Our true nature is infinite abundance

Sunday as I was checking out the beautiful Tum Water Falls Park in Olympia, I was spoken to from a deep place within myself, reminded that all the seeming lack brought on by my current financial situation is just part of an illusory fabric constructed out of mistaken beliefs. I surveyed the sudden harsh steep slopes of the man made dam in contrast to the kinder, gentler gates constructed so beautifully alongside these, giving the Salmon an option of gentleness and ease. I asked to myself, isn't there an option of ease for me? There must be something beyond all this struggle and impossiblity and seeming dead end of lack. Then this voice came from within and said, ah, there is a place where all is already full; there is a place where abundance abounds and love pours into you from all sides, dancing into you and filling you and what's more, you are this place. Your suffering is caused by identifying with what you are not. And although nothing really changed in my situation, I began to feel a great sense of ease as if I was already home and that no out-picturing in this conditional reality can define who I am. I will not give an illusory network of beliefs and assumptions and conditions the power to take me from my peace, the peace of who I already am. I can't wait to return in September to watch the salmon and behold the path of gentleness and kindness before them. I know in the wild they would jump many steep falls and the wild is always better than anything man-made, but small steps to attempt to co-exist with nature are so appreciated.

And if I go to singing alive here in a couple of weeks, I will go with the knowing that the place I drink from and feed from is within the earth, the sky and my own being. I do not need to lead a big circle to prove I am loved on the Earth or to feel my hungry soul. I've been looking to be fed by other people's validation and attention. This is not the true feeding place. Looking here can only lead to suffering and disappointment for it is life's job to guide me to the fountain within to drink there of the source. So all the programming of desperation for love from childhood is just a blessed pointer to the true feeding ground within.

I would love to lead a large circle with enough people to sing 4 parts and really weave the tapestry of sound, but if that doesn't happen. O.K. If I come with meat on my bones, the meat I am finding now as I turn my identification to the fullness within, i will not be looking to the outer from a desperate place. And who knows, the greatest thing of all would be if I could feel the joy of everyone else's victory's and joys and not be so focused on getting but rather at least 50% or more of my energy on giving to others and being a blessing to others. Yes, this is why I came to Earth. Well both to fill my inner cup and to feel the joy of sharing the bounty with others feeling joy wherever so it be that "the one" is rejoicing.
Love and blessings to all