Hello, and the captains log entry for today is mainly about feeling very disconnected. Feeling like I'm floating in space with nothing tethering me. i suppose it could be a pleasant situation but that is not how it is coming in through my filters. i feel quite sad and lost in this floating space like Major Tom when he has lost connection to the earth base, and he begins hurling toward Earth. Last week Thursday April 22- Tuesday the 27th, it was like the fall of a civilization within me, so much die off, so much letting go! Then after the massive weeping and de-toxing into surrender the waste was carried away like magic and the ground was completely barren waiting for the new to come. And on Tuesday morning I felt the beginnings, the first scaffolding of an edifice of light installed on the new ground. That was exciting, but now, today, there is a sense of absolute nothingness that is unsettling. Anyone else feeling this?
Let's stay connected. What a wild ride. Maybe it is just an absence of things pulling at my attention. Perhaps I should be grateful for the lack of drama.
Until Next....love and blessings
Friday, April 30, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Bravers of the impassable code
So it is a time for the changing of hands, what has been well kept inside the city of fear is now being delivered unto the land of love. WE, the restorers of the code of the human angel, have braved the city of the night. We have come and laid our bodie's our very lives upon the grid of separation and fear, we have air-lifted provisions from the land of love to fortify us in the depth of battle, we have grown our base of love more and more from within this land, and now it is time for the penetration of the night sky itself that liberates us once and for all, and transforms the nature of the substance of the veil of fear itself for all who will come after.
I realize now, that many do not relate to my story, my particular experience, but perhaps some reading this do. Many are playing the role of holding a genetic code that is passable enough, love based enough, that they can live in this amazingly compromised expression of life that we see here on planet earth especially in our western society of fragmented structures, enslaved economy, school systems that farm us off for 6 hours a day, jobs that farm us off while the sun is awake and deliver us at dusk. If the inner state of the DNA is passable, one can be trained and raised to live complacent in this reality, but if the state of the DNA is severely damaged, one cannot live within this compromised system. One must give their whole energy to seed a world that reflects the unity and the love that is alive inside the shattered code. At our core, we, human beings have an exquisitely beautiful GEnetic code aligned with love and sovereignty and co-creatorship with all of existence. Before the massacre of our code, we lived as outbreaths of God in great concert with the music of existence, the music of life. Those of us who have come to brave the impassable code, carry this awakened song memory within us and it fuels us through the darkest of the night. It fuels us to keep persevering until we have penetrated the night sky of fear with our very bodie's.
My trip to Joshua tree retreat to the "Celebrate your Light" retreat was my way of saying that no matter how strong the fear comes, I will persevere in the face of it, and I will live to stand on the other side of it. Now, it is the final separation from my birth mother's karmic placental soup, to extricate myself from all that has gone before in limitation, and to stand as a citizen of the world of love based reality. Deep in the night, under my own loving hands, I work on the mending of the fracture, bringing cellular repair along the line of my solar plexus, the line of the great war.
I am remembering myself as an integral part of the matrix of life, the matrix of the remembered light body of the earth and all the cosmos as it was before the interference. Ahhhh, yes, but no matter how badly shattered and severed the genetic code of the human angel, it is still the genetic code of the human angel: and when enough of it is intact, fear is vaporized by its essence. Nearly 27 years now of the great work to remember the code, and I am having glimpses of just who this human angel is and what it feels like to live as this living light code. Hold onto your suspenders everyone. WE are so much more than we now know ourselves to be. Think the size of the stay puff man in the movie "Ghost Busters" and you are getting closer.
Blessings to all whether immersed in the passable code that will become more and more glorious or the ones immersed in the inpassable code: May you have great strength and perseverence to penetrate your night sky and stand as love once again. I am with you. And guess what? The code is not impassable. The Jail bars have their limit. Thank God, but they do give you quite a run for the money.
I realize now, that many do not relate to my story, my particular experience, but perhaps some reading this do. Many are playing the role of holding a genetic code that is passable enough, love based enough, that they can live in this amazingly compromised expression of life that we see here on planet earth especially in our western society of fragmented structures, enslaved economy, school systems that farm us off for 6 hours a day, jobs that farm us off while the sun is awake and deliver us at dusk. If the inner state of the DNA is passable, one can be trained and raised to live complacent in this reality, but if the state of the DNA is severely damaged, one cannot live within this compromised system. One must give their whole energy to seed a world that reflects the unity and the love that is alive inside the shattered code. At our core, we, human beings have an exquisitely beautiful GEnetic code aligned with love and sovereignty and co-creatorship with all of existence. Before the massacre of our code, we lived as outbreaths of God in great concert with the music of existence, the music of life. Those of us who have come to brave the impassable code, carry this awakened song memory within us and it fuels us through the darkest of the night. It fuels us to keep persevering until we have penetrated the night sky of fear with our very bodie's.
My trip to Joshua tree retreat to the "Celebrate your Light" retreat was my way of saying that no matter how strong the fear comes, I will persevere in the face of it, and I will live to stand on the other side of it. Now, it is the final separation from my birth mother's karmic placental soup, to extricate myself from all that has gone before in limitation, and to stand as a citizen of the world of love based reality. Deep in the night, under my own loving hands, I work on the mending of the fracture, bringing cellular repair along the line of my solar plexus, the line of the great war.
I am remembering myself as an integral part of the matrix of life, the matrix of the remembered light body of the earth and all the cosmos as it was before the interference. Ahhhh, yes, but no matter how badly shattered and severed the genetic code of the human angel, it is still the genetic code of the human angel: and when enough of it is intact, fear is vaporized by its essence. Nearly 27 years now of the great work to remember the code, and I am having glimpses of just who this human angel is and what it feels like to live as this living light code. Hold onto your suspenders everyone. WE are so much more than we now know ourselves to be. Think the size of the stay puff man in the movie "Ghost Busters" and you are getting closer.
Blessings to all whether immersed in the passable code that will become more and more glorious or the ones immersed in the inpassable code: May you have great strength and perseverence to penetrate your night sky and stand as love once again. I am with you. And guess what? The code is not impassable. The Jail bars have their limit. Thank God, but they do give you quite a run for the money.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
the petrie dish of becoming
I'm realizing right now I feel like a petrie dish of scattered non descript fragments of Genetic material. And my task is just to breathe love into the mass, and continue one foot in front of the other to grow it into a living self sustaining organism. I feel like I myself am this organism and my love in every moment gives me the juice to proceed with the next moment. There is nothing in my external life to hold onto. It's like I have to create the womb for this pre-self organism all on my own, or rather with creator, I get to behold it's becoming and have faith when it all feels so empty. It is quite a challenge to keep going sometimes and to keep believing.
But we do as we keep breathing the sweet breath of life when we stop to let the sweet oxygen in to revive us. The oxygen of the now moment unfettered by the what ifs of lack and fear, just present in the enoughness of the breath of now.
But we do as we keep breathing the sweet breath of life when we stop to let the sweet oxygen in to revive us. The oxygen of the now moment unfettered by the what ifs of lack and fear, just present in the enoughness of the breath of now.
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