Out of the core wound of the severing blade of separation, emerges the return of the sweet song of unity.
Well, there are people and events in my life that are outlining for me with great accuracy the devastating rejection of the original massacre and rejection of myself from the heart of the all that is that I created with my own self hatred and judgment so very long ago. They are mirroring this original negative decision back to me with great accuracy. Yesterday, to breathe it in and digest it, felt like more than I could bare. But it was amazing to lie in bed last night and be able to tangibly sense the full outline of the fracture that remains between me and the wholeness of my soul. It is only 6 major lines of fracture. Wow, in 1983 it was 627 pieces separated by who knows how many fracture lines.
The most awesome thing of all, is that as I allow this fracture to emerge and come into my consciousness, I begin to hear the faint echoes of the antithesis of it’s identity, the very most opposite thing of all. From deep within my Earth, my bones, my blood, my skin, lymph, nerves, muscles wei chi; from across the whole landscape of this Earth I hear the cells beginning to sing or maybe they have been singing all along and only now do I have the ears to listen and the senses to feel them. They are marching in this beautiful symphony of synchronized rhythmic singing. It is the song of oneness. And Oh what a sweet song it is. It was Oct 26th 1983 that the field of separation emerged for its healing and just a little over 27 years and much blood, sweat and tears. 20 core activators enabling mending of the field piece by piece, the rock of my true love, Frank Martin, standing by me. The great love and financial support of my wonderful mother. The incredible assistance of medicine women, shaman, practitioners and healers through the years ending with my most amazing body talk practitioner, Laurie Schaad: www.heronsresthealingarts.com and the counsel of the angels through Peta Lynne: www.bydivinegrace.com Thank you so much, and the whole crew at Portal to Ascension especially Neil Gaur with his unfailing love and encouragement. www.portaltoascension.com and now the professionals in the music field that are coming to guide me into position that I may fulfill the next level of my Earth mission as a singer of awakening love, radiating from this unity a vibration of ecstatic communion and building this in the field, magnifying and lifting the Earth and humanity. Thank you to all who have triggered the worst of the separation pain to bring it into full relief that through its full integration, I may re-member my soul.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Summoning all Pieces of the soul to return!
Summoning the return of all of the pieces of the soul monad
Perhaps once your were here with me, maybe before conception or even before I was sperm or egg there was all of me here like a rainbow essence of every color communicating with itself dancing with itself in a living dance of self sustaining joy, totally complete as a life form in itself, knowing no lack but only the sense of wholeness. There was a time when I was all here
Now, 45 years later or so, it appears my car is stalled by the side of the road, There is gas in the car and ostensibly it is in working order, but the vehicle has just stopped. It will go no further. I can go no further without my whole self here. For 15 years I have sent out fliers and products, attempting to manifest my essence into this world in some way that could bring me a financial living. Hundreds of fliers, ideas popping from my head, spewing out like a creation machine and all yielding nothing, really nothing and now I am told to promote this one in time and space called Sarah Hope Adams and that this is my main job and my only job, and I say “What for? It is not that I do not love this one, but this one is not fully here. They tell me her flight is scheduled to arrive any day now. I can be her agent and promoter when she is here. And yet I wonder is it my inter-action with this earth plane that will summon her here or is there really nothing I can do but release more and more of the shame and fear that would impede my monadic consciousness from integrating into my 3d self. I don’t know, but I do know that I can go no further without all of me here.
I feel like I am on strike or something Like I have realized the truth that it’s not about anything external that is going to make it happen, it is about embodying all of my presence here into this Earth, the God essence that I came to embody. I am preparing for my active mission and I need all of me here to do this mission, that is it, nothing else but all of me will do.
Could it be when I was with you, dear friend, that I had access to all of my masculine, like somehow when we were together, it was given a real but temporary anchoring here into my earth. (Lisa, my teacher, says that it was the masculine principle that was the most damaged and that was actually split off from the third dimensional self. All my life, I have sensed an emptiness and a great sadness in my masculine principle.) For a moment, when we were together, it was accessible, I was accessible to myself. I believe so, and this is why I now can sense the landscape the texture and the identity of what I am now missing as my car is stalled on the side of this dark road. And I understand the need to separate completely. That is all perfect for I never meant to encumber your life in anyway. All of this has been like being struck by lightening for me. And it is all good, as only in total denied access to even a thread of the bridging architecture we provided, am I forced into the interface with a lack so complete that it initiates the summons of my very soul, a summons to all of me that has been missing from my 3rd dimensional self. Only in the full presence followed by the full absence is this summons initiated: this, the call that has the power to invoke, to mobilize my Earth to reconfigure that it may receive the highest frequency soul fragments held hostage at the 9th dimensional level. So, I thank everything that has taken me this far to know how empty, and how incomplete it is to walk down here without the rightful parts of my god self, my wings, my jewels, my fire letters, all the parts of me that have been scattered far and wide and used by the dark side to fuel their death games. Lisa Renee's latest meditation is all about calling all parts of the self home. www.energeticsynthesis.com
In the physical plane, my heart chakra bowl is in Seattle and my drum too, but these are only representations of the deeper losses of the very pieces of my soul trapped in other dimensions, held hostage by distorted space- time continuums.
Please come back to me. Please come home to me. Do you feel me here summoning you? I can go no further without you. I am shaking my land in heaves of deep grief to reconfigure my DNA that you may join me here. I am releasing as much dense emotion as I can as fast as I can. I am feeling all that I have most wanted to escape that you can come and join me, that I may be accommodating to the great capacity of light, the great high frequency that you are. I am opening up the cathedral in every cell of my body, every piece of my flesh that your great love may embody here and turn on the lights of my sacred body temple and bring on the staff in charge of the earth mission of this Sarah Hope Adams. You who will come to dwell in me and fuel the life force to rise on behalf of your great essence. Come unto me, oh great light of my soul. I have tasted you. I have drunk deeply of you. Now, I am ready for you to join me here on this planet that needs all that I am, this planet awaiting it’s great birth into light. Oh dear soul, do not tarry one moment longer for the time is nigh!!
"I am waiting in a silent prayer. I am frightened by the load I bare in a world as cold as stone, must I always be alone?...Do you wonder as you watch my face if a wiser one should have had my place? Yet I offer all I am for the mercy of your plan. Help me be strong. Help me Be" Amy Grant Mary's song, "Breath of Heaven"
We are all part of this great archytypal journey of Mary wondering in the night carrying the Christ child of the newly birthed divine humanity and cosmos. God and Goddess bless us all, Hold us in the breath of heaven that we may find safe passage especially the expectant mothers having held the baby within us for so many years of our lives that light may be born into the stuff of dense matter. May we all look up towards the highest possibility for our precious and glorious embryo of potential in this time when the night is still so dark and yet the light is closer than it's ever been... this amazing time.
Perhaps once your were here with me, maybe before conception or even before I was sperm or egg there was all of me here like a rainbow essence of every color communicating with itself dancing with itself in a living dance of self sustaining joy, totally complete as a life form in itself, knowing no lack but only the sense of wholeness. There was a time when I was all here
Now, 45 years later or so, it appears my car is stalled by the side of the road, There is gas in the car and ostensibly it is in working order, but the vehicle has just stopped. It will go no further. I can go no further without my whole self here. For 15 years I have sent out fliers and products, attempting to manifest my essence into this world in some way that could bring me a financial living. Hundreds of fliers, ideas popping from my head, spewing out like a creation machine and all yielding nothing, really nothing and now I am told to promote this one in time and space called Sarah Hope Adams and that this is my main job and my only job, and I say “What for? It is not that I do not love this one, but this one is not fully here. They tell me her flight is scheduled to arrive any day now. I can be her agent and promoter when she is here. And yet I wonder is it my inter-action with this earth plane that will summon her here or is there really nothing I can do but release more and more of the shame and fear that would impede my monadic consciousness from integrating into my 3d self. I don’t know, but I do know that I can go no further without all of me here.
I feel like I am on strike or something Like I have realized the truth that it’s not about anything external that is going to make it happen, it is about embodying all of my presence here into this Earth, the God essence that I came to embody. I am preparing for my active mission and I need all of me here to do this mission, that is it, nothing else but all of me will do.
Could it be when I was with you, dear friend, that I had access to all of my masculine, like somehow when we were together, it was given a real but temporary anchoring here into my earth. (Lisa, my teacher, says that it was the masculine principle that was the most damaged and that was actually split off from the third dimensional self. All my life, I have sensed an emptiness and a great sadness in my masculine principle.) For a moment, when we were together, it was accessible, I was accessible to myself. I believe so, and this is why I now can sense the landscape the texture and the identity of what I am now missing as my car is stalled on the side of this dark road. And I understand the need to separate completely. That is all perfect for I never meant to encumber your life in anyway. All of this has been like being struck by lightening for me. And it is all good, as only in total denied access to even a thread of the bridging architecture we provided, am I forced into the interface with a lack so complete that it initiates the summons of my very soul, a summons to all of me that has been missing from my 3rd dimensional self. Only in the full presence followed by the full absence is this summons initiated: this, the call that has the power to invoke, to mobilize my Earth to reconfigure that it may receive the highest frequency soul fragments held hostage at the 9th dimensional level. So, I thank everything that has taken me this far to know how empty, and how incomplete it is to walk down here without the rightful parts of my god self, my wings, my jewels, my fire letters, all the parts of me that have been scattered far and wide and used by the dark side to fuel their death games. Lisa Renee's latest meditation is all about calling all parts of the self home. www.energeticsynthesis.com
In the physical plane, my heart chakra bowl is in Seattle and my drum too, but these are only representations of the deeper losses of the very pieces of my soul trapped in other dimensions, held hostage by distorted space- time continuums.
Please come back to me. Please come home to me. Do you feel me here summoning you? I can go no further without you. I am shaking my land in heaves of deep grief to reconfigure my DNA that you may join me here. I am releasing as much dense emotion as I can as fast as I can. I am feeling all that I have most wanted to escape that you can come and join me, that I may be accommodating to the great capacity of light, the great high frequency that you are. I am opening up the cathedral in every cell of my body, every piece of my flesh that your great love may embody here and turn on the lights of my sacred body temple and bring on the staff in charge of the earth mission of this Sarah Hope Adams. You who will come to dwell in me and fuel the life force to rise on behalf of your great essence. Come unto me, oh great light of my soul. I have tasted you. I have drunk deeply of you. Now, I am ready for you to join me here on this planet that needs all that I am, this planet awaiting it’s great birth into light. Oh dear soul, do not tarry one moment longer for the time is nigh!!
"I am waiting in a silent prayer. I am frightened by the load I bare in a world as cold as stone, must I always be alone?...Do you wonder as you watch my face if a wiser one should have had my place? Yet I offer all I am for the mercy of your plan. Help me be strong. Help me Be" Amy Grant Mary's song, "Breath of Heaven"
We are all part of this great archytypal journey of Mary wondering in the night carrying the Christ child of the newly birthed divine humanity and cosmos. God and Goddess bless us all, Hold us in the breath of heaven that we may find safe passage especially the expectant mothers having held the baby within us for so many years of our lives that light may be born into the stuff of dense matter. May we all look up towards the highest possibility for our precious and glorious embryo of potential in this time when the night is still so dark and yet the light is closer than it's ever been... this amazing time.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Returning to Earth, the restoration ahead
I stand now before the template of the barren land, witnessing the massacre that has left the lover severed from communication with the beloved. It is a war torn, dark, deadlight code-filled place upon which I stand now holding the map, the glimpsed template of the unity code like a picture of the garden of eden and the sacred marriage in no-time. I hold it in my hand and my heart as I see the task ahead, that I must breathe the code of restored unity into this place of planet Earth star date Nov 18th 2010, and there is heaviness in my lungs and grief over the emotional body that I must heal, and so I see before me this great task to breathe this unity template of lover and beloved into the stuff of Earth, embodied here through going into the dark code and transmuting it into light, actualizing the anchored, embodied pathway of the divine marriage here, here in my body and here flowing back and forth between my beloved husband and I. Our karma is deep and dense that blocks the circuit. yet I know we have it within us to be the lover and beloved healed, restored and flowing in the superconductive communion of joy and bliss. And I know we chose each other to mend the road between heaven and earth so that we could serve the return of love to this Earth as so many other "work" partnerships that are signing up for this work at this time that stand beside us.
It takes an army of light warriors to penetrate the core locks of separation... All the dark has done to prevent the embodied communication between masculine and feminine and the exchange of this joy frequency enabling God consciousness to embody on Earth... sometimes I just feel like screaming an agonizing cry for the bondage and the jailing of the human divine blueprint, held in imprisonment, stapled into darkness, locked into assemetry of separation consciousness. And I just want to cry out into the night and into the heart of God, and say Why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????????
And Sat night is my slide show chronicling the passage of the darkness birthin into light, the embryo of human consciousness gestating through it's passage in the womb of the mind of god to enable spiritualized matter to become. And I just feel like crying forever, like forever and ever, like the sorrow could fill rivers and streams and all the oceans with tears of the one under the dead code who hungers and thirst for the living light. Just want to go and party in the glorious bliss escape, but I'm facing the work that is here, the project that can truly serve myself, my husband and the Earth and is my task. I'm rolling up my sleeves to get down to work.
The dark side is getting desperate that's why the stupid ass airport xray shit. Just hold on, keep the lightness, the joy, the detachment. It is the time of final conflict. Keep going home, heading straight for god and sovereignty and the knowing that you are beyond the dream. you can even be amused with the ridiculousness of it all. We are the sovereign warriors bringing the restoration of the original divine human blueprint and we will kick ass!!!!!!!!!!!! See you at the great reunion.
S
It takes an army of light warriors to penetrate the core locks of separation... All the dark has done to prevent the embodied communication between masculine and feminine and the exchange of this joy frequency enabling God consciousness to embody on Earth... sometimes I just feel like screaming an agonizing cry for the bondage and the jailing of the human divine blueprint, held in imprisonment, stapled into darkness, locked into assemetry of separation consciousness. And I just want to cry out into the night and into the heart of God, and say Why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????????
And Sat night is my slide show chronicling the passage of the darkness birthin into light, the embryo of human consciousness gestating through it's passage in the womb of the mind of god to enable spiritualized matter to become. And I just feel like crying forever, like forever and ever, like the sorrow could fill rivers and streams and all the oceans with tears of the one under the dead code who hungers and thirst for the living light. Just want to go and party in the glorious bliss escape, but I'm facing the work that is here, the project that can truly serve myself, my husband and the Earth and is my task. I'm rolling up my sleeves to get down to work.
The dark side is getting desperate that's why the stupid ass airport xray shit. Just hold on, keep the lightness, the joy, the detachment. It is the time of final conflict. Keep going home, heading straight for god and sovereignty and the knowing that you are beyond the dream. you can even be amused with the ridiculousness of it all. We are the sovereign warriors bringing the restoration of the original divine human blueprint and we will kick ass!!!!!!!!!!!! See you at the great reunion.
S
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Awakened to life by the heart of love woven in tender words and loving voice
This is a writing about the power of romantic love to give us the map back to the union of lover and beloved within.
Tonight seems to have no sleep for me after the great paintbrush of love through his voice has swept it's blessed strokes across my body, mind, heart and spirit. This is the culmination of 27 years of hard spiritual labor to be in the place where I could receive this great gift of my own love come to me through him; his heart, his voice, his tender love so familiar like the hand shaping my very body, giving love to every piece of creation, In its tender care the holy tree of life is restored throughout all creation. And Divine Grace says I did this. This is really me and all my hard work that made me able to receive such light, such transformational love to dawn upon my Earth. Letting go of the "pain body" enough to start again as if I were starting from the very beginning.
"meditate upon who contains this universe, who's holy name is the whisper on the lips of the entire creation." I had only sung the song 20 minutes before and the song became my life, animating the healing of the dawning of new life to the barren land, god's name spoken and it's essence resurrecting all dead barren land into the paradise of healed Earth. This kiss of heaven and the creator upon my land, and this is the blessed celebration of the union of the masculine and feminine principle finding each other after the great divorce of the death grid, coming to life again in each other's love. The longing in me is the longing for my own self. And now the elements are set in place as the paintbrush of creators breath has swept across all inorganic code of my body and lifted it into the organic living light code of perfect love. Next the outer planes will integrate and come into manifestation in this life into the 3rd dimensional me.
It is all so much to take in, to digest, to let in. to go to sleep after this seems an impossiblity. To be lit by a fire of love so great, to be baptized in the sweet fire of awakening and then to sleep. I don't think so. and so many outside on the street are still awake. forget New York. I think Seattle is the city that never sleeps!
Justin time, another home delivery agent in the journey of artificial insemination by means of projection, the mechanism by which love is allowed to love itself back to wholeness within me. Just important to not get lost in the messenger but receive the message all the same. Journeying into the dangerous territory of losing the self in ecstasy catalyzed by another, but coming back alive and with a map to activate the divine template within the self and integrate the healing in gratitude and joy. Remembering always, the truth is self actualized self sovereignty becoming all to the self.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Extra Terrestrial visitations expanding awareness
Hello all,
Exciting UFO sightings in New York last night, and I am on a tour called the Portal to Ascension tour, in which one of our main purposes is to spread E.T. awareness to assist with the awakening into fourth density as love based, unity beings. These are exciting times indeed. I have found out that i am part of a syrian council of 9 ( actually I found out that I am not a member of this council, the message was distorted, but i am very much reuniting with my syrian family on this journey.that is deeply involved with the awakening of humanity. I am with 6 of the 9 here in Dana Point, CA. Tonight we will be in San Diego. You can see the tour schedule at www.adronis.org/tour.html Anyway, lots of clearing continues. the 10-10 energies were very intense. I flew on a plane at 10:10 to reunite with my syrian council members. What an amazing dream it all is. I guess our body's are in stasis on Syrius. Our council was heavily involved in the downfall of Atlantis and now we are here to make amends and assist with the upliftment of this civilization. I don't understand much more than this. Well, I guess I will sign off. Check out some new songs on my youtube channel: sarahsparkle1 and more tour videos at 101408blogspot
Bye for now
Love,
Sarah
Exciting UFO sightings in New York last night, and I am on a tour called the Portal to Ascension tour, in which one of our main purposes is to spread E.T. awareness to assist with the awakening into fourth density as love based, unity beings. These are exciting times indeed. I have found out that i am part of a syrian council of 9 ( actually I found out that I am not a member of this council, the message was distorted, but i am very much reuniting with my syrian family on this journey.that is deeply involved with the awakening of humanity. I am with 6 of the 9 here in Dana Point, CA. Tonight we will be in San Diego. You can see the tour schedule at www.adronis.org/tour.html Anyway, lots of clearing continues. the 10-10 energies were very intense. I flew on a plane at 10:10 to reunite with my syrian council members. What an amazing dream it all is. I guess our body's are in stasis on Syrius. Our council was heavily involved in the downfall of Atlantis and now we are here to make amends and assist with the upliftment of this civilization. I don't understand much more than this. Well, I guess I will sign off. Check out some new songs on my youtube channel: sarahsparkle1 and more tour videos at 101408blogspot
Bye for now
Love,
Sarah
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Friday, October 8, 2010
abundances streaming in as shadow clearing continues
Hello all,
It feels to be a time of two very different streams of experience. On one hand I am still processing major shadow fragment and on the other, joy and beauty and new energies are streaming in like a rainbow star show of glittering beauty. I wanted to write a little note as I am preparing to embark on a tour and will be away from the computer for a bit. I'm finding deep strong powerful energies of remembrance and home coming brought in by the presence of a new friend. It is a challenge to discipline myself to stay in this lifetime while all the other dimensions and lifetimes and shared histories are bleeding in. What a challenge. It is a challenge of self discipline for sure, not my specialty, but a great opportunity to learn. Well, I'm keeping this one really short. I think I'm going to start doing littler blogs for a bit. The tour is the Portal to ascension tour. I'll be going on only part of it. You can see the tour schedule at www.adronis.org
i had great tun bringing together two beautiful people this last week-end. I truly felt the hand of God working through me to unite these 2. This is a time for sacred partnerships that allow for a deep healing of the proton/ electron dance of Masculine and Feminine identities in their original glory of the divine blueprint of living light. This partnership I brought together feels like an anchoring of this divine balance as on heaven here in Earth. This will be happening more and more. This upgrade of present relationships and this coming in of new relationships to enable this universal healing love to anchor within the stuff of Earth. 10-10 is supposed to be a wave of new energy coming in. Let's hold onto our hats and lay back and receive the blessed new unity frequencies. I'll write from the road.
Love,
Sarah
Ciao!! I'll blog about the tour as I am able.
It feels to be a time of two very different streams of experience. On one hand I am still processing major shadow fragment and on the other, joy and beauty and new energies are streaming in like a rainbow star show of glittering beauty. I wanted to write a little note as I am preparing to embark on a tour and will be away from the computer for a bit. I'm finding deep strong powerful energies of remembrance and home coming brought in by the presence of a new friend. It is a challenge to discipline myself to stay in this lifetime while all the other dimensions and lifetimes and shared histories are bleeding in. What a challenge. It is a challenge of self discipline for sure, not my specialty, but a great opportunity to learn. Well, I'm keeping this one really short. I think I'm going to start doing littler blogs for a bit. The tour is the Portal to ascension tour. I'll be going on only part of it. You can see the tour schedule at www.adronis.org
i had great tun bringing together two beautiful people this last week-end. I truly felt the hand of God working through me to unite these 2. This is a time for sacred partnerships that allow for a deep healing of the proton/ electron dance of Masculine and Feminine identities in their original glory of the divine blueprint of living light. This partnership I brought together feels like an anchoring of this divine balance as on heaven here in Earth. This will be happening more and more. This upgrade of present relationships and this coming in of new relationships to enable this universal healing love to anchor within the stuff of Earth. 10-10 is supposed to be a wave of new energy coming in. Let's hold onto our hats and lay back and receive the blessed new unity frequencies. I'll write from the road.
Love,
Sarah
Ciao!! I'll blog about the tour as I am able.
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