The Return to God: The End of the Impulse of the Separate Self

Return to Balance part 1 and 2

A month into the 5D shift, In the Void of the inbetween

Hello space fans and Earth fans. Well, It is almost a month into the 5d shift, and things have been really a mixed bag from this perspective. I feel that the huge taste of the architecture and essence of 5D was just that. I feel as the matrix came in, it gave us a nice wafting fragrance of its nature. However, the actually grounding of that nature into embodiment demands that we process through the depths of shadow. So, there have been several trips to the underworld or rather an almost continuous exposure to the feelings of lack and limitation and despair since the first big taste. It is not always easy to receive these exposures and then be left walking in what feels to be a void again without the ability to touch the home frequency of the oneness field. But we just must keep breathing, keep feeling, keep going forward knowing we are evolving, that threads are being woven underground even if we can't see or feel them in the topside world. Right now I feel shipwrecked on an island in a way, like everything has stopped, all forward momentum. I keep reaching for something to connect to, but nothing is there. And this feeling of nothing must be ok right now. So blessings to all in the no- thing, the divine melancholia of being pulled off of one operating system when we are not yet anchored to the other.

Anchoring in the Diamond Matrix: Welcome to the 5th dimensional platform

                      Hi Everyone, Welcome to the field of 5th dimensional consciousness!!!!

Well, what a ride it has been getting through this last eclipse! It has been like going through the washer and dryer, shedding all of the dense thoughtforms and emotions that would anchor us into 3D. It has been a time of delivering ourselves ever more into our bodies from higher dimensions. I experienced delivering myself from the big dipper in the 7th higher heavens all the way down to a great bear in the frozen tundra where an Inuit mama caught me as a new born in her arms. It has certainly been a delivery from Heaven to Earth, as mama Earth opens to receive brand new levels of benevolence. This circuitry of benevolence began its major anchor on August 26th just about a month before the blood moon eclipse. But if it put down it's first tendrils on August 26th, These tendrils were fully anchored in on the blood moon. The anti-life forces fought tooth and nail to hang onto their descending timeline, but we stepped through the gateway and anchored the tendrils once and for all. So the architecture that houses the birth of the Diamond matrix Christed body is in here!!!!

Some may not be feeling this monumental accomplishment with any dramatic changes in their personal life, but some may, indeed, be feeling the upgrade.

I know I am. On Wednesday September 30th that's the day I landed in 5D and was immersed in a sea of love as if every particle of substance was made of love. I felt this magical oneness with everything, 

 the world so subtle, sub-atomic particles dancing into me like a tantric bliss fest of love making with all that is. Wow, it was awesome. Since that day, it is phasing in and out, not as readily automatically accessible.

Now, i must consciously participate in the thought forms that support this new matrix. It is like I am being taken by the hand and led into the field, but I must surrender most every thought about my personal life. The mantra seems to be "Turn down the volume on the self. Turn up the volume on the oneness. Remember the oneness. Let is take you into itself. Let it envelope you into this subtle sea of dancing light. It is out in nature that I can truly receive this instruction. It is as if the plants, the trees, the air, the devic spirits all around are already there. They are the main guides now until this thing anchors fully. The human mind completely tends to drop the frequency as soon as it begins thinking of its own accord. Nature is the mentor here!

So loves, get out in nature as much as you can!!! It nows!!! It will take you there. and open your mind to be led by something beyond what it knows, to be led into a subtle frequency of exquisite gentleness and benevolence where everything is already complete and full and celebrating in this subtle dance of joy. Blessings as you play with this, as we play with this and give ourselves ever more to this field of the aurora christ, the Diamond Matrix of love based beingness.

Everyone will be coming into this field in time! Many blessings

Preparing for the Tsunami of light of September 28th

The Eagle's Flight, A dedication to the Perseverance of the Human Spirit

Exodus of the mind brain from the Mind control matrix of fear

Hello all, This occured July 1st-3rd. My last videos have been a bit packed together
There has been a tripple whammy of movement

1. Solstice was a deep removal of architecture
2. Full moon was a further out playing of this purification
3. July 1st-3rd  was an exodus of the global mind from the 3D mind control matrix

Here is that video

Unlocking The Grid Gates

Removing Gender Splitting technology from within the RNA of the Mitochondria

i.e.  unlocking the cage door that has locked the Christ mind into the artificial matrix

freeing the mind of Earth to Unite with the Heart of Earth.

see  video

Love Trumps All

This is the message for these times, ya'll. love is the grand energy that must be primary in our lives, not money, not possessions, not public acclaim, not glamour, not anything outside of ourselves. The only way to access the highest timelines of freedom and joy is to open the flood gates to our own love here and now in the absence of any external motivation!

Love song to the Warriors of Light

Dis employment of the false king of tyranny

Hello loves,

Well, today's blog post will be short and sweet, and I am attaching a video. Stick with it cause this one is truly affecting all of us in the first wave.
"When the false king of tyranny goes down, it's the saddest song in the whole damn town, but at least we know we are being purified by the Goddess of love who changes us deep inside."
Video coming shortly.

Presencing in Non attachment

Transfiguration from 3D to 5D

Life is Beautiful for the dreamer and the dreamed

Life is beautiful. Life is chaotic. Life is a mystery. Life feels to be mine in this separate vehicle that is slowly but surely surrendering into onenss. All the little pieces of my heart like fractals falling in love over and over. People come and people go. Souls dance for a time and then move on to new vistas. Right now, I am feeling the deep sweetness of being in a body with emotions. I know not what tomorrow brings. I know not exactly how to manifest the desires of my deepest heart, but I am grateful for this time to be here amidst this great mystery unfolding in its own time, in its own rhythm. I bow to the vastness of the unknown and the extent of the still time where nothing appears to be moving, knowing something deeper is always in the process of dreaming. 

Opening The Gates to Eden

Before I launch into this blog post, I want to remind us all that this game here on Earth is all just a grand experiment and alchemical mixing of forces with different parts of the whole playing their various roles. And there is deep gratitude for the forces of suppression as they have enabled the tension of opposites that enables us to birth a new trans-harmonic universe merging the highest overtones with the deepest basetones of creation. So, let us hold all of this in mind as we continue....

Onward to this update: We, as guardian incarnates as of mid February have been given the eyes to see the anatomy of the imprisoner, the location and the actual activity of the siphoning off of the light code evolutionary drivers away from Gaia and humanity so that ascension is prohibited or stalled to a sluggish pace.

Thank you once again to the wonderful, Lisa Renee at http://www.energeticsynthesis.com for always bringing light when the questions are hurling through my brain as a new access key is waiting. She always has it hot off the presses, her finger on the pulse of what is really going on behind the scenes at the level of the Earth grid and the core causal factors at play here. 

I was just asking, "Why, even with so much love and beauty coming forth in this lovely Choir of ours, do we still have to engage in such compromised ability to connect with finances and flow to truly bring this music into the world in a big way and Why is their still so much separation between the masculine and the feminine that our economic slavery system is still the default operating system in western society? and what is holding up the blossoming and awakening of humanity?!  

Then i listened to lisa's update and now I get it. We are still not free. We are still being siphoned by negative alien architecture ripping away our resources that would encode our light bodies and bring on our full blossoming. So truly up until now, we have been attempting to pour all our love that we had into the compromised resources available to us in our prison cells. And it is the renegades of light that have been working tirelessly underground with the limited resources to weave our love into the stuff of the compromise enough to raise the baseline frequency of Earth enough that more of our eyes and ears could incarnate in here so that we can walk among the humans and get a true look at where the enemy lies, where the jailer resides and the nature of his shackles on this beautiful human race and her mother Gaia. Where is it that the feminine light, music and breath is being siphoned off so the masculine Albion cannot rise into it's double diamond sun body leading us all forward to our divine destiny. And thank you, Lisa for telling us. It is in the UK! and now the task is to bring online all of the geomantic structures which have been torn a part, destroyed, or covered over with farce architectures to prevent access to the cathar bodies circuitry of meridians that enable the higher frequencies of light, sound, music to be  distributed into the albion, the architecture of the Christ simultaneously delivering these access codes to all humnanity and sentient beings to blossom into divine blueprint.

I am sending a little extra love right now to the frontline path cutters who work in the underground, magnifying light while incased in the walls of the prison of the world created while the siphon is in place, those who give their whole heart and soul and life’s mission to be the bodies that can enable the guardian consciousness to incarnate down here and receive the eyes to see what in the bleep is preventing the Christ Consciousness from blossoming down here and our divine birthright being given to us as humans on a Christed planet.

All who work in the service of this great liberation so that humanity and Earth can be given their rightful resources will feel the immense grief. Even amid all the prosperity of those whose path is to be sleeping pretty much as cogs in the great machine of forgetting, we will feel the anguish of the great massacre that is still in place. So, to all who feel this grief and outrage, I send my love and to all, in general, I send my love. For every human heart seeks the fulfillment of its blueprint even if it does not know it!

 Now that we know where the siphoning machinery of the Nephalim Reversal Grid lies, we are going to kick some real ass!!!! We will find their access points and unplug each and everyone until the proton and electron can unite without obstacle and the neutron can begin the momentum to blossom full consciousness of unity for all sentient life, The sweet music, sound and light of the divine feminine, Sophia can fill her masculine beloved albion architecture with the animator forces that breathe life into the Earth to once again rise as the living Christ, liberating us all from this long night of bondage, opening the gates to Eden that have been held closed for so long!

A New Playing Field is Born

Hello all,

I am going to make this brief, as there are so many things going on on this marvelous day. The gist of what I want to say is this: We have passed through another great level of the veil to bring the Christ onto this planet!!! At this point, the logos of unity--which is the global brain of Gaia's divine blueprint--has succeeded in passing through the I am veil! The passage was rough, like massive, killing, crushing forces at 360 degrees. The sensation of the crushing and the sense of non support to exist was so strong as we interfaced with this huge veil. Guardian incarnates moved on to the core-killng-fields of the 10th-stargate in Iraq which is the headquarters of Negative Alien control of the planet. Located here is the war transmission station that scatters and negates the Christed frequency of Sacred Marriage architecture and holds Gaia's divine child hostage under the Earth. This is the holding tank where the Earth's divine child has been held hostage under the impostor technologies, keeping her locked away from the Divine Mother Earth's heart. This is where the veil was lifted. And I, as a person, Sarah Hope Adams, now, have a self, a name, a sense of I am presence. I know many of us that hold this place for the mission will be feeling a very similar sense of finally having a self!

I realize these 31 years of moving through the wilderness of pre-birth to vaporize the impostor grid of the negative alien agenda was the main job for me. My main job was to have no career, no plan, no success, and no money of my own and feel like a complete disempowered failure at every level of the outer grid of status and achievment. Thank you so much to my mother who has supported me totally to live in this pregnant state of dis-empowered passivity til I could unlock the I am veil for Gaia and humanity.  All of this has been the perfect context for triggering the core lack that would enable my interface with the lock on the dismemberment to the Christ Sophia divine blueprint of Gaia and humanity. And thank you to my car for over-heating over and over again with no apparent cause and focusing my energy on the feeling of being in a faulty vehicle that can carry me no longer. In the last three days, this has brought me to the door of my illuminati enslavement and finally had me breaking free of the curse of living under their bidding. And thank you for the enslavement, as it has provided this amazing womb of duality from which to birth this entirely new playing field of the I AM Christ--Avatar of the new transharmonic universe having its inception here on Earth! Wow, Wow! Wow!

In pre-conception of the human life form, there is a stage where all of the "brains"--organelles that make up the gamete: egg and sperm--float around and move toward something known as the "I Am veil." Until they pass through this veil, there is not a separate sense of self. There is a sense of passively being moved from place to place as someone else's cargo. After the passage through the veil, there is earned a sense of self for the brain of that gamete. I believe, if we think of the life form of love-aligned-physicality, that is the Unity Logos of Gaia and humanity, we have just succeeded during this Leo full moon of  February 3rd, in  getting all brains successfully through the "I am" veil of self hood.

How this initiation of self-hood for the parts of the gametes shall effect the external world is anybody's guess. But it is a positive step indeed and a great victory for the Christ Sophia that is our divine Birthright. Stay tuned as the brains move toward coalescence, I'm at the edge of my seat! For me, it just feels so amazing to have a sense of myself at this level, and to realize that I--as a person--have been frustrated in all forward momentum, in order to be able to interface with the lock that vaporizes the I AM veil, enabling Gaia's brains to pass through!

Blessings as we continue on toward birth!!!!

Remembering ourselves as The Child of the Divine Cosmos

In this writing, I will attempt to describe this time of transforming core toxic shame as we prepare our vessels to be sea worthy for the Crossing that awaits us

…. Accomplishing the Reconnecting of Earth and Humanity’s imbilical chord to the Divine Cosmic Mother and Father

As always, when I am dis allusioned by the state of my life, I find my greatest clarity when I turn to my beloved  partner in ascension and fellow guardian incarnate, Lisa Renee.

Lisa’s latest blog is all about the core structural changes we are undergoing to survive from this point forward.  It can be found here:

Basically our vessels are in the shop under-going all the changes necessary to be able to survive from this point going forward. Apparently if we are to be able to sail the sea that awaits us, we must have a complete over-haul addressing the core structural defects in the vessel.

I can only take this to really imply that we are in for a massive upgrade in the level of light that will be coming into this planet and that our very essence has to be able to accommodate this level of light. None of the agendas of the mind take president over the vessels ability to embody light. Again:

None of the agendas of the mind take presidence over this basic need to upgrade our vessels so that they can embody light. And remember, as status quo helm of our ship is the mind-controlled compensating ego, upgrade often occurs through breakdown!

An analogy that I love is that we are bakers in the kitchen, working on re-moving all inside the dough that would prevent it from being able to rise in the oven, under the fire’s heat. Hmm, scratching our heads, “What is it in this batter that is blocking the yeast from being able to do its magic and enable the dough to expand as it cooks. We don’t want it to crack and break. We want it to expand while it receives the light and be able to expand as the temperature rises. Hmmm, What is wrong here?”

ON planet Earth there is something in the batter that blocks the receptivity tof light, so when we put the dough in the oven the pretzels crack and break. I call this “yeast de- activation factor” which I will abbreviate here, YDF. So what is this YDF. I believe it is comprised of the core toxic shame infused into this Earth grid by the anti-life contingencies. We have been progressively transforming the level of YDF for the last many years as the planet has steadily been rising in vibration, moving more and more from being fear/shame compensation-driven beings to becoming self loving beings.  But now, this upgrade feels to be something of an entirely new level, as it is not an upgrade to lessen the factor, it is an upgrade and demand to repair the basic genetic code distortions in the time field that code  for this aberration itself. Thus all timelines that are causal genesis points for this distortion are up for repair. So if you wonder why there is so much break down and healing and clearing going on at monumental levels and why goals and dreams of going forward are not priority right now. This is why!!!! All timelines that carry the distortion of manipulated mind control over organic flowing light in the form of self love are being neutralized in the fire of the mother’s great heart at this time.

The structural upgrade that makes our vessel worthy of sailing on the coming seas is one of self love

So what does this mean exactly. Well, Self love is the union of the masculine principles of self within one’s self. Self love is the dedication to one’s inner light. Self love is turning again and again from the compensation machineries of mind that have us seeking outside of ourselves for completion and returning back to worship at the cathedral of our own heart. Self love comes into being as we clear the gender splitting technologies within the Mitochondrial messenger RNA. Everything in our RNA inside the Mitochondria that blocks the two sides of the code from having sexual intercourse with each other, i.e, itself, must be brought up, felt through the emotional body and healed. When we face the distortions here at the level of the RNA, it is felt as a massacre of the feminine nature, and deep abandonment by the masculine nature at the loss of his feminine.

 A mass of frozen feelings lie in our Mitochondrial messenger RNA that must be felt if the code is to recombine into a functional organic flowing living code that enables protein synthesis coding for higher levels of light body embodiment.  I do want to clarify that, of course, some communication exists or we wouldn’t have life at all. What I am saying is that much of the genetic code has been invaded and damaged. You see, when all is functioning well, the fluid and ever present communication between the masculine and feminine sides of the messenger creates the proteins that build the architecture that enables embodiment of our higher light.  When devices are inserted and mental programs of toxic shame and self negation are inserted, the two sides cannot communicate, thus the architectural proteins cannot be made and more profound levels of self are impeded from incarnating.

In order to accomplish this great genetic repair, all timelines that carry the distortion of manipulated mind control over organic flowing light in the form of self love are being neutralized in the fire of the mother’s great heart at this time. What a time it is to live through as our whole sense of self is under-going massive changes.

I have also been feeling at a visceral and core deep level that the Earth has been an embryo in the placenta of divine cosmos, but she has been locked into a rejection position, like outside of the placenta of divine light, held behind a wall of darkness, blocking the light from the higher cosmos. I saw this last night.

And what I saw was that the imbilical chord linking this child to the divine cosmic Mother and Father was being repaired. So all the coordinates in the time matrix that have held and sustained timelines of darkness are coming back into the grafting point of zero point heart to be returned into unity. The pain was excruciating as I felt the collective convergence of so many armaggedon timelines at once, but the golden light fusion that was enabled as the cracked darkness was liquefied by my tears, was amazing to behold.

We are doing it, we are bringing Gaia and humanity back into the great Placenta of the Divine Mother Father God. She has been in quarantine under rejected veil in orphan status for 13,000, well, most severely 5500 years ago. We are re connecting her imbilicus to the Love of the Divine Cosmos.

Beloved’s, I send us all great love and fortification as we undergo this enormous time!

Walking the path of the razors edge: allowing the raging storms of duality to birth us home into  the priest/priestess

Of Mother’s Cosmic Aether

The task at hand is to identify dis-ease in the field and then become the cosmic waters of mother’s cosmic fire water Aether that heals all in form. 

The split between the masculine and feminine has been so severe that it is only this high grace that can bring mending.

The negatives attacked the mother’s body, installing gender splitting technology between the masculine and feminine strip of messenger RNA blocking the communication exchange that could yield the proteins needed for manifestation of light body.

Now, the outpicturing of the severity of this split is literally the voice, or the scream beckoning us to open into Mother’s Cosmic  Aether coming to Earth from Andromeda.

Only this grace of our original mother can mend this fallen imposter matrix of such pain and sorrow.

From within the negative pain trap of the 3^rd dimensional divisive mind, there is no relief.

Only in opening to receive this cosmic mother love can the end of war come.

In relationship, the negative entities want us to take it personally, to personalize the upsets,

But the key is to identify the trigger and then see it as a wounded child in the field,

And rise into the role of the monadic mother/father that holds the divine child between them

This is very a kin to a married couple holding their very sick new born baby between them in order to bring it back to health.

This is a beautiful archetype representing  the healing of the gender split in the Mitochondrial messenger RNA.

It is so important to really get that the job of intimate partnership right now and the job of life in general, is to trigger the disturbance in the field, the pain and dis-ease of the gender split state, precisely so that this state can be healed. This is the name of the game. If we know this, we can align with the divine intelligence of evolution itself. If we do not know this, we will identify with the form and  get caught in the cycle of blame and judgment, blocking us from healing.

Once the trigger is identified, the task is to stand back and hold the field together, not personalizing and  becoming reactive inside the level of identification with the story, but as compassionate witness with full allowance of what is felt in the field.  In this way, step by step, we heal the split field and allow ourselves to be the opening through which Divine Mother and father restore the split field to wholeness.

Blessing emanates from the level of quintessential unity, beyond Earth opening into Andromeda who beckons us home into the infinite heart of our original divine human blueprint as ascended beings of Christ.

Coming Home to Self through the untangling of Romantic love Reversal grid intoxication

The gift of being in love

Coming Home to Self through the untangling of Romantic love Reversal grid intoxication,

In this treatise, I will attempt to explain how the seduction of  romantic love can be a major catalyst for achieving deeper soul union within the self.  As the pathway to the internal sun has been so badly damaged, romantic love provides a way for the self to reach out from within separation to itself through a soul uniting catalyst and give itself the map home to union.

Those who carry within them the seduction architecture have the power to magnetize the experience of being ones highest object of desire. This, if we use it consciously and with awareness, can be a great gift to our own evolution. If we get fixated on the messenger and fail to receive the message, it can be the cause of great suffering.  You see, this projection of desire for union is just that, a projection. In order to receive the gift, we must retrieve the projection and use it to call our own DNA back into sacred union!

Being in love, in a very real way, provides a scaffolding upon which to rehabilitate ones own DNA. Although the attachment and investment evoked from the emotional body can feel like bondage, there feels to be a higher purpose for this stretching process. This dynamic has the power to inspire, to draw out, to cause the impulse to become something more. In its immature form, manifesting as romantic love addiction, it can harness the attention of the masses to worship a charismatic leader and become enslaved and hypnotized to give all power of ones self away. In the case of romantic love, it can cause one to become a blithering idiot kissing the feet of the unattainable other, while completely abandoning the self.

However, in its mature form, this seduction archetype has the awesome power to actually return one to full empowerment within the self. It becomes the stronghold for the rope that enables the one in matter to pull itself up into resurrection of its DNA configured into its original self love!  It is Sophia buried deep within the earth reaching up and out to resurrect her own body from underneath the shackles of planetary miasm and veils of dead light. The love object causes a lassoing of a destination vibration upon which Sophia can tie the rope with which she rises to stand. And so this must be how being in love is a great gift!  

In my own personal life, if this projection is emanating from out of my core, the challenge is to heal the distortions within me that are currently blocking me from being able to drink from my own essence.

Is the one who carries this archetype not acting as a great surrogate conductor for the anatomy of vibrant life alive in bliss, like a magnificent orchestra in which all instruments are fully online and playing their highest role to uplift this marvelous human organism? This catalyst is somehow endowed with the power to cause the sleeping orchestra members to rise from sleep and come fully into action in their quintessential state of unified potential.

Are we not awaiting the critical mass light code activation that will awaken the orchestral instruments within us to begin to come alive as the great symphony of the achievement of self loving self within earth?

But, then, in their absence, the music falls. The players descend back into sleep. But not entirely, for now the genetic code has the information, the map back to that potential. And though it will take grief and trembling, and cracking open, the pathway will be found to anchor in that state of union within self.  And then that marvelous symphony in us rises to play all on its own! What a marvelous catalyst of evolution is romantic love! I have been through it 24 times. Each time it has delivered me to a greater state of integration. I bow at the feet of this amazing journey even through all of the tears and the heart wrenching emotional roller coaster, sometimes it has felt like too much for me to bear, to be given the glimpse of this field that is so fully alive while I have felt so disconnected inside. I have felt I would go mad! It is no wonder that my higher self has sent these catalysts of the unity field into my life fulfilling the need, the deep need of my soul to map the way home to this living field alive in joy and celebration. This glimpse of self that is loving itself is like a window opening to allow the penetration of the sun's glorious rays into an otherwise, rather shadow-filled room. 

The grid of Transposition: message to the self through the beloved

In you, I am given faith in the possibility of my becoming. The seduction sun of you is a gift, even though it is love externally focused, the false magnet of seduction is truly the only way for the DNA formed in separation configuration to receive a map and in a sense receive the imprint of soul union within. It does the job to show the DNA it's way home to its healed configuration. ( I know now that this is the union of the mitochondrial messenger RNA. As the anti life forces placed within us gender splitting technology to block the masculine side and feminine side of the RNA from connecting with each other with itself thus inhibiting the production of proteins that enable for the architecture that enables full soul embodiment.) So the "drug" of Romantic love or any other mind altering drug for that matter, has the potential to transport one beyond this gender splitting apparatus and into deep states of union, providing the map back to union. Full communication across the RNA is our divine birthright! And so I celebrate how my soul is activated by all of these love objects, calling me into rising because I was not able to possess each one of you not because I was.

So hail to the amazing power of Romantic Love!!!!