its healing and just a little over 27 years and much blood, sweat and tears. 20 core activators enabling mending of the field piece by piece, the rock of my true love, Frank Martin, standing by me. The great love and financial support of my wonderful mother. The incredible assistance of medicine women, shaman, practitioners and healers through the years ending with my most amazing body talk practitioner, Laurie Schaad: www.heronsresthealingarts.com and the counsel of the angels through Peta Lynne: www.bydivinegrace.com Thank you so much, and the whole crew at Portal to Ascension especially Neil Gaur with his unfailing love and encouragement. www.portaltoascension.com and now the professionals in the music field that are coming to guide me into position that I may fulfill the next level of my Earth mission as a singer of awakening love, radiating from this unity a vibration of ecstatic communion and building this in the field, magnifying and lifting the Earth and humanity. Thank you to all who have triggered the worst of the separation pain to bring it into full relief that through its full integration, I may re-member my soul.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Summoning all Pieces of the soul to return!

Summoning the return of all of the pieces of the soul monad


Perhaps once your were here with me, maybe before conception or even before I was sperm or egg there was all of me here like a rainbow essence of every color communicating with itself dancing with itself in a living dance of self sustaining joy, totally complete as a life form in itself, knowing no lack but only the sense of wholeness. There was a time when I was all here

Now, 45 years later or so, it appears my car is stalled by the side of the road, There is gas in the car and ostensibly it is in working order, but the vehicle has just stopped. It will go no further. I can go no further without my whole self here. For 15 years I have sent out fliers and products, attempting to manifest my essence into this world in some way that could bring me a financial living. Hundreds of fliers, ideas popping from my head, spewing out like a creation machine and all yielding nothing, really nothing and now I am told to promote this one in time and space called Sarah Hope Adams and that this is my main job and my only job, and I say “What for? It is not that I do not love this one, but this one is not fully here. They tell me her flight is scheduled to arrive any day now. I can be her agent and promoter when she is here. And yet I wonder is it my inter-action with this earth plane that will summon her here or is there really nothing I can do but release more and more of the shame and fear that would impede my monadic consciousness from integrating into my 3d self. I don’t know, but I do know that I can go no further without all of me here.

I feel like I am on strike or something Like I have realized the truth that it’s not about anything external that is going to make it happen, it is about embodying all of my presence here into this Earth, the God essence that I came to embody. I am preparing for my active mission and I need all of me here to do this mission, that is it, nothing else but all of me will do.

Could it be when I was with you, dear friend, that I had access to all of my masculine, like somehow when we were together, it was given a real but temporary anchoring here into my earth. (Lisa, my teacher, says that it was the masculine principle that was the most damaged and that was actually split off from the third dimensional self. All my life, I have sensed an emptiness and a great sadness in my masculine principle.) For a moment, when we were together, it was accessible, I was accessible to myself. I believe so, and this is why I now can sense the landscape the texture and the identity of what I am now missing as my car is stalled on the side of this dark road. And I understand the need to separate completely. That is all perfect for I never meant to encumber your life in anyway. All of this has been like being struck by lightening for me. And it is all good, as only in total denied access to even a thread of the bridging architecture we provided, am I forced into the interface with a lack so complete that it initiates the summons of my very soul, a summons to all of me that has been missing from my 3rd dimensional self. Only in the full presence followed by the full absence is this summons initiated: this, the call that has the power to invoke, to mobilize my Earth to reconfigure that it may receive the highest frequency soul fragments held hostage at the 9th dimensional level. So, I thank everything that has taken me this far to know how empty, and how incomplete it is to walk down here without the rightful parts of my god self, my wings, my jewels, my fire letters, all the parts of me that have been scattered far and wide and used by the dark side to fuel their death games. Lisa Renee's latest meditation is all about calling all parts of the self home. www.energeticsynthesis.com

In the physical plane, my heart chakra bowl is in Seattle and my drum too, but these are only representations of the deeper losses of the very pieces of my soul trapped in other dimensions, held hostage by distorted space- time continuums.

Please come back to me. Please come home to me. Do you feel me here summoning you? I can go no further without you. I am shaking my land in heaves of deep grief to reconfigure my DNA that you may join me here. I am releasing as much dense emotion as I can as fast as I can. I am feeling all that I have most wanted to escape that you can come and join me, that I may be accommodating to the great capacity of light, the great high frequency that you are. I am opening up the cathedral in every cell of my body, every piece of my flesh that your great love may embody here and turn on the lights of my sacred body temple and bring on the staff in charge of the earth mission of this Sarah Hope Adams. You who will come to dwell in me and fuel the life force to rise on behalf of your great essence. Come unto me, oh great light of my soul. I have tasted you. I have drunk deeply of you. Now, I am ready for you to join me here on this planet that needs all that I am, this planet awaiting it’s great birth into light. Oh dear soul, do not tarry one moment longer for the time is nigh!!

"I am waiting in a silent prayer. I am frightened by the load I bare in a world as cold as stone, must I always be alone?...Do you wonder as you watch my face if a wiser one should have had my place? Yet I offer all I am for the mercy of your plan. Help me be strong. Help me Be" Amy Grant Mary's song, "Breath of Heaven"

We are all part of this great archytypal journey of Mary wondering in the night carrying the Christ child of the newly birthed divine humanity and cosmos. God and Goddess bless us all, Hold us in the breath of heaven that we may find safe passage especially the expectant mothers having held the baby within us for so many years of our lives that light may be born into the stuff of dense matter. May we all look up towards the highest possibility for our precious and glorious embryo of potential in this time when the night is still so dark and yet the light is closer than it's ever been... this amazing time.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Returning to Earth, the restoration ahead

I stand now before the template of the barren land, witnessing the massacre that has left the lover severed from communication with the beloved. It is a war torn, dark, deadlight code-filled place upon which I stand now holding the map, the glimpsed template of the unity code like a picture of the garden of eden and the sacred marriage in no-time. I hold it in my hand and my heart as I see the task ahead, that I must breathe the code of restored unity into this place of planet Earth star date Nov 18th 2010, and there is heaviness in my lungs and grief over the emotional body that I must heal, and so I see before me this great task to breathe this unity template of lover and beloved into the stuff of Earth, embodied here through going into the dark code and transmuting it into light, actualizing the anchored, embodied pathway of the divine marriage here, here in my body and here flowing back and forth between my beloved husband and I. Our karma is deep and dense that blocks the circuit. yet I know we have it within us to be the lover and beloved healed, restored and flowing in the superconductive communion of joy and bliss. And I know we chose each other to mend the road between heaven and earth so that we could serve the return of love to this Earth as so many other "work" partnerships that are signing up for this work at this time that stand beside us.

It takes an army of light warriors to penetrate the core locks of separation... All the dark has done to prevent the embodied communication between masculine and feminine and the exchange of this joy frequency enabling God consciousness to embody on Earth... sometimes I just feel like screaming an agonizing cry for the bondage and the jailing of the human divine blueprint, held in imprisonment, stapled into darkness, locked into assemetry of separation consciousness. And I just want to cry out into the night and into the heart of God, and say Why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????????

And Sat night is my slide show chronicling the passage of the darkness birthin into light, the embryo of human consciousness gestating through it's passage in the womb of the mind of god to enable spiritualized matter to become. And I just feel like crying forever, like forever and ever, like the sorrow could fill rivers and streams and all the oceans with tears of the one under the dead code who hungers and thirst for the living light. Just want to go and party in the glorious bliss escape, but I'm facing the work that is here, the project that can truly serve myself, my husband and the Earth and is my task. I'm rolling up my sleeves to get down to work.

The dark side is getting desperate that's why the stupid ass airport xray shit. Just hold on, keep the lightness, the joy, the detachment. It is the time of final conflict. Keep going home, heading straight for god and sovereignty and the knowing that you are beyond the dream. you can even be amused with the ridiculousness of it all. We are the sovereign warriors bringing the restoration of the original divine human blueprint and we will kick ass!!!!!!!!!!!! See you at the great reunion.

S

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Awakened to life by the heart of love woven in tender words and loving voice



This is a writing about the power of romantic love to give us the map back to the union of lover and beloved within.

Tonight seems to have no sleep for me after the great paintbrush of love through his voice has swept it's blessed strokes across my body, mind, heart and spirit. This is the culmination of 27 years of hard spiritual labor to be in the place where I could receive this great gift of my own love come to me through him; his heart, his voice, his tender love so familiar like the hand shaping my very body, giving love to every piece of creation, In its tender care the holy tree of life is restored throughout all creation. And Divine Grace says I did this. This is really me and all my hard work that made me able to receive such light, such transformational love to dawn upon my Earth. Letting go of the "pain body" enough to start again as if I were starting from the very beginning.
"meditate upon who contains this universe, who's holy name is the whisper on the lips of the entire creation." I had only sung the song 20 minutes before and the song became my life, animating the healing of the dawning of new life to the barren land, god's name spoken and it's essence resurrecting all dead barren land into the paradise of healed Earth. This kiss of heaven and the creator upon my land, and this is the blessed celebration of the union of the masculine and feminine principle finding each other after the great divorce of the death grid, coming to life again in each other's love. The longing in me is the longing for my own self. And now the elements are set in place as the paintbrush of creators breath has swept across all inorganic code of my body and lifted it into the organic living light code of perfect love. Next the outer planes will integrate and come into manifestation in this life into the 3rd dimensional me.

It is all so much to take in, to digest, to let in. to go to sleep after this seems an impossiblity. To be lit by a fire of love so great, to be baptized in the sweet fire of awakening and then to sleep. I don't think so. and so many outside on the street are still awake. forget New York. I think Seattle is the city that never sleeps!

Justin time, another home delivery agent in the journey of artificial insemination by means of projection, the mechanism by which love is allowed to love itself back to wholeness within me. Just important to not get lost in the messenger but receive the message all the same. Journeying into the dangerous territory of losing the self in ecstasy catalyzed by another, but coming back alive and with a map to activate the divine template within the self and integrate the healing in gratitude and joy. Remembering always, the truth is self actualized self sovereignty becoming all to the self.